Cassidy Holmes is ‘Sassy Gloss’....
...the fourth member of the hottest pop group in America.
After a falling out with the group in which Cassidy was the main focus...
she has committed suicide.
Fifteen years ago, the three members of the group -
Rose, Merry, and Yumi - were considered Cassidy’s closest friends.
Each of the girls are shocked to learn about Cassidy’s death. They each wonder what they might have done differently- so Cassidy might not have taken her own life.
The story is told in multiple perspectives— including Cassidy through different timelines.
We get an inside look into the pop-icon world ... recordings, broadcastings, performing, anxieties about the tabloids, invitations to the Oscars, clothes, dieting, parties, the expensive lifestyle, drinking, drugs, secrets, lovers, and other challenges, stress, obligations, and expectationsthat come along with fame.
Cassidy says:
“Coming off stage, you’re aware of only a few things before the rest of the world starts returning. The bright lights has blinded you, and as the green cast fades from your vision, you see the ropes and pulleys, the unevenness in the floors, The crewmembers hiding in all- black outfits as they do their jobs. Moreover, your body feels as though it’s been infused with starlight, and the light leaks from your limbs and hands and eyes and mouth and little pinpricks, so if someone were looking directly at you, they’d see a constellation coming out of a silhouette. Slowly, you realize that the heat emanating from your body is the heat of the stage lights that has been absorbed into your hair and the dampness between your skin and your polyester outfit;
the sharp pain in your pinky toes as your feet pinch
downward in those uncomfortable stage shoes. Scent returns last; the air suddenly, inexplicably, creates a singed taste in the back of your throat, and everything smells a little bit cardboard and melted plastic.
You become aware of your face, contorted in a giant smile, so tense that it’s not just your mouth that is spread wide, but your eyebrows and ears are tense too”.
Early in the novel we get glimpses of Cassidy’s fragility.
Whether you think this book is about the music industry, or a troubled girl ...( it’s both by the way)....
we come to see, in the end, that the complexity of damaged souls are often misunderstood. Harsh lessons are learn.
What was most heartbreaking to me ... was realizing that lack of communication - doesn’t signify lack of love.
Love was infused with a deep appreciation for the hidden thorny troubles causing distress.
There is humor, charm, and wit...but also quiet hurting mixed with assumptions about the truth.
Author Elissa R. Sloan ( Texas-native-Japanese- American) - did a great job with this debut novel.
She understands the depths and layers - of broken souls.
She’s a wonderful young - newbie storyteller.
I’ll be interested to read her second book.