I started putting stickies in this library book immediately on page 2, and there is a sticky on the final page 71. This was impressive. Tommy "Teebs" Pico hides nothing as he expresses how NDNs are treated, and the expectations that they are one with 'nature' is now-a-days a new nature. I loved the street/text vernacular.
My only justice to this collection is to copy my stickies to my review. Why not save yourself sorting through these and just go get this book asap and read it. Although it is not lengthy, be prepared to need to put it down and/or re-read that last poem you just read to let it REALLY absorb into your mind.
Easy 5*
OK - maybe at least read the first selection from pages 2 and 3. (since I took time to OCR/convert text). This encapsulates the tone and substance of this collection quite well
Selections:
p2/3
I can't write a nature poem
be it's fodder for the noble savage
narrative. I wd slap a tree across the face,
I say to my audience.
Let's say I'm at a pizza parlor
Let's say I'm having a slice at the bar this man walks in to pick up his to-go order
Let's say his order isn't ready yet and he's chatty
Let's say I'm in Portland be ppl don't tawlk to me in NYC Let's say he's like, meatballs are for the baby, pizza's for the little man, Caesar salad's for the wife and the beer he points to the beer and then thumbs at himself, the beer's for me.
He has one of those cracked skin summer smiles
He keeps talking like I want to hear him Like he's so comfortable Like everybody owes him attention
I'm a weirdo NDN faggot
He puts his hands on the ribs of my chair asks do I want to go into the bathroom with him
Let's say it doesn't turn me on at all
Let's say I literally hate all men be literally men are animals
This is a kind of nature I would write a poem about.
I don't like boys, men, or guys.
Don't like how they kick it on couches,
laid back, calves cocked
the neck muscles thrust up.
Don't like their dumb biceps bouncing the thunderclap laugh
choosing trucks over pink!? The musk the swoony wake, the misc bulges, stupid weight training Spot me bro
I was like pfffft, I says yr kind of hard to miss?
What they say to anyone ever in history, or in the locker room when they think no one is listening in a tight towel. Or everyday when they expect attention, ppl wide-eyed ears like satellites the words (apparently) torch torchin to truth.
Don't like them tweeting, texting, urn peeling rubber wetsuits off in the parking lot
sweatpants no discernible underwear lookin like whatever
Or! When they slick back swab the deck pocket square shoulders
The wave, the fade, the bang bangs.
Men dancing is fine tho.
Or like maybe men in socks? I dunno
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p9
WHAT'S YR NATIONALITY!?!? This guy shouts at me during drag queen karaoke at this gay bar two stops down the line.
In order to talk about a hurricane, you first have to talk about a preexisting disturbance over the ocean, so you have to talk about mean ocean temperature, so you have to talk about human industry and sun rays, so you have to talk about helium, so did you know helium was named for the sun god Helios and was defined by a gap in the solar spectrum so literally not itself but what surrounded it, so of course we have to talk about the solar system, the Milky Way, the networks of universe and the Big Bang.
How far back do you have to go to answer any question about race?
UM, AMERICAN? I say
or
KUMEYAAY. I say I'M FROM THE KUMEYAAY NATION,
which are both technically true, but I know that when he says NATIONALITY he's saying you look vaguely not like a total white boy plus I'm trying to get lucky, so I put on my face that's the opposite of a tall can tipped over and glugging out onto the floor
I'M FROM AN INDIAN RESERVATION NEAR SAN DIEGO I burst back, over the drag queen sort of singing the Michael Buble version of "Feelin Good."
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p11
Dear Gays,
I wish yr attention span was as "athletic"
as yr bod
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p14
'oh, but you don't look very Indian' is a thing ppl feel comfortable saying to me on dates.
What rhymes with, 'fuck off and die?'
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p18
Gay men are the worst people ever
bc if they don't want to fuck you,
you are nothing to them.
Yet they love dogs.
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p20
Last night I had a dream that I was a ghost who gave blowjobs and that is pretty much the experience of dating in the city.
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p23
I don't like thinking abt nature bc nature makes me suspect there is a god.
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p24
Once on campus I see a York Peppermint Pattie wrapper on the ground,
pick it up, and throw it away. 'Yr such a good Indian' says some dick
walking to class. So,
I no longer pick up trash.
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p25
My current envy list includes ppl who make decisions, in general.
Envy is a shit tit. I meet a boy and I miss him. Time, a paragon of
confidence, taps me on the shoulder and asks
if I get legit anxiety when someone calls from a number I don't know,
cos it's like - who still calls?
