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Inferno: A Memoir of Motherhood and Madness
'Completely devastating. Completely heartbreaking. Written in luminous, spiralling prose' Daisy Johnson, author of Everything Under
My psychosis, for all its destruction and wrath, was a love story.
When Catherine left London for the US with her husband James, to introduce her family to their newborn son, she could not have envisaged how that trip would end. Catherine would find herself in an involuntary psych ward in New Jersey, separated from her husband and child, unable to understand who she was, and how she had got there.
It's difficult to know where the story of psychosis begins. Was it the moment I met my son? Or was it decided in the before, something rooted deeper in my fate, generations ago?
In an attempt to hold on to her sense of self, Catherine had to reconstruct her life, from her early childhood, to a harrowing previous relationship, and her eventual marriage to James.
The result is a powerful exploration of psychosis and motherhood, at once intensely personal, yet holding within it a universal experience – of how we love, live and understand ourselves in relation to each other.
'Crystalline ... A brave, brilliant exploration of madness and motherhood' Harper's Bazaar, 10 women who will shape what you watch, see and read in 2020
My psychosis, for all its destruction and wrath, was a love story.
When Catherine left London for the US with her husband James, to introduce her family to their newborn son, she could not have envisaged how that trip would end. Catherine would find herself in an involuntary psych ward in New Jersey, separated from her husband and child, unable to understand who she was, and how she had got there.
It's difficult to know where the story of psychosis begins. Was it the moment I met my son? Or was it decided in the before, something rooted deeper in my fate, generations ago?
In an attempt to hold on to her sense of self, Catherine had to reconstruct her life, from her early childhood, to a harrowing previous relationship, and her eventual marriage to James.
The result is a powerful exploration of psychosis and motherhood, at once intensely personal, yet holding within it a universal experience – of how we love, live and understand ourselves in relation to each other.
'Crystalline ... A brave, brilliant exploration of madness and motherhood' Harper's Bazaar, 10 women who will shape what you watch, see and read in 2020
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August 22, 2020
Catherine Cho’s son was not even three months old when she experienced a psychotic break; when her son’s eyes transformed into devil’s eyes and she had trouble distinguishing between her own life and parallel realities, she was experiencing a rare but serious ailment known as postpartum psychosis. Though the onset typically happens closer to giving birth, the result is just as severe: hallucinations, paranoia, inability to sleep - the list goes on. Basically overnight, a new mother can go from being sleep-deprived, but stable, to being inside the jaws of mental illness.
Cho opens her memoir with her inside a mental hospital, trying to strengthen her grasp on reality while trying to navigate the “office politics” inside the ward. “The fastest way out of here,” a fellow patient tells her, “is to act like you don’t want to leave.” With no sense of how long she’s been inside (days? weeks? months?), she tries to remember who she is and how she came to be there. She uses a journal to record things she’s certain are real.
And so we go on a walk with Cho as she rewinds her timeline, first bringing us back to her childhood in a Korean-American family. We see that she’s had complicated relationships with men in the past beginning with her father and ending with an abusive relationship that she fled. We see her meet the man who would become her husband and the happy details surrounding her pregnancy - information that proves foreboding for the reader who knows, eventually, what is coming.
What may not be expected from this book is that it is predominantly this author’s life story leading up to her psychosis. All of the backstory may seem like a distraction from the point if the title and synopsis are to be believed, but I would argue that the extensive backstory is not only great reading, but gives the reader a sense of the person, the mind, to which Cho is attempting to return. When her husband tells her during a visit he pays to the mental hospital that no, she isn’t ready to come home because she’s not “herself” yet, it’s critically important that we know who that self is.
Not only does Cho achieve this, but as we’ve come to know her as a person by the time, toward the end of the book, that she takes us through her stress-induced psychotic break, we can see and fully know how out-of-character this was for her. The way she describes what she was seeing, thinking, and feeling as she began to melt down is all-consuming and terrifying. One minute she’s merely a stressed new mom feeling the weight of her in-laws expectations, the next, she’s seeing things that aren’t real. The reader is along for the ride, seat belts required.
This is a short, but spectacularly done memoir.
Cho opens her memoir with her inside a mental hospital, trying to strengthen her grasp on reality while trying to navigate the “office politics” inside the ward. “The fastest way out of here,” a fellow patient tells her, “is to act like you don’t want to leave.” With no sense of how long she’s been inside (days? weeks? months?), she tries to remember who she is and how she came to be there. She uses a journal to record things she’s certain are real.
