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Between Two Kingdoms: A Memoir of a Life Interrupted
Goodreads Choice Award
Nominee for Readers' Favorite Memoir & Autobiography (2021)A searing, deeply moving memoir of illness and recovery that traces one young woman’s journey from diagnosis to remission and, ultimately, a road trip of healing and self-discovery.
In the summer after graduating from college, Suleika Jaouad was preparing, as they say in commencement speeches, to enter “the real world.” She had fallen in love and moved to Paris to pursue her dream of becoming a war correspondent. The real world she found, however, would take her into a very different kind of conflict zone.
It started with an itch—first on her feet, then up her legs, like a thousand invisible mosquito bites. Next came the exhaustion, and the six-hour naps that only deepened her fatigue. Then a trip to the doctor and, a few weeks shy of her twenty-third birthday, a diagnosis: leukemia, with a 35 percent chance of survival. Just like that, the life she had imagined for herself had gone up in flames. By the time Jaouad flew home to New York, she had lost her job, her apartment, and her independence. She would spend much of the next four years in a hospital bed, fighting for her life and chronicling the saga in a column for The New York Times.
When Jaouad finally walked out of the cancer ward—after three and a half years of chemo, a clinical trial, and a bone marrow transplant—she was, according to the doctors, cured. But as she would soon learn, a cure is not where the work of healing ends; it’s where it begins. She had spent the past 1,500 days in desperate pursuit of one goal—to survive. And now that she’d done so, she realized that she had no idea how to live.
How would she reenter the world and live again? How could she reclaim what had been lost? Jaouad embarked—with her new best friend, Oscar, a scruffy terrier mutt—on a 100-day, 15,000-mile road trip across the country. She set out to meet some of the strangers who had written to her during her years in the hospital: a teenage girl in Florida also recovering from cancer; a teacher in California grieving the death of her son; a death-row inmate in Texas who’d spent his own years confined to a room. What she learned on this trip is that the divide between sick and well is porous, that the vast majority of us will travel back and forth between these realms throughout our lives. Between Two Kingdoms is a profound chronicle of survivorship and a fierce, tender, and inspiring exploration of what it means to begin again.
In the summer after graduating from college, Suleika Jaouad was preparing, as they say in commencement speeches, to enter “the real world.” She had fallen in love and moved to Paris to pursue her dream of becoming a war correspondent. The real world she found, however, would take her into a very different kind of conflict zone.
It started with an itch—first on her feet, then up her legs, like a thousand invisible mosquito bites. Next came the exhaustion, and the six-hour naps that only deepened her fatigue. Then a trip to the doctor and, a few weeks shy of her twenty-third birthday, a diagnosis: leukemia, with a 35 percent chance of survival. Just like that, the life she had imagined for herself had gone up in flames. By the time Jaouad flew home to New York, she had lost her job, her apartment, and her independence. She would spend much of the next four years in a hospital bed, fighting for her life and chronicling the saga in a column for The New York Times.
When Jaouad finally walked out of the cancer ward—after three and a half years of chemo, a clinical trial, and a bone marrow transplant—she was, according to the doctors, cured. But as she would soon learn, a cure is not where the work of healing ends; it’s where it begins. She had spent the past 1,500 days in desperate pursuit of one goal—to survive. And now that she’d done so, she realized that she had no idea how to live.
How would she reenter the world and live again? How could she reclaim what had been lost? Jaouad embarked—with her new best friend, Oscar, a scruffy terrier mutt—on a 100-day, 15,000-mile road trip across the country. She set out to meet some of the strangers who had written to her during her years in the hospital: a teenage girl in Florida also recovering from cancer; a teacher in California grieving the death of her son; a death-row inmate in Texas who’d spent his own years confined to a room. What she learned on this trip is that the divide between sick and well is porous, that the vast majority of us will travel back and forth between these realms throughout our lives. Between Two Kingdoms is a profound chronicle of survivorship and a fierce, tender, and inspiring exploration of what it means to begin again.
288 pages, Kindle Edition
First published February 9, 2021
About the author
Suleika Jaouad
13 books2,781 followersSuleika Jaouad (pronounced Su-lake-uh Ja-wad) is an Emmy Award-winning journalist, author, artist, and advocate. She documented her odyssey of illness, healing, and self-discovery in the instant New York Times bestselling memoir Between Two Kingdoms, which has been translated into over twenty languages. In her second bestselling book, The Book of Alchemy, she meditates on the central questions of life and distills how a creative practice can help us transmute the seemingly commonplace or difficult parts of living into something meaningful, useful, and even beautiful.
Jaouad wrote the Emmy Award-winning New York Times column “Life, Interrupted.” Her essays and reported features have appeared in The New York Times Magazine, Vogue and NPR. She is the creator of the Isolation Journals, a global project cultivating creativity and community during challenging times.
In 2023, she was featured in the documentary film American Symphony, directed by Matthew Heineman, which captures her fight against the return of her cancer while her husband, Jon Batiste, was composing his first symphony.
Jaouad wrote the Emmy Award-winning New York Times column “Life, Interrupted.” Her essays and reported features have appeared in The New York Times Magazine, Vogue and NPR. She is the creator of the Isolation Journals, a global project cultivating creativity and community during challenging times.
In 2023, she was featured in the documentary film American Symphony, directed by Matthew Heineman, which captures her fight against the return of her cancer while her husband, Jon Batiste, was composing his first symphony.
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January 18, 2021
Let me start this off by saying that I am not a dramatic person. With that being said, this book kinda changed my life.
Just for some background: I’m 20 years old, I was diagnosed with Myelodysplastic syndrome at the age of 7 (which is the rare pre-leukemic disease that Jaouad got before it turned into full-blown leukemia). I also almost lost my life in a battle with GVHD (Graft vs. Host Disease, which Jaouad also dealt with). I’ve luckily been living a happy and healthy life since then.
And for extra funsies: I won this book in a goodreads giveaway and knew practically nothing about it before it landed at my doorstep.
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My family and I don’t talk about the time we spent in the hospital. It was deeply traumatic for them in ways that I will (hopefully) never understand, and I respect that. A consequence of this, however, is that I knew nothing about what I had until decided to write about it for my college application essay. I didn’t even know the name of the disease until I was 17. What I was left with was a swirl of memories and feelings that were processed in my 7-year-old brain and were left essentially untouched. That is, until I read this.
I know what it feels like to have people talk about your health as if you weren’t even there. I know the frustration when you suddenly find out that you’re infertile (I found out by browsing my MyChart page my freshman year of college because no one told me). I know what the catheter feels like, and what it felt like when it was gone. Later in my life, I began to understand what Jaouad means when she writes that she realized “all the other imprints of illness with which I have yet to contend”.
Anyways, if you’re here looking for an ***actual review*** of the book and not my weirdly personal confessions, here it is:
Trauma reshapes the way we look at the world and the way we interact with the people around us, and Jaouad expertly describes the complexities of that liminal space that one exists in when going through something life-changing like cancer. If you’re someone who has gone through the death of a friend or family member, a serious diagnosis, or heartbreak, this is a book for you. If you haven’t experienced any of those things, this is also a book for you. While her specific experiences are rare, she speaks to a larger truth about finding selfhood in a constantly changing world. The stories she chooses to tell about the people she meets along the way are some of the most heartwarming and heartbreaking stories I’ve read. Not to mention, she’s fucking funny! Just read the book, ok? You won’t regret it.
Just for some background: I’m 20 years old, I was diagnosed with Myelodysplastic syndrome at the age of 7 (which is the rare pre-leukemic disease that Jaouad got before it turned into full-blown leukemia). I also almost lost my life in a battle with GVHD (Graft vs. Host Disease, which Jaouad also dealt with). I’ve luckily been living a happy and healthy life since then.
And for extra funsies: I won this book in a goodreads giveaway and knew practically nothing about it before it landed at my doorstep.
———————————————
My family and I don’t talk about the time we spent in the hospital. It was deeply traumatic for them in ways that I will (hopefully) never understand, and I respect that. A consequence of this, however, is that I knew nothing about what I had until decided to write about it for my college application essay. I didn’t even know the name of the disease until I was 17. What I was left with was a swirl of memories and feelings that were processed in my 7-year-old brain and were left essentially untouched. That is, until I read this.
I know what it feels like to have people talk about your health as if you weren’t even there. I know the frustration when you suddenly find out that you’re infertile (I found out by browsing my MyChart page my freshman year of college because no one told me). I know what the catheter feels like, and what it felt like when it was gone. Later in my life, I began to understand what Jaouad means when she writes that she realized “all the other imprints of illness with which I have yet to contend”.
Anyways, if you’re here looking for an ***actual review*** of the book and not my weirdly personal confessions, here it is:
Trauma reshapes the way we look at the world and the way we interact with the people around us, and Jaouad expertly describes the complexities of that liminal space that one exists in when going through something life-changing like cancer. If you’re someone who has gone through the death of a friend or family member, a serious diagnosis, or heartbreak, this is a book for you. If you haven’t experienced any of those things, this is also a book for you. While her specific experiences are rare, she speaks to a larger truth about finding selfhood in a constantly changing world. The stories she chooses to tell about the people she meets along the way are some of the most heartwarming and heartbreaking stories I’ve read. Not to mention, she’s fucking funny! Just read the book, ok? You won’t regret it.
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February 24, 2021
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Audiobook... read beautifully by the author, Suleika Jaquad
An amazing story of triumph....
....harrowing...
....loving...
....heartbreaking...
....a book that makes a difference by a woman whose contribution to others is huge...
....a GIGANTIC gift to me!!!
....articulately written with emotional truth!!!
Honestly...
....I never expected to be affected as hard as I was.
