Is it a bird? ....a plane? ...or Superman?
“I was a Muslim with a funny name”.
....is it fiction?
....that reads like a memoir? ....is it essays,
that are personal, passionate, entertaining, thought-provoking, ambitious, and brilliant?...
YES...YES...YES....it’s all of the above.
I really can’t say enough great things about Ayad Akhtar....as a very inspiring human being, and a damn good novelist ——
“Homeland Elgies” is written with purpose, and heart.
We learn about Aktar....( fiction-combo-truth), as he tries to make sense of America - as a Muslim.
This book reads quickly, but not too quickly—
There are compelling backstories about his immigrant parents, their philosophies, beliefs, jobs, -and life values.
Plus...
Aktar gave us a genuine experience of his journey growing up with brown skin...
From close to poverty - to the experience of elite privileged living.
The writing was so good, that I often re-read passages two and three times.
The dialogue stimulated wisdom, insight, and concerns of unifying diversity, and pride of identity.
“I’d just crossed into New York State when my cell phone rang. It was my mother. She was worried. Why haven’t I called yesterday? I apologized, told her about the problem with the car. I haven’t wanted to concern her. My father overheard the mention of trouble with the car and picked up the receiver:
“What happened to the car?”
“Blew a head gasket”.
“It’s a lemon. I told you it was a waste of money”.
“I know Dad”.
“How much did they charge you?”
“Don’t worry about it”
The conversation continues—-his father insists that they can help.
Atkar was thinking:
“I knew they were hearing the need, the distress in my voice. I knew they wanted me to say more. But what to tell them? That I was lost and broke and felt persistently humiliated and under attack and the only country I’ve ever known, a place that the more I understood, the less I felt I belong? What was the point?
Eventually—after more contemplating thoughts, Atkar was going to stop pretending that he felt like an American”.
“We, Muslims, we’re constantly besieged by a culture that didn’t understand us, that didn’t want us. It was why I only ever voiced my thoughts indirectly, through that particular prevarication called art. I didn’t see the point of harping on ‘our’ issues in public when it was evident ‘their’ mishaps and blind spots were so much more pressing. The existential threats to our species were not coming from us but from the proliferation of their ‘enlightened’ way of life to every corner of the planet. Wasn’t ‘that’ the necessary critique now?”
“There is a culture here, for sure, and it has nothing to do with all the well-meaning nonsense. It’s about racism and money worship— and when you’re on the correct side of both those things? That’s when you really belong. Because that when you start to represent the best of what they think they are”.
“We do the same thing they do: we make ourselves out to be better than we are. And what really doesn’t help is how we end up using their contempt as an excuse to avoid our own failings”.
Failings?....
Atkar and his Muslim friend, Riaz—two brown men— were arguing (in the best of ways- that friends have serious discussions together - inserting a joke here and there to lighten the heavy issues)
“Are blacks supposed to go around pretending not to be enraged about the shit they go through in this country every day? Just because it makes them look bad to white people? They’re angry, and they’ve got damn good reasons to be. And maybe we do, too”.
“We’re caught in this awful cycle of belatedness and inferiority. It’s made us feel weak. For generation after generation. And being weak has made us angry—“
“I was not writing literature, in his view, but rather emotionally charged rhetorical delivery devices passing for art; it was anti-Muslim muckraking, offering deceptively compelling illusions of reasoned argument in service of the destructive tropes Riaz’s foundation was working hard to undo in the first place. Admitting me to this board, in a word, a disgrace—though apparently not disgraceful enough to merit his leaving it. I took his animadversions in stride. What else was there to do but to thank him for his thoughts and pretend I didn’t care?”
Joining Riaz’s board exposed Aktar to parts of the world he’d only read about.
He met Hillary ( notice he didn’t need to print her last name), had dinner at Chez Panisse, prepared by Alice Waters, herself...
went backstage at ‘Hamilton’, went fly fishing in Idaho with Fareed Zakaria (Indian-American, journalist, political scientist, and author: writes a weekly column for the Washington Post), went golfing in Pebble Beach with Neel Kash-Kari, (President of the Federal Reserved Bank in Minneapolis/a Republican who unsuccessfully ran for Governor of California in the 2014 election), and few time Venice where he spent three days on the Lido, meeting with Muslim artists, spent another few days in Dhabi at a conference devoted to Islamic microfinance....
and another week in Frankfurt to host a gala where they raised over a million euros to support gay Muslims being persecuted in Chechnya....
and the list went on and on....
sharing fancy delicious foods with famous actors, artists, politicians, scientists, philosophers, ... etc.
Atkar came to see that he became an honorary member of the privileged class.
I laughed that Atkar was getting use to asparagus season in Marchfeld and Sauternes with his fois gras.
It didn’t take him that long- either - to get use to private jets, room service, expensive Italian clothes, and other outlandish
elite opportunities....
including more lovers that he’d like to admit.
“After all, there was so much fucking to be had and with so little effort”.
There were soooo many pages in this book where I just ‘had’ to read over and over ....
then sit with my own somewhat smirking smile.
Absolutely brilliant scene...
about our ‘star’ ( Aktar), being a neoliberal courtier....
“not only of inalienable human rights and enlightened rage but also freedom itself, both sexual and monetary, an eager frontline recruit for the purported progressive ideological battles of our time. My awakening from this stupor of self-congratulatory entitlement would be swift and brutal. An accumulation of private and public misfortunes—a copper penny rash on my palms, my mothersdeath, the election of Donald Trump—would disabuse me of my will to benevolent privilege. I’m ashamed it took me so long to wake up to the bankruptcy of this purported moral vision. Until then, I was susceptible; I was culpable; I was a willing and enthusiastic advocate; this vision of the good life felt good indeed; I was a believer in the politically enlightened late-stage capitalist individualist creed; I loved Obama; I was tongue-tied with awe when I met Sergey Brin. Who could blame me? What more, what better, for me, for anyone else, did the world have to offer?”
“Before my tumble from this world-view, I spent more time thinking about money than ever before. I knew the life I was leading was predicated on capital. I knew I didn’t have any. How much longer would Riaz let me float along on the swollen river of his seemingly endless lucre? I didn’t know. Money was no object to him, of course, but I could see the writing on the wall”.
From riding in the back seat of sleek black Mercedes limousines, he worried about the fallout, and when he would return to his life in a tiny Harlem one bedroom with only his imagination and iPhone.
Aktar knew he didn’t want to be dirt poor....
Like I’ve already said—
I really can’t say enough ( total brilliance), about this book—
....Our broken hearts of the American dream—
....Falling in love—
... family, education, art, money, race, religion, loss, duty, deceit....
This book takes us on a journey so thoroughly engrossing— deeply about America —-and the language of America— that we see the world Aktar gives us — familiar, yet anew.
5 strong stars - highly recommend!