I can’t believe what we are doing. Corbin and I hide our love for each other from everyone. Mainly because he’s my brother’s best friend and we don’t want anyone mad, it’s hard to hang around Corbin when we are around my brother, I have to pretend that nothing is going on between us. I don’t want to keep pretending. I get my wish shortly after my brother Steven heads to Maine for a job that he’s been wanting, a job that he hadn’t told me about first, instead he had told my mother and I can’t say that I’m pleased about that. Shortly after he leaves though is when I know that sooner or later everyone is going to find out about mine and Corbin’s love affair because it’s too late now to go back and change the past, I’m not even sure that I want to. It’s just going to be hard to tell them, even with Corbin by my side. I don’t want to tell them but the turn of events that are taking place keeping Corbin a hidden lover is no longer an option. I guess it’s better than sneaking him in and out of my room when we want to see each other when we want to show each other how much we miss each other. The only time we get to do that is when it’s late and everyone is sleeping. I have to sneak him in, and I don’t like that. I guess that saying “everything happens for a reason” is going to take place, but it’s better than not having my family find out at all. I don’t know how I managed to have Corbin as my hidden lover all I know is that I couldn’t have picked a different person. The heart wants what it wants even if it’s your brother’s best friend! I fear that’s the only thing that’s keeping me from telling everyone until I have another secret that must come out!