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p26
Nothing can fall that wasn't built
except maybe my self-esteem bc I have a hunch that I was born with it
intact but then America came smaked
me across the face said 'like it'
n the sick thing is getting smacked across the face makes me so we rn
and that's prolly why poetry, bc in order to get inside
a poem has to break you
the way the only thing more obvious than your body
is leaving yr shirt on in the pool.
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p27
The perigee moon is above both of us, in Portland, in NYC, in San
Diego, in Hong Kong, Abu Dhabi, Guaynabo, Sri Lanka
Knowing the moon is inescapable tonight
and the tuft of yr chest against my shoulder blades -
This is a kind of nature I would write a poem about.
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p28
Everyone is looking for their stupid soulmate rn
Sade likens dating to war, says she's "on the front lines"
which is also a kind of hunger. Really, I just see teeth
or a desert - u know yr thirsty
when you wonder 'does the bartender think I'm cute, or is he tryin to get a tip?'
but that's the wilds for you.
Everyone want to know where they can meet a good guy
then wants to go to a gay bar on Saturday night.
I'm cool with contradictions, but don't lie to yrself-
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p29
I like the way my head shivers
resting on yr stomach when you say 'If I keep hanging out w/u I'm gonna get a six pack
from laughing.'
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p49
I say ‘Facts are fallacies, created and curated by authority figures w/ agendas’ and I say, ‘Facts are used to subjugate, intimidate, enslave, and kill entire “races” of ppl reproductive rights etc’ I say, ‘so yeah I have a complicated relationship with facts and pretty much everything. The only thing objective abt facts is yr blind allegiance to them. James.’
or, I say nothing cos I’m tryin to get lucky.
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P50
I can’t write a nature poem bc English is some Stockholm shit, makes me complicit in my trib’s erasure – why shd I give a fuck abt “poetry”? It’s a container
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p57
Consequence shapes behavior. So does the absence of consequences.
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p61
No one told me abt "Space Oddity" by David Bowie
Everyone must feel fresh and weird, and perhaps rightly so
in the sense that yr the only one who has been you —
a slap in the face of squiggly sperm and probability
How cd u not feel like a miracle
in the sense that everyone in yr line had to survive primordial waves of SoCal dehydration, waves of European disease, active predation by men whose bullets were bought by the US government the pendulum of genocidal legislation intended to rob yr tribe of it's sovereignty, the cultural bleach of NDN boarding schools that robbed yr grandmother's generation of the language, meth infestation of the 80s, and like George W. Bush
Ground Control really came around to Major Tom
and then loses him, like an orbit
Despite the flatness of the intro, I heard a ring of "traditional" motherly concern in the first two lines, take your protein pills and but yr helmet on vs the classical kind of detached father in the next line, Check ignition and may God's love be with you
An explosion of belief from the skeptical Ground Control
after the rocket launch, how can you account for a spontaneous
recognition of talent
really floods the drum we call ear
and given the parental tint I heard in the beginning
I keep mishearing the soft lyric tell my wife I love her very much
to tell my mom
I tell the rez, I think my spaceship knows which way to go
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p65
Nature kisses me outside the movie theater
I can’t tell if it was a romantic comedy or a scary movie bc of politics
When Nature palms my neck I can’t tell if it’s a
romantic comedy or a scary movie bc the clarity of desire terrifies me like a stage
comfort only leads to predation, and anything marvelous
becomes holy in the Google translate of humanity
I prefer to keep it very doggy style
bc holy roars untouchable, tempers flare
and ppl die, violently, all over the world throughout time
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p65
The difference btwn me at 15 and me now is being called a faggot was humiliating bc I thought faggotry was hot, sulfuric garbage
but now in the arclight of a self not unmade by shame, tho the
violence is scary w/this pale brawny NYU shithead callin us faggots,
the sentiment sounds more like ice
clinckin in a tumbler of vodka lemonade
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p70
There’s no such thin as a perfect ending. You just have to stand up and say, “I’m ready to leave.”
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p74
It’s hard to be anything
but a pessimist
when you feel the Earth rotting away on so many home pages and Taylor
Swift is an idiot and cigarettes
cost an arm and a let
I’m on a porch petting kitties and there is lavender in the air. The sun is over the hill and my friend Roy knows the names of all the plants in his front yard. One of the kitties is named Witch Baby and she likes to perch around your neck.
The air is clear, and all across Instagram – peeps are posting pics of the sunset.