My close friend’s son died of myeloid leukemia... a year after he had married - at age 32.
I know dozens and dozens of people who have had cancer…
Many have died.
Many have lived.
So... I just didn’t expect to be THIS SHAKEN - MOVED - INSPIRED....
I was wrong ... I was all these things.
I found everything about this book valuable... worthy of reading...
... including having to reflect on things in my own life.
People who are sick might have a hard time reading this memoir. Healthy people may also have a hard time reading it..... and as hard as it was I couldn’t put it down.
Details are explicit, graphic.
But also real.
Suleika’s (gorgeous name), extraordinary story of pain, perseverance, and hope....
gripped me to the core...
shredded my guts...
I cried a half dozen times...
Crying while hiking hilly trails is risky business—
I felt like I was going to hyperventilate once - as holding ‘back’ the tears wasn’t easy either.
Parts of this book scared the shit out of me...
But it would take pages to explain why.
Other parts— about her relationship with Will, her mom, dad, friends, were compelling.
Mostly ... I just want to say that on a personal level I’ve fallen in love with this young wonderful woman —
One of the happiest moments for me in this memoir was just before Suleika needed another chemo therapy treatment....
her immune system was still weak, but she was better and strong enough to have a dog.....
Only once did Suleika play ‘the cancer card’...
it was when she desperately wanted a little runt.... whom she named Oscar.
Geee.... I cried when moments were happy too!!!
I even cried when Oscar went pee pee on the rug of Suleika’s house.
My god... it’s true that dogs are great healing medicine.
Suleika had a friend who was in the hospital at the same time when she was. The other sick cancer patients became her friends.
One day he gave Suleika a bracelet that said:
“I’m such a big fan of you”.
Me, too....
“I’m such a big fan of you, Suleika!!!”
Audiobook... read beautifully by the author, Suleika Jaquad
An amazing story of triumph....
....harrowing...
....loving...
....heartbreaking...
....a book that makes a difference by a woman whose contribution to others is huge...
....a GIGANTIC gift to me!!!
....articulately written with emotional truth!!!
Honestly...
....I never expected to be affected as hard as I was.
My close friend’s son died of myeloid leukemia... a year after he had married - at age 32.
I know dozens and dozens of people who have had cancer…
Many have died.
Many have lived.
So... I just didn’t expect to be THIS SHAKEN - MOVED - INSPIRED....
I was wrong ... I was all these things.
I found everything about this book valuable... worthy of reading...
... including having to reflect on things in my own life.
People who are sick might have a hard time reading this memoir. Healthy people may also have a hard time reading it..... and as hard as it was I couldn’t put it down.
Details are explicit, graphic.
But also real.
Suleika’s (gorgeous name), extraordinary story of pain, perseverance, and hope....
gripped me to the core...
shredded my guts...
I cried a half dozen times...
Crying while hiking hilly trails is risky business—
I felt like I was going to hyperventilate once - as holding ‘back’ the tears wasn’t easy either.
Parts of this book scared the shit out of me...
But it would take pages to explain why.
Other parts— about her relationship with Will, her mom, dad, friends, were compelling.
Mostly ... I just want to say that on a personal level I’ve fallen in love with this young wonderful woman —
One of the happiest moments for me in this memoir was just before Suleika needed another chemo therapy treatment....
her immune system was still weak, but she was better and strong enough to have a dog.....
Only once did Suleika play ‘the cancer card’...
it was when she desperately wanted a little runt.... whom she named Oscar.
Geee.... I cried when moments were happy too!!!
I even cried when Oscar went pee pee on the rug of Suleika’s house.
My god... it’s true that dogs are great healing medicine.
Suleika had a friend who was in the hospital at the same time when she was. The other sick cancer patients became her friends.
One day he gave Suleika a bracelet that said:
“I’m such a big fan of you”.
Me, too....
“I’m such a big fan of you, Suleika!!!”
December 30, 2020
3.5 stars, rounded up
I had to pysch myself up to read this. Right now, depressing stories are hard to take on top of real life. Suleika is 22 years old when she’s diagnosed with a rare form of leukemia. All of a sudden, her tiredness and mouth sores aren’t just a case of anemia. It was scary to realize how many decisions had to be made in such a short time amount of time, like fertility issues, experimental trials.
It’s a dark, at times tortuous story and I will admit to having to skim certain sections just to get through them. I had to keep reminding myself that the story obviously has a happy ending as she lived to write the memoir.
The book reminds us of the importance of being surrounded by a caring community. Not just her family, but a relatively new boyfriend. How many people would have put their life so totally on hold like Will for even a week let alone much longer? It’s also a reminder of how utterly draining dealing with cancer can be, for all concerned.
This is a brutally honest account of everything Sulieka dealt with - her emotions ranged all over the map, as you would expect. When a social worker asks her to consider a 100 Day Project, she returns to writing. This provides the outlet she needs, first through her blog and then a column for The NY Times. Sulieka truly has a gift for writing. “My cancer was a junkyard dog. It may have been fenced for now, but it was mean and growling, threatening to dig under the barbed wire and escape.”
The title refers to a quote from Susan Sontag about holding dual citizenship in the land of the well and of the sick. The second half of the book discusses how she moves on from being a cancer patient, the search to find her new identity. I found this half of the book much more interesting and new. She discusses her need to move beyond the fear. She revisits folks she met on her cancer journey. It's obviously a much more uplifting tale.
My thanks to netgalley and Random House for an advance copy of this book.
I had to pysch myself up to read this. Right now, depressing stories are hard to take on top of real life. Suleika is 22 years old when she’s diagnosed with a rare form of leukemia. All of a sudden, her tiredness and mouth sores aren’t just a case of anemia. It was scary to realize how many decisions had to be made in such a short time amount of time, like fertility issues, experimental trials.
It’s a dark, at times tortuous story and I will admit to having to skim certain sections just to get through them. I had to keep reminding myself that the story obviously has a happy ending as she lived to write the memoir.
The book reminds us of the importance of being surrounded by a caring community. Not just her family, but a relatively new boyfriend. How many people would have put their life so totally on hold like Will for even a week let alone much longer? It’s also a reminder of how utterly draining dealing with cancer can be, for all concerned.
This is a brutally honest account of everything Sulieka dealt with - her emotions ranged all over the map, as you would expect. When a social worker asks her to consider a 100 Day Project, she returns to writing. This provides the outlet she needs, first through her blog and then a column for The NY Times. Sulieka truly has a gift for writing. “My cancer was a junkyard dog. It may have been fenced for now, but it was mean and growling, threatening to dig under the barbed wire and escape.”
The title refers to a quote from Susan Sontag about holding dual citizenship in the land of the well and of the sick. The second half of the book discusses how she moves on from being a cancer patient, the search to find her new identity. I found this half of the book much more interesting and new. She discusses her need to move beyond the fear. She revisits folks she met on her cancer journey. It's obviously a much more uplifting tale.
My thanks to netgalley and Random House for an advance copy of this book.
February 14, 2021
I thought this would be a road trip book based on the cover and description, but that's only the last third of the book or so, and it meanders once it gets to that point. Instead it was two-thirds a graphic account of what it's like to get cancer and the treatment process. It's obviously not easy to get cancer at such a sensitive time in your life, and she had a particularly difficult case, but it's hard to watch her railroad her family, and particularly her boyfriend who took up the mantle of being her primary caretaker despite barely knowing her. She deserves credit for being somewhat honest about not being perfect in these times, and obviously she was quite young, but the retelling does feel a bit... constructed, to the degree that you wonder what the realities were.
I know it's a memoir and it's her reality. Obviously the cancer ravaged her livelihood, but, she chose to also express how it ravaged her relationships. I don't love the picture that emerges there, or the example it sets, and by that I mean: Every conflict becomes about her and her ability to forgive herself for acting out over the basic needs over those around her, and not empathy for those around her and whether their needs were also valid. When she still can't get there, especially now that she has the 10,000 foot view as she's writing a book if not in the moment, that feels like the thought pattern of a self-centered asshole, frankly. I notice she did not thank Will in the acknowledgments; strange omission!
When cancer puts people so far beyond reproach, even makes people afraid of engaging with a person's less than honorable qualities, I'm not sure she's entirely holding herself accountable in her relationships. "I had cancer!" covers all manner of sins. The writing was nice.
I know it's a memoir and it's her reality. Obviously the cancer ravaged her livelihood, but, she chose to also express how it ravaged her relationships. I don't love the picture that emerges there, or the example it sets, and by that I mean: Every conflict becomes about her and her ability to forgive herself for acting out over the basic needs over those around her, and not empathy for those around her and whether their needs were also valid. When she still can't get there, especially now that she has the 10,000 foot view as she's writing a book if not in the moment, that feels like the thought pattern of a self-centered asshole, frankly. I notice she did not thank Will in the acknowledgments; strange omission!
When cancer puts people so far beyond reproach, even makes people afraid of engaging with a person's less than honorable qualities, I'm not sure she's entirely holding herself accountable in her relationships. "I had cancer!" covers all manner of sins. The writing was nice.
March 11, 2021
The first 60% of this book focuses on the author's fight against acute myeloid leukemia. After her treatment concludes, she spends the remainder of the book documenting a 100-day solo journey across the United States. A huge theme of the book is the bifurcation of her life: the times before and after being sick. It makes sense that the book would mirror that by being divided into the story of her illness and the story of what came afterward.
For me, the dichotomy did not work and felt like two entirely different books. Her writing about her treatment was a raw and devastating depiction of cancer treatment guided by the facts of her illness. The second half of the book was an entirely self-reflective spin on Eat, Pray, Love that did not really work for me.
