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The first time Andrew realizes he wants to hear the words, Neil isn’t even doing anything. He’s just sitting there, staring at the horizon with that stupidly dramatic faraway expression of his, and letting the cigarette burn down between his fingers all the way to the filter — an outrageous waste of good nicotine, if you asked Andrew.
(Or: 20+ times Andrew and Neil say I love you, and one time they say it out loud.)
Words: 61862
(Or: 20+ times Andrew and Neil say I love you, and one time they say it out loud.)
Words: 61862
- GenresRomanceFan FictionLGBT
229 pages, ebook
Published January 1, 2017
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December 26, 2022
1st read: 5 / 5 ★
2nd read: 1000000000000000000000 / 5 ★
3rd read: amazing.
just what i needed. this will probably never fail to make me sob
everything i ever wanted. the best andreil fanfic ever. idk if this counts as a book or not, but this is now my favourite thing ever. i will never get over this and i will be rereading this every single time i'm sad or i have a bad day. andrew and neil are my all time favourite book couple <3 i love them and i love this fanfic so much. this made me cry out of happiness in the middle of my math class
2nd read: 1000000000000000000000 / 5 ★
3rd read: amazing.
just what i needed. this will probably never fail to make me sob
everything i ever wanted. the best andreil fanfic ever. idk if this counts as a book or not, but this is now my favourite thing ever. i will never get over this and i will be rereading this every single time i'm sad or i have a bad day. andrew and neil are my all time favourite book couple <3 i love them and i love this fanfic so much. this made me cry out of happiness in the middle of my math class
October 11, 2020
This is the fanfic we never knew we needed. It's a 60k word character study all told from Andrew's perspective. Pure Andriel content.
I wasn't prepared for how raw and emotional it became. I loved how she wrote Andrew -- for Andrew to let himself be close to anyone is so important and it was well represented in this. We see an intense amount of introspection, inner conflict, and emphasizing. I loved seeing how hard Andrew tries and his set-backs and progress along the way. I loved seeing him look closely at all of the ugly and try to work through those moments in order to see the softer things in his relationship with Neil. I am blown away by how well done this is. It was beautifully written.
The author acknowledges that this strays a little from cannon/extra content but her characterizations were so well done that it didn't matter!
I wasn't prepared for how raw and emotional it became. I loved how she wrote Andrew -- for Andrew to let himself be close to anyone is so important and it was well represented in this. We see an intense amount of introspection, inner conflict, and emphasizing. I loved seeing how hard Andrew tries and his set-backs and progress along the way. I loved seeing him look closely at all of the ugly and try to work through those moments in order to see the softer things in his relationship with Neil. I am blown away by how well done this is. It was beautifully written.
The author acknowledges that this strays a little from cannon/extra content but her characterizations were so well done that it didn't matter!
December 13, 2022
60k andriel fanfic: all for the game
i am so emotional and empty and fragile rn no one speak to me /lh
this fic was absolutely amazing and one of the best i've read. andrew, neil, and their relationship was so in character and idgaf this is canon now because i said so. god i love the fact that gay people exist LMFAO anyway i am probably gonna go make an andriel playlist and read that one fic where it's all the aftg books from andrew's perspective soon. just... if you're an aftg fan, please read this.
read: march 21, 2022 - march 21, 2022
i am so emotional and empty and fragile rn no one speak to me /lh
this fic was absolutely amazing and one of the best i've read. andrew, neil, and their relationship was so in character and idgaf this is canon now because i said so. god i love the fact that gay people exist LMFAO anyway i am probably gonna go make an andriel playlist and read that one fic where it's all the aftg books from andrew's perspective soon. just... if you're an aftg fan, please read this.
read: march 21, 2022 - march 21, 2022
September 2, 2024
nora sakavic wishes she wrote this
April 22, 2022
I think from the millions fanfics I’ve read this one is my favorite. so here we have me overanalyzing this fanfic, because she means the world to me.
The laughter dies out, thought, when it occurs to him that for him, this is it. There won’t be anything after this.
Seeing where Andrew left off on the last book and read this fanfic is one of this things that makes my heart warm. He grew up, he's growing up and hasn't changed, he's just in a better and safer place.
This is it, Andrew thinks, and it’s no longer such a frightening thought
For me this fanfic is the most accurate, in characterization, in the way it describes situations, how they deal with them, and and feelings. It's the passage of time where andrew goes from “this is nothing” to “this is everything. it's my finish line” and I think it is the most beautiful thing in the world.
Fuck people saying he'll never get to heal completely. he gets better. he accepts neil and lets him in and this is proof.
This fanfic can best deny what Some People said about andrew never getting better, them not saying i love you and them never getting married.
What about the parts that don't directly involve neil and andrew and the relationship? Oh god. He manages to show gratitude, the best way andrew can show it to someone, to nicky, bee, and wymack. I swear to god idk why i'm crying so much.
This part:
”Your boyfriend” Aaron says and Andrew doesn’t miss the distaste in his voice.
“That’s not what Neil is” Andrew tells him calmly, his eyes back on the ceiling.
