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394 pages, Paperback
First published May 2, 2020
Because I’m the one who reached down and stole her away, and now I feel in some strange way that she’s mine.
“You’ve nearly stopped my heart with just a look, more than once. I’m completely at your mercy, Ryah. What are knives, compared to that?”
“Pleased to meet you, Cale Hearn of Meriful’s Traveling Circus. Thank you for helping me run away.”
✓ age gap
✓ circus environments
✓ dangerous tricks & thrilling stunts
✓ found family
✓ slow burn (low steam)
✓ gorgeous & mighty horses
“Ringmaster” is the story of Cale (H, 31) who is the ringmaster and owner of Meriful’s Traveling Circus and Ryah (h, 17) who lives with an abusive father. One day, she’s being chased by him for running away when Cale stumbles upon her and snatches her up atop his horse like a white knight. He brings her to his circus where she soon learns to find love and family.
This is totally NOT how I pictured the hero looking like, 😆Because I’m the one who reached down and stole her away, and now I feel in some strange way that she’s mine.
Playlist from the author: Ringmaster
My pick: Today Was A Fairy Tale by Taylor Swift
“Most of all, I want to do it because it will be the most wonderful thing I’ve ever done. I want to fill my life with wonderful things. Don’t you?”
“You’ve nearly stopped my heart with just a look, more than once. I’m completely at your mercy, Ryah. What are knives, compared to that?”
“Welcome to Meriful’s Traveling Circus.” ... “Here one day, gone the next. As mysterious as the dark side of the moon and as mercurial as the tides. Ever changing, ever moving, ever delightful.” 🐎

🐎 picked this up for the circus theme
🐎 the heroine was rly adorable and cute
🐎 i wanted his knives to hit her just once tho (not fatal, just for some drama and grovel)
🐎 the pregnancy aspect ruined the hero in my eyes. he knew she wasn't knowledgable about sex so it was his responsibility to educate her or idk, not cum in her repeatedly? she's 18, he's 30, why is his pull out game so weak

“Most of all, I want to do it because it will be the most wonderful thing I’ve ever done. I want to fill my life with wonderful things. Don’t you?”
“Sparkle, you’re crazy!” I grin up at him. “Well, yeah. But the good kind, right?”


(3.75 stars)

“I think when something nice happens, something bad must be just around the corner. That’s always how it used to be.”


♫ ♪ what if we rewrite the stars?
say you were made to be mine
nothing could keep us apart
you'd be the one I was meant to find … ♫ ♪
ᴅᴀᴍɴ ᴇᴠᴇʀʏᴛʜɪɴɢ ʙᴜᴛ ᴛʜᴇ ᴄɪʀᴄᴜꜱ!
~ ᴇ. ᴇ. ᴄᴜᴍᴍɪɴɢꜱ
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Cale.
Cale Hearn is the ringmaster and owner of Meriful's Traveling Circus. The world is his stage, the people he encounters on his travels serve as his audience, and his performers are his family. His life is good… but it doesn't become truly great until…
Ryah.
Ryah is a 17 year old girl whose been beaten down and made to feel hopeless. She's trapped in her house with her abusive father, and sees no end in sight. Life is dreary and the only light comes in the form of her horse, Dandelion. However, when the traveling circus comes into town she begins to feel… hope.
Cale and Ryah.
Meriful's Traveling Circus becomes more than just a magical attraction for Ryah, instead it becomes home. Rescued from her horrible father Ryah is immediately welcomed into the circus, and into Cale's heart. Cale may have saved Ryah, but Ryah also saved Cale in return.
So… come one, come all, and welcome to the whimsical world of the circus.