And so we go on a walk with Cho as she rewinds her timeline, first bringing us back to her childhood in a Korean-American family. We see that she’s had complicated relationships with men in the past beginning with her father and ending with an abusive relationship that she fled. We see her meet the man who would become her husband and the happy details surrounding her pregnancy - information that proves foreboding for the reader who knows, eventually, what is coming.
What may not be expected from this book is that it is predominantly this author’s life story leading up to her psychosis. All of the backstory may seem like a distraction from the point if the title and synopsis are to be believed, but I would argue that the extensive backstory is not only great reading, but gives the reader a sense of the person, the mind, to which Cho is attempting to return. When her husband tells her during a visit he pays to the mental hospital that no, she isn’t ready to come home because she’s not “herself” yet, it’s critically important that we know who that self is.
Not only does Cho achieve this, but as we’ve come to know her as a person by the time, toward the end of the book, that she takes us through her stress-induced psychotic break, we can see and fully know how out-of-character this was for her. The way she describes what she was seeing, thinking, and feeling as she began to melt down is all-consuming and terrifying. One minute she’s merely a stressed new mom feeling the weight of her in-laws expectations, the next, she’s seeing things that aren’t real. The reader is along for the ride, seat belts required.
This is a short, but spectacularly done memoir.
August 11, 2022
Inferno is a memoir which recounts the author’s struggle with postpartum psychosis. Catherine Cho describes her experience with her various symptoms, such as hallucinations and delusions. She also intertwines this event with her family history and Korean cultural beliefs.
I appreciate the author’s willingness to share this deeply personal experience. She does a great job of making the reader understand what it is like to go through her particular psychosis, reminiscent of The Collected Schizophrenias: Essays. It is an important work to read for anyone interested in learning about women’s health issues.
I appreciate the author’s willingness to share this deeply personal experience. She does a great job of making the reader understand what it is like to go through her particular psychosis, reminiscent of The Collected Schizophrenias: Essays. It is an important work to read for anyone interested in learning about women’s health issues.
March 24, 2020
An honest and unflinching look at postpartum psychosis, mental hospitalization and the Korean culture. A brutally honest look at Catherine Cho's life. It's amazing how she opened herself up like this and shared so much! She tells how traveling around stressed her out and then she had a baby leading to postpartum psychosis. The Korean culture was very unforgiving of her problems, so she was institutionalized in the mental hospital missing her child's 100 day celebration. I know it wasn't easy to have written a book like this, thank you for sharing your life experience Catherine Cho.
May 26, 2021
This book broke me a little. Well a lot. Holy cow.
October 16, 2020
4-4.5 stars
an absolutely stunning memoir in every sense of the word. catherine cho's writing has a way of burrowing under your skin.
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an absolutely stunning memoir in every sense of the word. catherine cho's writing has a way of burrowing under your skin.
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January 23, 2021
3.5
As an experience worth basing a memoir around, Cho’s sudden, violent descent into postpartum psychosis a few months after the birth of her son is unparalleled.
We meet Cho on a general psych ward in America. She’s supposed to be on holiday, travelling around the US with her husband and three month old to introduce him to family. But family pressure, sleep deprivation or plain old hormones rush in, and she starts hallucinating that the baby is the devil, the hospital is Hell, and she is a kind of latter-day Beatrice, charged with leading her husband safely out. This is the story of her journey back from the brink and of her restlessness to know what has caused the psychosis: was it genetics? Circumstance? Was it because she ignored the Korean traditions her parents and in-laws insist upon, and did not eat her seaweed soup, and left the house too soon after birth?
Cho makes a good narrator for such a story, her very mildness and normalcy underlining the shocking violence of her experience. She is not at all the kind of person you would expect to find restrained on a gurney. And she weaves a number of interesting strands into her story, from Korean and Western mythology, to Dante, to musings into how family predisposes you for life, how Koreans feel the wounds of the North-South separation down the generations, how abusive relationships can shape a psyche.
Structurally, I felt there were some problems. The most interesting aspect of the book is the psychotic breakdown itself, which is mostly told late in the story. The least interesting parts, surprisingly, are in the psych ward, where largely irrelevant characters bog down the story and where nothing much happens or develops. As with many memoirs, I suspected a long essay could have covered much of the same ground.
Still, Cho writes well. Her prose is not “luminous and spiralling” as a nonsensical cover blurb suggests, but it is pleasingly straightforward and not too prone to poetic mumbo-jumbo. And it’s a fascinating story.
As an experience worth basing a memoir around, Cho’s sudden, violent descent into postpartum psychosis a few months after the birth of her son is unparalleled.
