Twoooo.......and a half? Idk.
Wow first of all I think the edition I had definitely had the best cover. But anyway. This book feels like somebody's thesis that didn't get enough of a tightening-up before publication. I love the core idea so much--the main character, Zuleika, is the daughter of Nubian immigrants to Roman Londinium, and the book chronicles her life through verse, since she's an aspiring poet--but this really feels like round one of something, where you find an old thing you wrote in high school or early college and dust it off and think hey, this could've been something, let me pick it back up again and give it the treatment it deserves!--and then you majorly rework it. Evaristo was born in 1959 and has been not only writing but teaching writing for at least twenty years, though, so I'm gonna say she doesn't get the excuse of an eager first-timer. It was weird: through most of it we get a lot of Zuleika's self-bemoaning like oh I'm such a terrible poet, blah blah (which, first of all, having your main character be a writer, tip-top in originality), and I'm like, okay, is this being offered as an excuse for the book? I'm confused? because like, we DO get to read some of Zuleika's poems and the book being in verse is just like accepted and it's not like she's like 'oh I'm writing down my life,' so there's like a difference between Zuleika's narration and Zuleika's in-world poetry (which is mostly bad, and supposed to be seen as such!), so I'm like....hm....ok. Like, either way, not really an excuse for a book with mediocre writing, you know?
I don't know. Usually when I rate books this low I like actively dislike them, but I didn't with this one! I like kept wanting it to be better! I am rooting for this book. I believe this book has so much potential!! And yet, tho!!!!!!! Most of the characters were not super fun to read about. Like, you can have interesting ~~morally ambiguous~~ characters and all but like these characters were just kind of a pain to read about? Like, Zuleika's supposed best friend Alba is an obnoxious brat in adulthood ('adulthood,' :( ugh the ages of the characters is so sad for everything that's going on), and Zuleika's always like 'she's so great anyway though and I love her!' but we literally never see anything good about her, like, she is one thousand percent a rude bully who's constantly belittling Zuleika basically....like..... Did love Venus, although I'm like torn leaning toward negative re: the portrayal of her being trans. Like, I get that this is a like 'this is the rude crude world of Londinium and you gotta deal with it!!!!' but there's only so many times you can read the world tr***y and still be on team 'yes, this was a good choice, you keep on hurlin those slurs!!!!' And just like a lot of unnecessary commentary about her body hair etc. in a way that was like 'WAIT JUST IN CASE YOU FORGOT, VENUS ISN'T A REEEAAAAALLLL GIRL OK DON'T FORGET OKAY!!!!' like y'all are supposed to be her friends maybe don't invalidate her womanhood but okay. I don't know, it was just kind of messy at times. Felix was horrid, obviously (altho what was up with all that 'by the way part of his horridness is how fat he is! fat people suck!' like excuse me??? is him being a fucking brutal rapist pedophile not enough to speak for him being awful like do you really have to malign fatness in the process come on??), but Sev also sucked, by and large. Which, like, is realistic, but it was hard to read about Zuleika talking about how great he is when like no actually he was also a creep. Oof and then Zuleika herself, idk. She had, like, surface-level struggles about how she didn't like the person the world was making her to be--she was big on the 'we are what the world makes us' but like maybe own up to the shitty things you do?? but okay--but she was still a like shitty rich society woman and didn't really feel any remorse about that at all, sooo. Ugh I don't know like I do get that the slave-owning part of it was meant to be a like 'whoa isn't this a complex issue' and it was but it was also hard to feel sympathy for some of her actions when like she very much owned slaves and mistreated them. At one point she asks 'am I a slave or slave owner?' and I'm like ahhhh yes your life has been really terrible you face rape from your husband whenever he feels like it and you've been married since you were eleven and that's horrific and awful but also doesn't excuse you like perpetuating shit, you know? Idk, like, I think it's very possible to feel sympathy for Zuleika in her marriage and situation while also condemning her for the like, abuse of her slaves and I think she as a character wants the former to excuse the latter but it really doesn't. Omg I'm rambling I don't know maybe I just shouldn't read about books where the main characters are rich people in the Roman Empire since chances are they owned slaves I don't know!!!!!!
OH also sidenote it's weird to name your book after something that only takes up the last, like, quarter or less of it? Like, this book was about Zuleika's life, and only a small fraction of that had anything to do with the emperor. Idk.
I'm glad Bernardine Evaristo wrote this book. I wish she'd had a better (or firmer, I don't know what the situation was) editor, because I really think this could have been something much more than it was. I don't know!!!!! I did enjoy it but it was also a struggle to read!!!!!! And like by the writing I mean I enjoyed the like fun and linguistic play (it's written in an anachronistic mishmash that includes like, Cockney rhyming slang, Shakespeare references, and youthful-feeling shortening (Zuleika is almost always Zee or Zeeks or Zuky-dot, etc.)) of it, that's not the part that didn't sit well with me. Like, you can very definitely have that is something written in language that best represents the characters and that's a well written book. I don't think this is that book, though.
Omg this is such a mess of a review! Bottom line: I would definitely recommend it to friends who don't mind sacrificing a little in terms of ~writing quality~ or whatever for story!