Liminal.
If you don't know the meaning of that word now, you will by the time you finish the book. It's the book's theme and the word is peppered throughout.
Liminal is when someone or something is neither one thing nor the other; its status is ambiguous. Say you're literally halfway out the door and you realise you've forgotten your keys. You freeze, one foot outside, one inside, your body straddling the threshold. You are neither in the house not outside it. You belong to both the public world and the private at exactly the same time. That's liminal.
Fraser suggests he is liminal. He belongs two mutually exclusive worlds. He belongs to the CofE yet is so highly critical of it that he has struggled to reconcile himself with its actions. He is of Jewish origin, married a Jewish Israeli and is raising their boys in both faiths. He quotes Disraeli's response when asked by Queen Victoria where he stood. Disraeli replied that he was the page between the Old Testament and the Gospels.
And it's not just Disraeli who sits between worlds. Fraser finds a sect of practicing Jews in the first few centuries AD who believed Christ was the Messiah. Somewhat awkwardly we call them Jewish Christians.
Fraser finds his religious home there: on the page between Old and New Testaments, with the Jewish Christians. Between. Belonging to both worlds and neither. Ambiguous.
This is a touching, thoughtful memoir from a practiced raconteur. It's got something to please everyone: a personal trauma, theology, an underdog overcoming, some four letter words, Christian history, a ghost story, a love story, political drama, a travelogue to the River Jordan, you name it, it's in there.
I have a small hesitation though. Just how truly liminal is Giles Fraser really? How between the systems is he really? I'm not sure he's got one foot over the threshold at all. I'm not even sure he's close to the threshold.
Educated at a private boy's boarding school with a Phd from Oxford, he is a canon in the CofE. When he lost the bun fight with the Dean of St Paul's Cathedral and resigned, he was then offered the position of Bishop of Edinburgh and was asked – by the Archbishop himself – to apply for the job as Bishop of Liverpool. Have to say whenever I've quit in my job with such acrimony that friends and colleagues don't speak to me, my boss's boss doesn't get me a promotion.
When chased by the press (after again creating a drama by tweeting it out), he phoned up his friend who just happened to be the editor at the Guardian so his side of the story would get out first. He brags that he married into the Israeli equivalent of the Kennedy's. He hangs out with the Chief Rabbi (as one does). And so on.
How is he on the edge of anything? Or between anything? How is his position in any way ambiguous? Because he sounds pretty flipping embedded in the top echelon to me. I have met American nuns who stood between two armies one of which was backed by their own government and their own church, and recited the Lord's Prayer: Our Father and Mother who art in Heaven, hallowed be thy names. Now that's liminal.
The Liberation Theology priests in Latin America who physically and theologically aligned themselves with the poor against the Catholic hierarchy were not offered promotions, a column in a national newspaper, and regular broadcasting on the BBC. Instead, they were denied the priest's ability to minister mass to their flocks, told to stop publishing and publicly chastised. That was the price they paid for being on the edge of their religion, both out and in, unable to leave yet unable to silently accept what their Church is doing.
Apparently the Anglican church is gentler than the Catholic. If you're Anglican, that's reassuring. If you're Catholic, you're not surprised.
But Fraser's success then makes him Gramsci's organic intellectual– not liminal as much as an integral part of the system reinforcing the status quo. He grants the system a patina of dissent, which actually strengthens it, for which in turn it then rewards him, while he rewards himself for his outsider status.
If you're a Christian, that's reassuring. And if you're not, you're not surprised.