I never knew ghosts until I starting losing things, people, places, innocences that were hardly noticed until gone. I think some lose these things early on, and they are the ones to listen to, the ones that see the ghosts and name them and set them free. Maybe that is what this poet does in her way, my ghosts, your ghosts, humanity’s ghosts. I am not talking about actual spirits, that some may see or hear, but of the metaphorical ghost that is more a feeling, a sense, a mist you can almost see, but that rises, always rising, when noticed or accepted.
I had such a sense of ghosts in these poems, and not much joy, which is not my usual type of poetry, I am always looking for redemption, transformation; and some of her best imagery is accompanied by her best sadness, our best sadness, our shames and abuses we heap onto the world, trash and war that makes refugees, and some are just tributes and goodbyes to the beloveds, lost.
This is my second book of poetry since the pandemic, and it served the purpose of opening the conversation about what we have lost. Who we have lost. The ghosts that will travel with us for a while until they can’t or just aren’t any more. I think we need space for these ghosts and those of us who also know that can’t be the only ones, and these poems open other, if they allow it. Or they are just words.
We are living in the lateness of the world, my friends, and this poet vows as if speaking for the countless frontline workers but especially the ones holding the hands of our fellow humans dying alone: “I will see that you arrive safely, my friend, I will get you there.”
THE BOATMAN
Leave, yes, we’ll obey the leaflets, but go where?
To the sea to be eaten, to the shores of Europe to be caged?
To camp misery and camp remain here.
I ask you then, where?
You tell me you are a poet. If so, our destination is the same.
I find myself now the boatman, driving a taxi at the end of the world.
I will see that you arrive safely, my friend, I will get you there.
REPORT FROM AN ISLAND
Sea washes the sands in a frill of salt and a yes sound. We lie beneath palms, under the star constellations of the global south: a cross, a sword pointing upward.
THE LIGHTKEEPER
A night without ships. Foghorns calling into walled cloud, and you still alive, drawn to the light as if it were a fire kept by monks, darkness once crusted with stars, but now death-dark as you sail inward.
Through wild gorse and sea wrack, through heather and torn wool you ran, pulling me by the hand, so I might see this for once in my life: the spin and spin of light, the whirring of it, light in search of the lost,
You say to me, Stay awake, be like the lens maker who died with his lungs full of glass, be the yew in blossom when bees swarm, be their amber cathedral and even the ghosts of Cistercians will be kind to you.
In a certain light as after rain, in pearled clouds or the water beyond, seen or sensed water, sea or lake, you would stop still and gaze out for a long time. Also, when fireflies opened and closed in the pines, and a star appeared, our only heaven. You taught me to live like this.
That after death it would be as it was before we were born. Nothing to be afraid. Nothing but happiness as unbearable as the dread from which it comes. Go toward the light always, be without ships.
ELEGY FOR AN UNKNOWN POET
Listen: bells! You are sheltered once again in the stillness of childhood, where the slow river remains, rain singing from a gutter-spout, wet bottles, misted grillwork.
Apartness gathers the music of solitude as if it were a glass viola.
Bells ring that are and are not, and the soul is left wandering in the blue night.
LETTER TO A CITY UNDER SIEGE
Turning the pages of the book you have lent me of your wounded city, reading the braille on its walls, walking beneath ghost chestnuts past fires that turn the bullet-shattered windows bronze, flaring an instant without warming the fallen houses where you sleep without water or light, a biscuit tin between you, or later in the café ruins, you discuss all night the burnt literature borrowed from a library where all books met with despair.
A ROOM
...books chosen at random, as our moments are, ours and the souls of others, who glimmer beside us for an instant, here by chance and radiant with significance.
HUE: FROM A NOTEBOOK
We went down the Perfume River by dragon boat as far as the pagoda of the three golden Buddhas. Pray here. You can ask for happiness. We light joss sticks, send votives downriver in paper sacks, then have trouble disembarking from the boat. Our bodies disembark, but our souls remain.
These soldiers are decades from war now: pewter-haired, steel-haired, a moon caught in plumeria. We are like the clouds that pass and pass. What does it matter then if we are not the same as clouds?
CHARMOLYPI
It begins with a word as small as the cry of Athena’s owl. An ache in the cage of breath, as when we say can hardly breathe. In sleep, we see our name on a stone, for instance. Or while walking in the rain among graves we feel watched. Others are still coming into our lives. They come, they go out. Some speak quietly beside us on the bench near where koi swim. At night, there is a light sound of wings brushing the walls. Not now is what it sounds like. Or two other words. But they are the same passerines as live in the stone eaves, as forage in the air toward night. To see them one must not be looking.
SOUFFRANCE
It was Joseph who said that for all eternity, Venice would happen only once. You are a ghost then, following a ghost back through its only life.
Or as you say now: there were many cities, but never a city twice.
SANCTUARY
Light pealed, bell-like, through the canopy. Long ago or seems so.
LIGHT OF SLEEP
In the library of night, from the darkness of ink on paper, there is a whispering heard book to book, from Great Catastrophe and The World of Silence to The Encyclopedia of Ephemera, a history having to do with aerial leaflets...
...the zoetrope disk, also known as the wheel of life, wherein figures painted in a rotating drum are perceived to move, faster and faster, whether dancing, flying, or dying in the whirl of time.
THEOLOGOS
For a third year, we are living on AERIA THASSOS, island of marble and pines, marble the quietest of stones, pines the first tree after a fire.
You may catch birds in nets, the first poet wrote, but you cannot in nets catch their songs.
Archilochus
MOURNING
fishermen setting their nets for mullet, as summer tavernas hang octopus to dry on their lines, whisper smoke into wood ovens, sweep the terraces clear of night, putting the music out with morning light, and for the breadth of an hour it is possible to consider the waters of this sea wine-dark, to remember that there was no word for blue among the ancients, but there was the whirring sound before the oars of the great triremes sang out of the seam of world,
through pine-sieved winds silvered by salt flats until they were light enough to pass for breath from the heavens, troubled enough to fell ships and darken thought— then as now the clouds pass, roosters sleep in their huts, the sea flattens under glass air, but there is nothing to hold us there: not the quiet of marble nor the luff of sail, fields of thyme, a vineyard at harvest, and the sea filled with the bones of those in flight from wars east and south, our wars, their remains scavenged on the seafloor and in its caves, belongings now a flotsam washed to the rocks. Stand here and look into the distant haze, there where the holy mountain
with its thousand monks wraps itself in shawls of rain, then look to the west, where the rubber boats tipped into the tough waves. Rest your eyes there, remembering the words of Anacreon, himself a refugee of war, who appears in the writings of Herodotus: How the waves of the sea kiss the shore! For if the earth is a camp and the sea an ossuary of soul, light your signal fires wherever you find yourselves. Come the morning, launch your boats.
TOWARD THE END
In this archipelago of thought a fog descends, horns of ships to unseen ships, a year passing overhead, the cry of a year not knowing where, someone standing in the aftermath who once you knew, the one you were then, a little frisson of recognition, and then just like that—gone, and no one for hours, a sound you thought you heard
but in the waking darkness is not heard again, two sharp knocks on the door, death it was, you said, but now nothing, the islands, places you have been, the sea the uncertain, full of ghosts calling out, lost as they are, no one you knew in your life, the moon above the whole of it, like the light at the bottom of a well opening in iced air where you have gone under and come back, light, no longer tethered to your own past, and were it not for the weather of trance, of haze and murk, you could see everything at once: all the islands, every moment you have lived or place you have been,without confusion or bafflement, and you would be one person. You would be one person again.