At the beginning of the novel we learn that cop Alexander has fallen for Kellan, a bookstore owner and former teacher with a traumatic past (We also learn the source of Kellan’s trauma). We learn that in the half a decade since Alexander and Kellan met, Alexander has ignored Kellan’s repeated insistences that he doesn’t want a romantic or physical relationship because Alexander knows better. After all that time trying to push friendship into more, Alexander gets his chance because Kellan’s former student/assailant/stalker is released from prison and coming for him. This is the main action of the novel. There's lots of drama, lots of emotion, lots of action, and many declarations of love.
For me, there’s something deeply squicky about a romance based on such long period of one partner blatantly ignoring the other’s explicitly stated wishes— wearing someone down to give into you reads to me as more toxic than romantic, even if you’re sure that they really want it too. The fact that Alexander does this to Kellan, who has already experienced the worst possible incarnation of someone ignoring his stated desires and bodily autonomy, feels gross, even as the writer takes pains to assure us that this is different because Kellan really does want Alexander. Similarly, the way Kellan’s employee/friend basically tells him to stop resisting Alexander because ‘everyone has trauma, get over it, get laid’ is remarkably tone deaf.
To the author’s credit, the book is well edited and the pacing works well for the storyline. There’s a good balance between plot and steam. Overall, it just wasn’t for me.
I received a free copy of this book via Booksprout and am voluntarily leaving a review.