❝ɪᴛ'ꜱ ᴀ ʀᴇʟɪᴇꜰ ᴛᴏ ʙʟᴇɴᴅ ɪɴᴛᴏ ᴛʜᴇ ʙᴀᴄᴋɢʀᴏᴜɴᴅ.❞ …
❝ꜱᴘᴀʀᴋʟᴇ, ʏᴏᴜ ᴄᴏᴜʟᴅɴ'ᴛ ʙʟᴇɴᴅ ɪɴᴛᴏ ᴛʜᴇ ʙᴀᴄᴋɢʀᴏᴜɴᴅ ɪꜰ ʏᴏᴜ ᴛʀɪᴇᴅ.❞
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❝ᴀᴍ ɪ ꜱᴀᴅ, ꜱᴘᴀʀᴋʟᴇ?❞
❝ᴀ ʟɪᴛᴛʟᴇ, ꜱᴏᴍᴇᴛɪᴍᴇꜱ. ꜱᴀᴅ, ᴏʀ ʟɪᴋᴇ ʏᴏᴜ’ʀᴇ ᴡᴀɪᴛɪɴɢ ꜰᴏʀ ꜱᴏᴍᴇᴛʜɪɴɢ ʙᴀᴅ ᴛᴏ ʜᴀᴘᴘᴇɴ. ʟɪᴋᴇ ɪᴛ’ꜱ ɪɴᴇᴠɪᴛᴀʙʟᴇ.❞
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it's like the holy trinity of yikes 😬
ɪ’ᴍ ɪɴ ʟᴏᴠᴇ ᴡɪᴛʜ ʀʏᴀʜ. ᴛʜᴇ ꜱᴇᴇᴅ ᴡᴀꜱ ᴘʟᴀɴᴛᴇᴅ ᴛʜᴇ ᴅᴀʏ ɪ ᴍᴇᴛ ʜᴇʀ, ᴀɴᴅ ɪᴛ’ꜱ ʙᴇᴇɴ ᴜɴꜰᴜʀʟɪɴɢ ᴇᴠᴇʀ ꜱɪɴᴄᴇ.
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❝ꜱᴏᴍᴇᴛɪᴍᴇꜱ ɪᴛ ʜɪᴛꜱ ʏᴏᴜ ᴡʜᴇɴ ʏᴏᴜ’ʀᴇ ʟᴇᴀꜱᴛ ᴇxᴘᴇᴄᴛɪɴɢ. ɪᴛ ʜᴀᴘᴘᴇɴꜱ ᴡʜᴇɴ ʏᴏᴜ’ʀᴇ ʜᴀᴘᴘʏ. ᴍᴀʏʙᴇ ᴇᴠᴇɴ ʙᴇᴄᴀᴜꜱᴇ ʏᴏᴜ’ʀᴇ ʜᴀᴘᴘʏ.❞
ɪ ᴡᴏɴᴅᴇʀ ʜᴏᴡ ʜᴇ ᴋɴᴏᴡꜱ ᴛʜᴀᴛ.
