I love this story as it really delves deep into each character’s trauma and backstory. I feel the pacing was well done and each chapter really gives good context into why the characters act the way they do. My thoughts about the ending: it’s a really bittersweet ending as although our mc is on the path to recovery, the ml doesn’t seem to have the same thing happen for him. I like how the author emphasises that what they have may not even be love. Their starting point was never ideal, and I’m not sure if they were ever gonna have a normal relationship seeing how much trauma they each had. I just really love how realistic it was and how it just leaves you thinking.
The reason why I decided to read this manga despite not particularly interested in the plot nor the drawing style was because of the (ridiculously) good reviews on the internet. And once again as usual I was greatly disappointed. The reviews on Japanese sites praised this manga for its fleeting and delicate atmosphere, how the Metro line was portrayed poetically both as a real place and as a metaphor for the relationship of the MCs, and how this manga gave off the feelings very similar to French movies. Uhh...NOPE! Lemme get this straight, this manga is plain flat and shallow. The story started with a sexual assault on the train, in which the bottom was portrayed to be both scared and at the same time enjoying the situation. Depicting train groping in a romantic light is problematic enough, and the story has to offer something really extraordinary later in order to balance the controversial start. But nope, all it did was giving some details about the "dark past" of the 2 MCs, and tried to use this conventional painful past to give a reason for why the 2 MCs were drawn to and could heal each other; which was done in a shallow and unconvincing manner. I was expecting much more sensitivity from the author in portraying the repressive emotions and the subtle changes in each MC as the the relationship progresses, otherwise why should I waste my time on a story that romanticize such a huge problem in Japan? I couldn't see the special link between the two MCs, nor the necessity of employing the train groping plot. The manga felt too much like a half-baked sex story that could offer neither sexual tensions nor heartbreaking feelings. If the story ended with the two MCs parting ways, maybe I'd have given it a higher ratings, idk. Totally not worth it.
Mizuse is a student who gets groped on the train every day, by the same man, right before Shinjuku Station.
One day... "If you want it, get off the train at the next stop."
Unable to stop thinking about his feelings, Mizuse does stop, and things escalate very quickly. Very quickly. (I chose violence and read this in public. It was a very bold plan.)
Mizuse and his new lover Shinobu start meeting regularly, but they have their own trauma that gets in the way of their relationship and understanding of one another... but don't expect this manga to do the work for you.
I actually really appreciated its simple, fleeting approach and found it quite beautiful, but one does have to be okay with the premise first, surely.
Appreciated: Shinobu gives Mizuse a safe word, and there's explicit mention of preparing for sex as a thing to do (even if Mizuse finds it traumatic at first, he clearly gets the hang of it later--or so Shinobu supposes). Despite how their relationship begins, Shinobu actually turns out to be an attentive lover in his own way.
Saying that, though, a bastion of positive representation this isn't; and it's not spoon-fed to you as a reader, either. I would almost go so far to say that though linguistically it's easy to read, intellectually it isn't, and you'll probably need a lot of experience with BL and the kind of relationship depicted here to appreciate it. If you want something more fleshed out, SMごっこ is probably what you're looking for and I recommend it first.
For a quick, sexy and atmospheric read this is a good buy, though, with those caveats in mind.
In my opinion, most creator did a great job when writing about same sex story. Of course for smut/erotica, the biggest focus was the smexy part. But, the story had a plot. And each character was written with depth. It's not like some cheap rate p*rn movie where it's all about the smexy.
Take this comic for example, one guy was repressed of having feeling because his mother hated any sort of intimacy after she was dumped by her promiscuous husband. While the other guy was a prince of piano until a tragic accident took away his passion. Even without the smexy part, the plot was intriguing.
This is pretty dark and toxic, so read at your own risk. Judging the story as it stands though (problematic elements notwithstanding), I felt like this was a really interesting story. The characters had viable reasons to be interested in one another, and good reasons for indulging in risky behaviour. Their relationship is complicated, but I don't really see it as manipulative. Both of them are serving their own selfish needs, so their chemistry (if you can call it that) is believable.
Overall, I wouldn't be calling this a love story, but it was definitely an intriguing drama, well into morally grey territory. But that's what makes it interesting.
All’inizio pensavo non mi sarebbe piaciuto, ma con l’andare avanti dei capitoli e del crescere del rapporto tra i due protagonisti, mi sono molto emozionata. Il capitolo in cui inizia a “sentire” di nuovo è stato molto toccante.
I enjoyed it, but I wanted more. It was a good story but it just didn’t really feel like there was enough happening in it. Sure there was planets of sex but the plot itself was eh.