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Actually, I'm Gay
Two alphas collide, their chemistry is explosive, but who will dominate whom?
With their lackluster sex life at the foundation of every argument, Corporate Attorney Colin McNeill admits to his wife of nine years, “Actually, I’m Gay,” not realizing he will wake up the next morning to find himself alone with his almost-five-year-old non-verbal autistic son.
With the most important account of Colin’s career hanging in the balance, his partner suggests Camp Hope, a summer resident camp for autistic children only a couple hours from the city. Colin never suspects a deranged adversary will follow him to the camp, putting his son and hundreds of other young campers in danger.
Meeting the camp's owner and reformed celeb bad-boy, billionaire Phillip Beau Delacroix III, will turn his world upside down and leave the world sputtering over their red hot scandal. As the tattered pieces of his life settles, only one thing's for certain… it's going to get pretty hot at Camp Hope this summer!
Author's Note:
69K words revised and expanded from original
Every story in the A Billionaires and Bad Boys Scandal series is a Stand Alone Novel by Roxy Harte with a HEA.
With their lackluster sex life at the foundation of every argument, Corporate Attorney Colin McNeill admits to his wife of nine years, “Actually, I’m Gay,” not realizing he will wake up the next morning to find himself alone with his almost-five-year-old non-verbal autistic son.
With the most important account of Colin’s career hanging in the balance, his partner suggests Camp Hope, a summer resident camp for autistic children only a couple hours from the city. Colin never suspects a deranged adversary will follow him to the camp, putting his son and hundreds of other young campers in danger.
Meeting the camp's owner and reformed celeb bad-boy, billionaire Phillip Beau Delacroix III, will turn his world upside down and leave the world sputtering over their red hot scandal. As the tattered pieces of his life settles, only one thing's for certain… it's going to get pretty hot at Camp Hope this summer!
Author's Note:
69K words revised and expanded from original
Every story in the A Billionaires and Bad Boys Scandal series is a Stand Alone Novel by Roxy Harte with a HEA.
211 pages, Kindle Edition
First published January 11, 2011
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Roxy Harte
44 books134 followersI write erotica, specifically erotica that explores the emotional and psychological elements of relations. DDLG, BDSM, LGBTQI, POLY.
I'm married to the most wonderful man in the world, have three adult children and many grandchildren.
Jazzi, my fur-pup, and five kitties, Roo, Karma, Dharma, Tilak, and Sadie, are very spoiled :)
I'm married to the most wonderful man in the world, have three adult children and many grandchildren.
Jazzi, my fur-pup, and five kitties, Roo, Karma, Dharma, Tilak, and Sadie, are very spoiled :)
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January 14, 2011
This book started out with an interesting premise but poorly drawn characters, insta-love, bad writing, tons of stereotypes and unsafe sex made it lose lots of points for me - not to mention the fisting scene on the hood of a car on a public road.
This entire review has been hidden because of spoilers.
February 21, 2011
** 1.5 stars **
The blurb for this story (and the gorgeous cover) caught my eye not too long ago after its release and I was really excited. I’m always interested in stories of men coming out later in life and I thought that the autistic child sub-plot sounded interesting. I hadn’t read anything by Roxy Harte previously, and if I’m not mistaken, I believe that the majority of her works are m/f or m/m/f, though she has written some m/m. What I am sad to report is that I found the story ultimately disappointing, for a number of reasons that I’ll get to later. In fact, I found so many things about this book that bothered me, I have two pages of notes, and I’m going to have to separate this review into What Worked For Me and What Didn’t Work For Me, for the first time in one of my reviews.
The story starts as we meet Colin MacNeill, a Scottish-born man who now lives in the US working as an attorney in Chicago. He has a wife named Marissa, who is also an attorney, and they have a five year old autistic child, Kerrigan. They have had a rough go at raising an autistic child. By mutual agreement, they agreed that Marissa would take a couple of years off to get the care started for their son, but a couple turned into five and Marissa has started to resent Colin and their son, who she doesn’t feel is really her child because he doesn’t recognize her (there is a lot more about this, and yes, she is made out to be a villain). They have a fight — Marissa wants to have another child, a “healthy” child, but Colin cannot in good conscience father another child with her, and when she asks why, without thinking he blurts out “Actually, I’m Gay.” This, in effect, is the end of their argument. Marissa storms out and Colin wakes up the next morning with Kerrigan still in bed and Marissa gone, having left everything behind. At the end of a terrible day of having to take Kerrigan with him to his corporate law office, his friend and law partner Michael suggests that he take some time off and suggests a summer camp for autistic children in Iowa.