We've all had to reevaluate how truthful a memoir is after Oprah and A Million Little Pieces. Turning memories and journals into a narrative is a very challenging endeavor. Still, I groaned through a lot of the too-clean quips that read like fiction and a handful of completely unbelievable scenarios. For example, she claims that she convinced a guard at the Taj Mahal to help her break some essential ground rules because she is so very special. Sure, that makes for a good story, but that doesn't ring true. The author's Instagram posts from the time of illness also show a lot of things that went completely unaddressed in the book, such as multiple overseas vacations and career milestones.
For all of her self-reflection, the author seems to have a lot of blind spots, particularly around her privilege. She makes a passive comment about only being able to afford Princeton through scholarships but then describes multiple study abroad trips and unpaid/low-paying internships that require financial privilege. She barely reflects on the privilege of having health insurance or being able to get appointments at some of the best hospitals in NYC for her treatment. Money seems like a complete afterthought, and the financials of her life (particularly after her cancer) are mysterious.
It would have also been nice for her to have some self-reflection on her pattern of codependent relationships. She jumps immediately from a long-term relationship that was colored by the trauma of her illness into another without any reservations.
For me, the dichotomy did not work and felt like two entirely different books. Her writing about her treatment was a raw and devastating depiction of cancer treatment guided by the facts of her illness. The second half of the book was an entirely self-reflective spin on Eat, Pray, Love that did not really work for me.
We've all had to reevaluate how truthful a memoir is after Oprah and A Million Little Pieces. Turning memories and journals into a narrative is a very challenging endeavor. Still, I groaned through a lot of the too-clean quips that read like fiction and a handful of completely unbelievable scenarios. For example, she claims that she convinced a guard at the Taj Mahal to help her break some essential ground rules because she is so very special. Sure, that makes for a good story, but that doesn't ring true. The author's Instagram posts from the time of illness also show a lot of things that went completely unaddressed in the book, such as multiple overseas vacations and career milestones.
For all of her self-reflection, the author seems to have a lot of blind spots, particularly around her privilege. She makes a passive comment about only being able to afford Princeton through scholarships but then describes multiple study abroad trips and unpaid/low-paying internships that require financial privilege. She barely reflects on the privilege of having health insurance or being able to get appointments at some of the best hospitals in NYC for her treatment. Money seems like a complete afterthought, and the financials of her life (particularly after her cancer) are mysterious.
It would have also been nice for her to have some self-reflection on her pattern of codependent relationships. She jumps immediately from a long-term relationship that was colored by the trauma of her illness into another without any reservations.
February 5, 2021
"You will never know how strong you are until being strong is the only choice you have. " - Bob Marley
Right after graduating from college, Suleika Jaouad was ready to take on the world. She had moved to Paris and to purse her dream of becoming a war correspondence. Life would set her up for a different kind of battle. She began to itch. Not the little itch that we all experience from time to time but a drawn out annoying one that had her waking each day to find scratch marks on her body. It was persistent and did not go away. Then fatigue set in. After many doctor appointments, and right before her twenty third birthday, she was diagnosed with Leukemia with a 35 percent chance of survival.
"Until death, it is all life. " - Miguel de Cervantes
Life had changed on a dime. She moved back in with her parents, lost her job, her apartment and her ability to freely live her life. She would be in and out of the hospital, facing treatments, exhaustion, fighting for her life all the while chronicling her experiences and illness in the New York Times.
She had many who were there for her as support throughout her long battle which altered her dreams, her relationships and her life goals. Cancer not only took a toll on her body, but on her outlook but also on those in her life. She mentions in the book that "Cancer is greedy." It ravaged everything and left her to rebuild again.
"Death never comes at a good time..."
When she was declared "cured" what would life look like for her? How do you move forward when those you have met and bonded with are gone? How does such a life altering illness effect your relationship?
I always find it out and often difficult to rate a memoir as I do not want to rate that person’s life and experiences but do want to rate the level of writing and my ability to relate to or learn something from their memoir. Her writing is beautiful, and I am awed by her bravery in sharing just how the cancer ravaged her body. She does not shy away from sharing the details.
Obviously, we know she survives and even thought her career goals changed, she continues to write and wrote an Emmy award winning column titled "Life Interrupted." Her wok has been featured in magazines and she has created Isolation Journals. She may not be a war correspondent, but she has made an impact in journalism.
This is a moving, thought provoking and powerful memoir.
Thank you to Random House and NetGalley who provided me with a copy of this book in exchange for an honest review. All the thoughts and opinions are my own.
See more of my reviews at www.openbookposts.com
Right after graduating from college, Suleika Jaouad was ready to take on the world. She had moved to Paris and to purse her dream of becoming a war correspondence. Life would set her up for a different kind of battle. She began to itch. Not the little itch that we all experience from time to time but a drawn out annoying one that had her waking each day to find scratch marks on her body. It was persistent and did not go away. Then fatigue set in. After many doctor appointments, and right before her twenty third birthday, she was diagnosed with Leukemia with a 35 percent chance of survival.
"Until death, it is all life. " - Miguel de Cervantes
Life had changed on a dime. She moved back in with her parents, lost her job, her apartment and her ability to freely live her life. She would be in and out of the hospital, facing treatments, exhaustion, fighting for her life all the while chronicling her experiences and illness in the New York Times.
She had many who were there for her as support throughout her long battle which altered her dreams, her relationships and her life goals. Cancer not only took a toll on her body, but on her outlook but also on those in her life. She mentions in the book that "Cancer is greedy." It ravaged everything and left her to rebuild again.
"Death never comes at a good time..."
When she was declared "cured" what would life look like for her? How do you move forward when those you have met and bonded with are gone? How does such a life altering illness effect your relationship?
I always find it out and often difficult to rate a memoir as I do not want to rate that person’s life and experiences but do want to rate the level of writing and my ability to relate to or learn something from their memoir. Her writing is beautiful, and I am awed by her bravery in sharing just how the cancer ravaged her body. She does not shy away from sharing the details.
Obviously, we know she survives and even thought her career goals changed, she continues to write and wrote an Emmy award winning column titled "Life Interrupted." Her wok has been featured in magazines and she has created Isolation Journals. She may not be a war correspondent, but she has made an impact in journalism.
This is a moving, thought provoking and powerful memoir.
Thank you to Random House and NetGalley who provided me with a copy of this book in exchange for an honest review. All the thoughts and opinions are my own.
See more of my reviews at www.openbookposts.com
June 13, 2021
I will say that Suleika Jaouad really, really, really thinks a lot of herself. Apparently, the world revolves around her and the rest of us just don't know it yet. I wanted to read this because I also beat an aggressive rare and advanced cancer. I wanted to connect with an author who understood the struggles- physically, emotionally, and financially that cancer creates. I started out liking her and relating to her, but then the things that she focused on seemed so...singular and superlative. I'd have much rather read the cancer survival story of someone who wasn't blessed with a loving family, money, support, love, and fantastic opportunities. The story of how someone who faced personal obstacles, in addition to cancer, would have been something I'd inhale. Poor Suleika only had men who worshipped her, friends who influenced the art world, doctors who were obsessed with only her, and a family who loved her no matter what. Let's not forget that she was basically handed every opportunity that others work their entire lives for, and rarely receive. I just really don't like her. I would have rather heard more about her physical journey because the emotional one was about as deep as a kiddie pool.
August 5, 2021
The memoirs that I admire most open both my mind and heart. Between Two Kingdoms does this and more. You might question, like I did, if you really want to read about a young woman's experience with cancer. But Jaouad makes her story an adventure - a beautifully written, eye-opening and perilous journey that has informed and deepened the way I view illness, recovery...and life. I loved listening to Jaouad narrate her story on the audiobook.
January 5, 2024
Have you seen the Netflix movie, American Symphony? It is a documentary about musician, Jon Batiste, who sets out to compose a symphony. But then his life partner, author Suleika Jaouad learns that her cancer is back. The documentary showcases the portrait of these two artists at a pivotal crossroads in their relationship and their creative process.
That movie introduced me to this author, Jon Batiste’s partner.
And…I wanted to learn more about her.
So…I ordered her memoir from my local library.
Her story is mesmerizing. A story of survival and a journey to live. Her intention was to be a war correspondent after graduating Princeton in 2010.
But…She was diagnosed with a rare form of acute myeloid leukemia. She was given a 35% chance of survival as she fought for her life in a cancer ward in New York City.
She was only 22. She called it her “incanceration” – months of isolation to prevent infections.
And…As she wrote what began as a blog, then a weekly column…
It…Eventually grew to videos for the New York Times, called “Life, Interrupted,” which gained a huge following.
She was now a different kind of war correspondent. An internal war raging within, reporter correspondent.
Which…May seem like a trigger warning, too.
Like… Watching a horror movie (where you know there are parts that you want to cover your eyes because the music is telling you the monster is coming).
Because…There are some scenes within the book that are hard to read. She is very open about sharing the horrid truths about living with cancer.
And…This memoir is her illness and its aftermath.
Still...That aftermath was learning how to live again post-cancer.
Which… Is what I think makes her book special and different than most other books about cancer.
Because…She is talking about what it’s like to survive and figure out how to live again after cancer.
Her writing is painfully honest. Readers will be able to tell through her writings that she is an audacious reporter.
This is truly a beautiful story.
And…If you haven’t seen it yet, I recommend American Symphony on Netflix, as well. 4.5 stars.
That movie introduced me to this author, Jon Batiste’s partner.
And…I wanted to learn more about her.
So…I ordered her memoir from my local library.
Her story is mesmerizing. A story of survival and a journey to live. Her intention was to be a war correspondent after graduating Princeton in 2010.
But…She was diagnosed with a rare form of acute myeloid leukemia. She was given a 35% chance of survival as she fought for her life in a cancer ward in New York City.