❝ᴋᴇᴇᴘ ɢᴏɪɴɢ, ꜱᴘᴀʀᴋʟᴇ. ɪ ᴋɴᴏᴡ ʏᴏᴜ’ʟʟ ᴍᴀᴋᴇ ɪᴛ.❞
❝… ɪꜰ ᴀɴʏᴏɴᴇ ᴍᴀᴋᴇꜱ ʏᴏᴜ ꜰᴇᴇʟ ʟɪᴋᴇ ᴛʜᴀᴛ, ɪ ᴡᴀɴᴛ ᴛᴏ ᴋɴᴏᴡ. ɪᴛ ᴍᴀᴛᴛᴇʀꜱ ᴛᴏ ᴍᴇ.❞
ʀʏᴀʜ ᴡᴀᴛᴄʜᴇꜱ ᴍᴇ, ʜᴇʀ ʙɪɢ ʙʟᴜᴇ ᴇʏᴇꜱ ꜰɪʟʟᴇᴅ ᴡɪᴛʜ ᴜɴᴄᴇʀᴛᴀɪɴᴛʏ.❝ᴡᴏɴ’ᴛ ᴛʜᴀᴛ ᴄᴀᴜꜱᴇ ʏᴏᴜ ᴛʀᴏᴜʙʟᴇ?❞
❝ɪᴛ’ꜱ ɴᴇᴠᴇʀ ᴛʀᴏᴜʙʟᴇ ᴋɴᴏᴡɪɴɢ ʏᴏᴜ’ʀᴇ ꜱᴀꜰᴇ.❞
❝ɪꜱ ɪᴛ ᴀʟʟ ʀɪɢʜᴛ ɪꜰ ɪ ᴛᴇʟʟ ᴛʜᴇ ᴏᴛʜᴇʀꜱ ʏᴏᴜ’ᴠᴇ ʜᴀᴅ ꜱᴏᴍᴇ ʙᴀᴅ ɴᴇᴡꜱ, ᴀɴᴅ ᴀꜱᴋ ᴛʜᴇᴍ ᴛᴏ ʟᴇᴀᴠᴇ ʏᴏᴜ ᴀʟᴏɴᴇ ꜰᴏʀ ᴀ ᴡʜɪʟᴇ?❞
❝ʜᴏᴡ ᴅᴏ ɪ ʟᴏᴏᴋ ᴀᴛ ʏᴏᴜ?❞ ʜᴇ ᴀꜱᴋꜱ. …
❝ʟɪᴋᴇ ʏᴏᴜ ᴍɪɢʜᴛ ᴅɪᴇ ɪꜰ ʏᴏᴜ ᴅᴏɴ’ᴛ ᴋɪꜱꜱ ᴍᴇ.❞ ʜᴇ ᴄᴜᴘꜱ ᴍʏ ᴊᴀᴡ ᴡɪᴛʜ ʜɪꜱ ʜᴀɴᴅ ᴀɴᴅ ʙʀᴜꜱʜᴇꜱ ʜɪꜱ ʟɪᴘꜱ ᴀɢᴀɪɴꜱᴛ ᴍɪɴᴇ. ❝ɪ ᴛʜɪɴᴋ ɪ ᴍɪɢʜᴛ, ʀʏᴀʜ. ɪ’ʟʟ ᴅɪᴇ.❞ …
❝ɪ ᴛʜᴏᴜɢʜᴛ ɪᴛ ᴡᴀꜱ ᴍᴇ ᴀᴛ ʏᴏᴜʀ ᴍᴇʀᴄʏ,❞ ɪ ᴘᴏɪɴᴛ ᴏᴜᴛ.
ᴄᴀʟᴇ ᴡʀᴀᴘꜱ ᴀɴ ᴀʀᴍ ᴀʀᴏᴜɴᴅ ᴍʏ ʟᴏᴡᴇʀ ʙᴀᴄᴋ ᴀɴᴅ ᴘᴜʟʟꜱ ᴍʏ ʜɪᴘꜱ ᴛɪɢʜᴛ ᴀɢᴀɪɴꜱᴛ ʜɪꜱ, ᴀɴ ᴜɴᴍɪꜱᴛᴀᴋᴀʙʟʏ ꜱᴇɴꜱᴜᴀʟ ɢᴇꜱᴛᴜʀᴇ. ❝ᴏʜ, ɴᴏ, ꜱᴘᴀʀᴋʟᴇ. ʏᴏᴜ’ᴠᴇ ʜᴇʟᴅ ᴀʟʟ ᴛʜᴇ ꜱᴛʀɪɴɢꜱ ᴏꜰ ᴍʏ ʜᴇᴀʀᴛ ꜱɪɴᴄᴇ ᴛʜᴇ ᴅᴀʏ ɪ ᴍᴇᴛ ʏᴏᴜ.❞
𝔢𝔫·𝔠𝔥𝔞𝔫𝔱
/𝔦𝔫ˈℭℌ𝔞𝔫𝔱,𝔢𝔫ˈℭℌ𝔞𝔫𝔱/
𝔳𝔢𝔯𝔟
𝔭𝔯𝔢𝔰𝔢𝔫𝔱 𝔭𝔞𝔯𝔱𝔦𝔠𝔦𝔭𝔩𝔢: 𝔢𝔫𝔠𝔥𝔞𝔫𝔱𝔦𝔫𝔤
𝔣𝔦𝔩𝔩 (𝔰𝔬𝔪𝔢𝔬𝔫𝔢) 𝔴𝔦𝔱𝔥 𝔤𝔯𝔢𝔞𝔱 𝔡𝔢𝔩𝔦𝔤𝔥𝔱; 𝔠𝔥𝔞𝔯𝔪.
