I have known for while how disloyal this author is to her characters (see in Ruckus how she did Millie and Vicious dirty.Completely re writing history for Dean and Rosie). On the subject of Dean and Rosie, I disliked both of them and did not buy their love. But still, I do not appreciate having to be shown a whole soulmates story, where they loved each other the whole time! To then find out Rosie dies and only a year later Dean is basically in love with another Woman (Knight’s Biological mother). If you are gonna dedicate a whole book to them, and actually contradict a previous book to give them a love story, then at least make it worthwhile, to me it’s insulting. To be fed this idea that he and Rosie are the love of each others lives means to me you would in no way, shape or form be emotionally or mentally ready or healed to be in love a year after your soulmates death! Also, Shen seems to be writing about previously amazing characters, as shit parents such as Mel! Next we seem to have Vicious’ son emotionally stunted and withdrawn, which should not be the case as Millie and Vicious actually grew together and would be good parents, but whatever. I do not know what happened to this author, Sparrow, Vicious and Defy were all great stories, but since Ruckus and Bane it just seems to be drama, inconsistency, and horrific characters! I am sorry, but I am officially done with this author.
I have now read the book, but I have not changed my opinion or rating. A lot of people are commenting about Dean moving on and being in love with someone else. They claim he does not and that I am wrong. That is fine and they are completely entitled to their opinion (twitter rants about my review included). I think it is heavily implied he has feelings for someone else and is moving on:
‘My eyes halt on Dean and Dixie. They sit next to each other, and both look at me intently, ignoring one another. But there’s something there I can’t seem to take my eyes off of: the fact that his pinky finger is almost entwined with hers on the armrest between their seats.’
‘Last week, Edie told me she saw them having an ice cream together. A quiet outing. They didn’t speak to each other. They did not hold hands. They simply marveled in the slow, creeping thing called love.’
There was no need to mention Dean having a love interest. It definitely should not have been included in the same book in which Rosie died! Too much, too soon. Plus we barely know Dixie, so why would readers care about her or think she is a good match for Dean? It just felt like a throw away idea that was included.
Ok now I have read the book, I felt I should because so many people seemed to love it and felt I was completely wrong in my opinion. I have read it to see if I would change my mind or rate it higher. I have not and will not be. I did not like the book and had issues with it. I did not dislike all of it.
The things I enjoyed were seeings the old characters from the Sinner series. I loved seeing Trent and Edie with Luna! I also was touched by the scene when Luna talked to her father for the first time:
“I mean… are you?” His throat worked. “Talking?”
“To some people.” Guilt, guilt, guilt. Piles upon piles of messy, black, foggy guilt.
“Some?”
“You. Edie. Knight.”
“Since when?”
“Since… a few weeks ago.”
“Luna,” he whispered.
“Dad.”
“Say it again.”
“Dad.” I smiled. He closed his eyes. Took a deep breath.
“Again? Please.”
“Dad.” His shoulders shook. Not with sobs. With happiness. Happiness I’d put inside him. I was drunk on my newfound power.
But that was really about it if I am honest. I did not feel this amazing connection between Knight and Luna, we are shown that from childhood Knight has protected Luna, and their whole ‘ride or die’ thing. But it just never clicked for me. I did not find either of them particularly interesting. Knight was a wannabe hot hole like the other boys, but without the believable jaded edge or their parents darkness. He just seemed childish and was nasty to Luna a lot of the time. Not that Luna was innocent as she kept pushing him away. Luna, or Saint Luna as Daria dubbed her, is a martyr and good girl, but is she really? I found her quite selfish and completely dull. Did she have a personality? Beneath loving Knight, and helping out at shelters? If she did it escaped me, as did their chemistry.
