Releasing the Bounds of Shame: My Recovery from Mental Illness and Cybersex Addiction

by Robert Gray

I was the poster boy for successful, middle-aged American men. I received a high-quality education. I earned a bachelor’s degree and a master’s degree from my number-one school. I had a loving wife and a great job. I was on my way. Struggles with infertility couldn’t defeat us as we had four children. My job moved us to Chicago’s North Shore and then suburban Atlanta, where we bought a spacious house. Then my life took a horrifying turn as I became severely depressed and addicted to cybersex. I lost interest in my family, friends, and job. My internet life became my reality. I took risks which could have ended my marriage and my career. I tried to stop several times, but I craved and needed the high of my drug. I became suicidal, was hospitalized twice, and was treated with electroconvulsive therapy. How did this happen to me? Could I have done something about it? If only I had spoken up and asked for help. But I was too ashamed to admit that I needed help. Too afraid to expose my vulnerability, my weakness, my illness. Looking back, I now see the signs so clearly. If only I could have asked for help. Please join me as I describe my journey to rock bottom and how I recovered to live a life of happiness and joy. There is always hope. You have the power to release the bounds of shame. But you must be willing to ask for help.

232 pages, Paperback

Published May 29, 2020