I wish I'd had this book when I was a teen navigating all the cliques at school at the same time I was coming to terms with being queer. My high school career occurred around the same time (1999/2000), so We Were Promised Spotlights was particularly relatable for me.
Taylor is a product of her surroundings, her upbringing, her class, and for the majority of the book, she's only doing what she knows, what she's been taught. Being a mean popular girl is the only way she knows how to survive. In a small town where homosexuality isn't exactly a sin but is still a facet of personhood to be absolutely detested, Taylor knows how to get by without getting hurt.
But the problem is she’s always hurting, privately, deep down—because she’s hiding herself away, letting the outside world control her. She begins, slowly, to unravel, which in another story might be a bad thing; here, it’s the best thing that could happen to Taylor and what makes this a successful coming of age story.
I'm concerned by other reviews that detest the homophobia, fat shaming, etc. in the novel; that is real life. If you can't handle it in a fictional story, how do you understand queer life for young adults in the real world? This is the reality for so many kids—twenty years ago and now. Without the homophobia and fat-shaming, this book would be a sham. I know it because I encountered it in junior high and high school directly. It was a painfully realistic read.
The writing itself is really lovely, as is the character development. I cherished Taylor’s inner weirdo, her adventurous spirit, her empathy (unexpected from a mean girl, but this girl’s got layers)… She’s complicated. She isn’t just a popular bitch, and she knows that. And it’s terrifying to her. Reading something like this when I was a kid would have opened my eyes to the fact that the cool kids had their own problems—that their lives weren’t always easy either, that they had to live by a code that they may not have agreed with but felt obligated to…
I could go on, but instead I will leave you with my favorite quote from the book, which I think is a good representation of the story as a whole because it revolves around female friendship and the sometimes blurry lines of those friendships for a young lesbian. It’s just after she tells her friend Susan, who has lost her father and who she is deeply in love with, “I’m so sorry. I love you.” Susan grabs her hand, squeezes, pulls it to her chest and asks Taylor, “‘Keep me warm?’”
“In this moment, I felt strangely lucky. To be a girl, to be able to say these things and for them to be okay and normal to say. To tell the truth, even if it meant something completely different to me.”
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Edit: I can't believe I forgot to say that this book, despite the heavy subject matter, is so funny. Laughed out loud multiple times. Taylor is hilarious.