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She's Not There: A Life in Two Genders
The exuberant memoir of a man named James who became a woman named Jenny.
She’s Not There is the story of a person changing genders, the story of a person bearing and finally revealing a complex secret; above all, it is a love story.
By turns funny and deeply moving, Jennifer Finney Boylan explores the remarkable territory that lies between men and women, examines changing friendships, and rejoices in the redeeming power of family. She’s Not There is a portrait of a loving marriage—the love of James for his wife, Grace, and, against all odds, the enduring love of Grace for the woman who becomes her "sister," Jenny.
To this extraordinary true story, Boylan brings the humorous, fresh voice that won her accolades as one of the best comic novelists of her generation. With her distinctive and winning perspective, She’s Not There explores the dramatic outward changes and unexpected results of life as a woman: Jenny fights the urge to eat salad, while James consumed plates of ribs; gone is the stability of "one damn mood, all the damn time."
While Boylan’s own secret was unusual, to say the least, she captures the universal sense of feeling uncomfortable, out of sorts with the world, and misunderstood by her peers. Jenny is supported on her journey by her best friend, novelist Richard Russo, who goes from begging his friend to "Be a man" (in every sense of the word) to accepting her as an attractive, buoyant woman. "The most unexpected thing," Russo writes in his Afterword to the book, "is in how Jenny’s story we recognize our shared humanity."
As James evolves into Jennifer in scenes that are by turns tender, startling, and witty, a marvelously human perspective emerges on issues of love, sex, and the fascinating relationship between our physical and our intuitive selves. Through the clear eyes of a truly remarkable woman, She’s Not There provides a new window on the often confounding process of accepting ourselves.
She’s Not There is the story of a person changing genders, the story of a person bearing and finally revealing a complex secret; above all, it is a love story.
By turns funny and deeply moving, Jennifer Finney Boylan explores the remarkable territory that lies between men and women, examines changing friendships, and rejoices in the redeeming power of family. She’s Not There is a portrait of a loving marriage—the love of James for his wife, Grace, and, against all odds, the enduring love of Grace for the woman who becomes her "sister," Jenny.
To this extraordinary true story, Boylan brings the humorous, fresh voice that won her accolades as one of the best comic novelists of her generation. With her distinctive and winning perspective, She’s Not There explores the dramatic outward changes and unexpected results of life as a woman: Jenny fights the urge to eat salad, while James consumed plates of ribs; gone is the stability of "one damn mood, all the damn time."
While Boylan’s own secret was unusual, to say the least, she captures the universal sense of feeling uncomfortable, out of sorts with the world, and misunderstood by her peers. Jenny is supported on her journey by her best friend, novelist Richard Russo, who goes from begging his friend to "Be a man" (in every sense of the word) to accepting her as an attractive, buoyant woman. "The most unexpected thing," Russo writes in his Afterword to the book, "is in how Jenny’s story we recognize our shared humanity."
As James evolves into Jennifer in scenes that are by turns tender, startling, and witty, a marvelously human perspective emerges on issues of love, sex, and the fascinating relationship between our physical and our intuitive selves. Through the clear eyes of a truly remarkable woman, She’s Not There provides a new window on the often confounding process of accepting ourselves.
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First published July 1, 2003
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Jennifer Finney Boylan
31 books1,557 followersJennifer Finney Boylan is a widely praised author and professor.
Edward Albee summed up her oeuvre in 1988: -- "Boylan observes carefully, and with love. [Her] levitating wit is wisely tethered to a humane concern…. I often broke into laughter, and was now and again, struck with wonder."
Jenny's memoir, She's Not There, published by Broadway Books in 2003, was one of the first bestselling works by a transgendered American; until 2001 she published under the name James Boylan. She's Not There, currently in its eighth printing, is popular both as a textbook in high schools and colleges as well as with readers's groups. The paperback edition contains a "readers guide" in addition to the main text, which consists not only of Jenny's insights on "a life in two genders" but also includes an afterword by Pultizer Prize winner Richard Russo, whose friendship with James, and later with Jennifer, provides part of the books narrative.
She's Not There won an award from the Lambda LIterary Foundation in 2004, the year after its initial publication. The book has since been published in many foreign editions, and was an alternate selection of the Book-of-the-Month Club. Anna Quindlen called it “a very funny memoir of growing up confused, and a very smart consideration of what it means to be a woman.”
Her 2008 memoir, I'm Looking Through You, is about growing up in a haunted house. While trans issues form part of the exposition of the book, the primary focus of I'm Looking Through You is on what it means to be "haunted," and how we all seek to find peace with our various ghosts, both the supernatural and the all-too-human.
Jenny has been a frequent guest on a number of national television and radio programs, including three visits to the Oprah Winfrey Show. She has also appeared on the Larry King Show, The Today Show and been the subject of a documentary on CBS News’ 48 Hours. She has also appeared on a wide range of local and syndicated television shows, as well as NPR's Marketplace and the Diane Rehm show. In 2007 she played herself on two episodes of ABC's "All My Children." She has spoken widely around the country on gender and imagination, at venues including the National Press Club in Washington, D.C. and the New Jersey State Theatre. She has given plenary and keynote speeches at conferences on diversity and scholarship around the country, and at colleges and universities including Amherst, Wesleyan, Dartmouth, Columbia, Vanderbilt, Duke, Bucknell, Dickinson, Bates, Ohio State, Middlebury, Gettysburg, Georgia State, the University of Puget Sound, and Westminster College in Salt Lake City. She has spoken at law firms, at corporate events, and at bookstores from Seattle to Vermont.
Her nonfiction has appeared on the op/ed pages of the New York Times, in GQ magazine, Allure, and Glamour. She is also an ongoing contributor to Conde Nast Traveler magazine; her most recent work there was on Easter Island, published in the January 2007 issue.
Boylan's first book, a collection of stories entitled Remind Me To Murder You Later, was published by Johns Hopkins University Press in 1988. Her first novel, The Planets, was published in 1991 by Poseidon Press. (Simon and Schuster). Loosely based upon the classical piece of music by Gustav Holst, The Planets followed the lives of several fictional characters in the real town of Centralia, Pennsylvania, which has been afflicted by an underground coal fire since the early 1960s.
Her second novel, The Constellations follows the lives of several of the characters from The Planets, some of whom flee from angry cows, discover a latex brain, and begin a life of dognapping.
Her 1997 novel, Getting In, published by Warner Books, focused on four high school students who go on quests to get into college. The novel was optioned for film by Renny Harlin and Geena Davis, and Jenny was tapped to write the initial screenplay for New Line Cinema.
Born in 1958 in Valley Forge, Boylan
Edward Albee summed up her oeuvre in 1988: -- "Boylan observes carefully, and with love. [Her] levitating wit is wisely tethered to a humane concern…. I often broke into laughter, and was now and again, struck with wonder."
Jenny's memoir, She's Not There, published by Broadway Books in 2003, was one of the first bestselling works by a transgendered American; until 2001 she published under the name James Boylan. She's Not There, currently in its eighth printing, is popular both as a textbook in high schools and colleges as well as with readers's groups. The paperback edition contains a "readers guide" in addition to the main text, which consists not only of Jenny's insights on "a life in two genders" but also includes an afterword by Pultizer Prize winner Richard Russo, whose friendship with James, and later with Jennifer, provides part of the books narrative.
