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A If I Break (Her) Story.

Kam
I didn’t know who I was falling in love with when I met her. I didn’t know the chaos that she’d create, the way she’d upend my life. I didn’t know that my sweet, innocent angel had a devil on her shoulder. But now she’s giving me something more—she’s giving me the family I always wanted.
And I’m not letting her devil take it away.

Ian
I lost her. My girl, the other side of my coin. I thought she was gone forever. But then she came back to me…changed. Different. But still someone I could love.
Now she wants me to let her go again. But it’s not just her anymore.
Megan
My whole life I’ve been making compromises to satisfy her. I’ve been living in pieces, and I’m done.
Everyone thinks they know who I am, what’s best for me. But it’s starting to feel like no one really knows me anymore.
So I’m going to make the best decision I can… for us.

253 pages, Kindle Edition

Published April 14, 2020

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Portia Moore

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Portia Moore is an Amazon and iBooks bestselling author of romantic suspense, including the popular If I Break series, the Her series, and the Collided series, which combined have sold over one million copies across all platforms. Located in the chilly Midwest, her favorite vacations are anywhere that's hot and sunny with a beach, reading the same kind of heart-pounding, twisty, edge-of-your seat romantic thrillers that she loves to write. When that's not possible, she loves drinking wine, cooking (also with wine) and spending time with her little family of one human child and two furbabies, one that barks and one that meows.

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1,770 reviews70 followers
April 24, 2020
This is not the end. There’s another book coming this summer.

Honestly, the longer this story goes on, the more I dislike every single character. I wasn’t a fan of Ian or Alana from the start. Now I’m not a fan of Megan or Kam’s. I don’t even like Blue as much now. I have no idea how this story could possibly end in a happily ever after.
329 reviews2 followers
April 17, 2020
Three stars is a little bit of a stretch. I love Portia and her books but lately (not sure if it’s just me) they have felt super repetitive and redundant. I wish she would write something new, even the Collided Series was a nice change of pace for her. I will keep reading but Kam is super annoying and so is Meghan whining after him. Hoping this series ends well and hoping the next book isn’t like reading each chapter twice the whole way through.
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4 reviews
July 10, 2020
I hate Megan and Kam. Megan is so selfish and such a hypocrite. And honestly, maybe I couldn't understand considering her predicament but where is Alana??? So frustrating and annoying and I am so annoyed and furious with her. And then there is the self righteous Kam. Boy do I also want to punch him. Ian infuriates me even more as to what he wants in the end. Why would he want to end up with Stupid Megan???? How could he live past all the shitty things she's been doing. Always sacrificing him so she could live in her illusions. Her toxic love life with Kam, faking to maintain something that doesn't exist.
The writing is fine. The storyline was dramatic enough but the frustration and annoyance I have swallowed through this book makes me give it one star. The last book however gives me hope that all this will fix up.
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43 reviews1 follower
June 18, 2020
Need more!

I need closure and need Ian and Alana to get their happy ending!!! My anxiety is to the roof!!! I need more!
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401 reviews7 followers
April 18, 2020
I'm rooting for Ian!!!

I want Ian, to be the father of Megan/Alana's baby. He's suffered enough. Kam, is an ass. He won't accept Megan/Alana, as a whole. I'm hoping that on his way out of town with Megan, Alana, shows up and takes over. Because no way in hell would Kam, be able to handle her. Megan, is a total emotional mess right now. She's letting Kam takes advantage of her emotional state. How will Ian, finds them now. Where did Kam take her? Will Blue able to track them down? I cannot wait to read the next book "YOURS". But now I have to wait until the Summer. Please let it be sooner!😁😮
5 reviews
April 16, 2020
Nail biting & heart wrenching

First off, I love all the books by Portia!!! I am literally on the edge of my seat reading. The characters come alive and so very real that I cry with them or for them, whether it is joyful or sad tears. I love the way she writes, I waa captivated from the beginning.
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October 1, 2025
I was frustrated that there was not consistency through out the books. One book ian has moved into a new house, next he is living in his old house that he lived in with Alana. There just seemed to be a lot of plot holes. I feel like it’s a really good book, and honestly worth the read but I wish Portia would go back and correct all the mistakes.
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23 reviews
April 20, 2020
I’m dying to know what happens next! You’re killing me! This series has kept me on the edge of my seat since the first page! You get all the stars!!!
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446 reviews1 follower
June 2, 2020
bueno pues a esperar...pensé que éste era el final y no, al parecer habrá otro más.
Mucho drama pero así son los libros de Portia... esperando con ansia el último
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72 reviews10 followers
August 25, 2020
A page turner to the end like all the prior books. Left off with a cliff hanger! Looking forward to the next book release to see how this love triangle goes.
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425 reviews1 follower
October 9, 2021
Llevo 20 Pag y siento innecesario ciertos narradores
Así q otro libro ….
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1,033 reviews3 followers
September 20, 2022
I love it. The story line is fantastic. I can't wait to see if Kam is really the father.
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1,238 reviews24 followers
January 17, 2021
I liked this novel, but it was the least that I’ve liked in the series. I don’t want to say too much since it is part of series, but I was incredibly frustrated with Megan throughout the story. She’s unwilling to compromise with Alana or listen to her therapist’s advice. She’s living her life like she doesn’t even have DID. I always liked Megan in the previous instalments, but I didn’t know she could be so stubborn. I didn’t like Kam either. He’s not willing to accept Alana and is just along with whatever Megan wants.

The only characters that I sympathized with were Ian and Blue. Ian is the right person for Megan/Alana. He’s willing to love every part of her, and it’s clear that he has feelings for Megan as well. I also have a soft spot in my heart for Blue. He's a kind and supportive person. He shouldn't have gotten as much blame as he did. Kam is too rigid and controlling. I don't like him as a character anymore. Although, the person I'm frustrated with the most is Megan. I can’t wait to read the final instalment. The cliffhanger was crazy, and I was so anxious reading the conclusion. I hope the next one is released soon. My hope is early next year, but we’ll see.
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