Five months ago, Diana Sparrow had a devastating car accident. Her husband, Jonathan, and his somewhat suffocating mother-in-law, Harriet, have been caring for her ever since. Incapacitated by two broken collar bones, she quite literally was unable to do day-to-day things, relying on Harriet regardless of how much she’d rather not.
But what is even more disturbing for Diana, is that following the accident, she awoke in the hospital only to realize that she was unable to remember anything of the last several months. The plot thickens, however, when she begins to have nightmares. Nightmares that have started her questioning if she is being told the truth about what caused the accident in the first place. Supposedly, she hit a deer. But what if, what if, she hit something decidedly more human.
Questioning everything she thinks she knows, Diana is left scrabbling with what to do. She can’t turn to her best friend, Val, as she’s currently sleeping with Jonathan. So when an enigmatic stranger named Cole Pelham introduces himself one afternoon in a coffee shop, she feels as if she just might be able to confide in him.
But the more time they spend together and the closer they become, Diana begins to sense that she’s on the edge of a precipice. She feels altogether too close to this thoughtful, attentive man and she senses herself surrendering to his sway. Just as quickly as she falls, however, a dark thought begins to emerge. Is it possible that he was involved in her accident that fateful night? And if he was, then who else could have played a part?
As her world begins to unravel and her nightmares become all too real, Diana realizes she must learn the truth. What happened that night? Was she truly alone? And if not, who around her can she possibly trust?
Hmmm. After All I’ve Done had such promise. Starting off with a gripping tale of domestic suspense where the facts were perfectly hidden, I found myself spellbound. It, in fact, reminded me just a little of something B.A. Paris would’ve written. After all, it was stuffed full of delicious potential gaslighting, an unreliable narrator, and secrets for days. That was, however, until the climax. But I’ll get to that in a minute.
Still looking at the positives, I found it wonderfully dark and twisted. From the confused amnesiac to her overbearing mother-in-law, each character offered me something I loved. Well, all except Jonathan, that is. He just didn’t do a thing for me, which left me struggling with how two women could possibly want him so badly.
I was also intrigued by the near lifelong friendship between Diana and Val. With each glimpse into their past, I wanted to learn more. Unfortunately, that was one spot where I think Hardy missed the mark as she didn’t explore their history in nearly enough detail. If only she’d given a tad more attention to the character’s backstories and developed them further… Well, perhaps even that could not have saved this one.
Now for the bad news. The climax was the beginning of the end for me. Served up at the very last minute, it came too fast and hard as well as being altogether waaay too over-the-top. And the great revelation? Decidedly vomit inducing. Considering I have a relatively strong stomach when it comes to most trigger warnings, even I was pretty disturbed by this one.
On top of that, sadly, the multiple POVs were like a constantly revolving door. Instead of sticking with just one perspective for a scene, we were forced to endure seeing it from almost every side. In addition to being irritating, it was also rather repetitive and got on my last nerve.
All said and done, while I did enjoy the majority of this novel, the conclusion utterly ruined it for me. I do have to give it to Hardy, though, considering that the slow burn bulk of this suspenseful tale kept me guessing. Ultimately, this was undeniably a mixed bag for me and I’m undecided on whether I recommend it. In the end, if none of my triggers pose a problem for you (only check if you don’t mind a potential spoiler), then maybe give this one a go. Rating of 3 stars (just).
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Trigger warning: infidelity, gaslighting, incest, mention of: abortion, child abuse, loss of employment, cancer