When Colin gets to the camp and enrolls Kerrigan, he immediately finds he has a strong attraction to the camp’s owner, Beau Delacroix. Beau feels likewise, but he won’t jeopardize the children’s treatment to have an affair with a parent of one of his campers, much less a male camper, which would drive the parents of his campers nuts and could possibly ruin the camp altogether. But, just like many parents before him, Colin is afraid to leave his son with strangers and he rents out a house across the lake. The more time they spend together, their feelings come out and neither can resist the other. In the meantime, there is a nefarious environmental anarchist group that has its sights set on Colin, who has gotten some prominent environmental pollutants out of hot water with the law. Add to that a mugging, his ongoing divorce with Marissa, and blackmail by a source that is someone he thinks he trusts and Colin and Beau have a lot to loose — the camp, their reputations and careers, and possibly each other.
What Didn’t Work For Me
First of all, what started out to be a simple love story merged into a huge scandal and several possible people after Colin, and Beau by proxy. Not only did the last half of the story turn completely away from the burgeoning romance, but it was way too much to incorporate into one book. On top of that, there were several inconsistencies throughout. Furthermore, one of these things was completely forgotten about and never wrapped up, while the others ended in a way that seemed pretty implausible to me.
The characterization of Colin bothered me a great deal. We first see him as a tough guy who won’t allow himself to be emotional, but he immediately falls into Beau’s arms and cries the first time they meet. That didn’t make sense at all. If the point was to give credibility to the fact that Colin can only be his real self in front of Beau, then at least have him wait until they get to know each other better and their feelings are stronger.
Even though a fair amount of time goes by before they admit real feelings for each other, the story still feels like Insta-Love, because there’s no delineation between the weekends he spends at the camp and the weeks that he spends at his job back in Chicago. We don’t see him going back and forth all that much, most of Colin’s on screen time is in Iowa and I was constantly confused just how much time was passing.
The whole “scandal” didn’t make sense to me. Maybe if it was just a local thing where people got upset about their relationship, but for it to be an international scandal being brought all over the world by CNN… Why would so many people care?
Personally, I have no preferences either way on the condom/no-condom debate, but what does bother me is if there is no consistency. The first time they have sex, they don’t use a condom. One time they use a condom with a massage oil (which is NOT safe, unless appropriately made for both), and at a later time in the book, they’re extremely conscientious about using appropriate protection. There was also a time when, without using any sort of lube, Beau (who is gay, not GFY at all) refers to Colin as “wet for me.” I know I’m a gay man, but I’m sorry, that just squicked me out.
There was an extremely important character that affects the ending that is brought in only at that moment. We have no idea of his existence until he pops up out of nowhere.
Though there are more things that bothered me, I will stop here at what bothered me the most. One, there is a scene where one character gives head while the other is driving. Okay, I know people actually try this, because I was unfortunate enough to actually see a woman giving a man head on the freeway once as I passed them (they got pulled over by the fuzz, just so you know), but this is way out of character for Beau, who is really worried about anyone finding out about him and Colin. Then, not soon after that, they pull off the road and right on the shoulder on the hood of the car, Beau proceeds to fist Colin with only a little lube and no prep. Come on!
What Did Work For Me
I thought that the characterization of Colin’s wife/ex-wife Marissa was done very well and with a keen eye to emotional detail. She was portrayed as a villain, yes, but as one that in a way everyone can relate to. She left her son, which is something that most people can’t reconcile, but even if you can’t, you’ll understand why she isn’t fit to be his mother, and she understands that as well. I thought her character was the most full-fledged and perfectly portrayed of all of the characters in the book.
There is a lot in the novel about autism in general, even if there are only a few scenes directly between Colin and his son, Kerrigan. They were handled very well and showed quite a bit indirectly about who Colin and Beau are in how they respond to Kerrigan’s difficulties. I learned quite a bit about autism as well.
Maybe this is a bit of a cheap shot, or unfair to list here, but I loved the addition of the two recipes at the end of the book. But, then again, I love food :)
In Conclusion
All in all, I must say that I’m quite dissappointed in the story. The first third of the book was going alright, but after that the story just fell to pieces. It needed a lot more work before going to publication, to be streamlined and to flesh out the plot and characterizations. If none of those things work out, you aren’t left with much to bring the story together. I wouldn’t recommend this book, and I’m not sure how I’ll feel about reading another book by Roxy Harte in the future. I might, but I’ll be very conscientious about reading others reviews first. Unfortunately, I’d say read this one at your own peril.
For the full review, please visit Reviews by Jessewave.
The blurb for this story (and the gorgeous cover) caught my eye not too long ago after its release and I was really excited. I’m always interested in stories of men coming out later in life and I thought that the autistic child sub-plot sounded interesting. I hadn’t read anything by Roxy Harte previously, and if I’m not mistaken, I believe that the majority of her works are m/f or m/m/f, though she has written some m/m. What I am sad to report is that I found the story ultimately disappointing, for a number of reasons that I’ll get to later. In fact, I found so many things about this book that bothered me, I have two pages of notes, and I’m going to have to separate this review into What Worked For Me and What Didn’t Work For Me, for the first time in one of my reviews.
