Damaged: Ferron’s Journey Part One

The Playroom #4

by J.P. Sayle

Can the damage done by another be reversed, after Ferron makes the biggest mistake of his life?

Ferron Robertson is a lost soul searching for someone and something to connect with after suffering great loss. In The Playroom, he finds his centre in submission and the grief he lives with becomes easier to manage.

That is, until he makes a fateful mistake.

Life for some is never an easy journey and after being rejected in the one place he feels safe, Ferron goes somewhere that is anything but safe to him. Now he must battle not only himself, but the Dom who refuses to let him go.

Ferron’s Journey: Damaged Part One, The Playroom series, is an MM gay suspense with BDSM and a cliffhanger ending. This is the first part of a trilogy and written from Ferron’s POV.

Warning:
This book has aspects of a non-consensual relationship, with possible triggers due to scenes of abuse.

Genres: BDSM, M M Romance, Gay, Contemporary, Abuse

186 pages, Kindle Edition

Published June 4, 2020

About the author

Where does one start with about what I do?
I’m a writer, but I’m sure you guessed that by now if you’re reading this, hey? What you might not know is I’m a little quirky, live in my pj’s most of the time and have cake Saturdays with my sisters every week. I dedicate a little of my time to taking care of my grandbabies and on the dedicated writing days I like to write an eclectic mix of romance, suspense and paranormal fantasy. In the main I’ve written gay romance but I’m branching out under another the pen name in the future, so watch this space.
I’ve a passion for books like you would not believe and it led me down this path and now I’ve over 29 books released and heading towards releasing a whole lot more. The way my head is I never know where I’ll be headed next. I hope you’ll find a little joy in my words and follow me to see where the journey takes me and you.
If you’re interested at some point in 2021 I’ll be writing under the name JP Paton which will be F/M crime and Fantasy two of my favourite things. Be sure to keep your eyes peeled 


French
Par où commencer par ce que je fais?
Je suis écrivain, mais je suis sûr que vous l’avez deviné maintenant si vous lisez ceci, hein? Ce que vous ne savez peut-être pas, c'est que je suis un peu excentrique, que je vis dans mon pyjama la plupart du temps et que je prends un gâteau le samedi avec mes sœurs chaque semaine. Je consacre un peu de mon temps à m'occuper de mes petits-enfants et lors des journées consacrées à l'écriture, j'aime écrire un mélange éclectique de romance, de suspense et de fantaisie paranormale. Dans l’ensemble, j’ai écrit une romance gay, mais je vais dans le futur sous un autre nom de plume, alors surveillez cet espace.
J'ai une passion pour les livres comme vous ne le croiriez pas et cela m'a conduit dans cette voie et maintenant j'ai plus de 29 livres publiés et je me dirige vers la sortie de beaucoup plus. La façon dont ma tête est, je ne sais jamais où je vais me diriger ensuite. J'espère que vous trouverez un peu de joie dans mes paroles et que vous me suivrez pour voir où le voyage vous mène, moi et vous.
Si vous êtes intéressé à un moment donné en 2021, je vais écrire sous le nom de JP Paton qui sera le crime F / M et Fantasy deux de mes choses préférées. Assurez-vous de garder les yeux ouverts 


Spanish
¿Por dónde empezar con lo que hago?
Soy escritor, pero estoy seguro de que ya lo habrá adivinado si está leyendo esto, ¿eh? Lo que quizás no sepas es que soy un poco estrafalario, vivo en mi pijama la mayor parte del tiempo y tengo pastel los sábados con mis hermanas todas las semanas. Dedico un poco de mi tiempo a cuidar de mis nietos y en los días dedicados a la escritura, me gusta escribir una mezcla ecléctica de romance, suspenso y fantasía paranormal. En general, escribí romance gay, pero en el futuro me voy a diversificar con otro seudónimo, así que mira este espacio.
Tengo una pasión por los libros que no creerías y eso me llevó por este camino y ahora tengo más de 29 libros publicados y me dirijo a lanzar muchos más. Por la forma en que está mi cabeza, nunca sé a dónde me dirigiré a continuación. Espero que encuentres un poco de alegría en mis palabras y me sigas para ver adónde nos lleva el viaje a ti y a mí.
Si está interesado en algún momento en 2021, escribiré bajo el nombre de JP Paton, que será F / M Crime y Fantasy, dos de mis cosas favoritas. Asegúrate de mantener los ojos bien abiertos 

Reviews

[J.P. Sayle · Rating 5 out of 5]

[Lila · Rating 4 out of 5]

Finally, we see what happened to Ferron

One thing I noticed in Lenny's books as well, is that the author tends to skip certain scenes, and kind of comes back to what's missed in a throwback.