"ℭ𝔞𝔩𝔢 𝔴𝔞𝔰 𝔢𝔫𝔠𝔥𝔞𝔫𝔱𝔢𝔡 𝔴𝔦𝔱𝔥 ℜ𝔶𝔞𝔥"
❝ᴡᴇʟᴄᴏᴍᴇ ᴛᴏ ᴍᴇʀɪꜰᴜʟ’ꜱ ᴛʀᴀᴠᴇʟɪɴɢ ᴄɪʀᴄᴜꜱ.❞ … ❝ʜᴇʀᴇ ᴏɴᴇ ᴅᴀʏ, ɢᴏɴᴇ ᴛʜᴇ ɴᴇxᴛ. ᴀꜱ ᴍʏꜱᴛᴇʀɪᴏᴜꜱ ᴀꜱ ᴛʜᴇ ᴅᴀʀᴋ ꜱɪᴅᴇ ᴏꜰ ᴛʜᴇ ᴍᴏᴏɴ ᴀɴᴅ ᴀꜱ ᴍᴇʀᴄᴜʀɪᴀʟ ᴀꜱ ᴛʜᴇ ᴛɪᴅᴇꜱ. ᴇᴠᴇʀ ᴄʜᴀɴɢɪɴɢ, ᴇᴠᴇʀ ᴍᴏᴠɪɴɢ, ᴇᴠᴇʀ ᴅᴇʟɪɢʜᴛꜰᴜʟ.❞
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❝ᴅᴏ ʏᴏᴜ ᴛʜɪɴᴋ ꜱʜᴇ ᴋɴᴏᴡꜱ ʜᴏᴡ ɪ ꜰᴇᴇʟ?❞
ᴍᴜᴍ ᴍᴜꜱᴇꜱ ꜰᴏʀ ᴀ ᴍᴏᴍᴇɴᴛ. ❝ɪ ᴅᴏɴ’ᴛ ᴛʜɪɴᴋ ꜱᴏ. ꜱʜᴇ ᴘʀᴏʙᴀʙʟʏ ᴛʜɪɴᴋꜱ ʏᴏᴜ ꜰᴇᴇʟ ᴀʙᴏᴜᴛ ʜᴇʀ ᴛʜᴇ ꜱᴀᴍᴇ ᴀꜱ ʏᴏᴜ ꜰᴇᴇʟ ᴀʙᴏᴜᴛ ᴇᴠᴇʀʏᴏɴᴇ ɪɴ ᴛʜᴇ ᴛʀᴏᴜᴘᴇ. ᴜɴʟᴇꜱꜱ ꜱᴏᴍᴇᴏɴᴇ ᴛᴇʟʟꜱ ʜᴇʀ.❞
ꜱʜᴇ ᴄʀᴀᴄᴋꜱ ᴀɴ ᴇɢɢ ɪɴᴛᴏ ʜᴇʀ ᴍɪxɪɴɢ ʙᴏᴡʟ. ᴍʏ ᴇʏᴇꜱ ᴡɪᴅᴇɴ. ❝ᴍᴜᴍ. ᴅᴏɴ’ᴛ ʏᴏᴜ ᴅᴀʀᴇ.❞
❝ᴛʜᴇɴ ʏᴏᴜ ᴅᴏ ɪᴛ.❞
❝ꜱʜᴇ’ꜱ ꜱᴇᴠᴇɴᴛᴇᴇɴ!❞