The story starts as we meet Colin MacNeill, a Scottish-born man who now lives in the US working as an attorney in Chicago. He has a wife named Marissa, who is also an attorney, and they have a five year old autistic child, Kerrigan. They have had a rough go at raising an autistic child. By mutual agreement, they agreed that Marissa would take a couple of years off to get the care started for their son, but a couple turned into five and Marissa has started to resent Colin and their son, who she doesn’t feel is really her child because he doesn’t recognize her (there is a lot more about this, and yes, she is made out to be a villain). They have a fight — Marissa wants to have another child, a “healthy” child, but Colin cannot in good conscience father another child with her, and when she asks why, without thinking he blurts out “Actually, I’m Gay.” This, in effect, is the end of their argument. Marissa storms out and Colin wakes up the next morning with Kerrigan still in bed and Marissa gone, having left everything behind. At the end of a terrible day of having to take Kerrigan with him to his corporate law office, his friend and law partner Michael suggests that he take some time off and suggests a summer camp for autistic children in Iowa.
When Colin gets to the camp and enrolls Kerrigan, he immediately finds he has a strong attraction to the camp’s owner, Beau Delacroix. Beau feels likewise, but he won’t jeopardize the children’s treatment to have an affair with a parent of one of his campers, much less a male camper, which would drive the parents of his campers nuts and could possibly ruin the camp altogether. But, just like many parents before him, Colin is afraid to leave his son with strangers and he rents out a house across the lake. The more time they spend together, their feelings come out and neither can resist the other. In the meantime, there is a nefarious environmental anarchist group that has its sights set on Colin, who has gotten some prominent environmental pollutants out of hot water with the law. Add to that a mugging, his ongoing divorce with Marissa, and blackmail by a source that is someone he thinks he trusts and Colin and Beau have a lot to loose — the camp, their reputations and careers, and possibly each other.
What Didn’t Work For Me
First of all, what started out to be a simple love story merged into a huge scandal and several possible people after Colin, and Beau by proxy. Not only did the last half of the story turn completely away from the burgeoning romance, but it was way too much to incorporate into one book. On top of that, there were several inconsistencies throughout. Furthermore, one of these things was completely forgotten about and never wrapped up, while the others ended in a way that seemed pretty implausible to me.
The characterization of Colin bothered me a great deal. We first see him as a tough guy who won’t allow himself to be emotional, but he immediately falls into Beau’s arms and cries the first time they meet. That didn’t make sense at all. If the point was to give credibility to the fact that Colin can only be his real self in front of Beau, then at least have him wait until they get to know each other better and their feelings are stronger.
Even though a fair amount of time goes by before they admit real feelings for each other, the story still feels like Insta-Love, because there’s no delineation between the weekends he spends at the camp and the weeks that he spends at his job back in Chicago. We don’t see him going back and forth all that much, most of Colin’s on screen time is in Iowa and I was constantly confused just how much time was passing.
The whole “scandal” didn’t make sense to me. Maybe if it was just a local thing where people got upset about their relationship, but for it to be an international scandal being brought all over the world by CNN… Why would so many people care?
Personally, I have no preferences either way on the condom/no-condom debate, but what does bother me is if there is no consistency. The first time they have sex, they don’t use a condom. One time they use a condom with a massage oil (which is NOT safe, unless appropriately made for both), and at a later time in the book, they’re extremely conscientious about using appropriate protection. There was also a time when, without using any sort of lube, Beau (who is gay, not GFY at all) refers to Colin as “wet for me.” I know I’m a gay man, but I’m sorry, that just squicked me out.
There was an extremely important character that affects the ending that is brought in only at that moment. We have no idea of his existence until he pops up out of nowhere.
Though there are more things that bothered me, I will stop here at what bothered me the most. One, there is a scene where one character gives head while the other is driving. Okay, I know people actually try this, because I was unfortunate enough to actually see a woman giving a man head on the freeway once as I passed them (they got pulled over by the fuzz, just so you know), but this is way out of character for Beau, who is really worried about anyone finding out about him and Colin. Then, not soon after that, they pull off the road and right on the shoulder on the hood of the car, Beau proceeds to fist Colin with only a little lube and no prep. Come on!
What Did Work For Me
I thought that the characterization of Colin’s wife/ex-wife Marissa was done very well and with a keen eye to emotional detail. She was portrayed as a villain, yes, but as one that in a way everyone can relate to. She left her son, which is something that most people can’t reconcile, but even if you can’t, you’ll understand why she isn’t fit to be his mother, and she understands that as well. I thought her character was the most full-fledged and perfectly portrayed of all of the characters in the book.
There is a lot in the novel about autism in general, even if there are only a few scenes directly between Colin and his son, Kerrigan. They were handled very well and showed quite a bit indirectly about who Colin and Beau are in how they respond to Kerrigan’s difficulties. I learned quite a bit about autism as well.
