So Good, I Didn’t Want It To End
This book has so much to it, it’s hard to describe. Its not merely heartwarming, it literally tugs at the heart strings. It’s has just enough angst to make you want to keep tissues handy. It’s sad and what makes it even more sad is that it could be real life. BUT…. it also shows how people can grow, how they can change and how they can learn to face their fears rather than keep denying them.
So, what is this book about? It’s about survival. It’s about love. It’s about acceptance. Some in this book succeed …. some don’t.
Camouflaging abuse takes special skills. I’m talking about emotional abuse.It requires excellent denial skills, It requires accepting loss of people and of things, regardless of the pain that comes with that loss. It’s needed in order to keep walls up that started erecting as a child.
What would you do to survive? Here, both Van and Tanner have perfected those skills and didn’t even know it. Following their journey to healing, to realizing the truth, to finding love is a journey worth taking. Enjoy!
👁 OBSERVATIONS … (may contain spoilers):
😱 Van’s mother had me cringing. Van was her enabler for way too long. It finally took the truth revealed to make her mother see she needed help. Mama held on to secrets way too long…. and papa? Well, I wanted to see his downfall. I wanted to see him as the scourge of the community at those weekly Chairs meet-ups. Pride goeth before the fall and that man’s pride needed to go… followed by his fall.
🤯 What Tanner did to Van was VERY painful. I can understand and see why she stayed away for 10 years. I never felt like Tanner knew or felt the the depth of pain he caused. If he knew Van so well, then he would have known there was a real reason she couldn’t go with him to Duke. Instead of getting to the truth, he chose to act out in the worst way possible. What he said to her at the door was inexcusable. She already felt she was not good enough. He just compounded it. That would be VERY hard to overcome and forget. Even 10 years later, Van kept her mind in denial to the degree of pain Tanner caused her. Did Tanner cheat on Van or not? That's up to you, the reader, to decide. Sometimes actions and choices are not black and white.
(Spoiler paragraph follows)
🗣 Tanner said they needed to talk about what happened at Duke. Well, to me, his explanation was weak and shallow, and Van again was in denial. Surely she didn’t forget those painful words … words he calmly said to her that morning at the door. And how about the words his 'new friend' used when she basically told Van to get lost. And, from what Tanner said, he and his 'friend' sure weren’t finished as the morning was young. He made sure Van knew he wanted more of what he had the night before... WITH SOMEONE BETTER THAN VAN. He even laughed at her as he put her down and watched her tearfully run away. He doesn't give her a second thought as he goes back to his lover and continues on in the bedroom. Nope, he brushed over all of that when he ‘talked’ about that night at Duke and what happened. Words are painful…. they may not break bones but they form and embed scars that don’t heal. Tanner couldn't be more cruel. There's a difference between hurting the one you love and being cruel.
⚖️ Tanner had a lot to make up for ... and 10 years later he does his best to do just that. He also suffered from what he did/said to Van that morning. He suffered for those 10 years, reliving daily the damage his words/acts caused. I wish we could have 'seen' some of that daily remorse he suffered during that 10 year absence. Maybe I would 'see' Tanner in a better light. Yes, I do believe he knows he was wrong but I just didn't get to see him living it. Logan alludes to it in the book but would have liked to have felt Tanner's remorse better.
⚡️Must say, I agree with Grey…. Tanner was an a$$hole. And, just who was the one there for Tanner on the worst night of his life, the night his mother died? It was Van. But when she needed him…. where was he? Certainly not with her, as she found out in the crudest of ways.
❣️Loved seeing Grey, Maddie, Logan, Cam etc. again. They played a real role in the story, not simply cameo appearances.
🤔 As for Nora…. I have mixed feelings. She was treated badly by her husband too. If she knew what he was doing and accepted it, then shame on her. But if she was blindsided, that’s a different story. I got the feeling she knew but for how long, I’m not sure. She made her choices so it’s hard to feel badly for her.
I received an advance copy of this book for an honest review
(Edited to clarify portions of the OBSERVATIONS section of review regarding Tanner)