What you should NOT do while reading this book: Let your friends drag you out to the new J-Lo movie right smack in the middle of the story. Also, do not go to a theatre that does not serve alcohol in their screening rooms, and if you do, don't forget your flask, like I did, so you won't be forced to chug a glass of rose in 5 minutes in the lounge. If you find yourself in this situation, you will be thinking about this book whilst trying to focus on Jenny from the block manoeuvre her way through a huge life lie. Also, choose your seats wisely so you don't end up sitting next to a middle aged couple who start fighting 20 minutes in and the wife leaves in a huff yelling "GIVE ME MY PHONE!" (he does not give her the phone). You will miss the alcohol you so very much need to get through this movie, but you will also silently weep in the darkened theatre, wondering what happens next with Rebecca and Sabine.
This book....THIS BOOK. This story has many layers and so much depth that I am always seeking in lesfic. We see the continuation of "Ask, Tell" and are privy to personal and private moments between a loving couple that are doing all they can to heal fractures from war. This book was all set in the states though, no war scenes, however deals with Sabine's struggles with reintegrating into "normal" life, dealing with PTSD.
I work in mental health, and I commend the author for her great care at writing about this subject. Sabine's struggles with wanting to heal herself through therapy alone, without medications was so very real. The added voices of her sister and parents give dialogue to Sabine's character and personality growing up, her strong will and wanting to excel and be perfect in all she does, so it is fully believable that she would act this way. It wasn't just a stubborn "no meds I'm tough" stance, it went well beyond that mentality.
Rebecca....I think she is one of my favourite lesfic characters. She remains calm, caring, supportive and loving throughout. She cracks at times, who wouldn't? But her devotion and loyalty is clear. I'm sure we have all had moments where we feel utterly helpless when faced with something we cannot fix, and Ms. Noyes handles her character brilliantly. Also, shout out to Amy! Haha, I wish she had more play because I liked her scenes so much. In fact all of the secondary characters were strong.
Throughout this complex, emotional story there are still great moments of intimacy, which the author does extremely well. It's not just about sex, which the two desperately want but have to work at (but trust me, when it happens, daaaammmmmnnnnnn...), but also the cuddles, touches, gazes, which add such a beautiful aspect to the story.
Thank you thank you thank you, Ms. Noyes, for yet another unforgettable read. This one will stay with me for a long time. Unlike the J-Lo movie, which is already grey and fuzzy.