Maybe this is a bit of a cheap shot, or unfair to list here, but I loved the addition of the two recipes at the end of the book. But, then again, I love food :)
In Conclusion
All in all, I must say that I’m quite dissappointed in the story. The first third of the book was going alright, but after that the story just fell to pieces. It needed a lot more work before going to publication, to be streamlined and to flesh out the plot and characterizations. If none of those things work out, you aren’t left with much to bring the story together. I wouldn’t recommend this book, and I’m not sure how I’ll feel about reading another book by Roxy Harte in the future. I might, but I’ll be very conscientious about reading others reviews first. Unfortunately, I’d say read this one at your own peril.
For the full review, please visit Reviews by Jessewave.
This entire review has been hidden because of spoilers.
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January 28, 2021I’m not rating this book because I quit at 23%. The writing was fine, but I just didn’t like the direction the story was taking. The idea of a man coming out as well as suddenly being left with his autistic child. Throw in his son’s camp counselor who’s trying to keep things professional even though they are extremely attracted to each other and it sounded like the makings of a great book.
The minute the grandfather called to threaten Colin because he made his daughter cry because he wouldn’t throw his son away. I remembered something about a scandal in the reviews and I knew I wasn’t going to like this book.
I’m writing this review so I’ll remember the next time I come across it that I tried to read it. I’m not putting any dates down because I don’t want it counted towards my 2021 reading goal.
The minute the grandfather called to threaten Colin because he made his daughter cry because he wouldn’t throw his son away. I remembered something about a scandal in the reviews and I knew I wasn’t going to like this book.
I’m writing this review so I’ll remember the next time I come across it that I tried to read it. I’m not putting any dates down because I don’t want it counted towards my 2021 reading goal.
March 13, 2011
I liked the plot and the excerpt was so promising, but I was so disappointed. Everything happened too fast. A few more pages and a bit more thinking about the subject would have been required.
The whole coming out, the "I give everything up for my son" (but where were you all the other years? even when you agreed that Marissa would stay home, where were you daddy??) the insta-love, the scandal, the big wedding ... and god, let's not forget fisting on a the hood of a car, out on the road, without really preparation ... COME ON!!
The whole coming out, the "I give everything up for my son" (but where were you all the other years? even when you agreed that Marissa would stay home, where were you daddy??) the insta-love, the scandal, the big wedding ... and god, let's not forget fisting on a the hood of a car, out on the road, without really preparation ... COME ON!!
August 26, 2019
Actively rolling my eyes...
When I read the blurb, I expected that -- so rare unfortunately -- genuine Alpha x Alpha relationship, but what a blow! Do the Authors not re-read themselves nowadays at all? Does this author only know what Alpha x Alpha relationship mean on the psychological scale? What are its stakes? Its characteristics?
Let's not even evoke the horrible narration and the ugly cover...
When I read the blurb, I expected that -- so rare unfortunately -- genuine Alpha x Alpha relationship, but what a blow! Do the Authors not re-read themselves nowadays at all? Does this author only know what Alpha x Alpha relationship mean on the psychological scale? What are its stakes? Its characteristics?
Let's not even evoke the horrible narration and the ugly cover...
January 24, 2013
Bought this kindle book on the strength of the previous and only review to date. Story starts well. Husband and wife corporate Chigago based lawyers, have a severely autistic son, wife gives up career to care for son. During a domestic row, husband declares he's gay and cannot perform anymore. Wife wanting another, this time "normal" child, takes off leaving child to husband's care. Husband places child in a specialist summer camp, whose CEO also happens to be gay. The husband and Summer Camp director commence a relationship.
So far so good. However during the second half of the novel everything collapses. The plot and character development is rushed. Chigago lawyer's Scottish ancestry suddenly becomes a major factor, they plan their wedding after only a few short weeks of being together(cue irrelevent paragraphs on Scottish and Creole recipes given in full at the end of the book. As if I give a damn!) A terrorist organisation starts to victimise them. One of the protagonists is shot during the cutting of the wedding cake...the whole thing becomes farcical, and rushed. Sex scenes are pointless, descriptive and serve no purpose, albeit to tell the reader about the fantastic orgasms that can be achieved through anal f*sting!?! - Whatever! Do I really want to read this in a love story?
I cannot blame the writer, the editor is at fault.
All in all, a novel that has potential; starts well then....well, all I can say is, not a recommendation from me. I would have given two stars, but the writing, plot and character potential in the first half isn't that bad.
So far so good. However during the second half of the novel everything collapses. The plot and character development is rushed. Chigago lawyer's Scottish ancestry suddenly becomes a major factor, they plan their wedding after only a few short weeks of being together(cue irrelevent paragraphs on Scottish and Creole recipes given in full at the end of the book. As if I give a damn!) A terrorist organisation starts to victimise them. One of the protagonists is shot during the cutting of the wedding cake...the whole thing becomes farcical, and rushed. Sex scenes are pointless, descriptive and serve no purpose, albeit to tell the reader about the fantastic orgasms that can be achieved through anal f*sting!?! - Whatever! Do I really want to read this in a love story?