The whole making an announcement to gather the girls at a party for the wannabe hot holes Hunter, Knight and Vaughn, to choose from was beyond messed up and so eye roll worthy:
“Ladies, line up toward the entertainment room. Make it neat. No cutting in line. Chop, chop. If you’re lovely, daring, and willing, you’re an applicant we want to see. Just be sure to remember—we won’t call you tomorrow morning, won’t follow you on social media, and won’t acknowledge your existence in the hallways. But we will carry you with us forever, like hepatitis B.” A herd of junior and senior girls scurried up the stairs of Vaughn’s mansion in pairs, whispering and giggling in each other’s ears. Vaughn threw parties every other weekend while his parents were in their Virginia castle, probably fucking the memory of their devil spawn out of each other’s minds. The girls lined up outside the entertainment room, spines rod-straight against the textured gray walls. The line started at the base of his spiral stairway, snaking all the up way to a heavy set of black doors. Vaughn, Hunter, and I strolled past them silently, lit joints clutched between our teeth. I wore white, destroyed Balmain biker jeans and a shabby I Fucked Your Girlfriend and Didn’t Even Enjoy It tee that had cost me a grand, paired with vintage Gucci sneakers and a beanie I was pretty sure was made out of real unicorn fur or some shit. Vaughn still wore his painting attire and looked just a little dirtier than a third world-based hooker looking for her next fix, and Hunter was wearing a full-blown suit, bless his Great Gatsby, weird-ass heart. Our names, moaned and whispered like a prayer among the buzzing girls, drowned in the angry tune pulsating against the walls.’ seriously?
Oh apparently smoking joints is so bad ass.
This little snippet:
‘Since the girls couldn’t explicitly proposition us without staining their precious reputations—I’d always hated the double standard of guys are players, girls are sluts—they pretended to talk to each other, sipping their drinks.’
You rock on Knight you feminist you! Ha! Also, if these girls literally herded themselves when you called them, I think they would be comfortable enough to make a move!
The whole, we are so jaded to even enjoy sex, so we check our phones and watch tv is old as well, it was old in Vicious let alone now:
‘Her fingers were buried in the holes of the pool table, her half-bare tits dragging along the green, fuzzy surface. Hunter smoked a cigarette, his eyes drifting to Spaced, a British comedy, on the huge, flat-screen TV in front of us while fucking her. And they say guys are not good at multitasking. Vaughn, who was obsessed with Spaced, stood against the wall, letting some chick I didn’t know suck his dick. Arabella stood next to me, waiting for some action, but I just propped my shoulder against the wall, angled in front of Vaughn, ignoring the girl on her knees between us. “Hope she’ll go out-of-state,” Vaughn said, verbose, one hand holding the ashy hair of the girl beneath him, the other scrolling through his phone.’
Knights drinking to numb pain, exactly like his dad did,predictable and a cliche, and just really did not add anything to his character for me:
‘My mind had started doing weird shit shortly after Mom’s parents, Grandma Charlene and Grandpa Paul, died in a car crash and left Mom an orphan. That was five years ago. I didn’t care about my losing them; it was Mom’s pain that killed me. That’s when I’d first started secretly drinking, and whaddaya know—I never really stopped.’
Luna pushing Knight away was understandable, but if she had given him a chance a lot of heartache could have been saved. This book was full of miscommunication and angst that was not needed. When one tried to go to the other something would come up and cause drama and push them apart again, usually a misunderstanding! Luna kept rejecting Knight, but then got upset about him apparently being with other girls? Really? But then again Knight being nasty after Luna lost her virginity to someone else was not ok either, he does not own her. Plus Luna thought he was with Poppy and a couple. She also was not to be expected to know that Knight saved himself for her. They both made silly mistakes and hurt each other, but it got boring and repetitive, as really there was no reason for them not to actually give it a shot from the beginning, if only they had both been honest!
I also felt Poppy and Josh were treated unfairly. Do not get me wrong neither of them were perfect. Poppy was clingy and really should of seen that Knight was not interested, especially when he cheated on her with Luna. She needed to get some self respect, but she was a nice girl who’s only crime was liking an asshole. Also Knight calling her sunshine, when he called Luna Moonshine, was just a scumbag thing to do to both girls. Josh should maybe have took Luna’s rejection and listened. But he was a good guy who did not just take her virginity and treat it as nothing, he let her know he cared about her, and ultimately encouraged Luna to go after Knight. Decent people, who should not have been brought into Luna’s and Knights mess, ultimately they both deserved better.
The whole pretentious, perfect thanksgiving was nauseating, especially as seeing as it was unlikely as it was Vicious and Millie hosting. She has never followed convention so I expected a bit more originality.
Also, some of the apparent ‘burns’ and comebacks were just shit.
