Lessons I Couldn't Learn: Memoirs of a contradictory life

by Gerald Davis

This book tells the story of a man who was present, but was lost. It also tells the story of man who made incredible strides in his recovery. There are millions of stories like mine as I am no different than many of you. What is different about my story is the way in which I found my way again. I spent 14 years writing three books on the subject of Good vs Evil. I was literally going through the pain and fear of yesterday's past while writing these books. The significance in this is the things I had been struggling with while actually writing each book was able to provide me with the means to understand, and then to share. Most of what I learned was written down and now shall never be forgotten or lost. These memoirs give the reader a dead straight accounting of my life. I've had some really great times, and I've had my share of some really hard experiences. I tell the full story openly, with nothing held back. I'm hoping the reader will be able to relate to some of my less than perfect life, and be able to gain insights into their own issues. I was somewhat reluctant to publish this book because of the vulnerabilities from which I spoke with regard to the unedited truth about me. Some of it is embarrassing to tell, some of it is shameful. What may be different about my memoirs are they were written by someone who gained a whole lot of insights into how life generally works, and how the things we don't know can hold us back. I had learned while writing Book One of Good vs Evil that "Whoever, or whatever is controlling the mind of a person will also be controlling the amount pain that person will be made to suffer". I give bits and pieces to the reader of the things I learned to help set me free from the pain and fear from which I had long been living. This information makes the book somewhat educational. Writing this book took the courage and strength I had previously gathered by working my way through the anger, hurt and rage of my past. I believe if I can be successful at suffering my way through the lies and pitfalls from the various deceptions I had believed in as the truth, so can each of you. I've completed much of my work, and in abandoning the lies have made my life a whole lot more peaceful and sane. I have no doubts most of you can do the same. My life story gives you a glimpse into some of the things that had long been working against me, some of which are probably working against you. From what I've learned there is a lot going on that remains totally unseen. A presence of evil is working to sabotage our sense of morality, and hinder our confidence. This presence has been successful over thousands of years with sabotaging our lives because it has mostly remained unknown. I hope to inspire the reader to seek God's wisdom and truths, and show you the advantage of living the "good life". Acquiring such a life takes steady work, and truthfulness, and then it will also require your dedication. I've been at this kind of work for 30 years now, and because I've been working with God daily, there is nothing else I'd rather be doing.

223 pages, Kindle Edition

Published July 15, 2020