“Your soulmate, then.” Aaron says, and Andrew briefly considers how fitting it is that Aaron is the only one to realize that Andrew doesn’t refer to Neil as his boyfriend not because the word is too big, but because it’s too small.
Says a lot about Aaron and Andrew relationship. Aaron understands andrew in a special way, he may not understand traumas and he’s defense mechanisms, he may not know how and why andrew acts the way he acts, but he understands andrew in a way that no one can.(maybe neil.)
So them getting better and having a healthy relationship is what makes me sincerely happy.
And to get even better, we just don’t only get to see andrew accepting neil. but seeing neil accepting that andrew is his forever, him choosing Andrew, choosing to stay, even when his extinct screamed for him to run.
”I don’t not really” Neil says quietly. “Haven’t for a very long time. From here, maybe, but never from you.”
They built a home in each other and oh god. I’m sobbing.
Two vowels. Two consonants.
Home, Andrew thinks,
Hope.
Neil.
The laughter dies out, thought, when it occurs to him that for him, this is it. There won’t be anything after this.
Seeing where Andrew left off on the last book and read this fanfic is one of this things that makes my heart warm. He grew up, he's growing up and hasn't changed, he's just in a better and safer place.
This is it, Andrew thinks, and it’s no longer such a frightening thought
For me this fanfic is the most accurate, in characterization, in the way it describes situations, how they deal with them, and and feelings. It's the passage of time where andrew goes from “this is nothing” to “this is everything. it's my finish line” and I think it is the most beautiful thing in the world.
Fuck people saying he'll never get to heal completely. he gets better. he accepts neil and lets him in and this is proof.
This fanfic can best deny what Some People said about andrew never getting better, them not saying i love you and them never getting married.
What about the parts that don't directly involve neil and andrew and the relationship? Oh god. He manages to show gratitude, the best way andrew can show it to someone, to nicky, bee, and wymack. I swear to god idk why i'm crying so much.
This part:
”Your boyfriend” Aaron says and Andrew doesn’t miss the distaste in his voice.
“That’s not what Neil is” Andrew tells him calmly, his eyes back on the ceiling.
“Your soulmate, then.” Aaron says, and Andrew briefly considers how fitting it is that Aaron is the only one to realize that Andrew doesn’t refer to Neil as his boyfriend not because the word is too big, but because it’s too small.
Says a lot about Aaron and Andrew relationship. Aaron understands andrew in a special way, he may not understand traumas and he’s defense mechanisms, he may not know how and why andrew acts the way he acts, but he understands andrew in a way that no one can.(maybe neil.)
So them getting better and having a healthy relationship is what makes me sincerely happy.
And to get even better, we just don’t only get to see andrew accepting neil. but seeing neil accepting that andrew is his forever, him choosing Andrew, choosing to stay, even when his extinct screamed for him to run.
”I don’t not really” Neil says quietly. “Haven’t for a very long time. From here, maybe, but never from you.”
They built a home in each other and oh god. I’m sobbing.
Two vowels. Two consonants.
Home, Andrew thinks,
Hope.
Neil.
August 18, 2021
gay people are real, stay safe out there
August 26, 2021
this is the best thing i've ever read inthesea i owe you my life thank you so much for everything. Nora Sakavic wishes.
February 18, 2025
Edit: 02/18/25
If I die, bury me with this fic
Yeah, I’m gonna count this. You know why?? IT WAS LITERALLY OVER 60K WORDS.
This is honestly one of the most beautiful works I’ve ever read. I have never seen someone write Andrew and Neil so accurate before. I know Nora said they never say I love you or get married, but the writer of this made it seem so realistic and natural as those things happened. It made my heart so happy and there’s a reason this is the best fic on the market. If you like AFTG, I highly recommend giving this a try. It’s not a disappointment and feels so in character.
If I die, bury me with this fic
Yeah, I’m gonna count this. You know why?? IT WAS LITERALLY OVER 60K WORDS.
This is honestly one of the most beautiful works I’ve ever read. I have never seen someone write Andrew and Neil so accurate before. I know Nora said they never say I love you or get married, but the writer of this made it seem so realistic and natural as those things happened. It made my heart so happy and there’s a reason this is the best fic on the market. If you like AFTG, I highly recommend giving this a try. It’s not a disappointment and feels so in character.
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July 22, 2020Needed a little pick me up because I'm in a terrible reading slump, and what's better than an Andreil 60k+ word fanfic with a happy ending?
I stayed up until 5AM to finish this and I think that says more than any full review I could write.
It was so well-written and everyone felt very in character! I had so much fun! Highly recommend!
I stayed up until 5AM to finish this and I think that says more than any full review I could write.
It was so well-written and everyone felt very in character! I had so much fun! Highly recommend!
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September 8, 2021i do this to myself.
January 18, 2025
the only post-canon ending for the foxes i'll accept thank u and good bye.
March 29, 2023
don’t mind me just bawling my eyes out over a silly little fanfic.