ᴍᴜᴍ ᴡᴀᴠᴇꜱ ᴛʜᴀᴛ ᴀᴡᴀʏ ʟɪᴋᴇ ᴀ ɢɴᴀᴛ ᴏɴ ᴀ ꜱᴜᴍᴍᴇʀ’ꜱ ɴɪɢʜᴛ. ❝ʏᴏᴜ’ʀᴇ ɴᴏᴛ ɢᴏɪɴɢ ᴛᴏ ᴘʀᴏᴘᴏꜱᴇ ʜᴇʀ. ʏᴏᴜ’ʀᴇ ɴᴏᴛ ɢᴏɪɴɢ ᴛᴏ ᴅᴏ ᴀɴʏᴛʜɪɴɢ. ʏᴏᴜ’ʀᴇ ᴀ ɢᴏᴏᴅ ᴍᴀɴ. ʙᴜᴛ ꜱʜᴇ’ꜱ ɴᴏᴛ ɢᴏɪɴɢ ᴛᴏ ʙᴇ ꜱᴇᴠᴇɴᴛᴇᴇɴ ꜰᴏʀᴇᴠᴇʀ, ᴀɴᴅ ꜱᴏᴏɴ, ᴍᴀʏʙᴇ ɴᴇxᴛ ᴡᴇᴇᴋ, ᴍᴀʏʙᴇ ᴇᴠᴇɴ ᴛᴏᴍᴏʀʀᴏᴡ, ꜱʜᴇ’ꜱ ɢᴏɪɴɢ ᴛᴏ ɴᴏᴛɪᴄᴇ ᴛʜᴀᴛ ᴛʜᴇʀᴇ’ꜱ ꜱᴏᴍᴇᴛʜɪɴɢ ᴅɪꜰꜰᴇʀᴇɴᴛ ᴀʙᴏᴜᴛ ᴛʜᴇ ᴡᴀʏ ʏᴏᴜ ʟᴏᴏᴋ ᴀᴛ ʜᴇʀ. ꜱʜᴇ’ʟʟ ʀᴇᴀʟɪᴢᴇ ʏᴏᴜ ᴅᴏɴ’ᴛ ʟᴏᴏᴋ ᴛʜᴀᴛ ᴡᴀʏ ᴀᴛ ᴀɴʏᴏɴᴇ ᴇʟꜱᴇ. ʙᴇᴄᴀᴜꜱᴇ ᴛʜᴀᴛ’ꜱ ʜᴏᴡ ɪ ᴋɴᴇᴡ.❞ ᴍᴜᴍ ꜱɴɪꜰꜰꜱ.
❝ᴅᴏ ʏᴏᴜ ᴡᴀɴᴛ ᴄʜɪʟᴅʀᴇɴ?❞
ɪ ʟᴏᴏᴋ ᴜᴘ ɪɴ ꜱᴜʀᴘʀɪꜱᴇ. ❝ᴏʜ, ʏᴇꜱ. ɪ ꜱᴜᴘᴘᴏꜱᴇ ɪ ᴅᴏ. ᴏɴᴇ ᴅᴀʏ. ɪ ᴄᴀɴ’ᴛ ɪᴍᴀɢɪɴᴇ ᴡʜᴀᴛ ᴍʏ ʟɪꜰᴇ ᴡᴏᴜʟᴅ ʙᴇ ʟɪᴋᴇ, ᴛʜᴏᴜɢʜ. ɪ ᴍᴇᴀɴ, ɪᴛ ᴡᴏᴜʟᴅ ʙᴇ ʜᴀʀᴅ ᴛᴏ ʜᴀᴠᴇ ᴀ ʙᴀʙʏ ᴏɴ ᴛʜᴇ ʀᴏᴀᴅ, ᴡᴏᴜʟᴅɴ’ᴛ ɪᴛ?❞
ᴍʀꜱ. ʜᴇᴀʀɴ ᴄᴏɴꜱɪᴅᴇʀꜱ ᴛʜɪꜱ. ❝ɪᴛ ᴡᴏᴜʟᴅ. ʙᴜᴛ ᴛʜᴇʀᴇ’ꜱ ᴘʟᴇɴᴛʏ ᴏꜰ ꜱᴘᴀᴄᴇ ʜᴇʀᴇ.❞
*sigh* just… stop. just stop it.
