Guys! I didn't know I could review my own book! Anways, I'm straight up in love with RIVEN because it's MAGIC and because the Uni gave it to me and patiently waited 4 years until I learned to write well enough to tell it. I love it because my kids are in it...Jacob, Aidan, and Claire (for reals Jacob would sell his own mother down the river for a rare Magic the Gathering card. Oh wait. I am his mother). I love it because my maiden name really is Alvey and it really does mean Elf Warrior, and that is like, the coolest thing EVAH. I also love it because I believe it is IMPORTANT.
Is it an easy-peasy read? NOPE. It's not meant to be. Riven means violently torn apart. When someone (or something) is torn apart violently it's bound to be messy.
On the surface, RIVEN is an enchanting fairytale adventure. Layers below the surface explore the lifelong ramifications of childhood abuse, not just for the abused, but for the entire family of the victim as well, generationally. On an even deeper level, Emily grapples with a dissociative disorder and her discordant egos in order to learn how to best protect herself when her childhood abuser suddenly re-enters her life.
I worked passionately researching the My Myth Trilogy. I attended therapy for YEARS making peace with my own egos (some of the scenes in RIVEN are taken directly from my hypnosis and EMDR sessions). I read case files and text books, and attended trials. Perhaps most importantly, I have had the distinct honor of acting as an Outcry Witness for six different adult male and female survivors of childhood abuse. I hold their stories sacrosanct.
For far too many people old and young, this story is NOT confusing, because far too many of us, when we were young and terrified, created elaborate fantasy worlds in order to escape a reality that was too ugly and violent for our violated bodies, our wounded souls.
If you find yourself struggling between what is real and what is fantasy in the book (not in your life), you are lucky. Maybe be willing to let go of timelines. Be open to the idea that BOTH what's happening in Emily's mind and what's happening in the real world make up her reality. Don't worry so much about when something happened or where...only that it happened.
Editors and Agents and wise consultants always tell us writers to trust our audience. I wrote RIVEN trusting you more than a little. Trusting that you'd look for clues and tropes and symbols. Trusting that if something makes you uncomfortable you'll realize it probably means something isn't right. There is a WHOLE LOT not right in Emily's world. She might not respond to situations in healthy ways, and not everyone she meets will be trustworthy (like, did you know that strange men helping struggling women in parking lots is a trope? Cuz it IS). If characters say or do things that jar you, trust yourself...be jarred. If you would never do something a character does and it creates tension in you, BE tense. Those are clues, yo.
This isn't just a story about nothing, and it isn't a story about no one. It is a story about Something Important and it belongs to All Of Us.
But it might not be for you. If you are too thrown off that some people call the main character Emma and some call her Emily (including the voices in her head) and aren't willing to consider that it might be an important distinction, this might not be the book for you. If you think that molestation is okay in a YA book but a dozen swear words aren't, this might not be the book for you. If you'd rather have either all fantasy or all contemporary realism, this probably isn't the book for you.
But.
Ifffffff you keep an open mind and like to be transported, and if you don't mind light introspection and thinking, and if you are low-key curious about the world you live in and are interested in joining a social discussion about abuse, addiction, ptsd, mental illness, recovery, self-acceptance, and self-mercy in an imaginative genre-bending, reality blurring way, Step Right This Way, cuz we gonna have some FUN.
Read. Enjoy. And then join a conversation. With me or anyone else. Let's bring our stories out in the open and get rid of the shame and the guilt. Let's stop predators in their TRACKS. Let's start Healing.