She's Not There won an award from the Lambda LIterary Foundation in 2004, the year after its initial publication. The book has since been published in many foreign editions, and was an alternate selection of the Book-of-the-Month Club. Anna Quindlen called it “a very funny memoir of growing up confused, and a very smart consideration of what it means to be a woman.”
Her 2008 memoir, I'm Looking Through You, is about growing up in a haunted house. While trans issues form part of the exposition of the book, the primary focus of I'm Looking Through You is on what it means to be "haunted," and how we all seek to find peace with our various ghosts, both the supernatural and the all-too-human.
Jenny has been a frequent guest on a number of national television and radio programs, including three visits to the Oprah Winfrey Show. She has also appeared on the Larry King Show, The Today Show and been the subject of a documentary on CBS News’ 48 Hours. She has also appeared on a wide range of local and syndicated television shows, as well as NPR's Marketplace and the Diane Rehm show. In 2007 she played herself on two episodes of ABC's "All My Children." She has spoken widely around the country on gender and imagination, at venues including the National Press Club in Washington, D.C. and the New Jersey State Theatre. She has given plenary and keynote speeches at conferences on diversity and scholarship around the country, and at colleges and universities including Amherst, Wesleyan, Dartmouth, Columbia, Vanderbilt, Duke, Bucknell, Dickinson, Bates, Ohio State, Middlebury, Gettysburg, Georgia State, the University of Puget Sound, and Westminster College in Salt Lake City. She has spoken at law firms, at corporate events, and at bookstores from Seattle to Vermont.
Her nonfiction has appeared on the op/ed pages of the New York Times, in GQ magazine, Allure, and Glamour. She is also an ongoing contributor to Conde Nast Traveler magazine; her most recent work there was on Easter Island, published in the January 2007 issue.
Boylan's first book, a collection of stories entitled Remind Me To Murder You Later, was published by Johns Hopkins University Press in 1988. Her first novel, The Planets, was published in 1991 by Poseidon Press. (Simon and Schuster). Loosely based upon the classical piece of music by Gustav Holst, The Planets followed the lives of several fictional characters in the real town of Centralia, Pennsylvania, which has been afflicted by an underground coal fire since the early 1960s.
Her second novel, The Constellations follows the lives of several of the characters from The Planets, some of whom flee from angry cows, discover a latex brain, and begin a life of dognapping.
Her 1997 novel, Getting In, published by Warner Books, focused on four high school students who go on quests to get into college. The novel was optioned for film by Renny Harlin and Geena Davis, and Jenny was tapped to write the initial screenplay for New Line Cinema.
Born in 1958 in Valley Forge, Boylan
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February 19, 2008
way back in 1994, when jennifer finney boylan was still james finney boylan, i found myself in freshman english with this amazing, fun, empathetic, creative professor. he was inspiring in his energy even for us, the lowest of the low - the students who were not aspiring english majors, the students who were taking EN115 because we had to. but man, what a great class jim lead. interestingly, the topic in our small (20 students) section was gender roles and archetypes of men and women. we read cosmopolitan and playboy, we watched the marilyn monroe film 'some like it hot.' we talked openly about relationships and life and marriage and i clearly remember jim's reply to my immature statement about marriage - that it's just a piece of paper, why does it have to mean everything? if you're in love and together, why do you need to get married? his reply: i hear you, i thought that way too, once upon a time, but i think you'll feel differently when you're older. and i even got to see jim's home life up close when i babysat for him one cold, dark night. i soaked in the photos in his house, loved the home he and his wife had created, and was a little envious of how neatly wrapped up his life seemed to be.
and then, about a year after graduation, came the flurry of emails: "did you hear james finney boylan is having a sex change?" "did you hear?" "did you hear?" so much fuss over something that shouldn't be earth-shattering, but remember we were students at a small, private, liberal arts college in maine. where it was voted - my senior year in 1997 - to legally descriminate against people for being gay. i mean, oh my god. what was jim thinking? what was he feeling? how were his boys and wife handling this life overhaul?
this book gives you some idea of what it was like for jim to become jennifer, for him to break the news to his friends, his bandmates, his family. although i would love to know more about how jennifer feels with her female anatomy, i am also content knowing she's taken care of herself, set herself free, and has maintained a loving relationship with her children and ex-wife. i know life doesn't always work out the way we might have anticipated or hoped for, but that doesn't mean it takes a wrong turn - just an unexpected one full of life, people, adventures, laughter and love.
and then, about a year after graduation, came the flurry of emails: "did you hear james finney boylan is having a sex change?" "did you hear?" "did you hear?" so much fuss over something that shouldn't be earth-shattering, but remember we were students at a small, private, liberal arts college in maine. where it was voted - my senior year in 1997 - to legally descriminate against people for being gay. i mean, oh my god. what was jim thinking? what was he feeling? how were his boys and wife handling this life overhaul?
this book gives you some idea of what it was like for jim to become jennifer, for him to break the news to his friends, his bandmates, his family. although i would love to know more about how jennifer feels with her female anatomy, i am also content knowing she's taken care of herself, set herself free, and has maintained a loving relationship with her children and ex-wife. i know life doesn't always work out the way we might have anticipated or hoped for, but that doesn't mean it takes a wrong turn - just an unexpected one full of life, people, adventures, laughter and love.
May 20, 2009
This is one of those books that I enjoyed so much that I can try to understand that some readers might not have liked it for legitimate reasons, but I don't really get it.
Jennifer's writing is brilliant, and she can capture the riotous absurdity of an event with amazing clarity and compassion. Apart from any aspects of her transsexuality, she's a great writing, and although I tend to avoid memoir, I would have read about her life and memories even if she'd had a conventional sexuality. The episode of her grandmother and aunt during the hurricane, and the night Orange comes over and then the drunken vet dressed as Santa turns up at his house -- all the reviewers who didn't like the writing, are you telling me those bits didn't have you falling out of your seat laughing? (And to Erin Walior, who write "I really didn't like the writer's style. I know she's not a writer, and that's obvious." Um, she is a writer. And she talks about it in the book -- did you actually read it?)
As for her story, I was profoundly moved and felt my self having that old revelation that I've had countless times before, but that we all should be reminded of constantly -- everyone is just trying to live their life. Everyone is "normal." Any lifestyle you can look at as "strange" or "deviant" is just a person doing the best they can to be who they are. Gay, straight, trans, illegal immigrant, everyone of our lives is just our lives. It isn't exotic, it isn't some freak-show to be stared at or even pitied, it's just life. I can't help but think a lot of people who were disappointed by this book wanted something more sensational, and were let down when it was just a woman leading her life.
I really wish people who gave books three stars or said they were disappointing would let on a bit more what that means, as I can't see not loving this book. But my responses to the more common complaints:
"She's self-absorbed." Um, its a memoir? Anyone who writes a memoir thinks that their life, or their thoughts about their life are interesting or important enough that strangers would want to read it, which is, by definition, self-absorbed. That said, I think Jenny is very patient and understanding with her friends and partner, and goes out of her way to let their doubts, concerns, and even anger show through in a compassionate, fair manner. We see how hard it is on her wife, and not in a way that makes her look judgmental or bigoted, just a woman who is confused about why she has to lose the man she loves. I particularly loved her inclusion of the e-mails between herself and Russo, as Russo perfectly encapsulates the confusion and doubt that many friends of transitioning individuals must feel, even as he is trying his hardest to love an support Jenny. And to Wistaria Clark, who was offended by Jenny's glib comment about the director of her movie dying -- um, dark humor? She wasn't being self-absorbed there, she was being funny.
