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Fawned
If “50 Shades of Grey” and “Dear Evan Hansen” got together to watch Bambi, you would have “Fawned” - an enDEERing romance about two lonely college students experimenting with petplay for the first time. Barnaby Hirsch isn't one to put himself out there - he's shy and, admittedly, awkward - but desperate times call for desperate measures. When he signs up for a dating app, the last person he expects to match with is the campus' gay playboy, Gil Connolly. It should have been a one-night stand, but it’s one night Barnaby can’t forget. It’s the closest he’s ever felt to someone, the closest he’s ever felt to belonging. Gil wants someone to belong to him. He has a collar, and he wants someone to wear it. Barnaby has a deer onesie, and he’s starting to think, maybe, the two might look good together. **Content includes situations involving self-harm, suicidal ideation, implied suicide attempt, and light consensual feederism**
401 pages, Kindle Edition
Published October 21, 2020
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2 books26 followersWinter Pior is an Aries, artist, and first-time author of the novel, Fawned. He lives in New Jersey and has no pets, animal or otherwise.
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May 12, 2023(Transparency: This review was commissioned by the author, however this does not at all affect my rating)
I discuss this book here: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WUx-N...
Fawned is the story of two college age guys in a coming-of-age season of both their lives, who meet and immediately strike up a sexual relationship. Barnaby is a first timer, and I appreciated that they had an on page conversation surrounding the fact that he didn't know what to do, or at least how to have sex safely, because of the failure of sex ed in US school systems.
In general I really appreciated the raw honesty this book had surrounding topics like: sex, anxiety, depression, fatness, suicidal thoughts, self harm, being friends with people who aren't healthy for you, and codependency. It really and truly succeeded in that regard and I am glad it exists so I can recommend it to those who need to read books that have conversations on those topics.
There were also just really cute moments of romance between the two main characters that I thought were adorable.
This book is not your typical romance where the two characters meet, slowly grow feelings, and eventually have sex. The first 50% is mostly just them having sex. And then later having those deeper conversations and doing self-exploration and figuring out what their relationship is beyond just the physical component. But I do prefer getting to know my characters sooner in a book, and for that reason I didn't love this as much as I could have if I had been able to cultivate an understanding of who these characters were sooner. But I acknowledge that that is subjective to me, and other readers may feel differently.
This book IS erotica, for sure, and while it's not my "thing", I am very glad it exists for others out there who don't typically get to see things they're into represented. There is pet play and feeder kink represented here, and this is the first time I have come across that in a book. Some of the feeder kink scenes made me a little wary, because Barnaby would be full and Gil would want him to continue eating. But I don't know much about feeder kink, maybe that's normal.
I give this 3.5, and I think there are people who are going to love this book. I can even think of a couple I'll recommend it to!
March 22, 2021
This was another long and painfull read for me, unfortunately. It started well enough actually. I really thought this would end up a 4 stars but... yeaahh... nan.
Barnaby and Gils relationship is soooo unhealthy!! At the start of the relationship it's quite cute! Gils tenderness and understanding towards Barnaby is sweet and what you dream of in a first partner.
Things move along and i start thinking ; wow, there is A LOT of sex scenes. I mean, don't get me wrong, i like sex scenes just as much as the next person, but when 90% of a book consists of it, yeah, not good. So as the sex and the relationship progresses you see the start of something a little twisted. Sure, they love their animal/master things, what ever, kind of a turn off for me, but i guess that's just personnal preferences. But then, you see Gil trying to have Bernaby eat more and more even though he says he is full, just so he can then rub his belly?? WTF? That is soooo messed up!
And then we delve into the ; i'm a crazy and suicidal person, you can't be with me, but yeah, maybe you could anyway. And then the book ends and that's it...
Yeaaaah... Bernaby, a word of advice my man ; get out of it before it's too late!
On that, i'm off to something way better, hopefully!!
Barnaby and Gils relationship is soooo unhealthy!! At the start of the relationship it's quite cute! Gils tenderness and understanding towards Barnaby is sweet and what you dream of in a first partner.
Things move along and i start thinking ; wow, there is A LOT of sex scenes. I mean, don't get me wrong, i like sex scenes just as much as the next person, but when 90% of a book consists of it, yeah, not good. So as the sex and the relationship progresses you see the start of something a little twisted. Sure, they love their animal/master things, what ever, kind of a turn off for me, but i guess that's just personnal preferences. But then, you see Gil trying to have Bernaby eat more and more even though he says he is full, just so he can then rub his belly?? WTF? That is soooo messed up!
And then we delve into the ; i'm a crazy and suicidal person, you can't be with me, but yeah, maybe you could anyway. And then the book ends and that's it...
Yeaaaah... Bernaby, a word of advice my man ; get out of it before it's too late!
On that, i'm off to something way better, hopefully!!
January 8, 2021
Wow, I’m so happy I had the opportunity to read this book!! What a great build-up, beautifully developed, and with an amazing couple.
Four hundred pages and I wanted another four hundred added, I couldn’t get enough of this story.
When shy Barnaby gets involved with Gil it’s everything he ever wanted, to belong, to be seen
and oh my goodness Gil sees and adores every voluptuous, curvaceous part of Barnaby.
Barnaby thinks he’s too fat and unlovable, he’s conscious about himself. But Gil says the right thing, does the right thing, and is the thing for Barnaby. Only Gil doesn’t do relationships.
Barnaby is content with even the smallest he can get until his feelings get in the way and he yearns and longs for more.
Dang bang I loved it all, the BDSM, the pet play, the way Gil demands Barnaby around and worships him was very satisfying.
When Barnaby understands the cause of Gil’s resistance he emerges as a supportive partner.
Both Barnaby and Gil were well displayed. There is a lot of hurt comfort.
Gil as dominant and Barnaby as a natural submissive was well done. The sexual awakening of Barnaby was delicious, the exposed vulnerability of Gil was emotional.
With every great story, I would have loved some continuation, certainly after the L-word, but that’s me.
Sweet story, at the same time heartbreaking.
Four hundred pages and I wanted another four hundred added, I couldn’t get enough of this story.
When shy Barnaby gets involved with Gil it’s everything he ever wanted, to belong, to be seen
and oh my goodness Gil sees and adores every voluptuous, curvaceous part of Barnaby.
Barnaby thinks he’s too fat and unlovable, he’s conscious about himself. But Gil says the right thing, does the right thing, and is the thing for Barnaby. Only Gil doesn’t do relationships.
