I had no idea this was the final book until I opened my Kindle today and in that "about this book" popup, I caught the words "comes to a close." :O
I'm glad I knew so I could mentally prepare myself. But even if I hadn't, I would have picked up on it. Nick is so introspective (in Nick Nowak–style; don't worry, he doesn't suddenly become a navel-gazer) and things really do feel final as the story goes along. I cried several times! Omg, I'm gonna cry right now. Haha. I really love this series!! I am super sad it's over. D:
One of the things that really struck me about this novel is just how far Nick has come since we met him. He's not an entirely different person by any means, but he's found himself, I think. He's grown. Matured. I think the people he's met and what he's gone through, I think it's all formed him into a much solider version of himself. It's funny, because the first line of my first review for this series is "First, this dude gets laid more than my dinnerware," and it's honestly the fact that Nick KEEPS TURNING DOWN SEX WITH CUTE GUYS that really shows how much he's changed in this book. In the beginning, he'd bang just about any guy who gave him the time of day—that's just who he was. But now...I think after Harker and Joseph and everything else, he's realized...well, he's realized a lot. What an evolution.
I had no idea how the series would end. I pictured all sorts of terrible ends (some that I thought were realistic; some that weren't). The way it all wraps up is not one of the ways I'd imagined!! But I actually really, really like it. I think it's perfect. SAD. But perfect. Oh man, Nick, I'm gonna miss you so much!!
What a great series this is. Solid until the end.
I remember thinking, when I first started reading it, "There's an AIDS story in the middle of my mystery series" and I quickly realized it was the other way around. And that's truly how it shook out: we just happened to have some mysteries in the middle of our 1980s, Chicago-based, AIDS story. I think Marshall did an amazing job with all of his continuity, sense of place, AIDS timeline, historical things, just...all of it. I can't imagine what it must have been like to have lived back then and watched just...everything fall apart—and emerge on the other side when so many people didn't. I think we see at least a little bit of it through Nick Nowak's eyes.
Ah, I'm emotional. I'm sad this is over (in case I didn’t mention it!). It makes me want to both go finish the Brandstetter series (I have three left!) and never touch it again so it'll never be done. (And speaking of that, I love that Marshall called this "Fade Out." Joseph Hansen ♥)
Aaaaaaaah. Bye, Nick!!
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