All the jumping around makes the storyline jerk all over the place.

A lot of the scenes we've already seen in previous books are repeated, and not much is added with the exception of a few things from Ferron's POV.

I hope the next one is a bit smoother, and hopefully we see the beginning of Ferron and Isaac's relationship.

[Hannah Roberts · Rating 5 out of 5]

Oh Ferron 😢😢 you poor sweet boy! Part one is written from Ferron’s POV.

If like me you’ve been intrigued by Ferron since the beginning then wait no more ❤️ this innocent boy who just wants to submit to a Dom finds himself in the worst place imaginable. The writing of some of the abuse that he’s gone through is brilliant, it conveys the hurt that has been endure but doesn’t push it too far.

I love Jayne’s writing and all her characters and can’t wait for the next books to dive more into Isaac’s head and their relationship together.

Be warned this does end on a slight cliffhanger but the books come out quickly 😊

[Cherdene · Rating 5 out of 5]

This book is part one of Ferron’s story, a journey I was so eager to delve into from the first time I met him in Mind body and soul (you don’t have to read Mind Body and Soul before reading this book and PLEASE READ THE AUTHOR’S WARNING NOTE BEFORE CONTINUING)....

Ferron’s life and his story intrigue me and what an emotional roller coaster it was. He faced a lot of mental and physical abuse which scared him emotionally.
After the loss of his parents Ferron felt lost, he wanted to find a place where he felt whole, a safe place.. On leaving The Playroom he found himself in a place with someone who became very abusive and obsessive.

My My... I needed a box of tissue and a damp towel…. So emotional…..

I almost screamed the author’s name out loud when I got to the end of this book….[da… CLIFFHANGER much?]

This story was worth the wait and I’ll wait patiently for the next installment.

[Emma-Jane King · Rating 5 out of 5]

Be ready with a box of tissues. J.P Sayle brings you along with Ferron on the rollercoaster of emotions. You want to tuck him up and keep him safe. I can hardly wait for the next book so I can quell the panic I have for Ferron.

[Tina · Rating 5 out of 5]

[Siren125 · Rating 1 out of 5]

DNF 20%

[Fay MMBookworm · Rating 5 out of 5]

🎧 narrated Matt Haynes ❤ The first time narrator for me and a brilliantly voiced. The characters are spoken with different voices and are easily known, which I loved heaps. 5 stars for narrative.
❤5 stars for the book although this does have some tough scenes, I enjoyed this heaps. My love hate of cliffhangers wont stop me for grabbing book two, “Hidden” which I’ve since read and loved included both POVs in that one book.
This includes hard BDSM scenes with Devon with abuse.., but things get better after his escape. Ferron's journey is from pain and despair to healing or start to with the help of Nathan. Ferron battles his inner voice of negative thoughts. In his pursuits of Carl he'd missed his perfect 42 yrs ol Dom. A fantastic book for the first part of Ferron’s journey. Written in Ferron’s POV and ends with a cliffhanger I hope Isaac acts fast. Drama's and danger isn’t far away..

Ferron was about to see a new therapist about his anxieties. Running from his past master, Devon. Rewinds back in time to his time visiting The Playroom a DBSM club co-owned by Carl, Ferron wants him to be his Dom. But wasn’t to be, now at a new club.
Devon was willing to take him on but would he destroy Ferron.

[Stephanie Bonsall · Rating 5 out of 5]

I haven't read the other books in The Playroom series, so I was intrigued with the blurb regarding Ferron. I'm so glad I read it and now need to go and read the previous books.
Ferron's story is a heartbreaking and painful story written from his point of view. Ferron just needs to feel loved after heartbreaking events in his past and after being rejected by his favourite Dom at The Playroom, goes off to find someone new at another club which was recommended by one of his friends. This turns out to be the biggest mistake of his life, resulting in many months of deprivation, torture and pain. After making his escape he is cared for by Nathan and Isaac, but danger is never far away as he and Nathans boyfriend Lenny unfortunately find out on New Years Eve.
I read this book in one go as I couldn't put it down, but then found myself unable to sleep due to worrying about Ferron! The book ends in a cliffhanger that will leave you desperate for book 2. I totally recommend this book, but please be aware of the trigger warnings at the start.

