Deborah Madison has had a long food career. She is perhaps best known for her 14 cookbooks, although I know her mostly from the pages of Cooking Light magazine. In this memoir, she tells the story of her life, beginning with her childhood and progressing through her various restaurants, cookbooks, and more, right up to the present.
The book is thoughtful and reflective, about food, about herself, and about people. I appreciated a lot of her insights along the way and enjoyed following her story. I think we share some personality traits, actually!
Passages and themes that spoke to me:
She originally intended to be a city planner, but realized that even people who have a great living situation are rarely satisfied. She says, "Did it make sense to work to satisfy people's wants if they'd never really be, for once and for all, satisfied?"
She calls herself a "recovering Buddhist" and in fact was a serious Zen Buddhist student in California for 20 years. She details many of her practices and insights from that time. One of these insights was that she needs "hands, soil, smells, and food for fodder, for direction," both worldly and spiritual. I, too, find myself more whole and more grounded when I am actually working with material things--cooking, gardening, even arranging things!
For some of those years, she was the cook for the Buddhist community, a job which was very challenging. "It's hard work and there's a lot that requires constant care if it's not to be wasted.... but what was especially difficult for me was learning that I couldn't please everyone ... I was always failing at least a few people at a time." Oh, do I feel that challenge when cooking for my extended family.
Reading about Chez Panisse and Greens was delightful, to be able to picture those groundbreaking restaurants and their meals!
This sentence was super inspiring: "Warm, well-cooked legumes seasoned with butter or olive oil and a smidgen (or handful) of fresh herbs are simply delicious; their modest flavors make the olive oil and butter sparkle ... garnish with crisped bread crumbs."
She closes the book with a series of short descriptions of significant meals from her life, setting the scene, describing the people involved, and sharing why they were significant. This was perhaps my favorite section.
She has been labeled a vegetarian cook, and indeed she loves vegetables, but she doesn't mind eating meat from time to time. In fact, she served on a grass-fed cattleman board once because she knows that sustainably raised cattle are the way to go if you're going to eat meat. She says she has a hard time communicating her preferences to people, and I wholeheartedly agree. How do you say, "I really eat a mostly plant-based diet, but I like good food in general, and it's great to be able to include some meat and meat products in your meals, and let's talk about how to reduce the impact of meat raising by using less of it and also using sustainable practices to raise and harvest them." Right.
She talks periodically about how she differs from her husband Patrick when it comes to food. An example was ordering food from restaurants--she feels compelled to pick something interesting, and he just picks what he wants--like once in Italy, where he got a bowl of ravioli, and she ended up with a watery bowl of fava beans. I can totally, totally see that happening to me. I need to find something interesting! Something in season! Something that I can't make myself! Instead of just, something that would taste good. :)
She now lives in New Mexico, so I loved all of those references and descriptions!
I'd recommend it for anyone who likes thoughtful or food-related memoirs.