I've been unable to settle on a rating for this book since I finished it yesterday. While I did enjoy things about it that make me want to give it 3/4 stars, there were things I didn't like about the story, characters, and especially the writing style, that make me want to demote it to 2 stars... Thus, I've settled on a 3 (maybe). Not the worst, not the best. There are spoilers after this next paragraph.
The main thing I struggled with is the writing style, and let me tell you, I struggled. I love having the world and its characters drawn beautifully for me with elaborate descriptors, but I don't love them being repeatedly rammed down my throat throughout the entire book. If I'm told once that a character has black hair, blue eyes, and sexy lips, I don't need to hear it 40 more times within this short of a book. Seriously, we really do get that Nehelon has "sensual lips" 🥴. I'm probably damned to think of this damn book anytime I see those two words paired together within the foreseeable future. Also, he is super handsome and his eyes are apparently "diamond blue" (what does that even mean). Can someone give this author a thesaurus so she can at least pick some different adjectives? You have to slog through excessive descriptors in every paragraph. Instead of saying "She sat down", it had to be "She plopped heavily down into the ultra fluffy chair, puffed out a long and exhausted breath, and stared into his diamond-blue eyes inquisitively" (not from the book, just a bad example because I'm too lazy to find one). It made reading a chore and kept pulling me out of the story. It looks like some other reviewers felt the same, so I guess I'm not alone.
My other struggle was the thing between Nehelon (hundreds of years old) and Gandrett (only 17). I know not everyone shares this aversion, but I hate pairing a young, completely inexperienced character with a much older, very experienced one. She has never even left the priory since she was 7, and due to the rules, she's never even kissed someone. She is completely green while he is definitely not. It just felt creepy to me. Aside from that, I don't understanding why feelings are even budding between them. I love a good enemies-to-lovers/tsundere romance, but Nehelon is a dick and has done almost nothing to inspire fuzzy feelings in Gandrett. He's super attractive and is occasionally decent and overly protective towards her.... So? Why does she have any interest? Why not just lust? I was hoping she'd fall for Armand, who is a character with genuine and open interest in her, but no. If Nehelon had started cold and gradually warmed up to her, feelings developing as it went, I would have found it believable, but his extreme back and forth was so aggravating. One moment he's a huge asshole, the next he's worried about her, then he's emotionless, then he's pining for her. If this "male" is so old, why is he behaving like a teenage boy......? I'm reading book 2 now and it's still happening. I'm just waiting for the cliche mate-bond thing to come up to explain his nonsensical feelings towards her.
Now can we talk about some of the ridiculous, unbelievable story elements?
The Brenheran family hires a Child of Vala, who has unparalleled fighting skills, to seduce a noble's son in order to facilitate the escape of their own kidnapped son.......... What? The Childred of Vala are basically warrior monks/nuns or templars, but you hired one to seduce someone...? Why couldn't they have found some noble female that Armand didn't know of, someone who actually had the social skills to integrate into a court setting, instead? I don't understand why they needed a fighter. The Denderlain castle is filled with guards, and Armand is a skilled fighter himself, so it's not like one girl is going to fight her way out of there. Please, make it make sense. Also, could someone tell me what the deal was with that stupid fight scene between Linniue, Gandrett, and Armand? Why did they allow her to continue chanting instead of just knocking her out immediately? The guard was already taken care of, so that made zero sense to me.
Also, a small nit-pick. I thought the sudden appearance of Gandrett's magic was a little silly. I've read dozens of books with this same trope handled better, where they had little things happen as time went on to hint at their magic developing. With Gandrett, there was nothing, then she suddenly has magic one day. I told myself it was tied to extreme emotions, that she's been coerced and trained into suppressing hers since she was a child, and now she's experiencing these sudden strong feelings due to her friends being in danger, but I still just didn't love it.
Honestly, after typing out the things I really didn't like, I'm having trouble recalling what I enjoyed.
I guess I did like Gandrett at times, though I felt she was weirdly capricious and didn't always conform to her originally outlined character traits, but I still liked her enough. I also liked Armand, Addie, Brax, McKenzie...just most of the supporting characters, apparently. As for Nehelon, I never liked him and really still don't, but please change my mind. 🤷🏻♀️
I think the thing about Shygon and its worshippers could be interesting, and I assume it will eventually result in dragons appearing. I wonder if Addie or Gandrett will be a descendant of the Dragon King, because we know fantasy stories love an ultra rare and shiny protagonist. I know I do. Give me Richard Rahl, Aelin Galathynius, Rand al'Thor, Favrielle Lothaire.
Overall, I'll keep reading this series because I have a thing where I hate not finishing one after I've started it, but I'm keeping my fingers crossed that I start liking it more than I dislike it. Also, I'm changing my rating to 2 stars because my list of dislikes hugely outweighs my very few likes. I don't even know if I'll be able to get through the next book, much less the rest of the series...unless Nehelon is killed off - I'd read for that alone.
TLDR: Writing style is overly descriptive and a chore to slog through, and the "romance" leaves much to be desired, but the story has the potential to be interesting as it develops.