I cannot blame the writer, the editor is at fault.
All in all, a novel that has potential; starts well then....well, all I can say is, not a recommendation from me. I would have given two stars, but the writing, plot and character potential in the first half isn't that bad.
January 18, 2011
There is definitely insta-love happening here, and things do happen very fast. In spite of that, I really liked the story. Kerrigan, Colin's son, is autistic and the descriptions of his day to day life showed realism. The hatred shown at times, unfortunately, also seemed real. Beau and Colin have some kinks (public sex, fisting) that work well for the two of them. I had a niggle with how awful Marissa (Kerrigans mom) was portrayed, and yet even that seemed possible, a career woman giving up everything for her autistic son who finally snaps at the admission that her husband is gay. Taking the insta-love and all in stride, the book worked for me.
April 13, 2011
Was pretty Meh!
I had high expectations so I was a bit dissapointed. There was one sex scene on the bonnet of a car that was so freaking stupid and SOOOO unrealistic. I kept wondering 'what was the author thinking'.????
would probably give it 3.5 for the sweetness factor and because the author did alot of research into autism
I had high expectations so I was a bit dissapointed. There was one sex scene on the bonnet of a car that was so freaking stupid and SOOOO unrealistic. I kept wondering 'what was the author thinking'.????
would probably give it 3.5 for the sweetness factor and because the author did alot of research into autism
October 15, 2011
2.5/5
What didn't work:
"You're so wet for me!"
That's an asshole, not a pussy.
A fisting scene outside on the hood of a car.
No condom.
Too much of cliche. Just too much.
And I hope, for the sake of the universe, that this Marissa never have an other child.
What work:
The writer success in making me cheering for them. I wanted them to be happy together.
What didn't work:
"You're so wet for me!"
That's an asshole, not a pussy.
A fisting scene outside on the hood of a car.
No condom.
Too much of cliche. Just too much.
And I hope, for the sake of the universe, that this Marissa never have an other child.
What work:
The writer success in making me cheering for them. I wanted them to be happy together.
August 29, 2019
God, this book is crazy bad! I just can't. 😂😂😂
September 15, 2019
This started out really good back fell off hard. Great story idea but very poorly executed and poorly edited. The middle and end made no sense at all.
October 6, 2022
Este libros sinceramente no me gusto, no soy mala con los libros y con las estrellas que doy, porque entiendo que detrás de todo libro hay una gran cantidad de tiempo, trabajo y esfuerzo. Pero, ¿sinceramente? este libro en la reseña prometía una historia HH entre un padre, su hijo autista y el otro “alfa”. No obstante, me llevé una desilusión, dado que el 98% del libro gira entorno a Colin y Phillip, mientras que solo el 2% fue acerca de Kerrigan, su hijo.
La verdad es que me molestó que se hablara tan poco de Kerrigan y la relación con su padre, es decir, el tipo estuvo ausente toda la vida de su hijo y lo mínimo que esperaba es que la historia profundizara más en su relación. Pero no, el libro fue sobre Colin y Phillip y su relación y su matrimonio y la gran cantidad de SEXO, por eso sí que hubo y demasiado. De vedad fue demasiado.
🚨SPOILER ALERT🚨
Lo otro que no me gustó, es el hecho de que ocurrieran muchas situaciones a lo largo del libro que no se entendían del todo. Por ejemplo, cuando el padre de su ex novia lo amenaza y prácticamente le dice que lo podría matar, PERO eso fue todo y las situaciones que le ocurrieron a Colin, como cuando lo apuñalaron, no tuvieron nada que ver con el padre de su ex.... entonces ¿para qué se nombró?
Otro punto que tampoco entendí es por qué Colin pensaba TODO EL TIEMPO que su ex se casaría o tenía un romance con su socio de trabajo. Esto de que podrían tener un amorío se insinuó mucho y no habían pruebas ni nada, pero la forma en cómo estaba escrito daba a entender que nosotros, como lectores, sabíamos "algo", pero en realidad no sabíamos nada. Lo cual, nuevamente fue raro e innecesario. Es como esa información que no es necesario añadir, porque no se utiliza y en esta historia de vedad no se utilizó.
Otro punto que tampoco entendí refiere a las personas que le hacen daño a Colin, comprendo que es abogado y que las personas a las que defendía no eran las mejores, pero tampoco es como que se entregue mucha información respecto de por qué este grupo lo ataca, cuando solo es el abogado y los culpables son los dueños de la empresa. Sinceramente creo que en esta ocasión el autor perdió la oportunidad de utilizar la amenaza del suegro y hacer algo más creíble.
Esta historia tenía una premisa muy buena y novedosa, pero tristemente no se aprovechó.