She was only 22. She called it her “incanceration” – months of isolation to prevent infections.
And…As she wrote what began as a blog, then a weekly column…
It…Eventually grew to videos for the New York Times, called “Life, Interrupted,” which gained a huge following.
She was now a different kind of war correspondent. An internal war raging within, reporter correspondent.
Which…May seem like a trigger warning, too.
Like… Watching a horror movie (where you know there are parts that you want to cover your eyes because the music is telling you the monster is coming).
Because…There are some scenes within the book that are hard to read. She is very open about sharing the horrid truths about living with cancer.
And…This memoir is her illness and its aftermath.
Still...That aftermath was learning how to live again post-cancer.
Which… Is what I think makes her book special and different than most other books about cancer.
Because…She is talking about what it’s like to survive and figure out how to live again after cancer.
Her writing is painfully honest. Readers will be able to tell through her writings that she is an audacious reporter.
This is truly a beautiful story.
And…If you haven’t seen it yet, I recommend American Symphony on Netflix, as well. 4.5 stars.
December 21, 2020
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Thank you to Netgalley and Random House for giving me a digital copy of this book
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Thank you to Netgalley and Random House for giving me a digital copy of this book
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https://melissa413readsalot.blogspot....
Mel 🖤🐶🐺🐾
January 29, 2022
Don’t get me wrong what the author went through was terrible, however I don’t find her to be a reliable narrator in this book.
She claims to be an extremely independent person, however she “hasn’t been single for more than a month since 17”
I understand she went through hell but cancer (or any major form of illness) affects everyone around you; I hate the way she portrayed Will because even though he wasn’t perfect, he still took care of her for THREE YEARS. He gave up SO much for her and yeah, a lot of it was to take care of her and she got pissed because of that?
She had the bright idea of getting a dog when she got cancer? Like yeah, your boyfriend is gonna be annoyed cause on top of chores, he has to take care of a dog too. That’s a BIG deal especially if you’re busy taking care of someone else and yourself and have work and now you add a dog to top it off? It wasn’t a considerate choice at all.
She’s so close to her mom but she’s barely mentioned in here and when her boyfriend wanted to take a break from her she was very reluctant to move in with her parents temporarily or rely on them? She wanted to rely on one person and thinks there’s nothing wrong with that?
She’s not self-reflective one bit throughout this memoir, I question her self-awareness and how the story was really portrayed. She’s a literal cliché and stereotype and brought nothing new or constructive to the table, I feel like she’s reiterating a story that’s not her own; it feels like her cliché lines aren’t genuinely hers.
I don’t like to read memoirs when I feel I can’t trust the author writing the memoir. It wasn’t very good, I don’t understand the hype of the book.
She claims to be an extremely independent person, however she “hasn’t been single for more than a month since 17”
I understand she went through hell but cancer (or any major form of illness) affects everyone around you; I hate the way she portrayed Will because even though he wasn’t perfect, he still took care of her for THREE YEARS. He gave up SO much for her and yeah, a lot of it was to take care of her and she got pissed because of that?
She had the bright idea of getting a dog when she got cancer? Like yeah, your boyfriend is gonna be annoyed cause on top of chores, he has to take care of a dog too. That’s a BIG deal especially if you’re busy taking care of someone else and yourself and have work and now you add a dog to top it off? It wasn’t a considerate choice at all.
She’s so close to her mom but she’s barely mentioned in here and when her boyfriend wanted to take a break from her she was very reluctant to move in with her parents temporarily or rely on them? She wanted to rely on one person and thinks there’s nothing wrong with that?
She’s not self-reflective one bit throughout this memoir, I question her self-awareness and how the story was really portrayed. She’s a literal cliché and stereotype and brought nothing new or constructive to the table, I feel like she’s reiterating a story that’s not her own; it feels like her cliché lines aren’t genuinely hers.
I don’t like to read memoirs when I feel I can’t trust the author writing the memoir. It wasn’t very good, I don’t understand the hype of the book.
November 23, 2020
*Some of the scenes depicted of Suleika's sufferings were quite graphic*
Some say the world is your oyster and for Suleika Jaourd that seemed to be her future. Recent college grad, moving to Paris and a new boyfriend make for a life that seems to be unfolding before her. Then Suleika is bothered by itchiness that drove her crazy. Next came exhaustion that even six hour naps couldn't quell. A trip to the doctor confirmed this was something awful, leukemia with the chances of survival placed at 35%. The world that was bright, sunny, and destined to be wonderful, turned into one of a nightmare with three and a half years of chemotherapy, radiation, and a bone marrow transplant. She survived with the help of family, friends, and her devoted boyfriend, but it did cost her greatly.
The doctors said she was cured, but along the way she lost so much, her job, her life in Paris, her life with her devoted boyfriend, and many of the friends she had made while undergoing treatments. She suffered greatly not only from the pain of the cancer, but also the many ways her young life had turned to days of vomiting, losing her hair, exhaustion, and the many horrors of this disease.
However, Sulieka survived. She began writing a column for the NY Times, and that gave her a purpose during the life threatening times she endured. Through her writing and a blog she met many people who had lost someone, or was suffering from a deadly illness. She connected with many of them and later on in an attempt to find her way after all she had been through in a one hundred day journey across country with her dog as her sole companion,she met face to face with some of them. Sulieka felt these people enriched her life and gave it a meaning she didn't think she could recapture.
But recapture she did and she began once again on that journey called life. She found that she and others, really all of us, live between two kingdoms as we survive the ills of our lives and learn to begin once again.
Thank you to Suleika Jaourd, Random House, and NetGalley for a copy of the memoir due out February 9, 2021.
Some say the world is your oyster and for Suleika Jaourd that seemed to be her future. Recent college grad, moving to Paris and a new boyfriend make for a life that seems to be unfolding before her. Then Suleika is bothered by itchiness that drove her crazy. Next came exhaustion that even six hour naps couldn't quell. A trip to the doctor confirmed this was something awful, leukemia with the chances of survival placed at 35%. The world that was bright, sunny, and destined to be wonderful, turned into one of a nightmare with three and a half years of chemotherapy, radiation, and a bone marrow transplant. She survived with the help of family, friends, and her devoted boyfriend, but it did cost her greatly.
The doctors said she was cured, but along the way she lost so much, her job, her life in Paris, her life with her devoted boyfriend, and many of the friends she had made while undergoing treatments. She suffered greatly not only from the pain of the cancer, but also the many ways her young life had turned to days of vomiting, losing her hair, exhaustion, and the many horrors of this disease.
However, Sulieka survived. She began writing a column for the NY Times, and that gave her a purpose during the life threatening times she endured. Through her writing and a blog she met many people who had lost someone, or was suffering from a deadly illness. She connected with many of them and later on in an attempt to find her way after all she had been through in a one hundred day journey across country with her dog as her sole companion,she met face to face with some of them. Sulieka felt these people enriched her life and gave it a meaning she didn't think she could recapture.
But recapture she did and she began once again on that journey called life. She found that she and others, really all of us, live between two kingdoms as we survive the ills of our lives and learn to begin once again.
Thank you to Suleika Jaourd, Random House, and NetGalley for a copy of the memoir due out February 9, 2021.
July 21, 2022
Part memoir and part travelogue, Between Two Kingdoms is a deeply personal book about the author's journey through her cancer treatment and the road trip she embarks on after her treatment concludes. Jaouad doesn't hold back in describing every aspect of her experience, whether it be physical, mental, or emotional. It's a must read for anyone interested in increasing their knowledge of what it's like to have cancer.
February 27, 2021
Four Stars
Suleika Jaouad had just graduated college when she was diagnosed with leukemia. As the book begins she is ready to take on the world, bravely embarking on a new job in Paris. To her utter surprise, new boyfriend Will decides to come join her. Everything is going well except nagging in the background, this tantalizing itch that would start up her feet and move up her body. Then there was the weakness that prompted Suleika to take hours long naps. She was almost 23 when she finally received the diagnosis of leukemia, for which there was a 35% chance of recovery. She returned home to New York and her parents to focus on treatment. Then Will gave up everything and also returned from Paris, to live in Suleika's parents' house and become her primary caregiver.
The first part of the book where Suleika was fighting cancer, mostly in the hospital, was the most interesting and engaging to me. I guess you would call this the "1st kingdom" of the book. Suleika's brother essentially saved her life by providing his bone marrow. Even so, it would take time to know if the process was successful and there could be pitfalls along the way. Suleika would get disappointed when she found out that more chemotherapy treatments would be necessary after the bone marrow transplant to ensure the best odds of beating the cancer. She and Will took up residence in her parent's empty small apartment in the village where Will was her sole caregiver, even while working a full-time job. I found his dedication truly inspirational and could sympathise from personal experience with the strain such an arrangement causes.
The "2nd kingdom" of the book is after Suleika recovers from cancer. One would think after the intense, life and death struggle she's endured that making it to "the other side" would be all joy. To her surprise, she's experiencing a whole spectrum of feelings to work through that she never expected. It's as if she's another person now, and needs to find herself. While a patient in Sloan Kettering, she wrote articles about her real-time experience fighting cancer that was published as a recurring feature in the New York Times. Her resultant notoriety sparked a correspondence with other cancer warriors across the country. In a cathartic exercise, she embarked on a 100-day 15,000 mile car ride across the country to visit some of these people whom she had become close pen pals with. Being a New Yorker who relied on subways and taxis, she had only recently learned to drive. But a friend lent her his trusty Suburu and this too became a new rite of passage, learning to navigate the roads. So she packed up her dog Oscar and began her journey.
