I have never been quite so baffled and disappointed by a book? Terri Blackstock used to be one of my favorite authors, and I always kept an eye out for her books at the library, which is what happened in this case. Her “If I Run” trilogy is one of my favorite crime series of all time, and while I haven’t enjoyed her subsequent books quite as much, I usually have high hopes for a Blackstock book. Well, I picked up this book and hoo boy, was it ever a trip.
There may be spoilers ahead, but I genuinely care so little about this book that I’m not even going to try to sort out spoilers and non-spoilers so read ahead at your own risk.
tw // cancer, death of a parent, suicide, OCD, attempted gun violence
The first quarter of this book was fine: it was unfolding very similarly as other Christian suspense novels, and while I could already tell that it wasn’t going to be as good as the If I Run series, it was still going pretty well.
Then I got to a part where someone makes a mention about not wanting to wear a mask, which would have been fine except this character’s wife was literally dying of cancer, and mask usage has been utilized in cancer care since even before COVID, which was odd but okay. Reading a book by a Christian author, it sometimes comes with the territory. (The way this thought was phrased *did* make it offensive by the way, I’m not being a snowflake. Like if your wife has cancer, **you’re** the selfish one if you complain about wearing a mask because you want to kiss her ~so bad~, okay? SHE HAS CANCER).
Okay, so I mentioned the cancer right? So turns out, she has leukemia, which is known to cause issues with clotting and platelets right, and patients are known to need blood transfusions, right? SO TELL ME WHY RANDOM PEOPLE ARE JUST STOPPING BY THE HOPSITAL TO DONATE BLOOD TO HER??? like at one point someone’s mom’s entire bible study group just stops by the hospital and donates blood to her????? That is **NOT** how blood donations work???? You can’t just donate blood to someone? 1) blood typing??? this is something you learn in 6th grade??? 2) diseases??? like you can’t just stop by and just donate blood to someone who gets it basically immediately??? and 3) that’s not how blood processing works? blood banks exist???
anyway, that threw me off because that broke the reality SO FAST for me
there is a character who has OCD and sees a psychiatrist and is medicated for it. great, mental health representation! oh wait, no, she literally develops a fixation on somebody, GOES TO WALMART TO BUY A GUN, and proceeds to spend the rest of the book trying to kill someone 😭
I started skimming the book after this point so there may be some inaccuracies but some more highlights:
- they just,,,released an alleged terrorist out on bail??? as if he isn’t suspected of killing 50 people and injuring hundreds? they were like ok pay 10K and u can leave?
- the protagonist’s husband died of a WEED OVERDOSE???? and the weed was giving him symptoms like it was meth??? like I don’t know anything about drugs but WHO DIES OF A WEED OVERDOSE
- remember the alleged terrorist?? well ✨thankfully✨ when he went to go visit the hospital, he was allowed to wear a mask, so that no one could recognize him!! an alleged terrorist!! look how nice masks are!!! again, someone’s LITERALLY DYING OF CANCER but it’s all about you I guess and also why are you, as a terrorist, out in public (oh that’s right, you’re here to donate blood to the lady who has cancer. how could I have forgotten)
- when the male lead was trying to figure out who was trying to frame him, he made a list on a notepad, which included . . . .ISIS??????????? WHY WOULD ISIS TRY TO FRAME A RANDOM PERSON???? but thankfully he ruled ISIS out because “ISIS usually took credit when they successfully carried out an attack. it also didn’t fit their usual MO. ISIS terrorist often died in their own terrorist attacks” (it also said that ISIS “were the ones responsible for most of the foreign terrorist attacks in the US, and they didn’t need a specific reason, other than a crowd” which is . . . patently untrue??? ISIS has never attacked within the US?????)
- THEY FOUND THE ANTAGONIST BY REVERSE GOOGLE IMAGE SEARCHING HIM???? AND THEN THEY FOUND HIS MOTIVE (avenging the death of his parents) BECAUSE IT WAS PUBLISHED IN THE “BLAMES” SECTION OF HIS PARENTS OBITUARY???? WHO HAS A **BLAMES** SECTION IN THEIR OBITUARY?????
- imagine you’re writing your loved one’s obituary and you just straight up accuse someone of LITERALLY MURDERING THEM????? LIKE JUST IN THE OBITUARY???
- the lady with cancer dies, and her husband, who’s not a Christian, goes on a whole page ~journey~ thinking about life after death, right, which is pretty normal. a little odd if it weren’t a Christian fiction book, but it’s fine. BUT THEN HE SPOUTS OFF WITH PHRASES SUCH AS “the arbitrary nature of all his beliefs” and “accidental soup that made humans into beings”????? LIKE non-Christians DONT think like that????? has the author ever interacted with someone who’s not a Christian before???
- he also tries to commit suicide, right, because “he didn’t have the spirit’s nudging”???? a) as if being a Christian immediately means you’re no longer suicidal and b) HIS WIFE JUST DIED??? HE THINKS HE HAS NO POINT IN LIVING ANYMORE AND IT MAKES SENSE???
- they sent the SWAT team out to arrest the guy who did the bombing?? not the police or anything??? just a whole SWAT TEAM??? since when did swat teams perform arrests???
- The swat team also literally said “we never intend to hurt anybody” and you KNOW this is a BLM reference
- there was a reference to a Zoom call, just unprompted???
- the protagonist’s foster mother, who physically and mentally abused him for 10 years, came and just randomly apologized to him??? AND HE FORGAVE HER??????
so uhhhhhhhh. in terms of books that have any sort of significance in my life, this one is not one of them. I’m not even trying to critique it as someone liberal, the writing is just NOT GOOD. some of these plot points were clearly not researched (see: the blood donation thing???) and there were definitely plot points that were sprinkled in for the author to make a point.
I read this book while texting Grace Anne, and it . . . blew our minds. what a roller coaster. anyways, if you value any sense of not-reading-books-that-are-poorly-written, this book is not for you. if you want a laugh and also like Christian suspense fiction, perhaps?
so there you go. my review of the latest Terri Blackstock book. what a shame it turned out like this.