[Jess A Jaye · Rating 4 out of 5]

What a cliffhanger! But I loved it and desperate for the next book.
Going into this I knew Ferron’s story was gonna be heartbreaking but damn!! We'd met Ferron in previous Playroom books but this one takes us back initially to how Ferron ended up where we is now.
At the beginning before things get super dark for him you can really feel Ferron’s loneliness. He’s all on his own in the world and just wants to be loved. Can see how he ended where he did. To avoid being spoilerery I'm going to avoid say what happened to him after than saying I was totally horrified to discover exactly what Ferron went through. It took me by surprise and my heart was in my mouth reading certain scenes.
Ferron escaped the situation he was in and found himself in the sanctuary of The Playroom. And it's at the Playroom he meets Issac. Ferron likes Issac but he's been damaged by recent events so he's not sure if he's brave enough to move from friendship. And that's damn shame because if ever anyone needed a good Daddy Dom like Issac to care for them it’s Ferron.

[Gabbi Grey · Rating 5 out of 5]

Disturbing but with hope (an audio review)

This book comes with a trigger warning and I think it’s super important to read it. This book is disturbing and there are scenes that were hard to listen to. This book is extreme, but I know people who’ve been in bad relationships where much of the reactions were the same.

I’ve read the first three books of The Playroom series, so I knew Ferron would survive his captivity, but I think it was good I got the ‘before’ story. I did not, of course, know Ferron’s backstory – his parents, his life, his neediness. What brought him to The Playroom, and what drove him away. I also knew he would recover from the trauma he’s enduring and even go on to form a bond with Lenny. But knowing that didn’t alleviate the worry and pain as he went through such abuse.

The book is entirely from Ferron’s point of view, so I was right there for all of it. I’m looking forward to the next book.

Will put in a plug for Matt Haynes. I always enjoy his narration and he did a good job with this one as well.

[Ζωή Παππά · Rating 5 out of 5]

Ever since I met Ferron’s character in “Mine Body and Soul” I was really curious about his story (you don’t have to read “Mine body and soul” to read this book). Ferron is a member of the Playroom, Nathan’s club, but when he gets rejected by a Dom he feels like he needs to go to a new club and start fresh. This turns out to be the biggest mistake of his life.
My heart ached while I was reading this book. The amount of abuse Ferron had to endure was very hard to read. I advise you to read the author’s warning before you start the book. It’s a heartbreaking (made me cry) and very suspenseful book. The author’s writing is wonderful and the hurt/comfort scenes wrap you like a warm blanket and make you feel better. I absolutely adored the book and I can’t wait for the next part. Also, keep in mind that the book ends with a cliffhanger but we wont have to wait a lot for the sequel.

I received an ARC of this book for an honest review.

[Coline Peterson · Rating 5 out of 5]

I first met Ferron in Mine, Body and Soul and knew that his story was going to break my heart. Loosing the anchor in your life is very difficult especially when you are suffering from survivors guilt and for Ferron loosing his parents left him floundering. So he went looking to find something to help him function in his new world and hopefully finding that right person along the way too. But it was so very difficult finding someone who was just for him which has him doubting himself, causing him to make some very poor choices brought on with the help of unthoughful words and this sets him up for a disaster. But he is finding out it takes a true survivor to be able to get away from a horrible situation and admit that you need help to get to the other side.

[Stephanie · Rating 5 out of 5]

Now I have been wanting Ferron's story. This is definitely a journey. My heart is breaking as I was reading this story. Ferron had got through so much and I had crying so many time. I just couldn't stop reading. I can't wait for the next part of this journey.

[Denise Roberts · Rating 5 out of 5]

Rollercoaster

What a rollercoaster . Ferron has gone through so much , Nathan and Isaac have been his support system once he escaped . I can't wait for book two . Can be read as trilogy but would recommend reading The Playroom series first .Brilliant read highly recommend

[mrs k langstaff · Rating 5 out of 5]

Amazing

Waited for this story and boy was it worth it, full of heartbreak with a little hero, now waiting for book 2

[Ally Lane]

Pass

[Jennifer · Rating 4 out of 5]

Ferron

I remember Ferron from Nathan and Lenny’s story and was so happy to see that he got his own books. A really well written story, great cliffhanger!

[Sheryl Howard · Rating 4 out of 5]

I love this author and the stories written. This was no exception. Fabulous characters and storyline.

[Brianne McCallum · Rating 5 out of 5]

⚠️ Warning ⚠️ Graphic and disturbing content of physical/mental/sexual abuse and MC held hostage for the first 25% of the book.

Ferron has lost his parents and wants to find someone to love. He was interested in a Daddy named Carl but after he goes to the safe night club called the Playground and Carl turns him down he is embarrassed and decides to try a new club which is where his nightmare begins. Only ending once he ends up in the hospital and calls the first safe club for help.

This was an intense, emotional read with a more intense cliffhanger but I loved it.

The narrator did an amazing job. Though I did speed it up alot.

[romanceandcoffee · Rating 4 out of 5]

4.5*