Like I alluded to earlier, I found her cancer fight in the hospital the most riveting to read. I was interested in the doctors, treatments, symptoms, etc. I also enjoyed reading about the hospital environment itself- like the other patients she encountered and the floors of the hospital she found most comforting. Suleika made close hospital friends and lost most of them to cancer along the way. This realm of the book hits you where you live, which is why I found it such an intense and moving read. I became a bit detached towards the end of the book when Suleika took her cross country trek. When she expounded on each family or person she visited, if it got too detailed I wasn't as interested. However, Suleika writes extremely well and overall this culminates in a high quality read.
Thank you to the publisher Random House for providing an advance reader copy via NetGalley.
Suleika Jaouad had just graduated college when she was diagnosed with leukemia. As the book begins she is ready to take on the world, bravely embarking on a new job in Paris. To her utter surprise, new boyfriend Will decides to come join her. Everything is going well except nagging in the background, this tantalizing itch that would start up her feet and move up her body. Then there was the weakness that prompted Suleika to take hours long naps. She was almost 23 when she finally received the diagnosis of leukemia, for which there was a 35% chance of recovery. She returned home to New York and her parents to focus on treatment. Then Will gave up everything and also returned from Paris, to live in Suleika's parents' house and become her primary caregiver.
The first part of the book where Suleika was fighting cancer, mostly in the hospital, was the most interesting and engaging to me. I guess you would call this the "1st kingdom" of the book. Suleika's brother essentially saved her life by providing his bone marrow. Even so, it would take time to know if the process was successful and there could be pitfalls along the way. Suleika would get disappointed when she found out that more chemotherapy treatments would be necessary after the bone marrow transplant to ensure the best odds of beating the cancer. She and Will took up residence in her parent's empty small apartment in the village where Will was her sole caregiver, even while working a full-time job. I found his dedication truly inspirational and could sympathise from personal experience with the strain such an arrangement causes.
The "2nd kingdom" of the book is after Suleika recovers from cancer. One would think after the intense, life and death struggle she's endured that making it to "the other side" would be all joy. To her surprise, she's experiencing a whole spectrum of feelings to work through that she never expected. It's as if she's another person now, and needs to find herself. While a patient in Sloan Kettering, she wrote articles about her real-time experience fighting cancer that was published as a recurring feature in the New York Times. Her resultant notoriety sparked a correspondence with other cancer warriors across the country. In a cathartic exercise, she embarked on a 100-day 15,000 mile car ride across the country to visit some of these people whom she had become close pen pals with. Being a New Yorker who relied on subways and taxis, she had only recently learned to drive. But a friend lent her his trusty Suburu and this too became a new rite of passage, learning to navigate the roads. So she packed up her dog Oscar and began her journey.
Like I alluded to earlier, I found her cancer fight in the hospital the most riveting to read. I was interested in the doctors, treatments, symptoms, etc. I also enjoyed reading about the hospital environment itself- like the other patients she encountered and the floors of the hospital she found most comforting. Suleika made close hospital friends and lost most of them to cancer along the way. This realm of the book hits you where you live, which is why I found it such an intense and moving read. I became a bit detached towards the end of the book when Suleika took her cross country trek. When she expounded on each family or person she visited, if it got too detailed I wasn't as interested. However, Suleika writes extremely well and overall this culminates in a high quality read.
Thank you to the publisher Random House for providing an advance reader copy via NetGalley.
February 14, 2021
Absolutely beautiful. Check out my review on Booktube!
December 6, 2023
Suleika Jaouad deserves all the stars for this one.
I read it slowly and savored every word of her gorgeous writing.
This is the story of her young adult journey. She was just starting out in life and love when she was diagnosed with cancer. Her twenties were spent in and out of hospitals instead of starting her career, living in her childhood room instead of making her own way with the man she fell in love with, meeting new friends in the hospital and watching them die instead of going to shows and on crazy road trips with each other.
And you know what?! She wrote about all of it with incredible eloquence and honesty. She gave her experience a voice that I cannot stop thinking about.
Check this one out and I promise you will learn something about yourself.
I read it slowly and savored every word of her gorgeous writing.
This is the story of her young adult journey. She was just starting out in life and love when she was diagnosed with cancer. Her twenties were spent in and out of hospitals instead of starting her career, living in her childhood room instead of making her own way with the man she fell in love with, meeting new friends in the hospital and watching them die instead of going to shows and on crazy road trips with each other.
And you know what?! She wrote about all of it with incredible eloquence and honesty. She gave her experience a voice that I cannot stop thinking about.
Check this one out and I promise you will learn something about yourself.
March 29, 2021
Somehow it feels heartless to not give a memoir about going through chemo more stars, but it honestly was just a meh read. I normally love reading memoirs and so at first couldn't figure out why this one just didn't work for me. It might have a bit to do with the fact that the author isn't exactly likeable - she is so incredibly mean to some people. And not that every story has to end with some revelation and emotional growth, but well, I think I was nonetheless surprised she never acknowledged how unfairly she treated others.
But I think the bigger issue I had was that somewhere midway through the book things weren't adding up. For example, there are so many aspects of her life during chemo that she never mentions: her travels, her career taking off, her speaking engagements. And then midway through the book she just just casually mentions all that had also been happening in the years she had been chronicling. In some memoirs this wouldn't have mattered, but since she had made her career and her inability to travel and socialize a theme about which she and her bf kept fighting, I sort of felt duped when I realized I had just been told a story that was heavily edited to try to win me over, without even pretending to follow the conventions of a memoir.
But I think the bigger issue I had was that somewhere midway through the book things weren't adding up. For example, there are so many aspects of her life during chemo that she never mentions: her travels, her career taking off, her speaking engagements. And then midway through the book she just just casually mentions all that had also been happening in the years she had been chronicling. In some memoirs this wouldn't have mattered, but since she had made her career and her inability to travel and socialize a theme about which she and her bf kept fighting, I sort of felt duped when I realized I had just been told a story that was heavily edited to try to win me over, without even pretending to follow the conventions of a memoir.
October 29, 2021
După o astfel de carte mă gândesc de două ori înainte de a susține că ceva este ”nedrept”, îmi voi reevalua atitudinea față de tot ceea ce înseamnă VIAȚĂ. Căci da, ”Între două lumi” este un elogiu adus vieții de către o femeie care s-a aflat pe marginea prăpastiei. O femeie alături de care aș fi călătorit în cele 100 de zile pe care și le-a oferit după ce a învins boala, o femeie puternică pe care mi-aș dori să o cunosc pentru că e genul de om care transmite speranță, care invită la îngăduință, dar și la acceptare.
Nu mă pot abține să nu fac o comparație: ce e mai dureros, ce e mai nedrept? Să afli că ai leucemie la 22 de ani sau faptul că trebuie să porți mască, să te vaccinezi și să respecți niște reguli PENTRU O PERIOADĂ DE TIMP? Retorice, da, dar cartea aceasta chiar merită o șansă.
”Operațiile și perioadele de convalescență ale lui Kahlo, iubirile și suferințele din dragoste au continuat să trăiască în picturile sale după ce ea a murit, iar în cele din urmă a căpătat un statut aproape legendar ca sfântă ocrotitoare a celor neadaptați și a celor bolnavi. Ar fi putut un om sănătos să picteze astfel de capodopere? m-am întrebat. Puteau fi opera cuiva care nu se confruntase niciodată cu fragilitatea îngrozitoare a corpului uman? Mă îndoiam. Eu nu eram Frida Kahlo, desigur, prin urmare nu știam încă cum să mă inspir din propria-mi nefericire. Însă povestea ei a stârnit ceva în mine. Am început să cercetez lungul șir de artiști și scriitori țintuiți la pat, care și-au transformat alchimic suferința în sursă de inspirație: Henri Matisse, convalescent în urma cancerului intestinal, a proiectat Capela Rozariului din Veneția pictând din pat tavanul apartamentului său cu o pensulă atașată de un băț lung. Marcel Proust și-a petrecut mare parte din viață la pat din cauza astmului și a depresiei severe care îl chinuiseră încă din copilărie și a scris cele șapte volume ale romanului În căutarea timpului pierdut dintr-un pat îngust din alamă căptușit cu plută, ca să-l protejeze de sunetele lumii din afară. Roald Dahl credea că durerea cronică de care suferea îi lansase cariera de scriitor: „Mă îndoiesc că aș fi scris vreun rând sau că aș fi fost în stare să scriu vreun rând dacă o tragedie oarecare nu mi-ar fi scos mintea de pe făgașul normal“, îi scria el unui prieten. În toate aceste cazuri, neputința fizică și limitările care decurgeau din ea au avut darul de a stimula imaginația și productivitatea.
Cum scria Frida Kahlo: „La ce-mi mai trebuie picioare când am aripi să zbor?“
M-am hotărât să-mi redefinesc supraviețuirea ca pe un act de creație. Dacă nu puteam vorbi din cauza aftelor provocate de chimioterapie, aveam să găsesc noi moduri de comunicare. Atâta vreme cât eram țintuită la pat, imaginația mea avea să devină vehiculul care îmi permitea să călătoresc dincolo de granițele camerei mele. Dacă trupul meu era atât de secătuit încât aveam numai trei ore funcționale pe zi, urma să-mi clarific prioritățile și să profit la maximum de timpul pe care-l aveam.”
Nu mă pot abține să nu fac o comparație: ce e mai dureros, ce e mai nedrept? Să afli că ai leucemie la 22 de ani sau faptul că trebuie să porți mască, să te vaccinezi și să respecți niște reguli PENTRU O PERIOADĂ DE TIMP? Retorice, da, dar cartea aceasta chiar merită o șansă.