We meet Cho on a general psych ward in America. She’s supposed to be on holiday, travelling around the US with her husband and three month old to introduce him to family. But family pressure, sleep deprivation or plain old hormones rush in, and she starts hallucinating that the baby is the devil, the hospital is Hell, and she is a kind of latter-day Beatrice, charged with leading her husband safely out. This is the story of her journey back from the brink and of her restlessness to know what has caused the psychosis: was it genetics? Circumstance? Was it because she ignored the Korean traditions her parents and in-laws insist upon, and did not eat her seaweed soup, and left the house too soon after birth?
Cho makes a good narrator for such a story, her very mildness and normalcy underlining the shocking violence of her experience. She is not at all the kind of person you would expect to find restrained on a gurney. And she weaves a number of interesting strands into her story, from Korean and Western mythology, to Dante, to musings into how family predisposes you for life, how Koreans feel the wounds of the North-South separation down the generations, how abusive relationships can shape a psyche.
Structurally, I felt there were some problems. The most interesting aspect of the book is the psychotic breakdown itself, which is mostly told late in the story. The least interesting parts, surprisingly, are in the psych ward, where largely irrelevant characters bog down the story and where nothing much happens or develops. As with many memoirs, I suspected a long essay could have covered much of the same ground.
Still, Cho writes well. Her prose is not “luminous and spiralling” as a nonsensical cover blurb suggests, but it is pleasingly straightforward and not too prone to poetic mumbo-jumbo. And it’s a fascinating story.
January 22, 2022
This is absolutely a book worth reading, even if structurally and stylistically it didn’t always gel with me. I can see why it’s arranged as it is, but it also made it feel very detached and artificial, maybe because of the audio narration too, which always tends to feel slightly removed; I’m not sure.
Her accounting of her early life feels very relevant as to contributing to her psychosis. I thought that was great. But the start sets up that she’s in the ward at the moment, writing this, ostensibly, and of course that isn’t the case at all. So I felt like there was some weird attempt at setting up circumstances that weren’t true, for no real reason whatsoever. She did not write pretty much at all while under care, she recounts from people in her life that visited her. So I don’t understand why the structure and conceit is even set up the way it is.
But I also feel like it’s a book that would make a lot of people feel seen. Even if the ending feels quite rushed and the arc feels incomplete because of the more granular aspects being spent on her past. There’s not much context for after it, which I think would have contributed to the larger conversation.
So, overall, mixed. But worth reading.
Her accounting of her early life feels very relevant as to contributing to her psychosis. I thought that was great. But the start sets up that she’s in the ward at the moment, writing this, ostensibly, and of course that isn’t the case at all. So I felt like there was some weird attempt at setting up circumstances that weren’t true, for no real reason whatsoever. She did not write pretty much at all while under care, she recounts from people in her life that visited her. So I don’t understand why the structure and conceit is even set up the way it is.
But I also feel like it’s a book that would make a lot of people feel seen. Even if the ending feels quite rushed and the arc feels incomplete because of the more granular aspects being spent on her past. There’s not much context for after it, which I think would have contributed to the larger conversation.
So, overall, mixed. But worth reading.
March 15, 2022
To reach that pinnacle of not caring about the end; to know that the end doesn’t matter. This is the happiness of the ending, to have reached the point when the moment is enough, when to love is enough.
without intending to, march has become, for me, a month of reading memoirs by women of colour.
and it's been FANTASTIC.
catherine cho is the latest in a series of poignant storytellers: women weaving their narratives with nuance and grace, naming the hurts and the healing, tethering past to present, honouring their ancestors and—above all—themselves.
inferno unfolds through prose that is unadorned but not sparse, and far from empty. i think there were points when i wished for more stylistically, but the emotion—cho's love, fear, confusion, pain—resounds through every word.
How do you live without knowing? With a life interrupted and no resolution? How do you live in a suspended moment? How do you live as a ghost?
i liked how she wrote about “suspended places”: a psychiatric ward for people who’ve experienced psychosis; a care home for folks with alzheimer’s; the 38th parallel, permeated by the longing of loved ones divided; a maternity ward at the hospital, filled with women bleeding and healing after giving birth. as cho reflects:
We were in this place, waiting to leave. It was another suspended place, and we were here, just existing... suspended in the waiting, waiting desperately for the wish to meet again.