La verdad es que me molestó que se hablara tan poco de Kerrigan y la relación con su padre, es decir, el tipo estuvo ausente toda la vida de su hijo y lo mínimo que esperaba es que la historia profundizara más en su relación. Pero no, el libro fue sobre Colin y Phillip y su relación y su matrimonio y la gran cantidad de SEXO, por eso sí que hubo y demasiado. De vedad fue demasiado.
🚨SPOILER ALERT🚨
Lo otro que no me gustó, es el hecho de que ocurrieran muchas situaciones a lo largo del libro que no se entendían del todo. Por ejemplo, cuando el padre de su ex novia lo amenaza y prácticamente le dice que lo podría matar, PERO eso fue todo y las situaciones que le ocurrieron a Colin, como cuando lo apuñalaron, no tuvieron nada que ver con el padre de su ex.... entonces ¿para qué se nombró?
Otro punto que tampoco entendí es por qué Colin pensaba TODO EL TIEMPO que su ex se casaría o tenía un romance con su socio de trabajo. Esto de que podrían tener un amorío se insinuó mucho y no habían pruebas ni nada, pero la forma en cómo estaba escrito daba a entender que nosotros, como lectores, sabíamos "algo", pero en realidad no sabíamos nada. Lo cual, nuevamente fue raro e innecesario. Es como esa información que no es necesario añadir, porque no se utiliza y en esta historia de vedad no se utilizó.
Otro punto que tampoco entendí refiere a las personas que le hacen daño a Colin, comprendo que es abogado y que las personas a las que defendía no eran las mejores, pero tampoco es como que se entregue mucha información respecto de por qué este grupo lo ataca, cuando solo es el abogado y los culpables son los dueños de la empresa. Sinceramente creo que en esta ocasión el autor perdió la oportunidad de utilizar la amenaza del suegro y hacer algo más creíble.
Esta historia tenía una premisa muy buena y novedosa, pero tristemente no se aprovechó.
September 16, 2019
This story was just an ok read, I didn't really get their supposed love, it was kind of rushed. Everything was rushed, the drama didn't even get closure from of all their problems, Colin with his firm and everything that his 'friend' did, and also with Beau's camp. I would have preferred if this story was broken into two books but to really finish the story, to really tell us what happens with everything in between the characters, yes they got together but there was more to the story than just them.
September 29, 2019
This is a fast pace book. It's a quick read and captivates you from the beginning. I wish it was longer as I really enjoyed it
April 11, 2012
ACTUALLY, I'M GAY is one of the best books that I have read this year. Roxy Harte wrote a beautiful love story that touched me in ways that I really didn't expect and gave me a whole new appreciation for parents of autistic children.
Colin tells his wife that he doesn't want to have more children with her because he is gay. When he wakes up the next morning, she is gone, leaving not only him but their 4-year-old autistic son. Colin is a corporate lawyer who has been basically absent in the day to day caring of his son and is at a loss as to how to deal with Kerrigan and still do his job. When his partner suggests a summer camp that is specifically designed for autistic children, he is reluctant but doesn't feel he has much of a choice.
Beau never thought he would be back running the camp that his grandfather started, but when his grandfather passes away and then a few months later his dad is killed in an accident, he steps in to do what he was brought up to do. He is used to dealing with difficult parents who have a hard time leaving their children in his care, but he has never had a reaction to one like he has to Colin.
The relationship that develops between Beau and Colin is antagonistic at first. The camp doesn't allow parents to be there except on visiting weekends, but Colin tries to get around that by renting the cabin across the lake. Beau tries to explain to Colin that his presence is hindering Kerrigan's progress. Colin has a hard time believing that he can ever care for Kerrigan on his own and takes his frustration out on Beau.
When the camp experiences some trouble and Beau thinks he might have to close it, Colin steps in and does what he does best. As a corporate lawyer, he is the go-to person if your company is having PR and legal problems. But the real reason behind the trouble comes from the last place neither man expected.
I fell in love with these characters and with their story, and while there were aspects of the story line that I had problems with, like Kerrigan's mother just leaving her child, I loved the relationship that was built between Colin and his son. Things do happen quickly between Colin and Beau, but I didn't have a hard time believing it. I was sucked into the story and was happy to go along for the ride. The way the author describes how an autistic person's mind works read very real to me. And as long as you don't have a problem with public sex, or on the side of the road sex, you should come along for the ride too.
Colin tells his wife that he doesn't want to have more children with her because he is gay. When he wakes up the next morning, she is gone, leaving not only him but their 4-year-old autistic son. Colin is a corporate lawyer who has been basically absent in the day to day caring of his son and is at a loss as to how to deal with Kerrigan and still do his job. When his partner suggests a summer camp that is specifically designed for autistic children, he is reluctant but doesn't feel he has much of a choice.
Beau never thought he would be back running the camp that his grandfather started, but when his grandfather passes away and then a few months later his dad is killed in an accident, he steps in to do what he was brought up to do. He is used to dealing with difficult parents who have a hard time leaving their children in his care, but he has never had a reaction to one like he has to Colin.
