"I grew older and I started to realise that if I rubbed the glass and cleaned it, I was able to see outside".
Reclaiming The Soil is a powerful journey of a black woman brought up in whiteness, not just whiteness but Caucasity, to reclaiming her blackness against all odds.
Rosie Motene grew up as a rich little white girl stuck in a black body with black hair, a black nose, hips and bums. She longed for the full caucasian transformation and hated and renounced all things black; her parents, village, heritage, language, culture, and her clan. Of course, she was never fully accepted by her foster/adoptive family, it is not clear what the legal term was/is, as the Finkelsteins never formalised this guardianship and she in turn, rejected her black people. The strife and heartache was expected. Before I was even on chapter 3, I already knew how this whole saga was going to unfold.
The power in this story is Rosie's acknowledgement of her part in it. The part where she wanted, with all her heart, to shed her black skin and all that which came with it. The poverty and the lack. The shame of her mother's job. Her mother was a domestic for the Finkelsteins. And Rosie treated her with utter disdain. Rosie did everything in her power to fit in with the Finkelsteins. An an adult, Rosie wanted to go back to her people. The journey was a long and painful one but she persevered. She hasn't completed the journey yet but, she still soldiers on. I salute her for that.
Rosie's story put so much in perspective for me. I went to a private boarding school school for 5 years. I lived in the lap of luxury when the township was burning. I stayed amongst children who were fetched in limousines and vacationed in Europe. Children whose parents attended all school activities. Pupils whose school projects were delivered by drivers while I carried mine to class as they were made on an A3 paper with magazine cuttings pasted on them and decorated with glitter pens but, I was proud. Proud that I managed to interpret the Eiffel Tower using paper and glue. At the end of the school term, I packed my bags and made the trek home. Home was a four-roomed matchbox-sized home in Meadowlands. I didn't find anything odd in that. It was my home and I was lucky because my peers had to study in draughty classrooms with half-burnt text books. Classrooms with glass-less windows and desks mounted on bricks. While they hurried home at the end of a school day, I sauntered to the library to indulge in Greek mythology and English classics because Sisi Gladys was preparing my three course supper. And I was grateful. Grateful to be spared the challenges of studying in the township during that period of unrest and instability. This experience taught me to want better for myself. It opened my mind to the world. I saw what was on offer outside of my little Meadowlands world.
I understand Rosie's pain. The effects of apartheid and inequality were genocidal. Rosie was affected badly and she didn't have anyone to turn to. Her "foster" family could never understand her pain. Her natural family did not understand her, let alone what she was going through because she lived in the whites-only world. The language was foreign. The languaging of things was unnatural to their Setswana tongues. The culture was foreign. The food was too expensive. Can you imagine breakfasting on bacon and eggs and Emmental cheese on a domestic worker's salary. Sacrilegious!
Rosie's story is a reminder to society that when races are pitted against each other, it's the children who suffer most. These children grow into lost and wounded adults if not healed. We end up with hurt adults wondering aimlessly through their lives because they don't have a firm grounding in anything. There's nothing concrete grounding them anc they use substances as a salve on porous foundations.
The content could have done with vigorous editing but, the story is too powerfully narrated for THAT to disturb its flow. Some vignettes end up in the air but, some paths in our lives' journeys end abruptly and it's up to us to decipher the lessons. This story has power and redemptive qualities.
Here's to cheering you on Rosie as you continue your journey of reclaiming your soil.
Highly recommended.