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march 2022: the memoirs i have read so far:
➟ What My Bones Know: A Memoir of Healing from Complex Trauma by stephanie foo
➟ Eloquent Rage: A Black Feminist Discovers Her Superpower by dr. brittney cooper
➟ Crying in H Mart by michelle zauner
➟ and now Inferno: A Memoir of Motherhood and Madness by catherine cho
August 17, 2024
This was a very compelling memoir. It was hard to read at times because it was so honest and raw, but it was also a super quick read. I love that writing helped the author refind herself after psychosis so that the reader got to truly see the process and exactly what she was going through. Catherine was a new mother, with a child who was a few months ago when she fell into psychosis and was involuntarily hospitalized. Her story was hard to read and even harder when they got to the end and she discovered if her mental illness had occurred in London where she lived with her husband she would have been hospitalized with her son and would not needed to have been separate from him. This book is wonderful and I think a must read for anyone who works with people who may experience similar things to the author.
March 29, 2022
This was kind of hard to read because it's a real life story about very rough postpartum psychosis. But at the same time it was keeping my interest quite well and I had a lot of sympathy for the author.
The translation though was so terribly dry and sometimes I felt like some choices of words weren't exactly right...
The translation though was so terribly dry and sometimes I felt like some choices of words weren't exactly right...
December 5, 2020
Inferno is a fantastic memoir. Postpartum psychosis is something that I had zero knowledge about when I began reading this book. Cho deftly writes about her experience, informing the reader about postpartum psychosis in a super engaging and well-written way. I'm not sure if Cho will write anything else—fiction or non-fiction—but I'd absolutely be eager to pick up anything she does write. She is talented, able to take an interesting story and make it engaging to read.
November 16, 2020
Inferno is a powerful, raw memoir about a women's experience with postpartum psychosis. Catherine Cho was raised in a Korean American household. She married and had her first child. She and her husband decided to use part of their family leave to travel the US to visit relatives with their new baby. During this trip, Cho's mental state spiraled downward into a state of postpartum psychosis. She is checked into an institution. Cho is very open about her state of mind throughout her journey and it is quite scary at times. There are moments that she forgets who her husband is and that she even has a child.
In my opinion, this is an important read to shine a light on the mental health issues that women can face after giving birth to a child. Cho's writing took me right into her mind and I deeply felt her sadness that by the time she got out of the hospital her baby son wouldn't remember her. There were a lot of emotions. This would be a great addition to any women's studies or feminist bookshelf.
Thank you to the publisher for the review copy.
In my opinion, this is an important read to shine a light on the mental health issues that women can face after giving birth to a child. Cho's writing took me right into her mind and I deeply felt her sadness that by the time she got out of the hospital her baby son wouldn't remember her. There were a lot of emotions. This would be a great addition to any women's studies or feminist bookshelf.
Thank you to the publisher for the review copy.
March 29, 2020
I was initially expecting a book about psychosis, but Inferno by Catherine Cho revealed to be so much more. This is a story about love, motherhood and life: after just a few pages I wanted to learn more about Catherine's experience, so much so that I struggled to put this book down.
With Inferno, the author bravely guides us through her emotional journey, which starts with her lost in a psych ward, but page after page she untangles the knots and resurfaces with new hope. She is able to vividly describe her psychosis and to make us understand that this could happen to anybody among us. During this process she shares very intimate parts of her life, family and love, where her husband James and her son Cato patiently wait for her at the end of the tunnel.
I really appreciate and praise Catherine for her willingness to share her experience with the world. This book should be in everyone’s wish list!
With Inferno, the author bravely guides us through her emotional journey, which starts with her lost in a psych ward, but page after page she untangles the knots and resurfaces with new hope. She is able to vividly describe her psychosis and to make us understand that this could happen to anybody among us. During this process she shares very intimate parts of her life, family and love, where her husband James and her son Cato patiently wait for her at the end of the tunnel.
I really appreciate and praise Catherine for her willingness to share her experience with the world. This book should be in everyone’s wish list!
June 7, 2021
Actual Rating: 4.8 stars
“Through my dread and my fear, I saw the beauty in them, the patterns in the universe. I could tell it was dangerous, this raw energy, this coursing feeling, and for a moment, I wished I could tumble in, tumble into the madness.”
What a brilliant and a heartbreaking memoir about facing mental health issues post giving birth. The book comes with trigger warnings for sure and highly recommend that you do not read this if you are an expecting mother.
I felt so bad for the author and her family who had to go through all of this. But glad that they are at a much better place now!
Heartbreaking and recommended!
Read for the Quarterfinals of the Booktube Prize 2021, this one made it to the Semifinals.