”Operațiile și perioadele de convalescență ale lui Kahlo, iubirile și suferințele din dragoste au continuat să trăiască în picturile sale după ce ea a murit, iar în cele din urmă a căpătat un statut aproape legendar ca sfântă ocrotitoare a celor neadaptați și a celor bolnavi. Ar fi putut un om sănătos să picteze astfel de capodopere? m-am întrebat. Puteau fi opera cuiva care nu se confruntase niciodată cu fragilitatea îngrozitoare a corpului uman? Mă îndoiam. Eu nu eram Frida Kahlo, desigur, prin urmare nu știam încă cum să mă inspir din propria-mi nefericire. Însă povestea ei a stârnit ceva în mine. Am început să cercetez lungul șir de artiști și scriitori țintuiți la pat, care și-au transformat alchimic suferința în sursă de inspirație: Henri Matisse, convalescent în urma cancerului intestinal, a proiectat Capela Rozariului din Veneția pictând din pat tavanul apartamentului său cu o pensulă atașată de un băț lung. Marcel Proust și-a petrecut mare parte din viață la pat din cauza astmului și a depresiei severe care îl chinuiseră încă din copilărie și a scris cele șapte volume ale romanului În căutarea timpului pierdut dintr-un pat îngust din alamă căptușit cu plută, ca să-l protejeze de sunetele lumii din afară. Roald Dahl credea că durerea cronică de care suferea îi lansase cariera de scriitor: „Mă îndoiesc că aș fi scris vreun rând sau că aș fi fost în stare să scriu vreun rând dacă o tragedie oarecare nu mi-ar fi scos mintea de pe făgașul normal“, îi scria el unui prieten. În toate aceste cazuri, neputința fizică și limitările care decurgeau din ea au avut darul de a stimula imaginația și productivitatea.
Cum scria Frida Kahlo: „La ce-mi mai trebuie picioare când am aripi să zbor?“
M-am hotărât să-mi redefinesc supraviețuirea ca pe un act de creație. Dacă nu puteam vorbi din cauza aftelor provocate de chimioterapie, aveam să găsesc noi moduri de comunicare. Atâta vreme cât eram țintuită la pat, imaginația mea avea să devină vehiculul care îmi permitea să călătoresc dincolo de granițele camerei mele. Dacă trupul meu era atât de secătuit încât aveam numai trei ore funcționale pe zi, urma să-mi clarific prioritățile și să profit la maximum de timpul pe care-l aveam.”
January 14, 2021
02/09/2021: HAPPY PUB DAY! So excited to have this out in the world.
A book such as this one deserves no less than 5 stars.
Grit, jubilance, pain, terror, ingenuity, heartbreak, and resilience—all are conveyed through Suleika Jaouad’s vibrant, compelling prose. This memoir delves into some of the heaviest topics a person will ever grapple with in their life, and then some.
When Suleika Jaouad was twenty-two, she began experiencing inexplicable symptoms. It started as an itchiness that spreads throughout her entire body, then morphed into bone-deep fatigue. Sores erupted in her mouth; she lost weight as quickly as she lost the motivation to attend her job as a paralegal in Paris. When the diagnosis arrived—a rare and aggressive form of leukaemia—Jaouad’s life was entirely, irrevocably derailed.
In the subsequent years, she undergoes numerous bouts of chemotherapy that ravage her as much as the cancer, seeping into every aspect of her life: her body; her relationships with friends, partners, and family; her once boundless aspirations to become a writer or foreign correspondent; her understanding of grief, mortality, and what it means to be present.
She eventually embarks on a 100-day road trip across the U.S. to visit several key individuals who supported her throughout the seemingly insurmountable trials and years of being a cancer patient.
Jaouad’s narrative voice hits all the right notes to keep you reading. In fact, the resonance of her words is such that I promise there is something to ensnare every reader, regardless of who you are.
You do not have to be a young adult battling cancer, a child of immigrants, a woman with incredible grit, to understand, empathize, or find meaning. Importantly, this resonance does not, as Jaouad writes, “reduc[e] your suffering to sameness.”
As a person with a chronic health condition, I understood her frustrations with the medical system, the ways in which they failed her—neglecting to tell her that chemo might leave her infertile, for example. As a reader, I was utterly drawn into her storytelling, which invites us to be braver and more imaginative than ever before without ever requiring us to “find the silver lining.” And as an aspiring 23yo writer, I loved reading how she, an unpublished 23yo, pitched and was granted a weekly column with The New York Times; Cancer had made me brazen, she writes. The accompanying video series that she proposed and filmed for this column went on to win an Emmy.
Bottom line: Within these pages, I was simultaneously filled with Jaouad’s fear and her fire. Between Two Kingdoms is not only marvellous storytelling, it is also one woman’s struggle to make sense of a world that seems impossibly, devastatingly uncertain—and in the process, pares humanity down to its most compelling and compassionate core.
Many thanks to NetGalley and Random House for this ARC in exchange for an honest review.
I decided to reimagine my survival as a creative act.
A book such as this one deserves no less than 5 stars.
Grit, jubilance, pain, terror, ingenuity, heartbreak, and resilience—all are conveyed through Suleika Jaouad’s vibrant, compelling prose. This memoir delves into some of the heaviest topics a person will ever grapple with in their life, and then some.
When Suleika Jaouad was twenty-two, she began experiencing inexplicable symptoms. It started as an itchiness that spreads throughout her entire body, then morphed into bone-deep fatigue. Sores erupted in her mouth; she lost weight as quickly as she lost the motivation to attend her job as a paralegal in Paris. When the diagnosis arrived—a rare and aggressive form of leukaemia—Jaouad’s life was entirely, irrevocably derailed.
Everyone who is born holds dual citizenship, in the kingdom of the well and in the kingdom of the sick,” Susan Sontag wrote in Illness as Metaphor. “Although we all prefer to use only the good passport, sooner or later each of us is obliged, at least for a spell, to identify ourselves as citizens of that other place.”
In the subsequent years, she undergoes numerous bouts of chemotherapy that ravage her as much as the cancer, seeping into every aspect of her life: her body; her relationships with friends, partners, and family; her once boundless aspirations to become a writer or foreign correspondent; her understanding of grief, mortality, and what it means to be present.
She eventually embarks on a 100-day road trip across the U.S. to visit several key individuals who supported her throughout the seemingly insurmountable trials and years of being a cancer patient.
The tangling of so much cruelty and beauty has made of my life a strange, discordant landscape. It has left me with an awareness that haunts the edges of my vision—it can all be lost in a moment—but it’s also given me a jeweler’s eye.
Jaouad’s narrative voice hits all the right notes to keep you reading. In fact, the resonance of her words is such that I promise there is something to ensnare every reader, regardless of who you are.
You do not have to be a young adult battling cancer, a child of immigrants, a woman with incredible grit, to understand, empathize, or find meaning. Importantly, this resonance does not, as Jaouad writes, “reduc[e] your suffering to sameness.”
As a person with a chronic health condition, I understood her frustrations with the medical system, the ways in which they failed her—neglecting to tell her that chemo might leave her infertile, for example. As a reader, I was utterly drawn into her storytelling, which invites us to be braver and more imaginative than ever before without ever requiring us to “find the silver lining.” And as an aspiring 23yo writer, I loved reading how she, an unpublished 23yo, pitched and was granted a weekly column with The New York Times; Cancer had made me brazen, she writes. The accompanying video series that she proposed and filmed for this column went on to win an Emmy.
To learn to swim in the ocean of not-knowing—this is my constant work.
Bottom line: Within these pages, I was simultaneously filled with Jaouad’s fear and her fire. Between Two Kingdoms is not only marvellous storytelling, it is also one woman’s struggle to make sense of a world that seems impossibly, devastatingly uncertain—and in the process, pares humanity down to its most compelling and compassionate core.
Many thanks to NetGalley and Random House for this ARC in exchange for an honest review.
March 7, 2021
A book of two parts, and the second part was disappointingly rushed. I enjoyed much of the book, though the author came across as quite self-centred and ungrateful towards her parents, brother and Will.
March 1, 2021
Between Two Kingdoms by Suleika Jaouad is a memoir about a woman’s cancer journey from diagnosis through life cancer free. Jaouad does a great job taking the reader through her cancer journey. Between Two Kingdom is the perfect mix of informative and emotional. Jaouad discusses everything she went through as well how cancer and her actions affected her loved ones. She was very open and honest. Jaouad wasn’t afraid to say things she messed up and how she should’ve done something differently. Suleika was graduating from college when she was diagnosed. The life she was planning to live changed into a life based around treatment without being able to work. Suleika has to find hobbies to fill her time that she is able to do while sick and tired from chemo. This is what got her into writing. Suleika is a strong woman and it is empowering to read her journey. Learning about Suleika’s cancer journey was very interesting but my favorite part of the book was her describing entering back into a cancer free world. I feel like this is something that isn’t discussed and is something I never would’ve thought of. Suleika goes on a roadtrip meeting other survivors and discusses their experiences. I highly recommend Between Two Kingdoms for anyone that is interested in learning about a strong woman’s cancer journey and learning to live without cancer.
Thank you Random House and NetGalley for Between Two Kingdoms.
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Thank you Random House and NetGalley for Between Two Kingdoms.
Full Review: https://justreadingjess.wordpress.com...
March 16, 2023
Powerful and well-written memoir about receiving a leukemia diagnosis at age 22, fighting for her life for three and a half years undergoing chemotherapy, a clinical trial, and a bone marrow transplant, and trying to rebuild herself after walking out of the cancer ward. I loved the way Suleika Jaouad wrote about her journey with leukemia though of course I wish she and others never suffered so much. She details her experience with vivid detail and self-awareness, so that readers can understand the depth of both her medical trauma as well as her own emotional processing. Jaouad packs so much insight into this memoir: the power of relationships even when life feels unbearable, using writing to gain a sense of control amidst uncontrollable pain, the thin line between wellness and illness, and much more.
