This is the first contemporary fiction novel that I have read by Mike Gayle, and I absolutely loved it, despite the fact that I found myself emotionally wrung out from the experience. Kerry Hayes is in her early 40s, a single mom with young son, Kian, living on a tough and challenging London estate. She is a hardworking cleaner, determined to be a good role model for her son, and given where they live, she has her work cut out in steering Kian along a positive life path. Kian's father is the no hoper, Steve, not interested in his son, Kerry has no illusions where he is concerned, but it means that she and Kian are on their own in life. Her best friend, Jodi, from Milread Children's Home, is now living in the North East with her family, although the two of them remain close. The only other person that Kerry has loved unconditionally was her baby brother, Jason, who she cared for and looked after, before she was separated from him by a uncaring social services when they were taken away from their problematic mother, Mary.
Unable to find him, through the years Kerry has written him letters, sent to the adoption agency, even though she knows he will never get to read them. Jason is now Noah Martineau, adopted into a white middle class family, where he has been loved and given every opportunity in life that has culminated in him becoming a respected criminal barrister. His adopted parents are well off academics, and they and his siblings, support him unconditionally, but Noah has never wanted to find out about the family he originally came from, and he has no memories from that time. He is married to interior decorator, Rosalind, and has a daughter, Millie. Circumstances have finally conspired for Kerry, with her heart in her mouth, to finally contact Noah, with every hope they will get to know each other. Kerry and Noah are from different social and economic strata, will a shell shocked Noah, experiencing marital difficulties because of his closed off emotional nature, and Kerry be able to connect irrespective of all the obstacles they face? For Kerry, the stakes could not be higher.
Gayle writes the narrative from the perspectives of Kerry and Noah, his writing immediately so compulsive that the reader quickly becomes immersed in their lives. I loved both the main protagonists, Kerry, with her love of the sparkle, vibrant colours, and Mariah Carey, and Noah, who finally has his curiosity sparked about his blood family, triggering so many questions about where he came from and his parents. Watching their relationship develop is an absolute joy and simultaneously heartbreaking in all the challenges that life throws at the two of them. This is a brilliant character driven read, that I raced through, so gripping, shot through with hope and light amidst all the darkness. Highly recommended. Many thanks to Hodder and Stoughton for an ARC.