Ranking - 3rd (out of 6 books)
(For more insight, please watch the video on my YT channel)
“Through my dread and my fear, I saw the beauty in them, the patterns in the universe. I could tell it was dangerous, this raw energy, this coursing feeling, and for a moment, I wished I could tumble in, tumble into the madness.”
What a brilliant and a heartbreaking memoir about facing mental health issues post giving birth. The book comes with trigger warnings for sure and highly recommend that you do not read this if you are an expecting mother.
I felt so bad for the author and her family who had to go through all of this. But glad that they are at a much better place now!
Heartbreaking and recommended!
Read for the Quarterfinals of the Booktube Prize 2021, this one made it to the Semifinals.
Ranking - 3rd (out of 6 books)
(For more insight, please watch the video on my YT channel)
August 8, 2020
Disappointed.
I am very into books of the mental health nature and keen on reading more and more on motherhood as of lately. But I felt like this book was being told to me through a distance stance. It didn't feel like the author was telling me her story, but a story of someone else's life. I stuck with it and held hope that she would open up and dive deeper into her experiences and her feelings, but no. Story is still beautiful, about the importance of family and having a support system but I expected better [and maybe that is my own fault].
I am very into books of the mental health nature and keen on reading more and more on motherhood as of lately. But I felt like this book was being told to me through a distance stance. It didn't feel like the author was telling me her story, but a story of someone else's life. I stuck with it and held hope that she would open up and dive deeper into her experiences and her feelings, but no. Story is still beautiful, about the importance of family and having a support system but I expected better [and maybe that is my own fault].
March 17, 2020
Astonishing, terrifying and utterly heartbreaking, this memoir gives a remarkable insight into the vortex of postpartum psychosis. It is also a hymn to the aching tenderness, love, guilt and regret bound up in both childhood and motherhood. Written in masterful, limpid prose, it grips from the first page: I could not put it down.
April 8, 2020
Inferno is a memoir about experiencing post-partum psychosis in the Korean culture. I appreciate the vulnerability of the author in sharing about her illness and the things that lead to it: previous trauma, excessive traveling, and feeling unprepared for motherhood. Each brief chapter alternates between her time in a psychiatric hospital, experiences leading up to her illness, and memories from the past. I enjoyed the format and the way things pieced together in an attempt to offer an explanation of how something like this can happen. Unfortunately, I felt that much of the book came across as flat. So much of this story is focused on the hospitalization: what she ate, descriptions of other patients, observations on the unit etc which I found quite boring. While this may very well be all she remembers of the experience, I couldn’t help but feeling like something was missing and wanting more. I wish there were more descriptions of her emotional experience and thought process leading up to her psychosis and during her healing. There are bits and pieces of her emotions and thoughts throughout the memoir - which I found fascinating; however, much of it felt very surface level and I did not feel I adequately understood the author’s experience. This was an interesting read on a very stigmatized topic - I’m glad the author chose to share her story.
September 20, 2024
Pavadinimas puikiai atspindi knygos turinį. Su pogimdymine psichoze ar apskritai su jokiais neigiamais jausmais po gimdymo ačiū D nesusidūriau, tad šios moters istoriją skaičiau su tokiu liūdesiu…. Laimei, ji turėjo nuostabų vyrą, kuris, kaip ji pati sako, buvo jos inkaras. Anytos požiūris pykdė. Gaila, kad vis dar yra galvojančių, jog toks proto aptemimas yra tik išmislas. Bet ne, tai ne nuovargis, tai liga, kurios laiku nepastebėjus pasekmės gali būti tragiškos. Kaip svarbu moterims turėti šalią artimą ir būti laiku pastebėtoms…
January 12, 2020
Thank you to NetGalley and the publisher for providing this book in exchange for an honest review.
This is a tough book to read because of the host and raw emotion that it gives the reader. I can't even begin to imagine how frightening it would be to "lose" one's mind in psychosis.
This book is written with such honesty. I like how she incorporates the past in with her experience of being in the mental hospital.
This is a tough book to read because of the host and raw emotion that it gives the reader. I can't even begin to imagine how frightening it would be to "lose" one's mind in psychosis.
This book is written with such honesty. I like how she incorporates the past in with her experience of being in the mental hospital.
November 16, 2020
Cho, a Korean American literary agent based in London, experienced stress-induced postpartum psychosis after the birth of her son, Cato. She and her husband James had gone back to the USA when Cato was two months old to introduce him to friends and family, ending with a big Korean 100-day celebration for him at her in-laws’ home in New Jersey. Almost as soon as they got to her in-laws’, though, she started acting strangely: she was convinced there were cameras watching their every move, and Cato’s eyes were replaced with “devil’s eyes.” She insisted they leave for a hotel, but soon she would be in an emergency room, followed by a mental health ward.
