Remembering “the ghosts of another life”: Dark Disturbances in a Deadly Desertscape
“The desert covers everything in these parts in a fine dust the color of dried marrow.”
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A dozen gritty, bleakly-humorous, and unexpected shorter tales comprise Tod Goldberg’s latest, The Low Desert: Gangster Stories. I should add that this is my first reading of any of Goldberg’s work, although these pieces connect to his Gangster Nation and Gangsterland work, too. In The Low Desert, we find compelling stories about men and women with fear and pride in equal turns. I don’t know much about the West Coast, so these pieces feel particularly unreal to me, in a good way, like mist rising from distant mirages where you’re not quite sure what’s true and what’s fiction. Goldberg writes with sharp, colloquial, and snappy prose. An occasional gem—adage-like and crystalline—rises from the debris of danger, incriminations, and death. For instance, in the story “Mazel,” a young FBI agent diagnosed with cancer looks into the sky and ignores the moon, as “[s]tars had a much more compelling story. They were proof that dead things could still be remembered.”
Truly, with sundry timelines and eras represented, The Low Desert dips into the past, present, and future lives of people and places. And not all the tales are about “crimes” and “gangsters”: we find drifters surging with loneliness and apprehension as often as we find the grifters. The portrait of the region, too, complements the often-barren-feeling lives with its enormity and stretches of the unknown beyond. I kept reading and imagining these scenes in a sepia-tone, halfway between a classic film noir and today’s realities. I also kept thinking about Sherwood Anderson’s Winesburg, Ohio and while there isn’t a single human central figure here, the mystery of the desert, and the force that attracts and compels so many lost people there, is certainly absorbing.
Moreover, as you read on, it becomes progressively more satisfying to watch the “pieces” (the individual stories) of The Low Desert slide together to create a larger, atmospheric work, and this is aided by some interlocking tales that show certain characters at different stages in their lives, the whereabouts of one woman’s adopted daughter whose sudden disappearance plagues her, or even the story of a family member who has been unable to avoid his father’s criminal past and has spurred a legacy of “Family Business,” if you know what I mean. However, while it appears these interlocking tales display character-development and evolving stories that feel ripe enough for their own respective novels, Goldberg’s collection feels deeply-anchored in, as he writes in “The Salt,” the “trauma of memory.” One thing is for sure: don’t look for happy endings. And be ready for some surprises. One great surprise: that you can feel empathy for the wanderers here, the isolated former cocktail waitress who marries an incarcerated man she barely knows. The sprinkler-system professional who winds up teaching college courses while moonlighting as a no-good. And Morris Drew, whose rise and fall in law-enforcement is entwined with three different wives from three very different times in his life, each of them taken or touched by Death.
“But of course people are always dying,” Goldberg writes in “The Salt.” That is the truth of this short story collection. People die because they are murdered, or they die of old age, or they die of disease, or they’re merely existing and already living a waking death. They watch other people die. They imagine other people dying. They die because they are associated with the wrong people. They imagine themselves dying. Some even contemplate suicide. Catalyzing such morbidity is the fact that there is a lot of sickness, such as cancers and mental and moral illness. It’s all seemingly bound up with the desert, part of it a site of World War II test-dumping. Uranium is in there somewhere. Developers come and try to revitalize this decaying place but it’s an “environmental disaster” and the people out there face “innovative cancers, endocrinological disorders, and intestinal bacteria only found in Chernobyl,” as the author describes.
Truly, while some authors try to find beauty in the ordinary, in The Low Desert, Goldberg aims to find the dark in the commonplace. Here are ordinary people left in desperately extraordinary circumstances, people who try to climb themselves out of a cesspool of sin and seem to land in the sucking quicksand of something worse. To put it frankly, these are not happy tales. Depressing, isolating, and bleak, they are as stark and unknowable as the desert stretching before us, covering all the secrets of the dead bodies and dead dreams. As Goldberg writes in one story, this place, with the incongruous presence of the Salton Sea that seems to purge up bodies at every point, is a “rotting sea [of] ghost and sand,” as well as a “great mirage: a sea where no sea should be.” By transference, then, there are dead bodies where no dead bodies should be. There is pain, hurt, and loss that overwhelms. Yet—these characters manage to soldier on and survive, choosing life when possible, even when it is difficult, or feels like a prison sentence. We feel for them—we really do. Some of the stories and characters feel more well-rounded and even likeable than others, but there’s a fierce-yet-easy creativity here. For example, in “Goon Number Four,” we get the life-and-death daily activities of that eponymous figure in a way I felt would make a great sitcom. What happens when people are so practiced in casual warfare—when people become their jobs—that that is the only lens through which they can see all else? It is gruesome humor at its finest. And it cuts to the bone because while we readers may not be hitmen or snipers or drug dealers and that like, we certainly and too often become mechanized, reduced to what we do rather than who we are.
The bigger question, of course, is to what extent does location affect body, soul, and mind. It clearly does, and the desert here, with its mystery and magnetism, its majestic sites yielding to mundane and morbid ones, once again takes on the dual role of protagonist and antagonist. At the end of it all, you leave Tod Goldberg’s The Low Desert thinking about who you are and how you’ve become it—and how the places you’ve lived have shaped your experience one joy or tragedy, one gain or loss at a time.
N.B., and as a warning: if you’re averse to profanity and some gruesome descriptions (there’s a relatively high corpse-count here, including the bodies of young children), this is not the story collection for you. And if you’re looking for happily-ever-after, move along.