"I wanted more of an insight into the trans experience." There is no "trans experience," there is only the individual, human experience. You can't read Wright and get the "black experience," or read Wolfe and get the "female" experience," or read Dan Savage and get the "gay experience." Boylan was writing about what she went through as a male-to-female trans individual -- if you want to understand "the experience," read a few more memoirs. I bet each one is different. Wistaria (again) complained "I feel like I have less of an understanding of what it is like to be transgendered. It gave me no insight into the issue. How did she know she was a woman born in a man's body? She just wakes up in the morning knowing she's a woman. Just like women do. Uh huh. So helpful." It might not be helpful, but its true. Can you explain to me how you knew you were a woman, and make it both interesting, meaningful, and helpful to me as a man? Probably not. Jenny's job as a writer isn't to help you understand "what its like to be transgendered," its to tell her story, which she did brilliantly.
I just hope that Boylan writes a follow up five years from now, as the book basically ends as her new life is beginning. Her relationship with Grace is, understandably, the most compelling and complex aspect of the book, and where the two of them go from here, and how their relationship evolves, would make a great book on its own.
Jennifer's writing is brilliant, and she can capture the riotous absurdity of an event with amazing clarity and compassion. Apart from any aspects of her transsexuality, she's a great writing, and although I tend to avoid memoir, I would have read about her life and memories even if she'd had a conventional sexuality. The episode of her grandmother and aunt during the hurricane, and the night Orange comes over and then the drunken vet dressed as Santa turns up at his house -- all the reviewers who didn't like the writing, are you telling me those bits didn't have you falling out of your seat laughing? (And to Erin Walior, who write "I really didn't like the writer's style. I know she's not a writer, and that's obvious." Um, she is a writer. And she talks about it in the book -- did you actually read it?)
As for her story, I was profoundly moved and felt my self having that old revelation that I've had countless times before, but that we all should be reminded of constantly -- everyone is just trying to live their life. Everyone is "normal." Any lifestyle you can look at as "strange" or "deviant" is just a person doing the best they can to be who they are. Gay, straight, trans, illegal immigrant, everyone of our lives is just our lives. It isn't exotic, it isn't some freak-show to be stared at or even pitied, it's just life. I can't help but think a lot of people who were disappointed by this book wanted something more sensational, and were let down when it was just a woman leading her life.
I really wish people who gave books three stars or said they were disappointing would let on a bit more what that means, as I can't see not loving this book. But my responses to the more common complaints:
"She's self-absorbed." Um, its a memoir? Anyone who writes a memoir thinks that their life, or their thoughts about their life are interesting or important enough that strangers would want to read it, which is, by definition, self-absorbed. That said, I think Jenny is very patient and understanding with her friends and partner, and goes out of her way to let their doubts, concerns, and even anger show through in a compassionate, fair manner. We see how hard it is on her wife, and not in a way that makes her look judgmental or bigoted, just a woman who is confused about why she has to lose the man she loves. I particularly loved her inclusion of the e-mails between herself and Russo, as Russo perfectly encapsulates the confusion and doubt that many friends of transitioning individuals must feel, even as he is trying his hardest to love an support Jenny. And to Wistaria Clark, who was offended by Jenny's glib comment about the director of her movie dying -- um, dark humor? She wasn't being self-absorbed there, she was being funny.
"I wanted more of an insight into the trans experience." There is no "trans experience," there is only the individual, human experience. You can't read Wright and get the "black experience," or read Wolfe and get the "female" experience," or read Dan Savage and get the "gay experience." Boylan was writing about what she went through as a male-to-female trans individual -- if you want to understand "the experience," read a few more memoirs. I bet each one is different. Wistaria (again) complained "I feel like I have less of an understanding of what it is like to be transgendered. It gave me no insight into the issue. How did she know she was a woman born in a man's body? She just wakes up in the morning knowing she's a woman. Just like women do. Uh huh. So helpful." It might not be helpful, but its true. Can you explain to me how you knew you were a woman, and make it both interesting, meaningful, and helpful to me as a man? Probably not. Jenny's job as a writer isn't to help you understand "what its like to be transgendered," its to tell her story, which she did brilliantly.
I just hope that Boylan writes a follow up five years from now, as the book basically ends as her new life is beginning. Her relationship with Grace is, understandably, the most compelling and complex aspect of the book, and where the two of them go from here, and how their relationship evolves, would make a great book on its own.
May 24, 2016
To be honest, this is not a book that I would ever have considered reading had it not been assigned for our June selection in my real person book club. The person who chose it is a psychologist who wanted some insight into the subject of transsexuals and their feelings. It is also very timely because this book club is in NC, and we all know about the "bathroom issue" that NC has created. I make the drive several times a year because our book club has been together for 25 years.
This is the story of a woman born into a male body and her struggle for many years to overcome her feelings and fit in. As a man, she fell in love with a woman, got married and had 2 children. She was an English professor at Colby College in Maine, co-chair of the English department, an author, a part time musician, financially solvent; in short, she had a very good life.....as a man. But she had a tortured inner life, because every morning she woke up in the wrong body. Finally, in her early 40's, she admitted to her wife that she wanted to transition. This is the story of Jenny's life from childhood, through her sex change experience, and after.
What really put this memoir across the top for me was the involvement of Richard Russo. He is one of my favorite novelists, and, it turns out, Jenny's best friend. Back when Jenny was Jim, they shared an office at Colby College and through their shared sense of humor, they formed a close bond. Russo had a huge part in this story, from his shock at learning Jim's secret, trying to accept it, and being there during the hormone therapy and the surgery. He wrote a 5 chapter afterward, illuminating his feelings in trying to come to grips with the whole scenario. That was one of the best parts of the book for me.
I can't say that after reading the book I can understand the feelings of transsexuals any better than I did before, but I can certainly better understand the difficulties they, and their families, face. This memoir was written with great insight and humor.
This is the story of a woman born into a male body and her struggle for many years to overcome her feelings and fit in. As a man, she fell in love with a woman, got married and had 2 children. She was an English professor at Colby College in Maine, co-chair of the English department, an author, a part time musician, financially solvent; in short, she had a very good life.....as a man. But she had a tortured inner life, because every morning she woke up in the wrong body. Finally, in her early 40's, she admitted to her wife that she wanted to transition. This is the story of Jenny's life from childhood, through her sex change experience, and after.
What really put this memoir across the top for me was the involvement of Richard Russo. He is one of my favorite novelists, and, it turns out, Jenny's best friend. Back when Jenny was Jim, they shared an office at Colby College and through their shared sense of humor, they formed a close bond. Russo had a huge part in this story, from his shock at learning Jim's secret, trying to accept it, and being there during the hormone therapy and the surgery. He wrote a 5 chapter afterward, illuminating his feelings in trying to come to grips with the whole scenario. That was one of the best parts of the book for me.
I can't say that after reading the book I can understand the feelings of transsexuals any better than I did before, but I can certainly better understand the difficulties they, and their families, face. This memoir was written with great insight and humor.
July 6, 2010
There were a few things I loved about Jennifer Finney Boylan's memoir "She's Not There" - mostly the insights into the differences between male and female.
But when I finished, I felt like SOMETHING definitely wasn't there.
I wanted more from the memoir.