Cho alternates between her time on the New Bridge ward – writing in a notebook, trying to act normal whenever James visited, expressing milk from painfully swollen breasts, and interacting with her fellow patients with all their quirks – and a rundown of the rest of her life before the breakdown. Her Kentucky childhood was marked by her mathematician father’s detachment and the sense that she and her brother were together “in the trenches,” pitted against the world. In her twenties she worked in a New York City corporate law firm and got caught up in an abusive relationship with a man she moved to Hong Kong to be with. All along she weaves in her family’s history and Korean sayings and legends that explain their values.
Twelve days. That was the length of her hospitalization in early 2018, but Cho so painstakingly depicts her mindset that readers are fully immersed in an open-ended purgatory – a terrifying time when she questioned her sanity and whether she was cut out for motherhood. “Koreans believe that happiness can only tempt the fates and that any happiness must be bought with sorrow,” she writes. She captures both extremes, of suffering and joy, in this vivid account.
Originally published on my blog, Bookish Beck.
Cho alternates between her time on the New Bridge ward – writing in a notebook, trying to act normal whenever James visited, expressing milk from painfully swollen breasts, and interacting with her fellow patients with all their quirks – and a rundown of the rest of her life before the breakdown. Her Kentucky childhood was marked by her mathematician father’s detachment and the sense that she and her brother were together “in the trenches,” pitted against the world. In her twenties she worked in a New York City corporate law firm and got caught up in an abusive relationship with a man she moved to Hong Kong to be with. All along she weaves in her family’s history and Korean sayings and legends that explain their values.
Twelve days. That was the length of her hospitalization in early 2018, but Cho so painstakingly depicts her mindset that readers are fully immersed in an open-ended purgatory – a terrifying time when she questioned her sanity and whether she was cut out for motherhood. “Koreans believe that happiness can only tempt the fates and that any happiness must be bought with sorrow,” she writes. She captures both extremes, of suffering and joy, in this vivid account.
Originally published on my blog, Bookish Beck.
February 5, 2022
Pradėdama visiškai nesitikėjau tokios tikroviškos istorijos, nes jau tampa įprasta, kad net prisiminimų knygos turi daug pagražinimų ir dažnai panašesnės į romanus.
Nesitikėjau ir tokios jautrios temos. Pogimdyvinė depresija žinoma daugeliui moterų, bet pogimdyvinė psichozė? Mažai kuriai. O knygų, kurios kalbėtų apie neseniai pagimdžiusią moterį, susiduriančią ne su kūdikio auginimo sunkumais, o pačia savimi, tokių knygų mažoka. Iš romanų apie tai rašė J.Picoult, bet daug švelniau.
Čia švelnybių nėra. Tiesiai šviesiai, o priedo sklandžiai, pasakojama patirtis verčia susimąstyti.
Labai daug Korėjos kultūros, tiems, kas nori daugiau sužinoti apie šią šalį, tradicijas, tikrai rasite naujų faktų.
Puikiai aprašyta psichiatrijos klinika, ligonių elgesys, koks geras atokvėpis nuo Fitzek "Paciento", kur nė kruopelytės panašumo į realią tokio tipo įstaigą. Čia viskas taip, kaip turėtų būti. O ligonės mintys būtent tokios, kokiomis gyvena panašių bėdų turintys žmonės. Iškart aišku, kad ši istorija nėra pagražinta patirties versija, kaip "Niekada nesustok" prisiminimai, kuriuose gausu logikos klaidų. Čia nesistengta įtikti skaitytojui, pakreipti į kažką įdomesnio.
Ir tikrovė atliko savo darbą. Prisiminimai puikūs. Slegiantys. Kartais šiurpoki. Tokių niekam nelinkėtum. Bet apie tokias temas reikia kalbėti, nes dažna moteris čia gali atpažinti savo patirtis. Nebūtinai tokias, gal tik trumpus epizodus, bet jie svarbūs ir turi būti pastebėti šeimos narių, padėsiančių joms atsitiesti.
"Štai, kas padaro meilę gražią - žinoti, kad susidursi su mirtimi ir nesėkme, bet vis tiek šokti nuo bedugnės krašto."
Prikaustanti knyga, kuri tikrai nepasimirš.