“It’s La Jolla, not outer space. Proportions, Violet,” Vaughn deadpanned. “It’s Poppy.” “Same shit.” “Not really. You could make an effort and remember,” Poppy cried.
“You’re right,” Vaughn yawned. “I’ll remember next time.”
“You will?”
“Yeah. Heroin is made out of Poppy. Coincidently, you bore me to death.”
I found a lot of this book predictable. For example, Dixie obviously not being the heartless monster that was suspected. I also could see where the conversation was going when Knight was goading her about his father. Sure enough, it turned it she had been raped, so the readers could not possibly dislike her, and had to sympathise with her, as she was obviously going to be a fixture. Do not get me wrong, what happened to her was horrific, but it did not really add to the story, I felt it was a tool to coerce readers into liking Dixie. It was just tragedy piled on top of drama, because not only was she raped, but she was also a naive, religious girl, who was gang raped, so therefore did not know Knights father. She was then cruelly shunned and rejected due to it. It was also predictable that the first person Luna would properly speak to was Her Knight in shining armour! It was also obvious that when Luna saw what she thought was Poppy and Knight having sex, it would turn out he could not bring himself to do it! Saving himself for Luna!
I also found the gratuitous lesbian scene cringe worthy. So Luna is advised by Daria to completely act like she does not care about seeing Knight with Poppy at Daria’s New Year’s Eve party. Luna shows she is annoyed, so Daria’s resolution on the countdown is to snog Luna? Apparently Luna enjoyed it and thought it was a genius idea? Really, so not to appear bothered you made a scene? It would hardly cause jealousy because Daria is engaged and Luna’s Friend since childhood, so it’s obvious it did not mean anything? So it achieved what? Apart from being a Segway for Luna to say she kissed a girl and she liked it? It seemed reminiscent of scenes I have read before in a certain series by another author (ahem Miss Douglas). Kind of just thrown in for drama and events sake, while being cliche and juvenile.
It is also known I am definitely not a fan of Dean and Rosie, but the scene leading up to, and including her death were sad. But with Rosie’s demise, came a fresh new set of issues for me. Rosie is really sick, she knows she is dying, so asks Luna to basically help her with a project for when after she is gone. It is clear this is in part to reunite Knight and Luna which makes sense. What does not make sense is asking a 19 year old girl to play Cupid for your husband, her possible father in law, after your death. So this child is meant to play Cupid? It was so inappropriate, it was bad enough she was asking, but at least it would have made sense if she asked her sister Millie, but not a teenager! So Rosie’s brilliant idea as a prospect for the family is Dixie! I get she is Knights mother so that helps. But she is not Lev’s mum, and Rosie barely knows her to even consider her a good match for Dean? It was just so out there! I also understand Dean was in pain, but he was an ass when Lev was sobbing at his mothers hospital bed and he did not hug him. He needed to step up a bit. Also smoking joints with your son, and saying things like this: “I needed to suck and do my job as a parent months ago. From now on, I am going to suck like a whore in a brothel, kiddo.” are what put me off Dean, he still needs to grow up. Throwing a dildo/vibrator at Knight when he walked in on Dean going down on Rosie, was also something I could have done without. Knight being in hospital for overdosing on drinks and drugs, while his mother was in hospital dying, was just really the icing on top of the drama full cake! I am also a bit sick of Emilia being overlooked. I know Rosie was talking to Luna and making plans with her for after she died, but it’s only her speech we see at Rosie’s funeral. Emilia also speaks, but she is not even given enough thought for us to hear her words. I mean she was only her sister, the girl who tried to provide for her in New York, and loved her immensely, but what does it matter? Also, Rosie telling Luna about Dean hurting her by dating Emilia was made to sound like Rosie was betrayed. Rosie told Dean to date Emilia?
To round off the festivities, we have 18 year old Knight propose to 19 year old Luna (apparently Trent was ok with that, not likely!); Not long after his mother’s death, when they have not been a stable couple for long. So a great idea to get married obviously! Then we have her pregnant less than a year later, with an apparently planned child! Rush, rush, rush! Goodness knows why they planned a child when they are both super busy and young, but ya know, each to their own.
So I am sorry to the readers who think I am being harsh, but this book was not for me, I did not enjoy it or like Knight and Luna. I will read Vaughn’s book as he and Lenora have good dynamics, and I love to see more of Millie and Vicious.