Barnaby is content with even the smallest he can get until his feelings get in the way and he yearns and longs for more.
Dang bang I loved it all, the BDSM, the pet play, the way Gil demands Barnaby around and worships him was very satisfying.
When Barnaby understands the cause of Gil’s resistance he emerges as a supportive partner.
Both Barnaby and Gil were well displayed. There is a lot of hurt comfort.
Gil as dominant and Barnaby as a natural submissive was well done. The sexual awakening of Barnaby was delicious, the exposed vulnerability of Gil was emotional.
With every great story, I would have loved some continuation, certainly after the L-word, but that’s me.
Sweet story, at the same time heartbreaking.
January 30, 2021
This book is not available on Kindle Unlimited, so I bought it on the recommendation of two authors and the strength of the blurb, and now I'm left thinking, "What?!?" The writing in this book is not good. The author is in DESPERATE need of an editor and/or a style guide. The point of view shifts between third person omniscient and third person limited for no good reason, and it's confusing AF. The use of names and pronouns is also inconsistent and I had no idea who was being referred to half the time (the boy, the man, the raven, the blond, MA gawd just use their freaking names!). Random words are capitalized for no reason and the formatting is awful. An author's job is to communicate the story clearly. The reader should not have to work to decipher the message. The story is also, IMO, incomplete in that I'm not even sure it ends in a HFN. Quite frankly, this is the most poorly written book I have read in a while. Save your money, it is not worth it.
November 4, 2022
Tags: petplay, deer, kink, virgin MC, mental health, read the CWs
I’m a bit torn on how to rate this book.
The beginning was really promising - the pet play was adorable, and I really liked the interaction between the MCs.
The ending just felt a bit chaotic - I couldn’t quite tell what was going on or where they were, and there was a lot of information about what they were doing that just wasn’t that interesting.
The feederism kink isn’t really for me, but what was included in this story didn’t really bother me. I really liked how hot Gil found Barnaby’s body (described as chunky).
One of the MCs is autistic. I didn’t read anything that felt too terribly stereotypical but can’t speak to how well done the rep is personally.
I’m a bit torn on how to rate this book.
The beginning was really promising - the pet play was adorable, and I really liked the interaction between the MCs.
The ending just felt a bit chaotic - I couldn’t quite tell what was going on or where they were, and there was a lot of information about what they were doing that just wasn’t that interesting.
The feederism kink isn’t really for me, but what was included in this story didn’t really bother me. I really liked how hot Gil found Barnaby’s body (described as chunky).
One of the MCs is autistic. I didn’t read anything that felt too terribly stereotypical but can’t speak to how well done the rep is personally.
January 11, 2021
I am so, so happy that I had a chance to read this amazing book! It was everything, I loved from the first page to the last. I just couldn't put it down and enjoyed every minute of it.
The cover art is really great and it's just perfect for this book. Barnaby, the virgin, shy and fat gay boy - loved him! His character was so well written. And Gil, the playboy who likes to play dirty and is sex positive. I loved Gil too, and he was such a surprise. His soul was so beautiful and I was glad that neither boy were boring and flat characters, they both had depth in them and they both suffered from different kind of mental illesses. They were imperfectly perfect for each other, and I loved every minute of their relaionship.
The pet play - deer play - OMG so, so good! Gil was such a great Master and Barnaby was so adorable in his deer persona. It was so well written. Emotional in every aspect of the story.
My favorite thing aside from the pet play, the fact that Gil LOVED that Barnaby was fat, and those scenes when he fed him, wow, I need more like that!
It was a really emotional and romantic book.
Highly recommend it! New favorite!
The cover art is really great and it's just perfect for this book. Barnaby, the virgin, shy and fat gay boy - loved him! His character was so well written. And Gil, the playboy who likes to play dirty and is sex positive. I loved Gil too, and he was such a surprise. His soul was so beautiful and I was glad that neither boy were boring and flat characters, they both had depth in them and they both suffered from different kind of mental illesses. They were imperfectly perfect for each other, and I loved every minute of their relaionship.
The pet play - deer play - OMG so, so good! Gil was such a great Master and Barnaby was so adorable in his deer persona. It was so well written. Emotional in every aspect of the story.
My favorite thing aside from the pet play, the fact that Gil LOVED that Barnaby was fat, and those scenes when he fed him, wow, I need more like that!
It was a really emotional and romantic book.
Highly recommend it! New favorite!
December 4, 2024
3.75
Well, this was a delightful, kinky gem. I've had this book on my radar for ages: I'm so glad I gave it a go.
"Fawned" was the perfect balance between kink and romance, light-hearted steam and angst. I managed to devour this chunky book in two days, I literally could not stop reading!
Both protagonists were wonderful, multi-layered and complex and lovable, and while I had a couple of issues with the pacing and the writing at times, I found both Gil and Barnaby so so so fabulous and relatable. It's so rare that I find myself in both characters of a romance (a kinky, new-adult, one at that!), but I found Gil and Barnaby's struggles so relatable and close to my own experience. Mental health struggles are no joke, and I so wish more authors would be brave enough to include them n their romances.
Emotional angst aside, I loved the kinky aspects of their relationship: this was my first pet play book, I believe? And while I don't think I'm too eager to look for more, I still loved how it was portrayed! I also absolutely adored how their romance developed, and I even adored the third-act break-up and all the angst it entailed. It was necessary for both MCs, and while I still wanted to kick Gil's ass for being an idiot, I adored how they managed to overcome it, how Gil let himself be in love for once (also, yep, highly relatable *imaginary high five*)
I had a few issues with the pacing (yep, the middle bit became a smidge repetitive and I started skimming a few chapters!) and the writing could have probably been more polished, but all in all I was very satisfied. The one thing that kind of bothered me the most was Seth, and the fact that his and Barnaby's (very toxic) friendship is kinda left unresolved: I spent most of the book despising Seth, and I really would have loved to see a resolution or for Gil to kick his ass for being a terrible friend. Raul, Diana, Savannah... they all had less of a chapter each, and they still managed to be so much better friends to Barnaby than Seth. UGH.
Anyway, those issues aside, I really enjoyed "Fawned". It was highly entertaining, a fun and emotional ride of a book.
TWs/CWs: suicide ideation, suicide attempts (past), self-harm (past), toxic friendship, ableism, depression, anxiety, self-loathing (because of body image) and fat-shaming (self-directed).
Well, this was a delightful, kinky gem. I've had this book on my radar for ages: I'm so glad I gave it a go.