Nesitikėjau ir tokios jautrios temos. Pogimdyvinė depresija žinoma daugeliui moterų, bet pogimdyvinė psichozė? Mažai kuriai. O knygų, kurios kalbėtų apie neseniai pagimdžiusią moterį, susiduriančią ne su kūdikio auginimo sunkumais, o pačia savimi, tokių knygų mažoka. Iš romanų apie tai rašė J.Picoult, bet daug švelniau.
Čia švelnybių nėra. Tiesiai šviesiai, o priedo sklandžiai, pasakojama patirtis verčia susimąstyti.
Labai daug Korėjos kultūros, tiems, kas nori daugiau sužinoti apie šią šalį, tradicijas, tikrai rasite naujų faktų.
Puikiai aprašyta psichiatrijos klinika, ligonių elgesys, koks geras atokvėpis nuo Fitzek "Paciento", kur nė kruopelytės panašumo į realią tokio tipo įstaigą. Čia viskas taip, kaip turėtų būti. O ligonės mintys būtent tokios, kokiomis gyvena panašių bėdų turintys žmonės. Iškart aišku, kad ši istorija nėra pagražinta patirties versija, kaip "Niekada nesustok" prisiminimai, kuriuose gausu logikos klaidų. Čia nesistengta įtikti skaitytojui, pakreipti į kažką įdomesnio.
Ir tikrovė atliko savo darbą. Prisiminimai puikūs. Slegiantys. Kartais šiurpoki. Tokių niekam nelinkėtum. Bet apie tokias temas reikia kalbėti, nes dažna moteris čia gali atpažinti savo patirtis. Nebūtinai tokias, gal tik trumpus epizodus, bet jie svarbūs ir turi būti pastebėti šeimos narių, padėsiančių joms atsitiesti.
"Štai, kas padaro meilę gražią - žinoti, kad susidursi su mirtimi ir nesėkme, bet vis tiek šokti nuo bedugnės krašto."
Prikaustanti knyga, kuri tikrai nepasimirš.
January 16, 2020
I've always been fascinated by the topic of postpartum psychosis. I have four children and have suffered postpartum depression and anxiety, so it's a topic close to my heart. I've never seen a memoir or even a book written about it, so I was so excited to read Catherine Cho's memoir. I read it practically in one sitting. It was so moving and fascinating that I couldn't put it down. My only complaint is that I wish it was longer and had more detail! Postpartum psychosis is something that needs so much more research and discussion, and I hope this book brings that to light.
May 28, 2021
More than mental illness, this book is about the experience of having a mental illness. Cho vividly describes what it's like to experience a psychotic break, to see the devil's eyes in her son's face, and the uncertainty of treatment in on a US psychiatric ward. It's immersive, gripping, and ended up being a one day read for me.
If you'd like to hear more thoughts check out the Booktube Prize vlog where I talk about it in detail.
If you'd like to hear more thoughts check out the Booktube Prize vlog where I talk about it in detail.
April 13, 2022
Knyga sukėlusi ne vieną nuomonę ją skaitant.
Iš vienos pusės - knyga labai gerai parodo daugeliui žmonių, ypatingai moterų, aktualią problemą, kuri buvo šimtmečius ne tik kad neatpažinta, bet ir nepripažinta.
Tačiau iš kitos pusės - autorės istorija viena iš tūkstančio. Psichozė, o tuo labiau pogimdyvinė, daugeliui neperkandamas dalykas. Man asmeniškai daug ką suvokti buvo labai sunku, ypatingai skaitant autorės žingsnius vedančius link emocinės detonacijos taško - autorės atsiminimai ir jų pasakojamas pasirodė labai šaltas ir tolimas (lyg ne jos pačios išgyvenimai)
Iš dar dar vienos pusės - tai nesumažino knygos kokybės, ir joje buvo daug įdomių detalių apie korėjiečių tradicijas ir papročius, psichiatrinės ligoninės vidinį pasaulį ir gyvenimą, knyga atskleidė žmogaus stiprybę ir kantrybės limitus, ne tik sergančiojo bet ir esančių šalia bei palaikančių.
Iš dar dar dar kitos pusės - tai knyga skirta tam tikro tipo skaitytojui - tas kuri per tai ėjo, perėjo arba turi artimą kuris ėjo ar eina per šį pragarą. Ji informatyvi ir detaliai nupasakoja žingsnius, emocijas ir visą ligos eigą. Tačiau - tai atsiminimai kuriuose tikrai nerasite 'how to..' savipagalbos gido. Tai tikrai nėra emociškai lengva knyga.