In particular, I appreciated her reflection about her relationship with Will. I feel like it takes guts to so openly acknowledge when you messed up in a relationship; my sense is that that openness usually comes after someone has really reckoned and sat with the impact of their actions. I googled and saw that Jaouad was considered cured of her cancer though she relapsed in July 2022. I felt sad reading that news and I hope she and her loved ones are hanging in there as best as possible.
In particular, I appreciated her reflection about her relationship with Will. I feel like it takes guts to so openly acknowledge when you messed up in a relationship; my sense is that that openness usually comes after someone has really reckoned and sat with the impact of their actions. I googled and saw that Jaouad was considered cured of her cancer though she relapsed in July 2022. I felt sad reading that news and I hope she and her loved ones are hanging in there as best as possible.
October 11, 2020
Between Two Kingdoms is the fabulously well written memoir of Suleika Jaouad. Some readers may recognise her name from her Life, Interrupted column which was syndicated in numerous newspapers and magazines across America. This was a captivating book, both devastating and uplifting in equal measures. Devastating because it tells of her cancer diagnosis at just 22 years of age, of the toll this disease took not just on her life but on the lives of her family, friends and the ways it negatively impacted a beautiful relationship. Uplifting because despite all of those things she was a survivor struggling to pick up where life left off. When she was beginning to succumb to depression she instead dusted herself off and regained control of her life and took steps to actively re-engage in life and to live it in a more positive manner.
There are not too many people whose lives are untouched in some way by cancer. Not necessarily themselves but perhaps a work colleague, friend or family member. It's a torturous ordeal for the patient and stressful for loved ones. Suleika's story makes that blindingly obvious and highly relateable. The suffering is not only physical though that's dreadful enough. It's also pyschologically damaging, particularly when you're only 22 and continuously having near death experiences. Suleika speaks openly and eloquently about her sense of loss, her resentment and the envy she felt towards those still living their lives and moving forward. She writes of anger, of pain and of fear. She admits to huge bouts of guilt at the financial burden she placed upon her parents on one hand and the pressure upon her brother to become a bone marrow donor on the other. She made clear just how sad it was to make beautiful new friendships with other young cancer patients only to lose them and to then have to arrange their memorials. Each one of those factors made it hard to read Suleika's story.
Possibly even more than all of those things I was saddened about the way the disease wreaked havoc on the beautiful relationship between Suleika and her boyfriend Will. Suleika wrote with honesty and tenderness about the way Will took on the carer role and the sacrifices he made in his own life, the toll it took on him personally and professionally, and eventually the ways and reasons their relationship failed. Though she was resentful and had clearly been angry, she eventually worked through her feelings and though she still loved him she was adult enough to acknowledge the ways she had been responsible for the ultimate failure of that relationship. Her book had the feel of an ode to Will wrapped in an apology of sorts.
Post disease, not only was Suleika a new person in the sense of her changed DNA (thanks to her bone marrow transplant) but she needed to make a new life for herself, to figure out who she was now, what was important to her and how she could live within the physical limitations of her body. Instead of remaining mired in the difficulties of living, of dwelling on how life was not what she hoped and planned it to be, now that she had technically survived, Suleika forced herself to make some changes. In this spirit she embarked upon a 100 day roadtrip taking in 33 states meeting up with twenty of the people (strangers) whose words and thoughts helped sustain her during her cancer battle. This was inspiring and showed the true grit Suleika had demonstrated throughout her illness.
I cannot be more thankful to Jess from Penguin Random House for the invitation to read this tremendously moving memoir. Thank you too to NetGalley for making this possible. Finally my congratulations and thanks to Suleika for sharing her inspiring story. I wish her every happiness for her future and decades of good health to follow.
There are not too many people whose lives are untouched in some way by cancer. Not necessarily themselves but perhaps a work colleague, friend or family member. It's a torturous ordeal for the patient and stressful for loved ones. Suleika's story makes that blindingly obvious and highly relateable. The suffering is not only physical though that's dreadful enough. It's also pyschologically damaging, particularly when you're only 22 and continuously having near death experiences. Suleika speaks openly and eloquently about her sense of loss, her resentment and the envy she felt towards those still living their lives and moving forward. She writes of anger, of pain and of fear. She admits to huge bouts of guilt at the financial burden she placed upon her parents on one hand and the pressure upon her brother to become a bone marrow donor on the other. She made clear just how sad it was to make beautiful new friendships with other young cancer patients only to lose them and to then have to arrange their memorials. Each one of those factors made it hard to read Suleika's story.
Possibly even more than all of those things I was saddened about the way the disease wreaked havoc on the beautiful relationship between Suleika and her boyfriend Will. Suleika wrote with honesty and tenderness about the way Will took on the carer role and the sacrifices he made in his own life, the toll it took on him personally and professionally, and eventually the ways and reasons their relationship failed. Though she was resentful and had clearly been angry, she eventually worked through her feelings and though she still loved him she was adult enough to acknowledge the ways she had been responsible for the ultimate failure of that relationship. Her book had the feel of an ode to Will wrapped in an apology of sorts.
Post disease, not only was Suleika a new person in the sense of her changed DNA (thanks to her bone marrow transplant) but she needed to make a new life for herself, to figure out who she was now, what was important to her and how she could live within the physical limitations of her body. Instead of remaining mired in the difficulties of living, of dwelling on how life was not what she hoped and planned it to be, now that she had technically survived, Suleika forced herself to make some changes. In this spirit she embarked upon a 100 day roadtrip taking in 33 states meeting up with twenty of the people (strangers) whose words and thoughts helped sustain her during her cancer battle. This was inspiring and showed the true grit Suleika had demonstrated throughout her illness.
I cannot be more thankful to Jess from Penguin Random House for the invitation to read this tremendously moving memoir. Thank you too to NetGalley for making this possible. Finally my congratulations and thanks to Suleika for sharing her inspiring story. I wish her every happiness for her future and decades of good health to follow.
April 10, 2022
I am not sure why this memoir is so highly rated. I kept waiting for real personal growth, a moral to the story, an epiphany, something... anything... but the book is 2/3 graphic cancer treatment, 1/3 chasing after a boy, if not in action, then in thought. One page of actual reconciliation just wasn't enough for me.
I think there were a lot of missed opportunities to connect with the world around her. I dont even know why she bothered talking about the road trip. It could have been so much more compelling, if she cared about anyone or anything besides herself and her relationship status.
Many of the characters are very one dementional. They are obviously real people so it's kind of disappointing to see them presented in such a way. Perhaps if she had scaled back on describing every single cancer treatment and instead described some more of the late night conversations with Max, we would have gotten to know more about him as a person and his impact on her battle with cancer. Instead we settle for two or three paragraphs at the end of the book. Her brother was obviously struggling, but she doesn't describe any conversations they had or how she might have thanked him.
There were quite a few other things that annoyed me about this book. She has the habit of using a big word, and then defining it like we couldn't possibly know the meaning. She makes condescending remarks about older people receiving cancer treatments. Apparently, once you've reached a certain age, it's less meaningful to be ravaged by cancer? She acts like she comes from humble beginnings but then describes how her mom owns an apartment in NYC and her family owns a home in Saratoga and a cabin in Vermont. And she studied abroad. And she traveled to India while supposedly living on disability. Meh.
I really struggled to finish this one.
I think there were a lot of missed opportunities to connect with the world around her. I dont even know why she bothered talking about the road trip. It could have been so much more compelling, if she cared about anyone or anything besides herself and her relationship status.
Many of the characters are very one dementional. They are obviously real people so it's kind of disappointing to see them presented in such a way. Perhaps if she had scaled back on describing every single cancer treatment and instead described some more of the late night conversations with Max, we would have gotten to know more about him as a person and his impact on her battle with cancer. Instead we settle for two or three paragraphs at the end of the book. Her brother was obviously struggling, but she doesn't describe any conversations they had or how she might have thanked him.
There were quite a few other things that annoyed me about this book. She has the habit of using a big word, and then defining it like we couldn't possibly know the meaning. She makes condescending remarks about older people receiving cancer treatments. Apparently, once you've reached a certain age, it's less meaningful to be ravaged by cancer? She acts like she comes from humble beginnings but then describes how her mom owns an apartment in NYC and her family owns a home in Saratoga and a cabin in Vermont. And she studied abroad. And she traveled to India while supposedly living on disability. Meh.
I really struggled to finish this one.
February 9, 2021
The title of this book comes from a book by Susan Sontag that describes everyone as having dual citizenship in both the kingdom of the well and the kingdom of the sick. This book details a young woman's time in both kingdoms, each as equally hard to leave and enter as the other.
Suleika Jaouad is diagnosed with a rare from of leukaemia in her early twenties. Her world soon revolves around appointments, treatments and hospital wards.. Her social life is with her treating team and co-patients as well as her boyfriend Will who finds himself in a carer role and her parents who are beside themselves with worry.
Suleika endures a treatment that is not guaranteed to cure her and she is forced to face her own mortality. While coming to grips with all of this she is grieving for her fellow patients who succumb to their cancers.
On the flip side having survived her treatment she finds the journey back to the kingdom of the well just as overwhelming and difficult to face. She is no longer the same person, and she goes on a journey to connect with the people who wrote to her and helped her when she was at her lowest.
Not at all an easy book to read, but one that is quite profound with its honesty and raw insight into human nature. This is one that will stay with me for a long time.
Suleika Jaouad is diagnosed with a rare from of leukaemia in her early twenties. Her world soon revolves around appointments, treatments and hospital wards.. Her social life is with her treating team and co-patients as well as her boyfriend Will who finds himself in a carer role and her parents who are beside themselves with worry.