❝ᴇxᴄᴜꜱᴇ ʏᴏᴜ, ʀʏᴀʜ. ʏᴏᴜ ᴋɴᴏᴡ ɪ’ᴍ ʜᴀᴘᴘʏ ᴀʙᴏᴜᴛ ᴛʜᴇ ʙᴀʙʏ. ɪꜰ ɪ’ᴍ ᴍᴀᴅ ɪᴛ’ꜱ ʙᴇᴄᴀᴜꜱᴇ ᴄᴀʟᴇ, ᴀ ɢʀᴏᴡɴ-ᴀꜱꜱ ᴍᴀɴ, ᴅɪᴅɴ’ᴛ ᴜꜱᴇ ᴘʀᴏᴛᴇᴄᴛɪᴏɴ ᴡɪᴛʜ ʜɪꜱ ᴛᴇᴇɴᴀɢᴇ ɢɪʀʟꜰʀɪᴇɴᴅ ᴀɴᴅ ʙʏ ᴛʜᴇ ꜱᴏᴜɴᴅꜱ ᴏꜰ ɪᴛ ᴅɪᴅɴ’ᴛ ᴇᴠᴇɴ ᴛᴀʟᴋ ᴛᴏ ʏᴏᴜ ᴀʙᴏᴜᴛ ᴛʜᴇ ᴘᴏꜱꜱɪʙɪʟɪᴛʏ ᴏꜰ ɢᴇᴛᴛɪɴɢ ᴘʀᴇɢɴᴀɴᴛ.❞
❝ɪ ʟᴏᴠᴇ ʏᴏᴜ, ᴛᴏᴏ,❞ ʜᴇ ꜱᴀʏꜱ. ❝ɪ ᴄᴀɴ’ᴛ ᴛᴇʟʟ ʏᴏᴜ ʜᴏᴡ ɢᴏᴏᴅ ɪᴛ ꜰᴇᴇʟꜱ ᴛᴏ ꜰɪɴᴀʟʟʏ ꜱᴀʏ ɪᴛ.❞
❝ᴊᴜꜱᴛ ᴄᴏᴍᴇ ʙᴀᴄᴋ ᴛᴏ ᴍᴇ, ᴏᴋᴀʏ?❞
ʜᴇ ꜱʟᴀɴᴛꜱ ᴀ ᴋɪꜱꜱ ᴏᴠᴇʀ ᴍʏ ᴍᴏᴜᴛʜ ᴛʜᴀᴛ ᴛᴀᴋᴇꜱ ᴍʏ ʙʀᴇᴀᴛʜ ᴀᴡᴀʏ. ❝ᴡɪʟᴅ ꜰᴜᴄᴋɪɴɢ ʜᴏʀꜱᴇꜱ, ꜱᴘᴀʀᴋʟᴇ.❞
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Ryah grins and says just as loudly, “She’s mad about the baby.”
Elke whirls around. “Excuse you, Ryah. You know I’m happy about the baby. If I’m mad it’s because Cale, a grown-ass man, didn’t use protection with his teenage girlfriend and by the sounds of it didn’t even talk to you about the possibility of getting pregnant.”
I duck my head, trying to seem penitent, but unable to help my smile. I put my arm around Ryah, and gather her closer. She’s grinning as much as I am and snuggles into me. “I got distracted.”
