When Cold meets hot, it melts!
This is a standalone about Edgar and Evaleen, that is also a part of the Cake Love series. As I said before, I started this series backwards. The first book I read was actually the last one in this series (The Spy Ring), and it got me hooked. And since that book I was curious about Edgar and Evaleen!
Then, when I read Rules of Payne, I got even more intrigued. but when I started to read it, it was even better than what I was expecting!
Edgar and Evaleen and polar opposite! She is serious, he is a player. She doesn't accept nonsense, he is laid-back. She is strict and hardly let people close, he is charming and flirting.
And even with all those differences, they are the perfect match.
They've been slow burning their feelings for a loooong time, without the other knowing, but everytime they get closer, they also get scared, and for so many different reasons.
Even though he is so relaxed, he actually hides deep feelings inside, and little by little, Evaleen begins to be the only one who can read him right.
For her, it was even harder. After bad things happening to her in the past, and after that past turbulating her life for so long, she gets to a point that very few people could understand.
"I hated what I had become. What I allowed all those men to turn me into. I could have been the sexy one. I could have been the fun one or the seet one or even the pretty one, but I'm the jaded one. The bitter woman no one wants to be best friends with, and no man wants to date."
And one of the sweetest things about this book, and one the things that made me love it so much, was that Edgar could really understand her. Not in a condescendent way. He got her. And when he couldn't understand, he was patient enough to let her shine and show in her own way and speed.
"You are the sexy one, Evaleen. You're the beautiful one, and the smart one. And no, you aren't the sweet one, but I love your spicy flavor."
It's mesmerizing for me how much I could relate to her. And I love when I get a character that deeply. It's like the booking is acuatlly talking to me.
She was this incredible woman, so strong, fierce and hard worker, people respected her and never could have thought abouth her secrets. But at the same time, she was vulnerable, insecure, resentful of life for so many things that got out of her control. And believe me, people might say she could have done differently, but I totally disagree. Her mind, her feelings, her fears and insecurities wouldn't let her do it any other way. And that doesn't make her weak.
The very opposite, it made her human, real. It made her the fighter she is on a daily basis, but that just can't handle some things, because she has the weight of the world on her back for so many other things.
She was incredible.
"You're everything I want and nothing I deserve, Evaleen. I know that. So, if you want to leave, I understand. But if you stay, I can't promise I won't beg for more than a kiss. I may beg for eveything if you let me."
Edgar, in his own player, funny, sexy way, he was just as real and vulnerable. He struggled with so many things and hid them so well, that no one would wonder he had demons and insecurities.
And one of the things he learned to be his saving grace, his anchor for support and understanding was exactly what Evaleen so relutanctly and fearfully was giving him.
"As my lips found hers it felt like coming home. I was lost in seconds because everything about her felt good. No, that wasn't it. It felt electric. Addictive. That there was nothing better than being in her arms."
They grew closer, they became friends, they were each other's support, they understood one another better than anyone else!
"I'll be your best friend, Evaleen."
That, right there, that sentence. It carried so much!
Anyone who read it might think he was putting her on the friend zone. But no. So Totally No. He was giving her everything in that moment. he was being the friend she never had.
Yes, she was growing closer and closer to Morgana, Aria and Tiffany. But he was standing his hand and giving more!
He was giving everything.
He was giving her a chance to be weak whe she needed. He was giving a shoulder to cry on, a hand to hold when she feels afraid, someone to understand her and support her, and someone to support her even when there was no understanding.
He was giving her his vulnerability, his loyalty, his understanding, his arms. He was giving her his heart.
"When you realize your heart has been captured, held hostage, you would race until your feet fell off to be with the person who held it. Not to ask for it back, but just to smile knowing your heart was where it belonged."
And she gave him hers right back!