4.5 stars. I feel like this book should come with a warning:
"GET READY FOR PAIN. *alcohol is not optional.*" 👀 I'm just sayin'. This one messed me up but good. I'm not sure I know what to say here.
In this book, Hazard and Somers' relationship takes the hardest knock yet. These two always have to genuinely work at being together. Being together, loving each other, is one of the most singular important things in their lives, so work at it they do. They both have their issues, and mostly they honestly know what those are, and try to keep them under control. But sometimes knowing what you have a problem with doesn't keep it from being a problem.
Hazard's ex Billy shows up at his door, begging him for help with the people that are after him. Hazard, being Hazard, cannot turn down anyone who needs his help, not even Billy. At the same time, a new murder case falls in Somers' lap, so he gets tied up with that. Along with the case comes Dulac, Somers' partner, who's always work of a different sort. 🙄 In the midst of all this, there's home repairs, Evie's ballet classes, errands, dinners to cook, and all the thousand and one little things that have to be done every day, and the arguments these things tend to occasionally cause.
These are normal, everyday things, and it's part of what makes Ree and John real and human, relatable. But the unusual, not-so-good things in their pasts make the way things go in this part of their life together anything but usual. When things inevitably blow up, it very nearly obliterates them. And I'm not gonna lie, it nearly blew me up too. 😭😭
John-Henry Somerset let me down so badly. I love Emery Hazard fiercely, but let's face it, he can be a real asshole, sometimes deliberately, hilariously so. John normally has endless patience and good humor but he can be just as flawed and wrong as the next person. He really screws up this time and I was so afraid he had broken something permanently. No matter how bad these guys do screw up, the love they have never wavers *thank God* and John does everything he can to apologize and redeem himself. 😍 I've got to say he pours everything he has into it, and no matter what, Hazard loves him.
Gregory Ashe's writing continues to be outstanding, if not even a little bit disturbing. *side-eyes GA* No author should be able to reach into my heart and head and affect me so literally, and few things I've ever read are able to do it as completely as Hazard and Somers can. Let me explain something. I am NOT a fan of angst. I avoid it and will pass a book if I see readers saying that it was bad. This one in particular broke my heart and made me cry, made me so furious at one point I had to stop reading, I thought my head was going to explode. Even this is not enough to make me give Ree and John up. ❤️ None of that sounds like a good thing but it's a true, sincere compliment to the author. Ok, it's maybe somewhat twisted but that's just me. 🤷🏼♀️
The case was damn well done, and though I did end up being right in my suspicions, there were several things I didn't anticipate that still managed to surprise me. And just to keep it creepy, the Keeper of Bees makes it clear he's still there in the background. Worse, Hazard is still somehow in his plans.
One thing that has got to happen is Hazard getting some help for his apparent PTSD. He absolutely cannot go on this way, it's going to crush him.
Mixed in with all the dark, there's still moments of light and pure satisfaction. Hazard's relationship with Evie is adorable, I love them together, and I love how he loves Evie. Hazard vs the park moms made me actually laugh out loud, they didn't know who they were playing with! 😂😂 And my favorite was that little psychopath Billy getting to meet North and Shaw, which I look forward to doing myself when I get to their series!
As a note for the audiobook, Tristan James's narration is excellent, allowing me to get lost in this world, which is everything I could want. Despite all the heartache, this was another amazing piece of Hazard & Somers story.
Disclaimer: A copy of the Audio book was provided by the author in exchange for an honest review.