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224 pages, Paperback
Published September 1, 2020
‘When the moonlight sits on the straw mat on my back my blood shaped like peppers trickles out from my shadow and my body’s water startled by moonlight turns into dewdrops in my arteries my raggedy heart swallows bricks and you peer into it and call it a fish bowl’ — from ‘Words for White Flower, 3’
INNARDS
My mouth is salty. My blood-soaked calligraphy brush must have rushed into my veins. Once, I took off my crumpled skin in repentance, but now it returns to me as blank paper, and a clot of blood has formed on its surface where the brush passed over. The torrential path of the brush is the indistinguishable combination of all my syneresis. Salutations fill my closed mouth, and they are dark. An impotent thought tries to force my mouth open and fails. No testimony can be made at my trial. My past drowned and came apart in love, its shape destroyed, and became a crime. I faint in my body forever.
9 October 1936
BUYING SPRING
My organ of memories begins to rot like a fish under the blazing sun. The following syphon effect happens to me. I can't make up my mind if I want three bananas at dawn and four at night, or vice versa. My mind is spent.
This exhaustion will be my fall, but I should not try to fight it. I should overcome it.
An out-of-body experience. Shoeless feet shed their legs in the vacant heaven.
8 October 1936

This ground was once the bottom of a primal lake. Salty. The pillars holding back the curtains become damp. Clouds do not come near me. My tonsils swell in the humorless air. There is a currency scandal—my hand, looking like a foot, shamelessly holds the crone's throbbing hand.
A rumor goes around about a tyrant's infiltration. Babies constantly turn into little grave mounds. The grown-ups' shoes hit other grown-ups' shoes. I never want to see them again, but where can I escape to? In a state of emergency, quarantined neighbors mingle. The distant cannon blasts and the blisters on our skins soothe us.
All I have here now is the stifling trash that came out of sweeping my vast room. Crows as big as suffocated doves once flew into my thunderbolt-infested room. The stronger crows tried to get out, but they caught the plague, and fell one by one. The room was purified, ready to explode. However, everything I have put down here is just my recent trash. [46]