The relationship that develops between Beau and Colin is antagonistic at first. The camp doesn't allow parents to be there except on visiting weekends, but Colin tries to get around that by renting the cabin across the lake. Beau tries to explain to Colin that his presence is hindering Kerrigan's progress. Colin has a hard time believing that he can ever care for Kerrigan on his own and takes his frustration out on Beau.
When the camp experiences some trouble and Beau thinks he might have to close it, Colin steps in and does what he does best. As a corporate lawyer, he is the go-to person if your company is having PR and legal problems. But the real reason behind the trouble comes from the last place neither man expected.
I fell in love with these characters and with their story, and while there were aspects of the story line that I had problems with, like Kerrigan's mother just leaving her child, I loved the relationship that was built between Colin and his son. Things do happen quickly between Colin and Beau, but I didn't have a hard time believing it. I was sucked into the story and was happy to go along for the ride. The way the author describes how an autistic person's mind works read very real to me. And as long as you don't have a problem with public sex, or on the side of the road sex, you should come along for the ride too.
March 28, 2011
Love can truly be found in the oddest places. Nothing portrays this fact more than this story about Collin and Beau finding love when neither of them was looking for it, but both of them needed it. Isn’t that how it seems to works? When you least expect something there it is waiting for you to grab.
The emotional development between Collin and Beau was great. They both brought something to the relationship unique to themselves which allowed their love to grow. Beau taught Collin how to care for his son, and Collin handled Beau’s legal problems. It made the relationship believable because it gave those more to base things on other than physical attraction. I could tell this was truly matters of the heart.
The writing style and description was up to par, though I was left feeling a little disconnected was during the love scenes as if something was missing. It may have been small details, but it was enough to pull me from the story. With that said, the physical connection was not the dominant trait in this relationship so it was easily forgivable because the emotional attachment took precedence in the characters' relationship so it also took precedence in my attachment to the characters.
Not only was the relationship development between the two main characters well portrayed in this story, but also the father-son bond that I got to watch bloom between Collin and Kerrigan. I loved the way Collin discovered who his son really was in this story. He also was willing to love Kerrigan and want to care for him even when it would have been easier to just give up. It was something that truly touched my heart and will stay with me for a long time.
With strong emotions and characters with limitless abilities to care for others this story tugged my heart strings and stayed with me long after the last page was turned.
Originally posted at http://whippedcream2.blogspot.com/201...
The emotional development between Collin and Beau was great. They both brought something to the relationship unique to themselves which allowed their love to grow. Beau taught Collin how to care for his son, and Collin handled Beau’s legal problems. It made the relationship believable because it gave those more to base things on other than physical attraction. I could tell this was truly matters of the heart.
The writing style and description was up to par, though I was left feeling a little disconnected was during the love scenes as if something was missing. It may have been small details, but it was enough to pull me from the story. With that said, the physical connection was not the dominant trait in this relationship so it was easily forgivable because the emotional attachment took precedence in the characters' relationship so it also took precedence in my attachment to the characters.
Not only was the relationship development between the two main characters well portrayed in this story, but also the father-son bond that I got to watch bloom between Collin and Kerrigan. I loved the way Collin discovered who his son really was in this story. He also was willing to love Kerrigan and want to care for him even when it would have been easier to just give up. It was something that truly touched my heart and will stay with me for a long time.
With strong emotions and characters with limitless abilities to care for others this story tugged my heart strings and stayed with me long after the last page was turned.
Originally posted at http://whippedcream2.blogspot.com/201...
January 27, 2013
Shame about this book because it sounded so promising. Before I downloaded it, it had two conflicting reviews so it was a chance choice. Unfortunately it turned out to be a bit of a dud. There's a lot going on in it - serious subjects - like single parenting a special needs child ( in this case a little autistic boy ), marriage breakdown, abandonment, divorce, coming out, homophobia, some violence (an attack and a shooting ).....all things that should bring out deep feelings, but sadly I couldn't connect, so my emotions never engaged with the story or any of the characters like I felt they should have, apart from the wife who I loathed. She behaved in such a cold, callous manner that I couldn't even bring myself to even try and sympathise with her, her actions were appalling. Horrible woman! Everything took place over a short period of time so things did seem a bit rushed and it showed, especially in the romance and love scenes, they lacked the chemistry and ST that I usually love in m/m romance. The anal fisting scene was just odd and out of pace.
August 19, 2011
Actually, I'm Gay is an excellent read. When Colin blurts out to his wife he's gay he finds himself alone with his autistic son. Wanting to get him the best care he puts him in a summer camp then spends his weekends there volunteering and falling in love with the camp's director and owner. When scandal breaks over their relationship Colin and Beau have to decide what to do. I liked the realistic approach given to autism and how Colin wanted to be his son's caregiver but knowing he did not have the skills he found the summer camp to be the best place for his son. I liked the sparks Colin and Beau gave off towards each other and how they got mad at each other when they were doing what they had been trained to do. A quick read but full of so much. A book like this makes me want to do research on the subject.
