I was given a digital ARC of this book by BookSirens, thank you so much for letting me read it!
ELEPHANT is a YA thriller/suspense novel that combines several layers of mental health issues: PTSD, depression, and anxiety. It's from the main perspective of Matt, a boy who lives with his grandma, and has an extremely shadowed past. All he knows is that his grandfather and father died in a car accident years before. On Matt's 14th birthday, a freak accident occurs, landing Matt in hospital with no clear recollection of what happened to him. All he knows is that he's left with severe panic attacks that cause him to black out and kind of recollect his past. As more episodes of that happen, more flashbacks are given, piecing together more and more of Matt's hazy past. Two days later, Night Two happens: once again, Matt has a near-death experience, but this time it involves his friends witnessing. He's landed back in hospital--and following more and more episodes, he doesn't get discharged. However, while in hospital, the web of the story grows to include Mr. Barry and Dr. Brown, cousins, who harbour a secret: somehow, they're linked to Matt--and they know the truth of Matt's family's death.
This book is incredibly bizarre, and read like a dream: I never quite knew what was going on for the hazy, choppy way the style has. However, I was thoroughly gripped and read it in less than 12 hours, in two sittings. The ending is a cliffhanger that made me screech--because I just felt like I had a grip on the story before the truth was dropped--and then the book ends, and the sequel isn't due until 2021.
I loved the cast of characters, the weird descriptions, how everything was poetic and jarring and just downright nonsensical at times. I loved the gasping moments and the "oh wow" moments of realisation--understanding what the grandmother went through, what Matt remembers, what Dr. Brown and Mr. Barry have in common, their own secrets. Everything both tied in and floated as it's own entity. This was a new genre and type of book for me, and I wasn't disappointed. Thank you, BookSirens.