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304 pages, Hardcover
First published June 2, 2020
"I have been performing all my life," I was saying to him. I was performing on trains, on roads. I was performing happiness and cheer. I was performing divine connection. "Now," I was telling him, "just let me practice for the camera."Jivan is a young Muslim girl who works as a store clerk. Her story perhaps the most harrowing of the lot, left me shaken to my core at the injustice she had to endure. Jivan is impulsive, foolhardy, sometimes stupid and at a fateful time, cowardly. She makes decisions that leave you infuriated. Perhaps at how astoundingly shortsighted they are or with a niggling thought that she could just as easily be you.
It's midday, after bath time, and my cellmate has hiked up her sari to her thighs and is giving herself a massage, running her fingers up and down calves. Her veins are crooked like flooding rivers.Each character has a distinct voice. And that's how you do multi first or limited third person POV.
Even the meaning of "prison" is different for rich people. Can you blame me for wanting, so much, to be--not even rich, just middle class?
In my village, the dust of coal settled in the nooks of our ears, and when we blew our noses it came out black. There were no cows, or crops. There were only blasted pits into which my mother descended with a shovel, rising with a basket of black rock on her head... It frightened me to see her as a worker. At night I held her palm in my palm. The lines in her hands--lifelines, they call them-- were the only skin not blackened.
’The light alerts me when morning comes. Now that I know it is morning, I practice the yoga I learned long ago, on rainy days in school. But my body is reluctant. It adheres, like a block of concrete, to the floor. There is noting supple in my arms. They are twigs, waiting to snap. When I look down, my legs are dry and scaly, white with skin that is neither alive nor willing to shed.’The pages of the register at the morgue flutter. But life goes on. And in between this space, words lie, bidding their time.
The book begins with ‘a burning’; a terrorist attack on a train in the Kolabagan area of Kolkata. The book ends with ‘a burning’; the embers of shock and pain smouldering in your heart. In between these two points, you meet three people:
• Jivan: A slum dweller who has been lucky enough to get admission in a local girls school through an NGO. But her father’s ill health and the dwindling family resources make her drop out after the 10th standard and take up a sales job. While she is determined to move up in life, fate pulls off a masterstroke. Jivan is accused of the terrorist attack because of a careless comment she makes on Facebook. Will she be able to clear her name of such a charge?
• Lovely: Yet another slum dweller, Lovely too harpers big dreams. She knows that she is a talented actor and she wants to make it big in the world of movies. The only hitch is that she is a hijra. But is this a hitch in the eyes of Lovely? Not at all. She swaggers her way through the book, knowing that she’ll do anything she can to make it big in filmdom. She has the only alibi that can save Jivan. Will she be able to save Jivan even if it comes at the cost of her acting dreams?
• PT Sir: Guess who this is? If you have been to school in the same generation as I, you will surely get it right. PT Sir is a “PT Sir” (a Physical Training teacher) in the school where Jivan studied earlier. He is used to getting no appreciation for his hard work on the sports ground. One fine day, he happens to catch the speech of a right-wing political leader and is mesmerised by the ambience and effectiveness of her words. Soon, he starts making his way up the political ladder. But his rise seems to coincide with Jivan’s fall. Will he be able to use his new political power to help his erstwhile favourite student?
If the police didn’t help ordinary people like you and me, if the police watched them die, doesn’t that mean that the government us also a terrorist.
A vendor dips lentil balls in a dark wok filled with oil, and sells paper bowls full, alongside a cilantro and green chili chutney.