"Fawned" was the perfect balance between kink and romance, light-hearted steam and angst. I managed to devour this chunky book in two days, I literally could not stop reading!
Both protagonists were wonderful, multi-layered and complex and lovable, and while I had a couple of issues with the pacing and the writing at times, I found both Gil and Barnaby so so so fabulous and relatable. It's so rare that I find myself in both characters of a romance (a kinky, new-adult, one at that!), but I found Gil and Barnaby's struggles so relatable and close to my own experience. Mental health struggles are no joke, and I so wish more authors would be brave enough to include them n their romances.
Emotional angst aside, I loved the kinky aspects of their relationship: this was my first pet play book, I believe? And while I don't think I'm too eager to look for more, I still loved how it was portrayed! I also absolutely adored how their romance developed, and I even adored the third-act break-up and all the angst it entailed. It was necessary for both MCs, and while I still wanted to kick Gil's ass for being an idiot, I adored how they managed to overcome it, how Gil let himself be in love for once (also, yep, highly relatable *imaginary high five*)
I had a few issues with the pacing (yep, the middle bit became a smidge repetitive and I started skimming a few chapters!) and the writing could have probably been more polished, but all in all I was very satisfied. The one thing that kind of bothered me the most was Seth, and the fact that his and Barnaby's (very toxic) friendship is kinda left unresolved: I spent most of the book despising Seth, and I really would have loved to see a resolution or for Gil to kick his ass for being a terrible friend. Raul, Diana, Savannah... they all had less of a chapter each, and they still managed to be so much better friends to Barnaby than Seth. UGH.
Anyway, those issues aside, I really enjoyed "Fawned". It was highly entertaining, a fun and emotional ride of a book.
TWs/CWs: suicide ideation, suicide attempts (past), self-harm (past), toxic friendship, ableism, depression, anxiety, self-loathing (because of body image) and fat-shaming (self-directed).
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November 3, 2022DNF @30%
I'm very bored and not connecting to either the MCs or the writing.
Something in the bok felt off to me... and I can't put my finger on it.
I'm very bored and not connecting to either the MCs or the writing.
Something in the bok felt off to me... and I can't put my finger on it.
January 21, 2021
A Joyfully Jay review.
3.5 stars
For the most part this is a cute story with a lot of kinky sex involving toys, collars, and pet play. But there are parts I didn’t quite feel like I understood, mostly due to the writing. When we’re in the chapters that focus on Barnaby’s point of view — which is most of the book — Barnaby refers Gil as “the man” or “the raven” and himself as “boy.” Perhaps because he sees Gil as older due to his experience? Or is this age play between the two of them, or just another facet of a master/pet situation that I’m not familiar with? Even Gil, in his somewhat scarcer sections, calls Barnaby “boy” and himself as “the man,” — or rather, the author does. It’s awkward and distancing, keeping Gil forever just out of reach for me as a reader. It was hard to get a feel for him as a person when even the author put him an arm’s length away through their writing.
Read Elizabeth’s review in its entirety here.
3.5 stars
For the most part this is a cute story with a lot of kinky sex involving toys, collars, and pet play. But there are parts I didn’t quite feel like I understood, mostly due to the writing. When we’re in the chapters that focus on Barnaby’s point of view — which is most of the book — Barnaby refers Gil as “the man” or “the raven” and himself as “boy.” Perhaps because he sees Gil as older due to his experience? Or is this age play between the two of them, or just another facet of a master/pet situation that I’m not familiar with? Even Gil, in his somewhat scarcer sections, calls Barnaby “boy” and himself as “the man,” — or rather, the author does. It’s awkward and distancing, keeping Gil forever just out of reach for me as a reader. It was hard to get a feel for him as a person when even the author put him an arm’s length away through their writing.
Read Elizabeth’s review in its entirety here.
January 13, 2021
This m/m romance contains themes of depression, self-harm, and anxiety while tackling serious issues of dependency and low self-esteem, but there's also a deer kink and some puns thrown in? So yeah, I fu**ing love this book.
I usually avoid books with trigger warnings of depression/self-harm/suicide, but the description of Fifty Shades of Grey meets Dear Even Hanson made me have to try it, and I'm so glad I did. This book is ridiculous, and I mean that in the best way. Barnaby is super anxious, overweight, and autistic, and apparently has an extreme deer kink. And all of those things are authentically portrayed? How? But just don't question anything and keep reading.
Gil is my angsty emo boy and I love him and his giant....equipment.... which Barnaby also loves. I love Gil and Barnaby together. They are dorks, and ridiculous, and it works? That mall date was the best thing ever and so romantic, but so was the shopping trip to the pet store to buy Barnaby a giant pet bed...so he can be a deer....and then Gil wants to overfeed Barnaby so he gains even more weight, but again, I just kept reading, and fully accepted all of this.
I honestly don't know if this was just a "picked it up at the right time" kinda read, but I was super into it. They talked really honestly, and didn't beat around the bush, they just talked and communicated and it was sexy and awesome. It was mature and insightful and I was so impressed and a little moved, and then Barnaby made deer noises and wanted to always wear his collar. So yeah, 5/5 stars, a little confused, but that's okay.
I usually avoid books with trigger warnings of depression/self-harm/suicide, but the description of Fifty Shades of Grey meets Dear Even Hanson made me have to try it, and I'm so glad I did. This book is ridiculous, and I mean that in the best way. Barnaby is super anxious, overweight, and autistic, and apparently has an extreme deer kink. And all of those things are authentically portrayed? How? But just don't question anything and keep reading.
Gil is my angsty emo boy and I love him and his giant....equipment.... which Barnaby also loves. I love Gil and Barnaby together. They are dorks, and ridiculous, and it works? That mall date was the best thing ever and so romantic, but so was the shopping trip to the pet store to buy Barnaby a giant pet bed...so he can be a deer....and then Gil wants to overfeed Barnaby so he gains even more weight, but again, I just kept reading, and fully accepted all of this.
I honestly don't know if this was just a "picked it up at the right time" kinda read, but I was super into it. They talked really honestly, and didn't beat around the bush, they just talked and communicated and it was sexy and awesome. It was mature and insightful and I was so impressed and a little moved, and then Barnaby made deer noises and wanted to always wear his collar. So yeah, 5/5 stars, a little confused, but that's okay.
July 8, 2021
Not what I was expecting
Barnaby and Gill are a bit of a mismatched pair at first glance but as the story unfolds they have more in common than you initially thought.
