August is attending Cornell University as a creative writing major, and while at a college party that her friends dragged her to much to her dismay, she stumbles upon a gang in an alleyway and sees something she shouldn't have. With her life now in danger, she has to deal with the consequences of that night—which includes the leader of the Blue Porcelain gang, Willow, a tall and brooding woman whose magnetic green eyes would put the girl in more danger than being caught in a spiderweb of New York gangs ever could.
The Cat falls for the Rat. Or should I say rabbit. The analogies in this one are often and thick. I swear the amount of times the women's hearts were thumping like rabbits, made me think they all had cardiac arrhythmias. Kindle Unlimited. A disturbing story with a gang leader who has to 'take care of business' with a young innocent woman who oversaw something she shouldn't have.
The TLDR is that Willow is a leader of a gang, 29, has murdered before while dealing in drugs and other illegal activities. Works with a bunch of thugs that do what is necessary and take what they want. When fresh innocent 18 year old August happens to see Willow and some of her thugs kill a guy, she ends up on her radar.
Instead of disposing of August, Willow plays a bit of a cat and mouse game with her, watching her closely, intimidating her, making her paranoid. Telling her to keep her mouth shut. For whatever reason Willow just can't seem to kill August, even though it's stated she's done it before.
Circumstances end up causing Willow to take August hostage for her own safety - but when you're locked up in a compound with fellow miscreants who are ogling the young woman- what is really safe? Not to mention Willows own temper that gets out of control, time and time again.
It's a very unhealthy relationship. Willow is violent, and doesn't think twice about snapping at August. August however takes this in stride, and is often sarcastic with her comebacks, while still showing a very vulnerable side that Willow can't help but find endearing. August, too, finds Willow alluring. Thus starts a really messed up stockholm syndrome romance, between captor and hostage.
It's morally grey, if not outright in it's wrongness. But it was kind of also interesting, too? I guess for me the elements coming into play fascinated me enough to keep reading, despite finding it frustrating and toxic.
Willow finds herself spiralling into anger and guilt about the situation, also feeling sorry about her attitude and actions. While also trying to protect August from her disgusting gang pals. But the whole thing sort of felt like "Well why now, and why her?". I get the author was going for some sort of redemption arc, having a bad chick who recognizes the shitty life of pals she has surrounded her, and how morally depleted they all are - until the wide eyed innocent but determined August walks into her life... But there was a creepy factor with her age, too. And the constantly mentions of her being "only just legal" and Willow having to further protect August by putting a few guys in their place.
August forgives Willow, even blaming herself for the circumstances which really was WTF inducing. While she is also wanting to get with her physically which after everything she had put her through, again was just frustrating to read. One minute she is screaming at Willow, telling her what a psychopath she is - the next she wants her sexually. Willow at least seemed to struggle with it moreso, but it still ultimately came up as them feeling things deeply for one another far too quickly. So it was too hard to believe.
There's also breath-play in their first - yes - first ever sexual encounter, which wasn't discussed beforehand, and that disturbed me. There was too much power-play in their dynamics keeping Willow as the dom and the young innocent August as the sub.
At the end there's confrontation and Willow ends up giving the most selfish guilt-tripping rant I've ever read; as August basically heeds her words and again takes on the responsibility she never had to begin with. The power play is a freaking mess, and it wasn't even trying to be anything but.
It was disturbing and icky. There was no redemption here. Just continued toxicity masquerading as romance.
This entire review has been hidden because of spoilers.