Suleika endures a treatment that is not guaranteed to cure her and she is forced to face her own mortality. While coming to grips with all of this she is grieving for her fellow patients who succumb to their cancers.
On the flip side having survived her treatment she finds the journey back to the kingdom of the well just as overwhelming and difficult to face. She is no longer the same person, and she goes on a journey to connect with the people who wrote to her and helped her when she was at her lowest.
Not at all an easy book to read, but one that is quite profound with its honesty and raw insight into human nature. This is one that will stay with me for a long time.
May 23, 2021
ME and my illness
whiny narcissistic pathography. well written but totally inward focused ignoring depth of other characters and physicians almost entirely. A great example of America’s obsession with “ME”.
whiny narcissistic pathography. well written but totally inward focused ignoring depth of other characters and physicians almost entirely. A great example of America’s obsession with “ME”.
August 12, 2021
By the time I got to the end of this book, I never wanted to hear from this author again. The positive of this book was that the first half details a young woman's journey fighting Leukemia really well. There was just the right amount of medical detail-- enough to keep the reader educated but didn't sound like a textbook. I both enjoyed and felt educated by that first half. The second half... well, I didn't read Eat, Pray, Love for a reason. Just an over-the-top feel good story about her road trip where she "connects" with people in person who she connected with long-distance in various ways during her illness. The issue was that Suleika still felt pretty one dimensional to me. Perhaps I just can't relate to a woman who is unable to be single for one moment of her life, a woman who seems unable to empathize with those around her. Perhaps I misunderstood her. To me, she was spoiled and shallow and although these things were stripped away while battling Leukemia, the rest of the time they were intact.
February 27, 2022
Between Two Kingdoms by Suleika Jaouad
⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️
This book is absolutely mind blowing, I finished reading it a week ago and my mind is still digesting it. An amazing memoir of severe illness and the trials and tribulations towards a journey of recovery.
Definitely one of the very best books I have read.
⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️
This book is absolutely mind blowing, I finished reading it a week ago and my mind is still digesting it. An amazing memoir of severe illness and the trials and tribulations towards a journey of recovery.
Definitely one of the very best books I have read.
March 13, 2022
. . . I don’t know. I just don’t know.
I saw Suleika Jaouad interviewed on CBS Sunday Morning and bought the book, excited to have stumbled upon a read I thought I’d enjoy.
The writing is clean. The diagnosis, devastating. But a book I read in the 1980s—“Thirteen Is Too Young to Die”—had a more profound, lasting impact on me than this did, and the road-trip part of the book is certainly no “Blue Highways” by William Least Heat-Moon.
So, I have complaints, some shallow, some more substantive.
Shallow: Jaouad refers to “Dead Poets Society” as “that sappy Robin Williams movie.” Right then, on page 114, the generational divide between me and the author slapped me in the face. I gave the book the ol’ side eye but read on.
Also shallow: This is a pet peeve of mine, so take it for what it’s worth, but I dislike the way Jaouad describes people with curly hair. On page 27, four-year-old Mila has “a frizzy cloud of brown curls.” On page 241, Jeff has “a greasy mess of curls.” And on page 243, the owner of a campsite has “a permed helmet of white hair.” I gave her a pass for the first mention. After the second and third, though, dislike festered.
More substantial gripes: On page 141, Jaouad bemoans having “attended six schools on three different continents.” She writes, “This is the curse of the mixed child who grows up betwixt cultures and countries, creeds and customs: too white, too brown, too exotically named, too ambiguously other to ever fully belong anywhere.”
I put the book down. I reached for the dust jacket and took a look at the author’s photo. She’s Swiss and Tunisian. She hardly stands out as blatantly mixed race. I’m uncomfortable even writing that. I’ve read about parents of mixed-race children who carry family photos and documentation to prove they are the child’s parent should anyone accuse the parent of having abducted the child, their appearances are so different. It just seems like Jaouad is reaching here, trying to find some flaw in her charmed upbringing. I don’t buy it. Military brats. Foster children. Inner city kids. Immigrants starting from zero. They have difficult childhoods growing up on various continents in various cities and homes.
During her road trip, Jaouad writes, “I’ve been living so long in the constricted world of illness that it’s not just the safety of my body I don’t trust but that of the larger world, too.”
Really? Just a few paragraphs earlier she “snap[ped] off Oscar’s leash to let him run loose” at a campground in Massachusetts, where, presumably there’s unfamiliar wooded land, wildlife. He later darts out of her cabin and into the woods at night.
Further, Jaouad has had cancer and has a compromised immune system. She writes about how difficult it is to live cautiously to protect her health, yet she takes NYC cabs and buses to her medical appointments. Petri dishes on wheels. And she flies to India.
There’s a disconnect that makes Jaouad an unreliable narrator. I feel the need to scour myself clean after taking public transportation, and I’m healthy. I catch a cold when I take a short little flight within the United States. Who flies to India with a compromised immune system?
What made me really raise a eyebrow, though, is a paragraph on page 247. There, Jaouad writes, “We call those who have lost their spouses ‘widows’ and children who have lost their parents ‘orphans,’ but there is no word in the English language to describe a parent who loses a child.”
In 1976—45 years before “Between Two Kingdoms“ was published—Jay Neugeboren wrote in his book, “An Orphan’s Tale”: “A wife who loses a husband is called a widow. A husband who loses a wife is called a widower. A child who loses his parents is called an orphan. There is no word for a parent who loses a child. That’s how awful the loss is.”
The quote is later falsely attributed to former President Ronald Reagan, and it also appears in “The Falcon and the Winter Soldier.” Pinterest is full of memes featuring Neugeboren’s words.
Jaouad includes a variation of it in her book without a nod to anyone. She presents it as her own thought, and that doesn’t sit well with me.
Will I finish the book? I haven’t decided yet. I’m not one to abandon something I’ve started, and I am so close to finishing. I just don’t know if I want to invest my time in it anymore.
I saw Suleika Jaouad interviewed on CBS Sunday Morning and bought the book, excited to have stumbled upon a read I thought I’d enjoy.
The writing is clean. The diagnosis, devastating. But a book I read in the 1980s—“Thirteen Is Too Young to Die”—had a more profound, lasting impact on me than this did, and the road-trip part of the book is certainly no “Blue Highways” by William Least Heat-Moon.
So, I have complaints, some shallow, some more substantive.
Shallow: Jaouad refers to “Dead Poets Society” as “that sappy Robin Williams movie.” Right then, on page 114, the generational divide between me and the author slapped me in the face. I gave the book the ol’ side eye but read on.
Also shallow: This is a pet peeve of mine, so take it for what it’s worth, but I dislike the way Jaouad describes people with curly hair. On page 27, four-year-old Mila has “a frizzy cloud of brown curls.” On page 241, Jeff has “a greasy mess of curls.” And on page 243, the owner of a campsite has “a permed helmet of white hair.” I gave her a pass for the first mention. After the second and third, though, dislike festered.
More substantial gripes: On page 141, Jaouad bemoans having “attended six schools on three different continents.” She writes, “This is the curse of the mixed child who grows up betwixt cultures and countries, creeds and customs: too white, too brown, too exotically named, too ambiguously other to ever fully belong anywhere.”
I put the book down. I reached for the dust jacket and took a look at the author’s photo. She’s Swiss and Tunisian. She hardly stands out as blatantly mixed race. I’m uncomfortable even writing that. I’ve read about parents of mixed-race children who carry family photos and documentation to prove they are the child’s parent should anyone accuse the parent of having abducted the child, their appearances are so different. It just seems like Jaouad is reaching here, trying to find some flaw in her charmed upbringing. I don’t buy it. Military brats. Foster children. Inner city kids. Immigrants starting from zero. They have difficult childhoods growing up on various continents in various cities and homes.
During her road trip, Jaouad writes, “I’ve been living so long in the constricted world of illness that it’s not just the safety of my body I don’t trust but that of the larger world, too.”
Really? Just a few paragraphs earlier she “snap[ped] off Oscar’s leash to let him run loose” at a campground in Massachusetts, where, presumably there’s unfamiliar wooded land, wildlife. He later darts out of her cabin and into the woods at night.
Further, Jaouad has had cancer and has a compromised immune system. She writes about how difficult it is to live cautiously to protect her health, yet she takes NYC cabs and buses to her medical appointments. Petri dishes on wheels. And she flies to India.
There’s a disconnect that makes Jaouad an unreliable narrator. I feel the need to scour myself clean after taking public transportation, and I’m healthy. I catch a cold when I take a short little flight within the United States. Who flies to India with a compromised immune system?
What made me really raise a eyebrow, though, is a paragraph on page 247. There, Jaouad writes, “We call those who have lost their spouses ‘widows’ and children who have lost their parents ‘orphans,’ but there is no word in the English language to describe a parent who loses a child.”
In 1976—45 years before “Between Two Kingdoms“ was published—Jay Neugeboren wrote in his book, “An Orphan’s Tale”: “A wife who loses a husband is called a widow. A husband who loses a wife is called a widower. A child who loses his parents is called an orphan. There is no word for a parent who loses a child. That’s how awful the loss is.”
The quote is later falsely attributed to former President Ronald Reagan, and it also appears in “The Falcon and the Winter Soldier.” Pinterest is full of memes featuring Neugeboren’s words.
Jaouad includes a variation of it in her book without a nod to anyone. She presents it as her own thought, and that doesn’t sit well with me.
Will I finish the book? I haven’t decided yet. I’m not one to abandon something I’ve started, and I am so close to finishing. I just don’t know if I want to invest my time in it anymore.
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