I wanted to know why Boylan always identified with women, even though she was born male - the deep psychological reasons. Was her father not home enough? Not loving enough? Did she have an especially close relationship with her mother? Was there some kind of traumatic experience? Or did she always feel that way?
I wanted to know how she dealt with those feelings as a child. How did they manifest? How did other kids react? How did Boylan-the-little-boy cope? The memoir seems to jump from Boylan being a 4-year-old boy to a 10-year-old to an 11th grader.
I wanted to know why Boylan felt she had to become a woman. Sure, she tried living as a manly man and it never felt quite right. But why couldn't she just try not hiding that aspect of her personality and living as a man with a lot of feminine traits? Why didn't she try taking drugs to help her feel more masculine when she was a man? Or did she - and maybe not tell us about it?
I wanted to know about the surgery. How much did it cost? Had she been saving up for it? Or did it create a financial strain for her family? (Boylan is a college professor and her wife is a social worker. I can't imagine that they're rolling in dough.) And if it created a financial strain, how did the family cope?
In that aspect - Boylan's transition and surgery - the book seemed too unreal. Her kids took it well. Her wife, while upset, took it reasonably well. There was no yelling and screaming recorded in the memoir. It seemed like money wasn't really a problem. It just seemed too easy.
And how does Boylan feel now that she's a woman? Good, presumably. Is there anything she misses about being a man? Does she find it easier or harder being a woman? If she could undo it, would she? Or would she go through her transition and GRS sooner? Or would she do everything the same?
And...
Would it have killed Boylan to provide some lyrics to the oft-mentioned song "She's Not There" so that we readers could understand why it's significant??
And...
Why is it that Boylan's friend, Richard Russo, provides the most meaningful insight in the book in his afterword?
"She is not merely Grace, she is his grace - that gift from God that can never be earned, but must be rather freely and gratefully accepted."
Why didn't Russo just write this book for Boylan?
But when I finished, I felt like SOMETHING definitely wasn't there.
I wanted more from the memoir.
I wanted to know why Boylan always identified with women, even though she was born male - the deep psychological reasons. Was her father not home enough? Not loving enough? Did she have an especially close relationship with her mother? Was there some kind of traumatic experience? Or did she always feel that way?
I wanted to know how she dealt with those feelings as a child. How did they manifest? How did other kids react? How did Boylan-the-little-boy cope? The memoir seems to jump from Boylan being a 4-year-old boy to a 10-year-old to an 11th grader.
I wanted to know why Boylan felt she had to become a woman. Sure, she tried living as a manly man and it never felt quite right. But why couldn't she just try not hiding that aspect of her personality and living as a man with a lot of feminine traits? Why didn't she try taking drugs to help her feel more masculine when she was a man? Or did she - and maybe not tell us about it?
I wanted to know about the surgery. How much did it cost? Had she been saving up for it? Or did it create a financial strain for her family? (Boylan is a college professor and her wife is a social worker. I can't imagine that they're rolling in dough.) And if it created a financial strain, how did the family cope?
In that aspect - Boylan's transition and surgery - the book seemed too unreal. Her kids took it well. Her wife, while upset, took it reasonably well. There was no yelling and screaming recorded in the memoir. It seemed like money wasn't really a problem. It just seemed too easy.
And how does Boylan feel now that she's a woman? Good, presumably. Is there anything she misses about being a man? Does she find it easier or harder being a woman? If she could undo it, would she? Or would she go through her transition and GRS sooner? Or would she do everything the same?
And...
Would it have killed Boylan to provide some lyrics to the oft-mentioned song "She's Not There" so that we readers could understand why it's significant??
And...
Why is it that Boylan's friend, Richard Russo, provides the most meaningful insight in the book in his afterword?
"She is not merely Grace, she is his grace - that gift from God that can never be earned, but must be rather freely and gratefully accepted."
Why didn't Russo just write this book for Boylan?
December 9, 2016
I loved this book. In those first disturbing post-election days, it was very difficult for me to find a book that didn’t feel either totally trivial or wrist-slittingly bleak, but She’s Not There fit the bill. A significant work in the canon of trans literature, this memoir leavens its own importance with a very healthy dose of upbeat humor. And the writing is just great—I hadn’t realized the author was a novelist and creative writing professor, and I definitely wasn’t expecting the skilled, engaging writing that’s on ample display here. I learned a lot and was exceedingly grateful for Boylan’s willingness to bare her soul for the benefit of all of us. Also, Richard Russo’s surprisingly large role in She’s Not There added a substantial amount of literary intrigue for me. All in all, an immensely satisfying reading experience.
December 5, 2019
Memoirs are hard to get right: too much honesty and everyone will come away hating you, too littleand everyone comes away hating you and thinking you're a phony. Then too, many people who have had interesting lives aren't able to articulate them very well. Then you can read a couple of hundred pages and still never have a clue what the author is like. And those who are good at turning their personal history into charming anecdotes are rarely also good at placing their narrative into a bigger context. Every single bit of it is hard: there are just so many places to screw it up.
Boylan does not screw it up. She gives the reader enough to feel engaged on an emotional level, all the while she's making one laugh and cry and laugh and sigh and laugh. I had no problem at all believing that she's the most popular professor at her college. She's funny as hell in a quiet sort of way, not at all like a string of jokes cobbled together. And then wham, right in the feels.
What I think it is, is this: Boylan is brilliant at capturing the concrete detail, and the detail is so much more evocative and visceral than emoting would be. There's no cataloging of emotional states, instead there are things that happen, or that noticeably fail to happen. There are weird relatives, and stupid kid stuff (from both the parent and child angles). I like the visit to the beach and the creepy aspects of an old house.
A good book by a writer who is new-to-me gives me a list of titles to look forward to reading. Not only do I want to read everything else Boylan has written, but I want to read everything Richard Russo has written, too.
Library copy.
Boylan does not screw it up. She gives the reader enough to feel engaged on an emotional level, all the while she's making one laugh and cry and laugh and sigh and laugh. I had no problem at all believing that she's the most popular professor at her college. She's funny as hell in a quiet sort of way, not at all like a string of jokes cobbled together. And then wham, right in the feels.
What I think it is, is this: Boylan is brilliant at capturing the concrete detail, and the detail is so much more evocative and visceral than emoting would be. There's no cataloging of emotional states, instead there are things that happen, or that noticeably fail to happen. There are weird relatives, and stupid kid stuff (from both the parent and child angles). I like the visit to the beach and the creepy aspects of an old house.
A good book by a writer who is new-to-me gives me a list of titles to look forward to reading. Not only do I want to read everything else Boylan has written, but I want to read everything Richard Russo has written, too.
Library copy.
May 12, 2019
This is definitely an interesting book: the memoir of a transgender woman who made the transition in her early 40s, after marrying a woman who had no idea of her gender issues, having two kids, and building a career as an English professor in rural Maine. It seems to be pretty heavily fictionalized, which makes for entertaining reading, with lots of dialogue and some moments of comedy.
But for all that this is a memoir about the author’s personal journey, I found her emotions understated and inner world underexplored, and couldn’t help wondering if this book was published too soon – hitting the bookstores just over six months after the conclusion of its final chapter, and only a year after the author’s surgery. Once you factor in the time for editing, printing, marketing, the whole publishing process, she would barely have had time to process her feelings and experiences before writing about them for public consumption. So it’s no wonder she often felt a bit inaccessible to me.