This is a slow burn in a way. The sex is immediate but the intimacy takes awhile to develop. This book is oddly laid out but stick with it. Is it weird the characters have multiple names? Yes. But the weirdness sort of works.
I’m all for body positivity BUT the over feeding Gill does reminded me of the movie “Seven” where he gets the guy to over eat. That creeped me out. In the end, it was a bit much. Also, the coat thing, I could have done without. It had a creepy factor to it as well. I know it was meant to be sweet but it had a bad vibe to me.
If you like a bit of an odd romance that’s not really a romance, this book is for you.
Barnaby and Gill are a bit of a mismatched pair at first glance but as the story unfolds they have more in common than you initially thought.
This is a slow burn in a way. The sex is immediate but the intimacy takes awhile to develop. This book is oddly laid out but stick with it. Is it weird the characters have multiple names? Yes. But the weirdness sort of works.
I’m all for body positivity BUT the over feeding Gill does reminded me of the movie “Seven” where he gets the guy to over eat. That creeped me out. In the end, it was a bit much. Also, the coat thing, I could have done without. It had a creepy factor to it as well. I know it was meant to be sweet but it had a bad vibe to me.
If you like a bit of an odd romance that’s not really a romance, this book is for you.
August 2, 2023
Fawny
Barnaby meets Gil through an online app. He has heard of him around campus. Barnaby's goal is to lose his v!rg!nity which he does. However, Gil and him have a connection one that makes Barnaby the perfect pet for Gil.
Not my usual type of read but it was interesting. I did think it was a bit too long. It could have ended when they got back together and wrapped up with an epilogue. The writing style was a little odd too. Sometimes the book was all over the place. In the end, I did end up liking parts of it and I'm glad it had a HFN ending.
Barnaby meets Gil through an online app. He has heard of him around campus. Barnaby's goal is to lose his v!rg!nity which he does. However, Gil and him have a connection one that makes Barnaby the perfect pet for Gil.
Not my usual type of read but it was interesting. I did think it was a bit too long. It could have ended when they got back together and wrapped up with an epilogue. The writing style was a little odd too. Sometimes the book was all over the place. In the end, I did end up liking parts of it and I'm glad it had a HFN ending.
January 19, 2021
Wow
I don’t know that I’ve ever written a review this long but I think this one deserves it.
First, this book is really long. It takes time to finish it. So know that going into it.
But it is worth every single minute. It is absolutely beautifully written. It took me through a whole range of emotions. I cried and laughed. I felt a level of empathy and compassion for the characters that is not easily achieved with most books. I am in awe of the writer’s skill and thoughtfulness to every element of the storyline.
(I would also like to mention that I typically do not buy books that are not available on KU. A gift card allowed me to branch out and this one was definitely worth the cost of admission.)
Please also note that the blurb does not do this book justice. I know that can be a challenge for many authors. I may not have even found this but for an author I love mentioning it. I adored the cover immediately - it is such a challenge to find a not thin MC that I know the drawn covers are commonly used. The cover is exquisite and drew me in where the blurb left me feeling less than excited.
It’s such a strange and glorious thing to find a book where one MC finds the other’s abundant curves to be worthy of worship. And this book definitely emphasizes that over and over again. The “fat is beautiful” theme is alive and well in this book, which is such a wonderful thing to find. It isn’t an “I accept him even though he’s overweight.” It is “I want to touch him because I love his body.” Any person who has struggled with their weight can appreciate how rare that is to find - especially in romance books.
The story tense is odd but totally, absolutely works in this story. It switches periodically (and often without warning) between the characters in a third-person narrative. The primary narrative remains with Barnaby, but Gil’s does pop up. I am not a huge fan of third person narrative and this sort of switching would normally drive me batty. It didn’t in this book. Every single element somehow worked impeccably well. (I say this to point out that something I normally wouldn’t like didn’t negatively impact the wonder of this book in any way.)
The couple does share a discovery of pet play, which is absolutely endeering. I loved that aspect of the story. It was a completely unique type of pet play, different from many others that I have read.
There are a load of kinks playing out this book. The evolving nature of the relationship and the characters themselves are definitely the key points to the story, but the kink adds a lovely side to the depth of the relationship.
As wonderful as this book was - and it was absolutely wonderful - there were numerous trigger warnings. For anyone who didn’t pay attention at the beginning of the book, I want to reiterate them here because they are significant.
There is a significant plot line involving past self harm and attempted / potential suicide. In addition, suicidal ideation is very common throughout the book. Both characters have some significant mental health issues and the author doesn’t shy away from showing how they affect their lives. I want every reader to make sure that they understand this and are ready for how that may affect the reader. It is so well done that you will feel it in your heart and soul, especially if you have struggled with these issues.
One other potential trigger warning - The book hits a bit on “feeding” as a kink the couple ventures into. I am never here to judge any action done between two consenting adults, but I feel it is well worth mentioning because that can really cause emotional issues for some folks. It is not a predominant theme in the story but it definitely caught me off guard when it arose. I would want other readers who venture into this because of the glory of the bigger MC to know this will come up to ease some of the shock. I feel strongly enough about it that I think it’s worth mentioning in case that’s a hard limit for anyone.
This may be the longest review anyone has ever done. I tried to say the things that typically make me less than thrilled to point out how much I LOVED THIS BOOK. Typically, these things would make me hesitant to suggest it to others. This book was so fantastic that I am still going to wholeheartedly suggest it to anyone who doesn’t have problems with the trigger warnings. I loved it so much. I look forward to more books by this author. The level of depth, character development, heart, and storytelling in this book kind of blew my mind. Absolutely brilliant.
I don’t know that I’ve ever written a review this long but I think this one deserves it.
First, this book is really long. It takes time to finish it. So know that going into it.
But it is worth every single minute. It is absolutely beautifully written. It took me through a whole range of emotions. I cried and laughed. I felt a level of empathy and compassion for the characters that is not easily achieved with most books. I am in awe of the writer’s skill and thoughtfulness to every element of the storyline.
(I would also like to mention that I typically do not buy books that are not available on KU. A gift card allowed me to branch out and this one was definitely worth the cost of admission.)
Please also note that the blurb does not do this book justice. I know that can be a challenge for many authors. I may not have even found this but for an author I love mentioning it. I adored the cover immediately - it is such a challenge to find a not thin MC that I know the drawn covers are commonly used. The cover is exquisite and drew me in where the blurb left me feeling less than excited.