Iš vienos pusės - knyga labai gerai parodo daugeliui žmonių, ypatingai moterų, aktualią problemą, kuri buvo šimtmečius ne tik kad neatpažinta, bet ir nepripažinta.
Tačiau iš kitos pusės - autorės istorija viena iš tūkstančio. Psichozė, o tuo labiau pogimdyvinė, daugeliui neperkandamas dalykas. Man asmeniškai daug ką suvokti buvo labai sunku, ypatingai skaitant autorės žingsnius vedančius link emocinės detonacijos taško - autorės atsiminimai ir jų pasakojamas pasirodė labai šaltas ir tolimas (lyg ne jos pačios išgyvenimai)
Iš dar dar vienos pusės - tai nesumažino knygos kokybės, ir joje buvo daug įdomių detalių apie korėjiečių tradicijas ir papročius, psichiatrinės ligoninės vidinį pasaulį ir gyvenimą, knyga atskleidė žmogaus stiprybę ir kantrybės limitus, ne tik sergančiojo bet ir esančių šalia bei palaikančių.
Iš dar dar dar kitos pusės - tai knyga skirta tam tikro tipo skaitytojui - tas kuri per tai ėjo, perėjo arba turi artimą kuris ėjo ar eina per šį pragarą. Ji informatyvi ir detaliai nupasakoja žingsnius, emocijas ir visą ligos eigą. Tačiau - tai atsiminimai kuriuose tikrai nerasite 'how to..' savipagalbos gido. Tai tikrai nėra emociškai lengva knyga.
October 8, 2020
Cho writes well about her split from reality, and a tiny bit about coming back to it.
What the story highlights for me is that if her experience was this horrible spending 4 days in emergency and about a week in a psych ward, with parents and her husband by her side, how horrible it must be for people whose psychosis doesn’t end, and for those who have no supports whatsoever that get stuck in the system alone with no hopes of release or improvement in their condition, largely because of the outdated ways we treat psych patients. This needs to change.
What the story highlights for me is that if her experience was this horrible spending 4 days in emergency and about a week in a psych ward, with parents and her husband by her side, how horrible it must be for people whose psychosis doesn’t end, and for those who have no supports whatsoever that get stuck in the system alone with no hopes of release or improvement in their condition, largely because of the outdated ways we treat psych patients. This needs to change.
April 11, 2020
3.5 rounded up
Inferno tells Cho's story of her postpartum psychosis which came on three months after the birth of her son during a trip back home to the U.S.. Her memories from her time in hospital are interspersed with her life up until the birth of her child, and they make for a riveting and moving read.
Thank you Netgalley and Bloomsbury Publishing Plc (UK & ANZ) for the advance copy, which was provided in exchange for an honest review.
Inferno tells Cho's story of her postpartum psychosis which came on three months after the birth of her son during a trip back home to the U.S.. Her memories from her time in hospital are interspersed with her life up until the birth of her child, and they make for a riveting and moving read.
Thank you Netgalley and Bloomsbury Publishing Plc (UK & ANZ) for the advance copy, which was provided in exchange for an honest review.
October 21, 2020
Wow. Just...wow. Easily one of the best books I’ve read this year. Cho is a masterful storyteller, bringing the reader along for the wild ride that is postpartum psychosis. I found myself having to pause to catch my breath as Cho brought me through the depths of her psychosis—the paranoia, the loss of time and space, the confusion—and suddenly returned to moments of lucidity, then back again into chaos once more. I’d recommend reading this with a cup of stress relief tea on hand.
May 17, 2023
A 4.5 rounded up. Holy moly this is going to sit with me. What an excellently written vulnerable memoir of how quickly your mind can betray you. Would have liked a smidge more science as to what caused her psychosis but that might not have been the intention of this book.
Really illuminating and terrifying- gave me a ton more empathy for people going through this. Worth picking up- very short and a captivating read
Really illuminating and terrifying- gave me a ton more empathy for people going through this. Worth picking up- very short and a captivating read
April 19, 2021
The best representation of psychosis I’ve ever read. The nonlinear story helps the sense of uneasiness and the author has such a vivid and raw view of her time dealing with psychosis and its aftermath. For some people, the story might feel slightly incomplete, but that’s just the reality of living without a full grasp of reality.
I loved this. Highly recommend.
I loved this. Highly recommend.
December 30, 2020
I wouldn’t know where to begin. This is an amazing book. I wish it had been available to me many years ago. The author is incredibly honest, and reassuring to every new mother who might be experiencing unexpected problems.
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