An authentic portrayal of quiet and not popular Year 10 Caleb Clifford dealing with isolation at school, self-doubt (reflected in his reluctance to use his L's and learn to drive), estrangement at home as his mother, younger brother and older sister all try, in their different ways, to come to terms with the death of the father/husband a year earlier and an unrequited crush on Ella Westlake, carried since primary school and crushed on day one in high school. But, Caleb has a talent - song writing and creating electronic music and in an act of spite, brother Nat shares is love song of Ella Westlake on Spotify - and it goes viral. Picked up by a local radio station and approached by a talent scout and with sister Rachel stepping up as his manager, Caleb is pushed into an unwanted limelight and overcome with self-doubt and insecurity.
This is a terrific read - Caleb's lack of confidence and and fear of not being good enough - for Ella, for his dead father's expectations or for his music resonates. All the characters are well rounded - and hos only friend Mirallee is a quietly bisexual teenager needing affirmation after breaking with her girlfriend and makes a refreshing contrast to the absent Ella who makes an appearance when Caleb starts to make a name. Everything goes wrong at his first musical gig, but his quiet demeanour makes him an important musical mentor and the book ends on a high - with new found confidence, the family learning to remember the good times with their father rather than focusing on his loss, and a brighter future ahead.
On the notable list for the 2021 CBCA Book of the Year: Older Readers, this is an entertaining, believable and thoughtful novel that teenagers will enjoy but will especially appeal to young males who will be able to relate to some of Caleb's challenges in navigating school, friends, family and his own inner turmoils.