It’s such a strange and glorious thing to find a book where one MC finds the other’s abundant curves to be worthy of worship. And this book definitely emphasizes that over and over again. The “fat is beautiful” theme is alive and well in this book, which is such a wonderful thing to find. It isn’t an “I accept him even though he’s overweight.” It is “I want to touch him because I love his body.” Any person who has struggled with their weight can appreciate how rare that is to find - especially in romance books.
The story tense is odd but totally, absolutely works in this story. It switches periodically (and often without warning) between the characters in a third-person narrative. The primary narrative remains with Barnaby, but Gil’s does pop up. I am not a huge fan of third person narrative and this sort of switching would normally drive me batty. It didn’t in this book. Every single element somehow worked impeccably well. (I say this to point out that something I normally wouldn’t like didn’t negatively impact the wonder of this book in any way.)
The couple does share a discovery of pet play, which is absolutely endeering. I loved that aspect of the story. It was a completely unique type of pet play, different from many others that I have read.
There are a load of kinks playing out this book. The evolving nature of the relationship and the characters themselves are definitely the key points to the story, but the kink adds a lovely side to the depth of the relationship.
As wonderful as this book was - and it was absolutely wonderful - there were numerous trigger warnings. For anyone who didn’t pay attention at the beginning of the book, I want to reiterate them here because they are significant.
There is a significant plot line involving past self harm and attempted / potential suicide. In addition, suicidal ideation is very common throughout the book. Both characters have some significant mental health issues and the author doesn’t shy away from showing how they affect their lives. I want every reader to make sure that they understand this and are ready for how that may affect the reader. It is so well done that you will feel it in your heart and soul, especially if you have struggled with these issues.
One other potential trigger warning - The book hits a bit on “feeding” as a kink the couple ventures into. I am never here to judge any action done between two consenting adults, but I feel it is well worth mentioning because that can really cause emotional issues for some folks. It is not a predominant theme in the story but it definitely caught me off guard when it arose. I would want other readers who venture into this because of the glory of the bigger MC to know this will come up to ease some of the shock. I feel strongly enough about it that I think it’s worth mentioning in case that’s a hard limit for anyone.
This may be the longest review anyone has ever done. I tried to say the things that typically make me less than thrilled to point out how much I LOVED THIS BOOK. Typically, these things would make me hesitant to suggest it to others. This book was so fantastic that I am still going to wholeheartedly suggest it to anyone who doesn’t have problems with the trigger warnings. I loved it so much. I look forward to more books by this author. The level of depth, character development, heart, and storytelling in this book kind of blew my mind. Absolutely brilliant.
January 31, 2024
THIS WAS SO FREAKING CUTE.
first of all, let's take a minute to appreciate this amazing cover, it's so beautiful & cute.
so, this is a kinky book, of course it's not for everyone so check the trigger warnings.
the characters though, to me they were so real.
they had real life problems & struggles & they were relatable in general.
i love gil with my whole heart but i can not NOT say the same about barney.
(i have to mention that as a fellow english major i connected with gil on another level)
together they were perfection.
they were trying to be better together for each other.
their story was both heartwarming & heartbreaking at the same time, but i'm so so happy they got the happy ending they deserved.
i would have liked at least a few more pages maybe? i mean IT ENDED AT 'I LOVE YOU'?? that was cruel dear author.
i had trouble with seth's character. at first i just thought he's a bad friend, but he isn't? it's just the way he is? i don't know, but at times he was cruel. plus i got the impression that he might like barney? like romantically.
i did like addison & imani and raul though! they were amazing.
first of all, let's take a minute to appreciate this amazing cover, it's so beautiful & cute.
so, this is a kinky book, of course it's not for everyone so check the trigger warnings.
the characters though, to me they were so real.
they had real life problems & struggles & they were relatable in general.
i love gil with my whole heart but i can not NOT say the same about barney.
(i have to mention that as a fellow english major i connected with gil on another level)
together they were perfection.
they were trying to be better together for each other.
their story was both heartwarming & heartbreaking at the same time, but i'm so so happy they got the happy ending they deserved.
i would have liked at least a few more pages maybe? i mean IT ENDED AT 'I LOVE YOU'?? that was cruel dear author.
i had trouble with seth's character. at first i just thought he's a bad friend, but he isn't? it's just the way he is? i don't know, but at times he was cruel. plus i got the impression that he might like barney? like romantically.
i did like addison & imani and raul though! they were amazing.
This entire review has been hidden because of spoilers.
June 14, 2024
I did not like this. I just could not buy into this relationship at all. The amount of times Gil commented on Barnaby's weight drove me nuts. We all got it; he's heavy, fat, pear-shaped, etc...It was really starting to get on my nerves.
Not to mention, Seth. God that guy was awful. And the way he talked to Barnaby in public was disgusting.
The first half of this book is pretty much sex. They don't really know each other. The last part of the book is all the relationship issues, mental health issues, etc.
I also had a hard time figuring out who's POV we were getting. I felt like the style of writing was constantly changing throughout the book which also made it hard to read.
This one just didn't work for me.
Not to mention, Seth. God that guy was awful. And the way he talked to Barnaby in public was disgusting.
The first half of this book is pretty much sex. They don't really know each other. The last part of the book is all the relationship issues, mental health issues, etc.
I also had a hard time figuring out who's POV we were getting. I felt like the style of writing was constantly changing throughout the book which also made it hard to read.
This one just didn't work for me.
April 10, 2023
The actual hottest thing ever, I have never feel smut like this omfg.🔥🔥
January 6, 2021
I'm torn with this book because I love the premise and the characters involved but I really struggled to get into the story and occasionally found myself questioning something.
Barnaby and Gil stumble into this non relationship of sex and a budding friendship that over time develops into more but Gil's past stops him from seeing a future. They are ridiculously sweet and hot together, especially as they explore their kinks but there is definitely a dark moment or two to watch out for, especially when it comes to mental health. I love how Gil is so adoring towards Barnaby's size and innocence and Barnaby returns that with his openness and willingness to follow Gil's lead as the more experienced man.
One thing I didn't like was Barnaby's friend and roommate, Seth. He is really not nice to Barnaby the majority of the time yet B is grateful for his friendship. I was also surprised with how the book ended. I was expecting to turn the page and continue but it just, stopped. For me, the story overall wasn't an easy one to fall into, grabbing my attention. It was more one that I had to work to finish, though I am happy I did with the way the MC's had their ending together.
I think I would recommend this and say to give it a go as the story is really good and I enjoyed the characters.
