Oh man, Jaun Elia is an emotional wizard, the way he portrays emotions is very good, he's a great great poet for sure. However depressed he was, he was a great poet, the way he goes through emotions in one book is just so insane to me and it doesn't even seem dramatized, it seems real, everything seems to be happening to him and most of it is bad??? The way this man goes through 5 stages of heartbreak in one poem, then goes through an existential crisis in another one, then goes through happy mystical emotions in another one. Safe to say, he was very self aware.
In some poems, he straight up challenges God, or in his way maybe remembers God. He was a man with very complex emotions, a man who was in a way done with life completely. It's sad but it's so damn poetic and you feel his emotions through his words and it's a rollercoaster, you laugh at some poetry and you cringe at some too but it's as relatable as it could be and is as poetically justified as it could be!