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180 pages, Kindle Edition
First published October 6, 2019
Since Finn and Ryland seemed to come as a pair, it hadn’t surprised me when Holden had called and approached the subject of Finn coming too. I was a more-the-merrier kind of guy, so it hadn’t mattered to me, but Miles had thought it was a good idea because Finn was so important to Ryland.
If I hadn’t known about his relationship with Beckett, I would’ve thought he and Holden were two Doms with a boy, but they just seemed to be friends. From what I’d been able to piece together from their comments, Finn had been Ryland’s surrogate Dom until he’d found his Daddy.
Of course they hadn’t called it that, but that’s what it had sounded like.
“Did Miles ever tell you about how he decided what kind of practice he would have?”
I shook my head before I realized he couldn’t see me. “No.”
I was starting to think this wasn’t as random as I’d thought, but I let it play out as Sean looked through more cabinets. “When he finally completed everything he had to do to become a doctor, he had no idea where his life should go.”
Sean found the wipes in a junk drawer and leaned back against the counter. “He was basically working two different jobs and trying to choose the path his life should take, but nothing felt right. By the time I met him, he was exhausted and had nearly given himself an ulcer trying to see the future.”
“How did he finally figure it out?” I wasn’t a doctor trying to pick a specialty, but the future was looming in front of me, and I could see how daunting that would have been for Miles.
“I’m not betraying a confidence by saying this, but he met a patient at the hospital who’d tried to kill himself.” Sean looked lost for a few seconds like he was reliving the past again. “His master had died suddenly, and he’d thought no one in his life would understand. He was so lost and felt so alone it tore Miles up. It wasn’t long after they met that he realized he wanted to help people in the lifestyle and give them a safe space where they didn’t have to hide who they were.”
Sean smiled again. “He was adamant that he wasn’t going to live in the closet and wouldn’t hide our life together. It wouldn’t have affected my life, but he was taking a huge risk. It turned out to be the right decision, but it could have easily gone the other direction.”
Pushing away from the counter, he went over to the freezer and started digging out the treats. “But I don’t think he’d be the same person he is now if he’d always tried to hide who he was.”
I walked over and quietly picked up the wipes as Sean shut the door, his hands stuffed with goodies for everyone. I nodded as he gave me an understanding smile. We’d told Miles that he could talk to Sean about it if he thought Sean needed to know, but I’d never asked if he’d said anything. I hadn’t wanted to know.
As he smiled at me, I wasn’t sure if he knew or not, but I could see that it would never matter, no matter what I told him.
He turned and watched the littles running through the yard chasing the bubbles again. “Looking at those boys outside playing, I know they’ll be happier having people around them who understand them. Someone they can talk to and share the burden of loving differently with.”
I swallowed past the lump in my throat as I watched Kevin laughing and jumping to pop a bubble that was floating over his head. “Being different is hard.”
“But when you have people to share it with, somehow the burden is lighter. You end up seeing you’re not alone and that you never were to begin with.” As I turned back to him, Sean held up the popsicles. “Come on. Let’s go feed the rascals before they mutiny.”
Bryan was getting the same cleaning I’d gotten, but he looked fine so I grabbed his hand and tugged him away from Maddox as I smiled. “Movie time. Come on.”
Maddox huffed but couldn’t decide if he should fuss at me or not, so we escaped without more scrubbing. Bryan smiled but yawned, so I grabbed his binkie and shoved it in his mouth as we flopped down on the floor with everyone.
Ford was the best Daddy because he’d helped make a cozy pallet of pillows and soft blankets on the floor to watch the movie. As we stretched out, Bryan cuddled against me. Sean turned the lights off ...
As the movie started, Riley lay down beside us and moved close so Finn could lie down too. As I made room for him, I looked over and saw Hailey and Miles curled up together under a princess blanket that Sean had pulled out of a closet for Hailey. It was weird being cuddled up to everyone like we were a pile of puppies or something, but it was nice in a way. I’d never had this many people to snuggle with.
Bryan’s yawns were contagious too, because as I heard the Daddies talking in the back of the room, I couldn’t stop yawning. I didn’t need a nap, but even I had to admit how hard I’d worked all afternoon. Kids weren’t easy.
I snuggled closer to Bryan, wrapping one arm over him, and decided to close my eyes for just a minute. I deserved it after all the books I’d read and bubbles I’d caught. I’d been the best almost kind of big brother but not a babysitter ever, even if it’d been exhausting.
But as I lay next to my friends and family, I knew it had been the perfect day, and I couldn’t wait to do it again.