I did enjoy reading this; Boylan can certainly tell a good story, and some of the self-contained chapters about colorful characters she meets along the way (the hitchhiking girls looking for a pit bull, the dysfunctional vending machine lover from the support group) are gold. I also enjoyed her portrayal of her relationship with Richard Russo, who struggles mightily with having his best friend suddenly turn into a woman – it’s rare to see a portrayal of adults actively engaging in and working on their friendship in this way, or even having friends important enough to them to make the effort. There’s a lot of raw emotion in these sections that must have taken courage on both their parts to put out for the world to see.
But while I can see the benefit of this book in increasing acceptance of transgender folks, I felt in a way that I understood what it means to be transgender less well after reading it – I didn’t really get from Boylan’s writing why gender was so important to her, what parts of herself she felt she couldn’t express as a man. What does being a woman mean to her? It would have been nice also to read more about the differences between being a man and being a woman: where she talks about this it’s all pretty obvious stuff (as a woman she feels more physically vulnerable, and clothes shopping is way harder). Was there anything she disliked about being a man, other than the fact that it didn’t match her sense of identity? Any unexpected advantages to being a woman? Did she actually start cooking more post-transition, or was it just mentioned more often? Did household roles change at all?
And then there’s her relationship with her wife, about whom Boylan writes a lot. “Grace” (not her real name) is blindsided by the whole transgender thing, and understandably heartbroken – whether they divorce or not, she’s losing her husband.
The other thing that troubled me about the book is the level of fictionalization. In her note at the end, the author admits that “certain moments in it have been gently altered – by compressing or inverting the time line, making various people taller or shorter, blithely skipping over unpleasantness, inventing dialogue, as necessary.” Particularly notable to me, after having read Tim Kreider’s essay about accompanying Boylan to her surgery, was the fact that nowhere in either of the accounts of that trip in this book was he ever mentioned, an omission that makes the journey seem lonelier and more intimate than it apparently was in real life. How many other friends were also present and unmentioned, and how many other changes did the author make?
At any rate, I did find this a worthwhile read, but of the books I’ve read about transgender issues so far, I think Becoming Nicole might be the better choice for readers on the outside looking for greater understanding.
But for all that this is a memoir about the author’s personal journey, I found her emotions understated and inner world underexplored, and couldn’t help wondering if this book was published too soon – hitting the bookstores just over six months after the conclusion of its final chapter, and only a year after the author’s surgery. Once you factor in the time for editing, printing, marketing, the whole publishing process, she would barely have had time to process her feelings and experiences before writing about them for public consumption. So it’s no wonder she often felt a bit inaccessible to me.
I did enjoy reading this; Boylan can certainly tell a good story, and some of the self-contained chapters about colorful characters she meets along the way (the hitchhiking girls looking for a pit bull, the dysfunctional vending machine lover from the support group) are gold. I also enjoyed her portrayal of her relationship with Richard Russo, who struggles mightily with having his best friend suddenly turn into a woman – it’s rare to see a portrayal of adults actively engaging in and working on their friendship in this way, or even having friends important enough to them to make the effort. There’s a lot of raw emotion in these sections that must have taken courage on both their parts to put out for the world to see.
But while I can see the benefit of this book in increasing acceptance of transgender folks, I felt in a way that I understood what it means to be transgender less well after reading it – I didn’t really get from Boylan’s writing why gender was so important to her, what parts of herself she felt she couldn’t express as a man. What does being a woman mean to her? It would have been nice also to read more about the differences between being a man and being a woman: where she talks about this it’s all pretty obvious stuff (as a woman she feels more physically vulnerable, and clothes shopping is way harder). Was there anything she disliked about being a man, other than the fact that it didn’t match her sense of identity? Any unexpected advantages to being a woman? Did she actually start cooking more post-transition, or was it just mentioned more often? Did household roles change at all?
And then there’s her relationship with her wife, about whom Boylan writes a lot. “Grace” (not her real name) is blindsided by the whole transgender thing, and understandably heartbroken – whether they divorce or not, she’s losing her husband.
The other thing that troubled me about the book is the level of fictionalization. In her note at the end, the author admits that “certain moments in it have been gently altered – by compressing or inverting the time line, making various people taller or shorter, blithely skipping over unpleasantness, inventing dialogue, as necessary.” Particularly notable to me, after having read Tim Kreider’s essay about accompanying Boylan to her surgery, was the fact that nowhere in either of the accounts of that trip in this book was he ever mentioned, an omission that makes the journey seem lonelier and more intimate than it apparently was in real life. How many other friends were also present and unmentioned, and how many other changes did the author make?
At any rate, I did find this a worthwhile read, but of the books I’ve read about transgender issues so far, I think Becoming Nicole might be the better choice for readers on the outside looking for greater understanding.
July 9, 2023
This was a book club pick, but I also wanted to read it for research on one of my characters, Commander Ambrose. It was fascinating, insightful, touching, and courageous, considering the time period. I really enjoyed it.
July 7, 2008
I finished the book - it was a quick read.
1 - It's very well written - the author is an English professor in an East Coast college...
2 - It takes courage for a transsexual to make the transition.
3 - It takes courage for the wife of a transsexual to watch her spouse make the transition.
4 - I am SO glad I never had to deal with this dilemma
5 - I wonder what it takes to live with the knowledge you are not what you seem. Courage, fortitude, integrity.
6 - I wonder how many others in this world live with this daily and do not have the abovementioned characteristics to see through to the change and transformation.
1 - It's very well written - the author is an English professor in an East Coast college...
2 - It takes courage for a transsexual to make the transition.
3 - It takes courage for the wife of a transsexual to watch her spouse make the transition.
4 - I am SO glad I never had to deal with this dilemma
5 - I wonder what it takes to live with the knowledge you are not what you seem. Courage, fortitude, integrity.
6 - I wonder how many others in this world live with this daily and do not have the abovementioned characteristics to see through to the change and transformation.
April 29, 2018
I took a couple classes with Jenny and one with James, so I'm a little prejudiced. But, I loved it despite my inclination to love it already. I think the struggle to come to terms with something you already know but don't want to face is beautifully portrayed here. She talks about how she needs to be selfish in this decision, but at the same time, it tears her apart that she is breaking the hearts of those around her. All in all, it is a hopeful story and I really enjoyed it.
May 20, 2007
This book blew me away. I couldn't put it down, and was alternating between laughter and tears the whole time. Boylan presents such a compelling and captivating exploration of what it means to be a woman through beautiful writing and a very open presenatation of her own life. It's been a long time since I read a memoir this good. The book made me think about myself, my thoughts about love, and my celebration of being female. I recommend it for everyone.
I don't think that Boylan's story tries to be the catch-all transsexual story. I think that many of us could use a broader understanding of the trans experience, and the opportunity this book provides to laugh, to reflect, and to thoroughly enjoy is altogether powerful and wonderful.
I don't think that Boylan's story tries to be the catch-all transsexual story. I think that many of us could use a broader understanding of the trans experience, and the opportunity this book provides to laugh, to reflect, and to thoroughly enjoy is altogether powerful and wonderful.
June 22, 2007
Poorly chosen title, terrible cover concept (why cut a woman in half?!)... but the book is well written and should educate a lot of people about trans issues. I myself was a bit surprised about the author's naivete when she was first transitioning--clearly, while living as a straight man, she had never met trans people or even gay or lesbian or bi people who were out. Quite a sheltered existence, considering she was a sophisticated college prof at Colby. So her story is probably more important, then, because she didn't have a supportive trans or glbt community to stand by her as she faced the challenges of coming out, transitioning, and dealing with negative reactions from family and friends. She's no Leslie Feinberg or Kate Bornstein, but her memoir has something important to say to the mainstream of American society nonetheless.
