I think I may have read too much of Reines.
Last spring when I was in Cambridge I saw Ariana Reines of all people on the street in front of St Johns. She looked confused and was lingering at a crossing, and this was gauche of me but I went up to her and said something I have since fortunately forgotten. She asked where Corpus Christi was, I think, and I had to tell her I had no idea.
There is this girl I know from college -- I wouldn't call her a friend; she is one of those prickly women, and I never know where I stand with her, and I say all this of course as the highest of compliments -- and she is now Ariana Reines' assistant apparently, and she said she would get me an ARC of this book back in April, and now the book is out, and still no ARC, though I did ask a perhaps gauche amount of times, so I had to buy it, and now I guess I won't be messaging her again ever probably.
Also I took a creative writing class with a writer who said she sensed an affinity between my writing and that of Reines, and I was like well yeah thats because I'm a fangirl, and she offered to intro me, but then she forgot.
So, several near brushes over the past year.
Then a couple weeks ago I went to a book launch-cum-solstice celebration in Los Angeles advertised as "The Time of the Spectacle Will Pass: A conversation about psychedelics, futurist ecologies, and the poetics of mediumship." A talk between Reines and Bett Williams, who just published a memoir about growing magic mushrooms. So, of course, there was a lot of shrooms talk. Some stuff was said about needing to approach the shrooms devotionally. This is probably better than approaching them fratly as a party drug, but also more annoying to hear people talk about, so bottom line is it really better??
Reines read her poem in Mercury about the curtain of jerky and the command from on high to buy lots of cattle and cause them to graze freely. Then, and this was the interesting part for me, Reines connected this to the research on desertification which suggests that wandering cattle actually prevent desertification, because they shit and trample seeds everywhere. Which is how all this connects to the "sand" book.
And in another instance of odd closeness: in the room waiting for the solstice talk to begin, I sat and read a couple pages of Roberto Calasso's Ka, which is a book about Vedic mythology. The pages were describing a cloak that Prajapati teaches the gods to use to hide from death: the cloak is woven from all the equivalences that the mind sees in the world. These equivalences are immortal, where "I" am not, which is why "I" must learn them. Then during the event, Reines read from Mosaic, which she introduces as a revelation that was basically given unto/through her from on high -- the words are not her own, she says -- and one of the lines is "ANALOGY IS THE STRUCTURING PRINCIPLE OF THE UNIVERSE." It was uncanny to hear Reines just spouting aphoristically, with no citation or anything, this thing I had just read about from India's most ancient texts. Of course everyone has been saying this forever, it's not just Reines and the Vedas.
After the talk was over, I could have stayed to socialize with Reines and Williams and the twenty-odd attendees, but I didn't feel like it. Even as these random connections to her have accrued I wanted to keep distance.
Then when I started reading A Sand Book I felt uncomfortably close to it in some ways. I mean I had recently scribbled some stuff about rainbows and iridescence and peacocks, so I was kind of freaked out to see that emerge as a consistent theme throughout these poems. Also, I recently scribbled something about glottal stops, and what shows up several times in a poem? Glottal stops.
Reading too much into all this?
Mosaic also has: "MERCURY ALSO TEACHES 'I WANT TO BE LIKE' AND THE RISKS THAT GO WITH 'I WANT TO BE LIKE' TO TEACH US ABOUT THE PRINCIPLE OF LIKENESS THAT GOVERNS THE UNIVERSE."
Mercury, the god of messages and communication, of reading. To read something you have to become like it in some way. The risk of reading.
In the crowd at the solstice thing I saw so many frizzy-haired beglassed Hermione types like me who nodded emphatically at appropriate points and have clearly all assimilated into the Reines hivethink.
I think I may have read too much of Reines.