July 9, 2023
someone put me on suicide watch
June 5, 2023
Es lo mejor que leí en mi maldita vida
May 19, 2025
LLORÉ BRILLITOS
July 19, 2025
do Not talk to me
i cannot believe the very best fic ive ever read IS FOR THIS FUCKING SERIES. I WILL NEVER BE FREE
also yes fuck you all it COUNTS as a book IT WAS 60k
i cannot believe the very best fic ive ever read IS FOR THIS FUCKING SERIES. I WILL NEVER BE FREE
also yes fuck you all it COUNTS as a book IT WAS 60k
March 6, 2023
this is canon to me now
February 5, 2023
meu DSUS vou me matr
eu Não estou pronta pra largar o andrew e o neil
eu Não estou pronta pra largar o andrew e o neil
December 6, 2023
yes i read this in one sitting, neil&andrew are real soulmates and an addiction i can't escape. andrew's inner monologue was everything i needed, (only critique is i don't know if this character is 100% accurate but i still love him)
March 2, 2022
crying and screaming and vomiting and throwing up and dy ing and ripping my hair out es lo más hermoso que vas a leer en tu puta vida, no lo puedo creer, que obra de arte 😭
no me esperaba para nada que fuera tan intenso, emocional, básicamente hermoso. escrito de una manera tan precisa y real, todo lo que pasaba por la cabeza de andrew a cada paso que daban, me tuvo secándome las lágrimas cada tres páginas, so. damn. good.
ver el crecimiento de dos personajes a los que tanto amé (y amo) fue un mimo al alma.
no sé si en algún momento voy a poder explicar todo lo que me hizo sentir su historia, pero no hay dudas de que me hizo el ser más feliz del mundo.
creo que lloré en todos los capítulos, tengo literalmente 94884847279 highlights en kindle, fue todo lo que necesitaba y muchísimo más, no lo supero. la persona que me recomendó esto se merece el cielo <333 😭
no me esperaba para nada que fuera tan intenso, emocional, básicamente hermoso. escrito de una manera tan precisa y real, todo lo que pasaba por la cabeza de andrew a cada paso que daban, me tuvo secándome las lágrimas cada tres páginas, so. damn. good.
ver el crecimiento de dos personajes a los que tanto amé (y amo) fue un mimo al alma.
no sé si en algún momento voy a poder explicar todo lo que me hizo sentir su historia, pero no hay dudas de que me hizo el ser más feliz del mundo.
creo que lloré en todos los capítulos, tengo literalmente 94884847279 highlights en kindle, fue todo lo que necesitaba y muchísimo más, no lo supero. la persona que me recomendó esto se merece el cielo <333 😭
February 5, 2023
them them them them them. this was everything. their communication, their love and respect for each other, and the way just understand each other perfectly without even having to say anything: soulmates💗
quotes that give me life: 🤲🏻🫠🥹
“Even with his perfect memory, Andrew can’t possibly recall how many kisses they’ve shared by now, and it infuriates him to no end that each and every one of them feels just as intoxicating.”
“This,” he says, through clenched teeth, using his chin to gesture between them, “has never been nothing.”
“What would you protect me from?” Andrew asks him idly.
“Anything,” Neil says without hesitation. “Everything.”
“Andrew doesn't refer to Neil as his boyfriend not because the word is too big, but because it's too small”
“Threat, threat, threat_ , Andrew’s mind sang when he saw Neil for the first time. Now, more often than not, it hums, _Home_.”
quotes that give me life: 🤲🏻🫠🥹
“Even with his perfect memory, Andrew can’t possibly recall how many kisses they’ve shared by now, and it infuriates him to no end that each and every one of them feels just as intoxicating.”
“This,” he says, through clenched teeth, using his chin to gesture between them, “has never been nothing.”
“What would you protect me from?” Andrew asks him idly.
“Anything,” Neil says without hesitation. “Everything.”
“Andrew doesn't refer to Neil as his boyfriend not because the word is too big, but because it's too small”
“Threat, threat, threat_ , Andrew’s mind sang when he saw Neil for the first time. Now, more often than not, it hums, _Home_.”
June 16, 2024
Andriel son mi cosa favorita de AFTG, y este fanfic retrata todas esos matices de los personajes y por eso me encanta tanto. La confianza, que se cocina a fuego lento junto a otras cosas, es simplemente maravillosa. Pero el hecho de que sea desde la perspectiva de Andrew, eso lo hace aún más emocionante (no creo que sea la palabra, pero funciona) y nos permite adentrarnos más en su cabeza. Así me imagino yo a Andrew, así que fue bueno poder leerlo. Me encanta esta historia, en un día me la acabe.
September 12, 2021
This is a Andrew and Neil fanfic I knew I needed but didn’t expect to love so dang much!
December 21, 2021
I love this
January 20, 2022
I genuinely think I felt every second of this, and scenes are just on constant replay in my head.
Absolutely in awe, this is the comfort post-Canon fanfic content I didn't know I needed
Absolutely in awe, this is the comfort post-Canon fanfic content I didn't know I needed
February 28, 2022
yea it's a fic, but it was long.. v good tho
March 17, 2022
inject this into my veins
i think about this everyday
i think about this everyday
March 20, 2022
How is this not cannon?
THE BEST FKN THING I'VE EVER READ ❤️
THE BEST FKN THING I'VE EVER READ ❤️
June 27, 2022
OH MY GOD 😭
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