Time Out of Mind got me to really love the Leonard Michaels style of journal entries, and Shuffle has a bunch more of that, which is great. These entries range from aphoristic little nuggets to surprisingly personal reflections. Besides that, Shuffle is a bit of a hodge podge. There are a couple of longer personal essays and an early taste of what would become his novel Sylvia. There are a few moments that you might call "navel gazing" but Michaels can get away with that--because he's freakin' Leonard Michaels!
“‘Hold me,’ she whispered, then slept, her body fused along my side, breathing as I breathed. Ocean fell along the beach. I heard the god of night heaving a great sheet and hauling it back, and then heaving it again, trying to make his bed.” — “In 1960, after two years of graduate school at Berke-ley, I returned to New York without a Ph.D. or any idea what I'd do, only a desire to write stories. I'd also been to graduate school at the University of Michigan, from 1953 to 1956, which came to five years of classes in literature, and I wasn't a scholar or a writer or anything but an overspecialized man, twenty-seven years old, who could give no better account of himself than to say ‘I love to read.’ […] In a vague and happy way, I felt humored by the world, and whatever my predicament, I wasn't yet damaged by judgment, though I inflicted it on myself every minute. I had nothing else to do.” — “She had sliced her wrists superficially. She'd done it once before we met and was good at it. There was a little bleeding. There'd be no scars. She began picking at the food. I felt relieved, hopeful. She liked gefilte fish. It pleased me to see her eat. […] It was delicious, nothing to fight about, but she ate sullenly, as if conceding that there might be a reason to live.” — “In someone else, I'd consider my inability to get out contemptible and stupid, but she touched levels of aesthetic and sentimental disease in me. I'd think Sylvia's hysteria meant something I couldn't understand because I wasn't a good enough person, whereas she was a precious mechanism in which exceedingly fine springs and wheels had been brutally mangled. Anyhow, I was locked into some idea like that. I felt strong revulsion, but even as it became insufferable, it held me tighter. It would have been easy to leave her. Had it been difficult, I might have done it.” — “Naked in our drugged radio darkness, we turned to each other with a rush of gluey love and happiness. For months thereafter, we said affectionately, ‘You have missed the whole boat.’ Sylvia was sometimes high-spirited and funny, but it is easier to remember the bad times. They were more frequent and sensational; also less painful now than remembering what I loved.”
There are so many lines in this book that have just stuck. Heart-warming, heart-wrenching, amazingly in tune with reality then beautifully rendered to the reader.