September 7, 2019
I couldn’t even.
So far all the female characters are either evil or evil AND useless. All men are useful and nice and patient. Not woman though. Oh no. We need to have “hysterical” women.
The characterization of Marissa pissed me off to no end. I am sick and tired of M/M authors writing their females as one dimensional as possible. And like, 80% of M/M I’ve read, a woman is the evil one. The woman was the “bitchy” one and that’s why the MC left her (or she left him but not before being mean and cruel ;~; to him) and so there came the other male MC and everything was great and the wife was the evil bitch. The end.
Idk what was happening with Marissa, I don’t know if the author explained it better as the story went along. I don’t care to know either way.
So far all the female characters are either evil or evil AND useless. All men are useful and nice and patient. Not woman though. Oh no. We need to have “hysterical” women.
The characterization of Marissa pissed me off to no end. I am sick and tired of M/M authors writing their females as one dimensional as possible. And like, 80% of M/M I’ve read, a woman is the evil one. The woman was the “bitchy” one and that’s why the MC left her (or she left him but not before being mean and cruel ;~; to him) and so there came the other male MC and everything was great and the wife was the evil bitch. The end.
Idk what was happening with Marissa, I don’t know if the author explained it better as the story went along. I don’t care to know either way.
February 5, 2017
Hmmm I wouldn't call this insta love, more like insta lust with fast growing feelings. Really can't call the wife enough names to do her justice- I hope karma takes up constant residence in her Asian penthouse.
The midnight swim was a pretty romantic location for a kiss, providing you remember to keep treading water.
There were a few things that made me knock points off - you're so wet for me? Really? The fisting came out of left field (not a fan of that particular kink- ewwww!)
A lot happened in hundred and some pages, so it's understandable that the author didn't have time to expand in a few places, so it wasn't a great read, but it was an Okay read.
The midnight swim was a pretty romantic location for a kiss, providing you remember to keep treading water.
There were a few things that made me knock points off - you're so wet for me? Really? The fisting came out of left field (not a fan of that particular kink- ewwww!)
A lot happened in hundred and some pages, so it's understandable that the author didn't have time to expand in a few places, so it wasn't a great read, but it was an Okay read.
This entire review has been hidden because of spoilers.
September 8, 2019
Less Than the Preview
The story was not at all what I expected from the preview. The preview enticed, the story develops into some classic stereotypes for MF romance, and even though there are two men in the lead roles, the attraction did not materialize for me. Long hair, soul patch facial hair and cigarette smoke stained fingers are so far from “sexy” for me as to through me completely out of the story. I tried to continue but eventually just gave up.
The story was not at all what I expected from the preview. The preview enticed, the story develops into some classic stereotypes for MF romance, and even though there are two men in the lead roles, the attraction did not materialize for me. Long hair, soul patch facial hair and cigarette smoke stained fingers are so far from “sexy” for me as to through me completely out of the story. I tried to continue but eventually just gave up.
September 9, 2019
This was my 1st m/m book, it was a super intro into it. The story was incredible, I totally wanted to throat punch Marisa what a absolutely heartless bitch.
Beau and Colin's love not only for each other, but Kerrigan and the other kids is incredible you can feel how they feel about the camp and the kids.
Their passion and fight for dominance is powerful and loving.
I strongly recommend this book, have a box of tissues close by
Beau and Colin's love not only for each other, but Kerrigan and the other kids is incredible you can feel how they feel about the camp and the kids.
Their passion and fight for dominance is powerful and loving.
I strongly recommend this book, have a box of tissues close by
This entire review has been hidden because of spoilers.
March 14, 2011
The plot of the story was interesting, but everything developed simple to fast. I really didn't feel the characters. Both main couple, Beau and Colin, were interesting and as a couple and well matched, but something just didn't fit. And even the sex scenes were so low key..., Anyway I don't recommend this story on.
April 11, 2012
Interesting story, realistic characters. At first, I didn't like Colin very much, being unattached and distant. But he grew into his responsibilities as a father and found the ability to love. My only criticism is that the ending felt rushed.
May 9, 2013
I just couldn't suspend belief enough to enjoy this story (and I'm usually pretty generous with romance novels). I wanted to like it, the plot had potential, but the execution of said plot just didn't work for me.
January 29, 2011
nice story. but the first time was without condom and that's a no-no for me.
March 14, 2011
1.5. Not the worst book that I have ever read but there was very, very little that I did like about this story. Cole Riann's review nailed it!
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August 20, 2011This is a very skillful marrying of two important issues. I will put it on my to be read list.
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Tangled Web
Kill Fee, out in October 2011
Julie Eberhart Painter
Mortal Coil
Tangled Web
Kill Fee, out in October 2011
maybe
February 2, 2012The blurb sounds interesting but reviews are, to put it mildly, discouraging. Still, I'm curious...
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