I received an ARC and am happily giving a review.
Barnaby and Gil stumble into this non relationship of sex and a budding friendship that over time develops into more but Gil's past stops him from seeing a future. They are ridiculously sweet and hot together, especially as they explore their kinks but there is definitely a dark moment or two to watch out for, especially when it comes to mental health. I love how Gil is so adoring towards Barnaby's size and innocence and Barnaby returns that with his openness and willingness to follow Gil's lead as the more experienced man.
One thing I didn't like was Barnaby's friend and roommate, Seth. He is really not nice to Barnaby the majority of the time yet B is grateful for his friendship. I was also surprised with how the book ended. I was expecting to turn the page and continue but it just, stopped. For me, the story overall wasn't an easy one to fall into, grabbing my attention. It was more one that I had to work to finish, though I am happy I did with the way the MC's had their ending together.
I think I would recommend this and say to give it a go as the story is really good and I enjoyed the characters.
I received an ARC and am happily giving a review.
December 13, 2020
Maybe I'm biased because I've read this, like, over a dozen times now and have seen it go through multiple stages of edits. And also because I'm, like, obsessed with Dear Evan Hansen. But this book is absolutely amazing. I'll do a more detailed review soon. But I highly recommend this if you like books with BDSM, a great plot and amazing characters.
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March 9, 2021DNF @ 30%
Sometimes a book is so good, you can overlook a few editorial mistakes. And sometimes you get a book like this. The writing is not at all good, the stylistic choices are suspect and the editing MIA. Move along folks, there’s literally nothing to fawn over here.
Sometimes a book is so good, you can overlook a few editorial mistakes. And sometimes you get a book like this. The writing is not at all good, the stylistic choices are suspect and the editing MIA. Move along folks, there’s literally nothing to fawn over here.
October 9, 2021
"I'm fawned of you."
I had a feeling I was going to love this book and it definitely grabbed me, i adored Barnaby and Gil from start to finish. The writing style was unexpected, the story hits the ground running without any build up. Still I enjoyed the fast pace and how each chapter jumped to another scene, the realisations over time as feelings grow and learn about each other.
There is a lot of steam and yet I was never bored, as each scene was rather unique while they learn their kinks and find what works for them together. I liked how they explored everything as a pair and communication was great for majority, made sense with their friends with benefits situation and secrets.
"I like the way you think." I like the way you exist.
All of their interactions are wonderful and its the moments outside of the bedroom that feel truly start to learn who they're. The bowling, haunted house, costumes and shopping together were such beautiful moments. See how they fit together and feelings develop, just really sweet how they compliment each other.
"I want to try, I want to know what it's like. I want to know you, good and bad, and trust you to get to know me."
The angst hits hard in the last few chapters as they finally learn more about each of their past and struggles. Mental health discussions, anxiety and autism rep are all mentioned in detail. As they talk about their emotions and decide they still want to be together, despite all the risks and their fears for the future.
Overall I had an amazing time reading Barnaby and Gils story, their romance isn't perfect and yet somehow they work together. The ending is perfectly them 💕
Be aware of content warnings mentioned at start of book for: Self harm, suicidal ideation and implied suicide attempt.
I had a feeling I was going to love this book and it definitely grabbed me, i adored Barnaby and Gil from start to finish. The writing style was unexpected, the story hits the ground running without any build up. Still I enjoyed the fast pace and how each chapter jumped to another scene, the realisations over time as feelings grow and learn about each other.
There is a lot of steam and yet I was never bored, as each scene was rather unique while they learn their kinks and find what works for them together. I liked how they explored everything as a pair and communication was great for majority, made sense with their friends with benefits situation and secrets.
"I like the way you think." I like the way you exist.
All of their interactions are wonderful and its the moments outside of the bedroom that feel truly start to learn who they're. The bowling, haunted house, costumes and shopping together were such beautiful moments. See how they fit together and feelings develop, just really sweet how they compliment each other.
"I want to try, I want to know what it's like. I want to know you, good and bad, and trust you to get to know me."
The angst hits hard in the last few chapters as they finally learn more about each of their past and struggles. Mental health discussions, anxiety and autism rep are all mentioned in detail. As they talk about their emotions and decide they still want to be together, despite all the risks and their fears for the future.
Overall I had an amazing time reading Barnaby and Gils story, their romance isn't perfect and yet somehow they work together. The ending is perfectly them 💕
Be aware of content warnings mentioned at start of book for: Self harm, suicidal ideation and implied suicide attempt.
October 20, 2022
Liked the beginning and then it got worse and worse. Not only did the relationship feel kind of toxic and manipulating in the End, the Story also made less and less sense. And I felt really really weird about the scene at the end, where B. Is fed even though he is full 😱💀("To get to feel him fattening up, rounding out?" And "stuffing him till he was immobilized" ... wtf)
May 2, 2024
Rounded up from 3.5⭐
This book had so much more heart than I initially thought it was capable of. But the growth of these two is really well written.
My only criticism of the story is that it was a bit longer then it needed to be. I found myself tuning out at points. This book could have benefited by being 100 pages shorter. But it's still worth my time to read.
This book had so much more heart than I initially thought it was capable of. But the growth of these two is really well written.
My only criticism of the story is that it was a bit longer then it needed to be. I found myself tuning out at points. This book could have benefited by being 100 pages shorter. But it's still worth my time to read.
January 8, 2021
I loved this story so much. I ended up purchasing the e-book because I felt this need to read it asap. Boy, am I glad I did. Bee and Gil are not only adorable and awkward, they are sexy together. Their chemistry is off the charts.
What starts off as a one night stand morphs into a consensual D/s petplay relationship, then morphs into more. One of the things I really liked about this story, was that the main characters' relationship growth felt natural. So many relationships today start off sexual and turn into something else. I could tell the author purposely chose the flow of their relationship to unfold at this pace for a reason. Gil is a sexual being and uses sex as a distraction. So sex comes easily to him. Yet, something about Bee makes him keep coming back for more. We as the readers discover things about Gil at the same pace as Bee.
This whole story was written with passion and thought. The characters have so much depth that we as the readers only begin to scratch at. I was intrigued to learn more about my chubby little fawn and his black haired raven.
Speaking of fawns and ravens, I loved the way the book was narrated. It takes place in third person POV and bounces between both main characters. The narration reads like a steamy romcom with a light whimsical element. And even though I mostly got adorably awkward yet sexy feels from this story, it also has a serious darker element towards the end as it addresses some serious situations. (See Trigger warnings in the blurb or below.)
