This book is an autobiographical yet fictionalized account of a young woman's journey through many facets, or serious issues, of life such as racism, domestic violence, bullying, eating disorders, lost love, alcoholism, low self esteem, poor self image, overcoming poverty, stereotypes...These are just some of the issues that are addressed in this book. The protagonist resents her "overprotective" mother keeping her from the "fun and mystery" of the darkness. When she finally "escapes" to college and has the power to "live life her own way" she experiences some of the lowest points of her life. Had it not been for the Grace of a Risen Savior, she would have perished. She was, "Saved by Grace." The book is an easy, quick read that speaks to varying age groups. There is something in the book for anyone who reads it. The book is a ray of hope for those going through various struggles in life to be "tenacious," and have hope because your Transformation is on the way!!!
The story begins with a teenager struggling to live with an overbearing mother. Rules and no freedom is wearing at the main character, Jenny. Following her life through a rigid high school experience, where she is continuously trying to buck the system, to college life where she has the guardrails removed, we watch as her life goes off the rails. Experimenting and testing the limits of not only her physical but also emotional life, Jenny falls down a hole of discontent. She is constantly chasing the next thing that she believes will make her life better, but none of these work.
When Jenny finally learns not to direct her life but instead allows her life to be led by the grace of her spiritual life, her entire world changes.
This book reminded me of the old saying, “When you are in a hole, stop digging.” Jenny does not know when to stop digging. She is looking for the next external thing that will improve her life. Instead when she looks inside, to what her mother tried to give her, she discovers a solid foundation.
So often in today’s world, people (particularly Christians) do not understand how important transformation is in terms of becoming the person God created us to be. This book does a remarkable job of making it clear that growth and maturity come from choosing transformation through following God.
Written as a fictional memoir covering 30-years of Jenny’s life, the story deals with Jenny’s reality that is so often the truth for many people today. In her young life, Jenny is faced with overprotective alcoholic parents, racism, bullying, weight and body shaming, and domestic violence. Once she goes to college the issues become all about her and her choices, in part because of the newfound freedom she suddenly experiences. Too often, overprotective parents do not understand that they are in no way preparing their children for the world nor are they providing them with the skills they need to cope. Although Jenny knew how to survive under her parent’s roof, the world looked different without them, even with the negative aspects of her childhood.
In addition to wanting to experience the darker side of life, Jenny begins to have problems with depression. Her world is no longer making sense and her desires move her into a more troubling stage. Eventually, she finds herself overwhelmed by her choices and, as so often happens, finds God and her true transformation begins. Jenny’s story is gritty and real. Julie Cull’s writing drives home the need for God led transformations for all.