November 15, 2024
Obligatory 5-star rating for being a pivotal moment in me realizing I'm trans 💕
April 29, 2015
It is a memoir written by a transsexual. James Boylan is a husband and father of two. He is a published author and a college professor. But for his whole life, he felt like something was wrong – that he had been born in the wrong body. This is the tale of him slowly coming to grips with having to make a sex change. He goes through a lot of therapy. It's about how he comes out to his wife, best friend, and children, and how they dealt with it. He starts dressing like a woman, and taking hormones. It talks about his surgery. It is a well-written book, and the subject material is very interesting. You can see pictures of Boylan as a male, and later, as a female in this book. Now a woman, Jenny Boylan is still a professor at the college. At the end of the book, she is still married to Grace, her wife, but she leaves a kind of ambiguity to it. After she started changing, wearing skirts and growing breasts, her wife didn't want to have sex with her anymore. They are now more like sisters, they say. But her wife, Grace, doesn't want to break up the family. It would be interesting to know what happened after this book was published. Grace deals very well to James transitioning to Jenny. She doesn't leave, or ask for a divorce, but you can tell she's crushed. She's lost her husband, and she's lost the man she married. It's very sad. While Jenny is free, liberated, and finally happy, Grace is faced with nothing but terrible choices. A very intimate and informative portrait of transsexual life. A good read for someone who has a loved one who is making the Change.
This entire review has been hidden because of spoilers.
September 22, 2019
"Jesi li homoseksualac ili lezbijka, pitanje je seksualnog usmjerenja. Transrodnost je pitanje identiteta.
Sigurno [transrodnost] nije ni 'stil života', uostalom, ništa više nego što je stil života biti muško ili žensko. Kad zamišljam osobu koja ima 'stil života', onda vidim nekakvog plejboja, milijunaša koji se zove Chip i voli naganjati jahte po otočju Bimini ili računovođu koji preko vikenda navlači srednjovjekovni oklop.
Transrodnost nije takva. Rod je mnogo toga, ali sasvim sigurno nije hobi. Nisi žensko jer je to pametno ili postmodernistički, ili zato što si razočaran i rastrojen narcisoid.
Na kraju krajeva, više nego išta drugo - to je činjenica. A dvojba o transseksualnosti je činjenica koju nije moguće razumjeti ako ne upotrijebiš maštu.
Kad sam odrastao i postao žena, ljudi su me često pitali, kako si znala dok si bila dijete? Kako je bilo moguće da tako dirljivo nepokolebljivo vjeruješ u nešto što na prvi pogled djeluje glupo? To bi me pitanje uvijek zbunilo, bilo mi je teško zamisliti kako bi to izgledalo da ne znam kojeg sam roda. Meni je bilo posve očito da je to nešto što se intuitivno zna, ne na temelju onoga što ti je između nogu, nego zbog onog što osjećaš u srcu. Sjeti se, kad si se jutros probudila - govorila sam svojim prijateljicama - znala si da si žensko. Tako sam se osjećala i ja. Tako sam znala."
"Granica između muškog i ženskog, čini se, vrlo je tanka. Iako spol zamišljamo kao nešto čvrsto i određeno, zapravo je nepostojan kao kula od pijeska."
Fantastična knjiga.
Za razumijevanje transrodnosti i transrodnih osoba, must read.
April 7, 2013
One of the challenges of writing a memoir is that you must have an interesting story. The pitch for She’s Not There, the hook, was transgender transformation. It begins with James Boylan’s adolescence, his romantic forays, his life as a bachelor, a married man and father all the way up to the decision to physically become a woman. There are a lot of anecdotes, sarcastic comments and reflections. In the end, the book does very little to unravel the mystery of gender reassignment. In fact, I still don’t understand why Jennifer Boylan thinks she’s inherently female.
In the beginning of the book the author states there is a difference between female and femininity. Near the end of the book she reiterates that statement. No where in the 300 pages does she explain what this means. Instead whenever James Boylan unveils his female persona, he correlates it with a skirt and a bra. Surely a preference for high heels is not a reason to believe you are female. Specific female traits that come to mind are fastidiousness, nesting, worry, sensitivity to others, fussing, mothering, heavy use of the words ‘should’ and ‘shouldn’t’, particularity and multi-tasking. These aren’t evident in the book. Instead, while dabbling around the topic of gender identity, the author writes about her musical gigs, her travels, her academic achievements, the pseudo famous people she meets and her wit…she has to tell you she’s funny.
The author does admit to some traditional masculine preferences like beer swigg’n and swear’n but points out these are not exclusively male (I agree) and therefore don’t disqualify her from being female. For me a disqualifier would be the road trip to Nova Scotia. Pitching a tent alone in the wilderness to reflect is not something women do.
I didn’t intend to read this book with the idea of ‘confronting’ Jennifer Boylan’s decision to be female. In fact I feel quite arrogant doing so. Having never met Mrs. Boylan, I was left with a book that tries hard to be amusing instead of insightful and occasionally found myself, and shamefully so, wondering if Mrs. Boylan’s decision to change sex was spurred on by a need for attention. Ridiculous, I know. The transition must have been unimaginatively hard. But then, after the fact, she didn't exactly choose a life of obscurity.
I wish nothing but happiness for Jennifer Boylan. I hope she experiences profound peace with her decision. But the topic of gender reassignment requires a depth that She’s Not There did not have and unfortunately I found the rest of the book tedious and boring.
In the beginning of the book the author states there is a difference between female and femininity. Near the end of the book she reiterates that statement. No where in the 300 pages does she explain what this means. Instead whenever James Boylan unveils his female persona, he correlates it with a skirt and a bra. Surely a preference for high heels is not a reason to believe you are female. Specific female traits that come to mind are fastidiousness, nesting, worry, sensitivity to others, fussing, mothering, heavy use of the words ‘should’ and ‘shouldn’t’, particularity and multi-tasking. These aren’t evident in the book. Instead, while dabbling around the topic of gender identity, the author writes about her musical gigs, her travels, her academic achievements, the pseudo famous people she meets and her wit…she has to tell you she’s funny.
The author does admit to some traditional masculine preferences like beer swigg’n and swear’n but points out these are not exclusively male (I agree) and therefore don’t disqualify her from being female. For me a disqualifier would be the road trip to Nova Scotia. Pitching a tent alone in the wilderness to reflect is not something women do.
I didn’t intend to read this book with the idea of ‘confronting’ Jennifer Boylan’s decision to be female. In fact I feel quite arrogant doing so. Having never met Mrs. Boylan, I was left with a book that tries hard to be amusing instead of insightful and occasionally found myself, and shamefully so, wondering if Mrs. Boylan’s decision to change sex was spurred on by a need for attention. Ridiculous, I know. The transition must have been unimaginatively hard. But then, after the fact, she didn't exactly choose a life of obscurity.
I wish nothing but happiness for Jennifer Boylan. I hope she experiences profound peace with her decision. But the topic of gender reassignment requires a depth that She’s Not There did not have and unfortunately I found the rest of the book tedious and boring.