As for the ending I loved that these two book baes got their happily ever after. I am even happier with the author for having a realistic ending. Both of these characters struggle with real life issues and just because they are in love, those issues won't magically go away. Both of the characters and the reader understands that dynamic by the end, and realizes that your loved one/partner is not supposed to wait until you are "fixed" to be with you, but instead will be there for you when you need them most.
Overall I am so happy I discovered this author. I really hope he continues to write in this universe because I am extremely intrigued about Bee's roommate, Seth, who I think has more to his story than what we have read, and just needs to find someone to open up to. And of course Raul sounds sexy as hell. (So please please please write more.)
**Content Warning: includes situations involving self-harm, suicidal ideation, and implied suicide attempt**
18+ readers only. This is a steamy adult read with light BDSM and Petplay that is actually quite adorable.
What starts off as a one night stand morphs into a consensual D/s petplay relationship, then morphs into more. One of the things I really liked about this story, was that the main characters' relationship growth felt natural. So many relationships today start off sexual and turn into something else. I could tell the author purposely chose the flow of their relationship to unfold at this pace for a reason. Gil is a sexual being and uses sex as a distraction. So sex comes easily to him. Yet, something about Bee makes him keep coming back for more. We as the readers discover things about Gil at the same pace as Bee.
This whole story was written with passion and thought. The characters have so much depth that we as the readers only begin to scratch at. I was intrigued to learn more about my chubby little fawn and his black haired raven.
Speaking of fawns and ravens, I loved the way the book was narrated. It takes place in third person POV and bounces between both main characters. The narration reads like a steamy romcom with a light whimsical element. And even though I mostly got adorably awkward yet sexy feels from this story, it also has a serious darker element towards the end as it addresses some serious situations. (See Trigger warnings in the blurb or below.)
As for the ending I loved that these two book baes got their happily ever after. I am even happier with the author for having a realistic ending. Both of these characters struggle with real life issues and just because they are in love, those issues won't magically go away. Both of the characters and the reader understands that dynamic by the end, and realizes that your loved one/partner is not supposed to wait until you are "fixed" to be with you, but instead will be there for you when you need them most.
Overall I am so happy I discovered this author. I really hope he continues to write in this universe because I am extremely intrigued about Bee's roommate, Seth, who I think has more to his story than what we have read, and just needs to find someone to open up to. And of course Raul sounds sexy as hell. (So please please please write more.)
**Content Warning: includes situations involving self-harm, suicidal ideation, and implied suicide attempt**
18+ readers only. This is a steamy adult read with light BDSM and Petplay that is actually quite adorable.
November 30, 2020
Rating: 4/5 Penguins
Quick Reasons: diverse read/characters; SUPER CUTE stomach-flapping butterflies!; they're both such adorable, faltering, awkward characters; love the healthy, educational BDSM dynamic; LGBTQ+ !
HUGE thanks to Winter Prior and Rockstar Book Tours for sending a free galley copy of this title my way in exchange for an honest review! This in no way altered my read of or opinions on this book.
And MY, OH MY, what an absolutely adorable, butterfly-inducing read this was! So let's start small and work to the big stuff, hmmm?
These characters are so vibrant and full of life. I really adored how awkward and faltering they both are, especially in the very beginning of figuring out their dynamic. Their conversations had me giggling, mostly at the memories of how awkward I AM in social situations, especially when trying to meet someone new that I kinda sorta maybe like.
The BDSM dynamic also added a layer to this that I both was and wasn't expecting. I WAS, because...it's very clearly in the blurb of the book. But what I wasn't expecting, was for it to be portrayed in such a healthy, safe, and educational way. I really dig how much time and effort Winter Prior put in to making sure it was not written off lightly, or in any way problematic. This helped to more fully immerse me in the experience, I feel. The inclusion of the LGBTQ+ community, on top of that, was the ICING on the cake for me--representation matters, and this was representation done SO, SO right!
This read was enjoyable, informative, and thought-provoking, and I am SO glad to have been part of the journey--and to be able to share my thoughts, now, with you all! The characters are endearing and believable, the read was quick and heart-fluttering, and I cannot recommend this enough. If you're seeking a quirky, LGBTQ+ friendly, kink-driven read--look no further! You will absolutely fawn over FAWNED, Penguins, so pick it up!
Quick Reasons: diverse read/characters; SUPER CUTE stomach-flapping butterflies!; they're both such adorable, faltering, awkward characters; love the healthy, educational BDSM dynamic; LGBTQ+ !
HUGE thanks to Winter Prior and Rockstar Book Tours for sending a free galley copy of this title my way in exchange for an honest review! This in no way altered my read of or opinions on this book.
And MY, OH MY, what an absolutely adorable, butterfly-inducing read this was! So let's start small and work to the big stuff, hmmm?
These characters are so vibrant and full of life. I really adored how awkward and faltering they both are, especially in the very beginning of figuring out their dynamic. Their conversations had me giggling, mostly at the memories of how awkward I AM in social situations, especially when trying to meet someone new that I kinda sorta maybe like.
The BDSM dynamic also added a layer to this that I both was and wasn't expecting. I WAS, because...it's very clearly in the blurb of the book. But what I wasn't expecting, was for it to be portrayed in such a healthy, safe, and educational way. I really dig how much time and effort Winter Prior put in to making sure it was not written off lightly, or in any way problematic. This helped to more fully immerse me in the experience, I feel. The inclusion of the LGBTQ+ community, on top of that, was the ICING on the cake for me--representation matters, and this was representation done SO, SO right!
This read was enjoyable, informative, and thought-provoking, and I am SO glad to have been part of the journey--and to be able to share my thoughts, now, with you all! The characters are endearing and believable, the read was quick and heart-fluttering, and I cannot recommend this enough. If you're seeking a quirky, LGBTQ+ friendly, kink-driven read--look no further! You will absolutely fawn over FAWNED, Penguins, so pick it up!
February 12, 2022
Really not sure how to rate this one and not sure who I would recommend it to. I guess I'll go for 2.5 and round up - There is a LOT going on in the book. Some of it I found really intriguing, but the writing style often wasn’t my favorite (a lot of 'the other man' 'the blond' the brunet' instead of using character names, which irks me. Use of 'the boy' and 'the man' for this pairing of two college aged students who are maybe a year or two apart in age seemed . . . odd. I guess it's indicative of the power relationship between them?) It’s also paced somewhat unusually, and I’m glad to hear there is a sequel, because I think I’m going to need it to determine how I feel about these characters and their relationship.
