It's the ninth volume and this series has yet to disappoint me!
This time, we see Seigi alone for most of the volume, meeting several characters, like Tanimoto and Vince, but in tru introspection within himself both at what he wants for the future and for his relationship with Richard.
Turns out, it was actually Vince's wife that reached out to Seigi in the last novel. Vince sold out Richard back in the day to get money that would eventually go towards his education. However, later on he ends up using it to go to America and give his wife one of his kidneys. They only married for her to get a green card. He hasn't seen her in a while, but they do love each other, though they haven't discusses their true feelings... So it truly is a miscommunication situation. Vince believes his wife deserves better and so he lives her be, despite how much she loves him.
Vince feels guilty for betraying Richard, but also for technically comitting homicide by neglicence against his father. His father was very sick and in pain. There was a medicine Vince didn't give his father, since it would prolongue his life, but it wouln't take the pain away. So, in the end, it would prolongued his father's suffering. He truly is a tortured character, who always tries to do what's right. However, life hasn't thrown him easy choices.
Saul and Seigi have a heart to heart and Saul decides Seigi is ready to become one of his pupil's too. He even offers him his last name, like he did with Richard, but Seigi refuses.
He also catches up with Tanimoto, who's now a teacher. She's enjoying her life, feeling a lot more free. She's accepted herself as an aroace woman and isn't afraid to admit it anymore. She knows that she has a chance to help people like her just by being herself, showing them a happy life was possible.
Richard's past shows up once again - he's used to being dehumanized, since people only care about his looks. When he was in boarding school, he was sexually harassed by a member of the school staff....
Knowing this in addiction to the sexual harassment he suffered at his distant relative's hands, we can see thta his childhood really wasn't great. He's used to being nothing but an object. He's learned to despise his beauty. So when Seigi actually compliments him on it, without any hidden intentions, Richard is actually surprised. For once, someone actually sees him and thinks he's beautiful as a whole, not just a pretty face.
Seigi is truly understanding Richard more than ever. He's starting to feel like a foreigner, like he'll neve truly belong anywhere, since he travels a lot for work, just like Richard. He forgets words in his native tongue, he sometimes remembers things faster in other languages. After all, he's becoming a bit worldwide.
Seigi and Richard are aware of the other's feelings, however they're still not quite ready for a romantic relationship. This has to be the slowburn of all slowburns.