September 21, 2009
I was really excited to have this chance to read this book for my Intro. to Women' and Gender Studies class because my father recommended it to me. I really enjoyed the book, but not in the ways that I expected to. I also have to say that I think that memoirs are hard books to review, because they are about personal experiences and there's so many different things that one can take away from a memoir.
I went into this book thinking that I would learn more about what it means to be transsexual and what someone who is transsexual and undergoes a sex change endures. Although I did learn about that some while reading this book, I found myself very touched by the stories of the individuals surrounding the author. I kept thinking of her spouse, namely of how difficult it would be to be in her place and how I think I would feel in that circumstance.
I felt that this book was well written, although there were a few parts near the end where the way the narrative was executed was slightly awkward. Boylan had me laughing out loud many times in the first half of the book. However, she had me wanting to cry at a few points. I definitely value a book that can have both of these effects on me. I also have to say that I think the afterward by Richard Russo adds so much to the end of the book. I really wasn't sure about it until I had read all the way through it, but I found it quite honest and emotional.
As an avid reader, I thought this book was an excellent starter to learning more about individual experiences with transexuality.
I went into this book thinking that I would learn more about what it means to be transsexual and what someone who is transsexual and undergoes a sex change endures. Although I did learn about that some while reading this book, I found myself very touched by the stories of the individuals surrounding the author. I kept thinking of her spouse, namely of how difficult it would be to be in her place and how I think I would feel in that circumstance.
I felt that this book was well written, although there were a few parts near the end where the way the narrative was executed was slightly awkward. Boylan had me laughing out loud many times in the first half of the book. However, she had me wanting to cry at a few points. I definitely value a book that can have both of these effects on me. I also have to say that I think the afterward by Richard Russo adds so much to the end of the book. I really wasn't sure about it until I had read all the way through it, but I found it quite honest and emotional.
As an avid reader, I thought this book was an excellent starter to learning more about individual experiences with transexuality.
February 4, 2013
there was part of me (the part that studied american studies at a liberal arts school and used the word "intersectionality" in over a dozen papers) that was critical of and disappointed in this book. jenny never acknowledges the way her transition experience was shaped by her class and race privilege. her expensive surgeries and cushy job in colby college's english department hugely shaped her experience, yet jenny seems to have no awareness or interest in exploring these things.
that said, i came to love her through reading her story. she's immensely likable, earnest almost to a fault, and clearly loves the people in her life deeply. learning about her relationship with her wife grace was my favorite part of this book. richard russo refers to it as "a great love story", and that's exactly what it felt like. it's not a traditional one, or even always a happy one, but their compassion for each other and commitment to the life they'd built together was heart wrenching. i also always enjoy reading about the friendships between writers, and the russo-boylan tale was no exception. their support for each other's work is eclipsed only by their support for each other's lives. previously, i've never thought much about reading a russo novel, but jenny made him seem so full of heart and humor that i've added him to my life list.
that said, i came to love her through reading her story. she's immensely likable, earnest almost to a fault, and clearly loves the people in her life deeply. learning about her relationship with her wife grace was my favorite part of this book. richard russo refers to it as "a great love story", and that's exactly what it felt like. it's not a traditional one, or even always a happy one, but their compassion for each other and commitment to the life they'd built together was heart wrenching. i also always enjoy reading about the friendships between writers, and the russo-boylan tale was no exception. their support for each other's work is eclipsed only by their support for each other's lives. previously, i've never thought much about reading a russo novel, but jenny made him seem so full of heart and humor that i've added him to my life list.
February 5, 2019
**Be sure to read the 2013 edition, which includes afterwords by both Jenny and her wife Grace.**
I started this book on a whim during a particularly boring desk hour and quickly checked out the physical book and ebook and (a few weeks later) the audio. It's a memoir about one trans woman's experience growing up, coming out, and transitioning in her 40s, but it's also a memoir about love and loss and healing and hope and what it's like to carry around an enormous secret for forty years. I found myself returning to it every chance that I got. It taught me a lot about gender and existence and relationships and grace, but it also taught me about good memoir: how to write it and the tone and tenor that it takes. At one point in the narrative Jenny writes, "If you've made it this far, it's quite possible that you feel that the top of your head is about to blow off." I'd say that's pretty accurate, and that's exactly what made it so damn good. It's very rarely that I come across a book that makes me wrestle so thoroughly with my notions of "how it is" in the world while simultaneously kindling tremendous emotion in my heart. Overall, an absolutely gorgeous memoir that I'll be pressing into many people's hands. 5/5 stars.
I started this book on a whim during a particularly boring desk hour and quickly checked out the physical book and ebook and (a few weeks later) the audio. It's a memoir about one trans woman's experience growing up, coming out, and transitioning in her 40s, but it's also a memoir about love and loss and healing and hope and what it's like to carry around an enormous secret for forty years. I found myself returning to it every chance that I got. It taught me a lot about gender and existence and relationships and grace, but it also taught me about good memoir: how to write it and the tone and tenor that it takes. At one point in the narrative Jenny writes, "If you've made it this far, it's quite possible that you feel that the top of your head is about to blow off." I'd say that's pretty accurate, and that's exactly what made it so damn good. It's very rarely that I come across a book that makes me wrestle so thoroughly with my notions of "how it is" in the world while simultaneously kindling tremendous emotion in my heart. Overall, an absolutely gorgeous memoir that I'll be pressing into many people's hands. 5/5 stars.
July 4, 2023
Originally published in 2003, this book is a fascinating time capsule! To the modern ear, a lot of the language of identity politics that Boylan uses is clunky, even offensive, which seems like a nice testament to the progress we’ve made as a society in the past 2 decades. Still, it was hard to read about her experiences of being constantly deadnamed, intimidated, or otherwise completely misunderstood by close friends. Jenny seems to take it all in stride, which to me really hammered home what an awful experience our trans elders faced. Additionally, I thought one of the strongest aspects of the book was the depiction of Jennifer’s relationship with her wife. I thought she did a great job depicting how heart-wrenching her transition was (while also the obvious and only thing to do). Overall, really appreciated this insight into what transitioning was like in the late nineties and early 2000s!
May 30, 2008
What a wonderful and startlingly honest book this is! The world is not an easy place for the transgendered, especially during transition: jobs are lost, relationships strained or broken, even strangers can be cruel. All because someone wants to be physically what they are emotionally, psychologically and spiritually. Finney takes you through every painful step of the process--and shows you some of eventual joys. This book is about love and self respect above all else, being true to yourself no matter what the world has to say about it at the time. It's brave and resonating and should be read by everyone.
February 3, 2023
I decided to read this memoir after reading Mad Honey by Jodi Picoult and Jennifer Finney Boylan. If you have any interest in this memoir I would highly recommend listening to the audio version. I don’t know if the author’s sense of humor would shine as much in print. Her delivery definitely added to my enjoyment of the book.
This memoir is just one transgender person’s experience and Jennifer has handled it with humor, patience and a tremendous amount of understanding. She is very candid about how her transition affected her marriage, family and friendships.
I would highly recommend this memoir. It is brave, honest, hilarious and enlightening.
This memoir is just one transgender person’s experience and Jennifer has handled it with humor, patience and a tremendous amount of understanding. She is very candid about how her transition affected her marriage, family and friendships.
I would highly recommend this memoir. It is brave, honest, hilarious and enlightening.
