A Lady’s Revenge by @authorediecay was basically the gift I’ve always wanted to give myself in a book.
Lydia was raped when she was 10 by people after they bet her virginity in a faro game so that they could be treated for the pox.
Lydia processes her anxiety and trauma through boxing, or pugilism, England’s favorite sport. It’s not known that she practices the sport because she’s a proper lady.
Enter John Arthur, a champion fighter, and an expert at the stock market. He’s rich, he’s strong, he’s good looking — but he comes from the slums and nothing is going to change that. He desperately wants it to change so that his sister can make a good match. This isn’t a feel good rags to riches story - John bumbles through his opportunities to mingle with the aristocrats, with a lot of self loathing and confusion mixed in. John is a real gem of a character, a kindhearted thinker whose optimism really balances out Lydia’s darkness.
Lydia — How I loved her wounded heart and her search for strength, her passion for her sport, and plotting for revenge, her feelings and emotions locked up inside for fear of more pain. Her curiosity about what things would be like without her baggage.
John and Lydia meet by accident. They see each other by accident and find themselves in each other’s orbit. This book has a wistful quality, a palpable yearning pull from both of them toward each other, both knowing it’s really impossible to be together, but stubbornly doing it anyway. They stare at each other from across the room, and lustily daydream about each other. They touch hands and lose focus, and John even agrees to train Lydia to fight even though he’s going to internally combust breathing around her. It’s physical, it’s emotional, but it’s definitely not smutty.
I loved this book. There’s a revenge plot that I don’t want to spoil, and many side characters that help in this endeavor that I found charming.