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Note: The following review has not been proofread/edited yet. It is just a collection of my ramblings after reading this book. Apologies if some portions/all of the review doesn’t quite make sense lol.
Final Rating (average rating of all the ratings below): 4/5 (rounded down from a 4.13/5)
Personal Rating: 4/5
This was the most depressing book I've ever read. Bro, I only read this on a whim because I saw the cover for volume 3 and thought Yozo looked so much like Light Yagami from Death Note it was insane. And I guess they do have some similarities with both having manipulative and unempathetic tendencies. Anyways, I'm getting off track. Back to the point. I was left speechless at the manga because on one hand, I could totally relate with Yozo's misanthropy and his feelings of how fake everyone in the world is. And as a result, we too, have to put a facade everytime we go outside. It's how I feel forced to act. I plaster a fake smile on my face, act my best to be cheerful, while hurting on the inside. A lot of the thoughts that Yozo had in the manga also plague mine. On the other hand, it was disgusting and tragic to see Yozo's actions and how he ended up. And it honestly scares me. I wonder what the author of the original book (Dazai) wanted to communicate. Is he saying that if people keep thinking like Yozo, they will end up like him, homeless and a drug addict? Maybe not literally, but still end up badly. Is he saying that there is no use to think like this, be all cynical, hate and rage against the world, because there is no use? Are we to conform to the utterly shallow and meaningless societal standards? Or are we doomed to hate the world, but ultimately be unable to accomplish anything, and reside in this bitterness for the entirety of our lives? No matter the case, the bleak ending, to me, illustrates the hopelessness of this world. Yozo's hatred of human society really resonated with me as I currently struggle with depression. However, his tragic ending also pushes me to consider about how I live my life, and be aware of the choices I make.
Plot: 4/5
I loved the plot, but also found Yozo's downfall incredibly disturbing, because it keeps me thinking that if I make bad decisions in a fit of despair, I will also suffer from it. It painfully scares me to see how just a few bad decisions by following Horiki resulted in his transition from the son of a wealthy family to a homeless drug addict in the span of eight years. However, I believe that this plot and the series of events that Yozo experienced are absolutely necessary to convey the bitterness of human society as well as how one can ruin themself.
Themes/Topics (average rating of all the theme/topic ratings below) (disclaimer: I am not an expert in literary analysis. These are just my thoughts and how well I agree with how the author portrays them.): 5/5
Shallowness of the world: 5/5
I absolutely agreed with almost everything that Yozo felt in regards to people and the world. Everything feels so fake. The interactions we have feel so shallow. Everyone is doing things for money. I hate everyone, and I hate myself.
The breakdown of relationships: 5/5
I was debating whether to give this a 4.5/5 or 5/5, but in the end, I settled for a 5/5. The reason why I gave this a 5/5, even though Yozo made so many horrible decisions that also destroyed the people around him, is because I believe readers are meant to feel disgust at Yozo's actions. Yozo demonstrates that as we struggle, we also lash out to the people around us, often harming them in the process when they don't deserve it. His treatment of all the women he had relationships with, such as the woman he attempted to commit suicide with, the editor (I forgot their names), and Yoshino, were abhorrent. He, as he describes himself, is a parasite, leeching off the goodwill (and I don't even know how he has that much rizz lmao) of those women. They have to go to work, and also cook for him and give him money!!??! And he does nothing in return (except give them pleasurable sex I guess but I mean he probably enjoys it too). Anyways, it's utterly insane how unappreciative he is, but I think the manga meant to illustrate that. As for the explicit sex in this manga, this is one of the few times I think it belongs in here, as it is used to illustrate the morally lowness of Yozo. The one woman he's in a relationship with but where sex isn't depicted is Yoshino, and that shows how his relationship with her (before it deteriorated) was more genuine than his relationships with the other women.
Art style: 3.5/5
I think the art was pretty. Some of the drawings of Yozo when he was 17 look a little weird though.
Other comments:
NOOOOOO MAN if Yozo didn't meet Horiki maybe he wouldn't have gone down that destructive path. How could he say that Horiki was his best friend when this dude literally made him an alcoholic and was not supportive at all!?!? But on the other hand, I think Yozo was destined to meet this tragic ending. If he didn't meet Horiki, there probably would be something else that would lead him on this downward trend.