Notes Before Death: Three Essays

by Andy Nowicki

"I began this essay--which I have dashed off in a fretful compulsion over the course of a fortnight-- compelled by an instinctive conviction that, at the age of 44, my earthly life was near its conclusion. I was not sure—and I remain unsure—if this morbid intimation were based upon an accurate apprehension of impending death, or a kind of premature thanatos-thirst on my part. That is to say, I didn’t know—and still don’t know—if I feel the avid approach of the Reaper due to an accurate sense of him truly being near… or merely out of a WISH that he were nigh. Nor can I say for certain which of these scenarios is, properly speaking, more that death could possibly be closing in, or that I in fact WANT death to be near. What I can state without reservation, what I must in fact insist upon asserting, in the interest of honesty, is that I have lately experienced a death wish to an extent that is unprecedented in my personal experience." Includes three Essays by Andy "Notes Before Death" "The Suffering God and the Culture of Death" "The Street Hardly Understands"

62 pages, Paperback

First published April 16, 2015