February 2, 2019
Wonderful story of M to F transition that's both amusingly engaging and deeply emotional. Husband, father, and professor fulfills destiny to become female. What amazing bravery! I was especially fascinated by the difficult process her wife went through, losing her husband without losing love. SO interesting.
Clearly a case of don't judge a book by its cover (who signed off on that?). Or title. I still don't get it.
Clearly a case of don't judge a book by its cover (who signed off on that?). Or title. I still don't get it.
November 19, 2012
I really wanted to love this book but I just really well didn't. It reads so badly and is hard to follow making my mind wander and just hard to get through at all. One minute you are in a scene, the next Boylan jumps a few years ahead or back and I am left wondering how we got from this point to this one. Then she goes back again. Very confusing and frustrating read.
January 27, 2014
This book sucked! I could only manage to read 1/3 of it before giving up.
July 17, 2023
“Being gay or lesbian is about sexual orientation. Being transgendered is about identity.” Exploring that identity is very well spelled out in this memoir. It was written 20 years ago, but it is even more important now, to gain understanding in the current era of hate, intolerance and oppression. I’m still wondering why anyone is bothered by these transitions - live and let live however one feels most comfortable.
Both the parents did an excellent job of telling their young kids about the changes that would be coming. This is exactly the information that Ron DeSantis wants kept from the children in Florida. Why? If it’s not locked in a dark closet, but is allowed to breath in the sunshine, maybe there would be no stigma attached to the transgendered. If kids learn these things early without drama it’s probably no big deal to them. Banning books only creates more confusion.
I’ll continue later - everything I just wrote blinked off HELP
Both the parents did an excellent job of telling their young kids about the changes that would be coming. This is exactly the information that Ron DeSantis wants kept from the children in Florida. Why? If it’s not locked in a dark closet, but is allowed to breath in the sunshine, maybe there would be no stigma attached to the transgendered. If kids learn these things early without drama it’s probably no big deal to them. Banning books only creates more confusion.
I’ll continue later - everything I just wrote blinked off HELP
April 7, 2025
This is a very interesting exploration of a journey to find herself while trapped in a male body. As often happens in this type of bio, there are many scenes that attempt to describe her feelings and the impact on those around her. These are elegant and evocative, but they lack the level of detail to help explain to someone who doesn't get it (like me). Direct interactions that explain what it feels like to be trapped in the wrong body are missing. All we know is that s/he always preferred wearing dresses.
Still, the writing beautiful and lyrical, and the ending is mostly happy. The updates and afterwards reinforce the truth of the events, and confirm the author's presentation. I'm happy that everyone is content.
I'm glad I read this, but it didn't help me understand.
Still, the writing beautiful and lyrical, and the ending is mostly happy. The updates and afterwards reinforce the truth of the events, and confirm the author's presentation. I'm happy that everyone is content.
I'm glad I read this, but it didn't help me understand.
June 25, 2021
I didn't expect this to be such a funny, quick read.
October 22, 2012
This is the safe, sterile, accessible book you'd hand to people you're not comfortable recommending Feinberg or Coyote to, and what stunned me is that the conclusion, written by Richard Russo, felt more personal and open, especially since his is a perspective that gets a bit of a slant to it halfway through.
I think this safe business is in part because large chunks of this book are explanations that someone with no experience with trans* issues requires (word-for-word dialogue of conversations with doctors and the hormone-surgery gatekeeping process, for instance), or may require, and so it starts to feel textbook introduction-y. I also think it's in part because issues that could be delved into aren't; they're not outright avoided, but given more of a glossing over (women are treated like shit and there's more to feminism and femininity than painting your finger nails! is about it) that keeps the book... well, safe. Sterile. Accessible. The general feeling I got was that this book is not for any community of trans people--and maybe that makes sense, because Boylan's community is not of trans* people, at least now how it's presented in these pages.
Some of the writing also felt clunky and pressed, which stands out in stark relief to Russo's conclusion. I dunno; it's not bad. It's not mindblowing. It's human and there are portions of it which are effectively moving, and others that drag it down and back. I think any sense of community is REALLY what's missing from it, too, but I'm going to have to mull that one over before I try to put it into words.
I've seen reviews knock this book because Boylan has such a (relatively) easy transition process, too, but I don't feel it's fair to judge her life based on that, either.
I think this safe business is in part because large chunks of this book are explanations that someone with no experience with trans* issues requires (word-for-word dialogue of conversations with doctors and the hormone-surgery gatekeeping process, for instance), or may require, and so it starts to feel textbook introduction-y. I also think it's in part because issues that could be delved into aren't; they're not outright avoided, but given more of a glossing over (women are treated like shit and there's more to feminism and femininity than painting your finger nails! is about it) that keeps the book... well, safe. Sterile. Accessible. The general feeling I got was that this book is not for any community of trans people--and maybe that makes sense, because Boylan's community is not of trans* people, at least now how it's presented in these pages.
Some of the writing also felt clunky and pressed, which stands out in stark relief to Russo's conclusion. I dunno; it's not bad. It's not mindblowing. It's human and there are portions of it which are effectively moving, and others that drag it down and back. I think any sense of community is REALLY what's missing from it, too, but I'm going to have to mull that one over before I try to put it into words.
I've seen reviews knock this book because Boylan has such a (relatively) easy transition process, too, but I don't feel it's fair to judge her life based on that, either.
February 14, 2019
I went in expecting a kind of typical trans memoir (given that this one is now something of a classic) and yeah, there's definitely some of that, because Boylan's life matches up fairly neatly with a lot of narratives about trans people. She's very reflective, though, and very self-aware of how it might read to other people. (Sometimes it felt a little name-drop-y, but I would say generally not enough to be annoying.)
My least favorite part of this book was the time spent on her wife's struggle, which is interesting given the opposite reaction most (I'll just GUESS cis people's) reactions that Boylan notes in the afterword. I will say I deeply appreciated her wife's note at the very end, because I think it cleared up a lot for me re: that being a moment in her life that was hard but not impossible. Obviously this is colored by the fact that I am a trans person who has done a social transition, and have also had to hear how people around me were so good for accepting me, etc., so if you're trans and that narrative of how good it is the people who loved us before we came out are just for continuing to love us, wait until the end because I do think her wife does a solid job of brushing that aside.
My FAVORITE part, though, is how funny Boylan is in this. Trans people are funny, and I loved seeing her little jokes about transition because they felt so genuinely trans in a way that is to me distinctly different from cis humor. Those little moments--and they are little, though I wouldn't say the book is overall like dark or whatever--were like a breath of fresh air, and I'm really glad.
My least favorite part of this book was the time spent on her wife's struggle, which is interesting given the opposite reaction most (I'll just GUESS cis people's) reactions that Boylan notes in the afterword. I will say I deeply appreciated her wife's note at the very end, because I think it cleared up a lot for me re: that being a moment in her life that was hard but not impossible. Obviously this is colored by the fact that I am a trans person who has done a social transition, and have also had to hear how people around me were so good for accepting me, etc., so if you're trans and that narrative of how good it is the people who loved us before we came out are just for continuing to love us, wait until the end because I do think her wife does a solid job of brushing that aside.
My FAVORITE part, though, is how funny Boylan is in this. Trans people are funny, and I loved seeing her little jokes about transition because they felt so genuinely trans in a way that is to me distinctly different from cis humor. Those little moments--and they are little, though I wouldn't say the book is overall like dark or whatever--were like a breath of fresh air, and I'm really glad.
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