The first 60% is the two MCs hooking up, deciding to meet regularly, and developing a friends with benefits relationship. It’s told mostly from the POV of the less experienced character, Barnaby, who is also revealed to have autism. (I say it like that bc it is not made clear for a while.) Barnaby is depicted as easily overwhelmed and very emotional, and we can see how much his relationship with Gil means to him, and we can surmise that Gil is also feeling more for Barnaby than he planned to.
Gil is obviously more mysterious, we don't get much from his pov, but we learn he has depression and has self-harmed. It gets pretty dark in the last part of the book, and there is some talk about suicide, and I'm not sure about the dual messages of 'finding someone to grow with' and 'be dependent on me, if it means you won't kill yourself.' I'd say it does have a shaky HFN, but the N is very 'this moment'.
The first 60% is the two MCs hooking up, deciding to meet regularly, and developing a friends with benefits relationship. It’s told mostly from the POV of the less experienced character, Barnaby, who is also revealed to have autism. (I say it like that bc it is not made clear for a while.) Barnaby is depicted as easily overwhelmed and very emotional, and we can see how much his relationship with Gil means to him, and we can surmise that Gil is also feeling more for Barnaby than he planned to.
Gil is obviously more mysterious, we don't get much from his pov, but we learn he has depression and has self-harmed. It gets pretty dark in the last part of the book, and there is some talk about suicide, and I'm not sure about the dual messages of 'finding someone to grow with' and 'be dependent on me, if it means you won't kill yourself.' I'd say it does have a shaky HFN, but the N is very 'this moment'.
This entire review has been hidden because of spoilers.
February 22, 2021
Good, but odd
While I mostly enjoyed reading Fawned, it ended up being a little more on the odd side than the good side. I liked that it’s two college age men exploring kink together as friends with benefits that turns into more. One of the characters is fat, and the rep is mostly positive. It also addresses mental illness.
But the odd aspects overshadow the positive for me. The narration is strange. The characters refer to themselves and others in the third person. The raven/the blonde/the burnet/the boy/the man where all used. In a way it helped better know who was being referred to, but it was a little jarring and reminded me of GOT and Arya in the Hall of Faces, plus the obvious raven overlap.
Then apparently Barnaby is autistic, but it’s only mentioned twice and once in an insulting way. This could have been developed more. Or mentioned more than twice.
Barnaby’s roommate is supposed to be his friend, but on page he’s just plain mean to Barnaby. It’s never addressed and I wonder why they are even friends.
The ending sorta killed the good vibes I was having. There are hints of the relationship becoming a bit feederism, which made me question whether Gil was fetishizing Barnaby’s weight rather than simply accepting him. Also that final gift. While the intent seems sweet it could literally have been anything else deer related and would have conveyed the same message.
Apparently I have thoughts based on the length of this review. I think it’s going to stick with me for a while, and maybe not in a good way.
While I mostly enjoyed reading Fawned, it ended up being a little more on the odd side than the good side. I liked that it’s two college age men exploring kink together as friends with benefits that turns into more. One of the characters is fat, and the rep is mostly positive. It also addresses mental illness.
But the odd aspects overshadow the positive for me. The narration is strange. The characters refer to themselves and others in the third person. The raven/the blonde/the burnet/the boy/the man where all used. In a way it helped better know who was being referred to, but it was a little jarring and reminded me of GOT and Arya in the Hall of Faces, plus the obvious raven overlap.
Then apparently Barnaby is autistic, but it’s only mentioned twice and once in an insulting way. This could have been developed more. Or mentioned more than twice.
Barnaby’s roommate is supposed to be his friend, but on page he’s just plain mean to Barnaby. It’s never addressed and I wonder why they are even friends.
The ending sorta killed the good vibes I was having. There are hints of the relationship becoming a bit feederism, which made me question whether Gil was fetishizing Barnaby’s weight rather than simply accepting him. Also that final gift. While the intent seems sweet it could literally have been anything else deer related and would have conveyed the same message.
Apparently I have thoughts based on the length of this review. I think it’s going to stick with me for a while, and maybe not in a good way.
January 30, 2021
I, sadly, was not as “fawned” of this as I thought I would be. The puns were cute. The characters were realistic and relatable. The kink was fun.
I was on board until the ending, although even in the beginning I had issues. The relationship seems very one sided because we hear so much from Barnaby and so little from Gil. He’s constantly telling Barnaby how good he is and how much he likes what they do, but I just wasn’t sure. I wish we had more from Gil’s point of view.
Then we hit the second half of the book. SPOILER - there’s relationship angst late in the book before the characters decide they’ll have a relationship. Then it’s like a giant info dump on Gil, and I wish we had that earlier. Then they decide to try a relationship as two people who are aware they have issues, and the reader feels sort of hopeful. Then Gil starts over-feeding Barnaby, like more than once, and it’s like wow, ok, we are heading into some really unhealthy relationship behaviors here. And then it just ends. Is it an HEA? No. Is it an HFN? Most people would say yes. To me, it felt very unfinished, and I’m actually really worried for the characters. That’s not where I want to be when I finish a book.
Final thoughts - feels like part one of a series? It is well-written, realistic, but somewhat disturbing to me, and I wish I hadn’t read it (especially if this is the end for these characters and no more books are coming).
I was on board until the ending, although even in the beginning I had issues. The relationship seems very one sided because we hear so much from Barnaby and so little from Gil. He’s constantly telling Barnaby how good he is and how much he likes what they do, but I just wasn’t sure. I wish we had more from Gil’s point of view.
Then we hit the second half of the book. SPOILER - there’s relationship angst late in the book before the characters decide they’ll have a relationship. Then it’s like a giant info dump on Gil, and I wish we had that earlier. Then they decide to try a relationship as two people who are aware they have issues, and the reader feels sort of hopeful. Then Gil starts over-feeding Barnaby, like more than once, and it’s like wow, ok, we are heading into some really unhealthy relationship behaviors here. And then it just ends. Is it an HEA? No. Is it an HFN? Most people would say yes. To me, it felt very unfinished, and I’m actually really worried for the characters. That’s not where I want to be when I finish a book.
Final thoughts - feels like part one of a series? It is well-written, realistic, but somewhat disturbing to me, and I wish I hadn’t read it (especially if this is the end for these characters and no more books are coming).
January 8, 2021
This is both adorable and freaking sexy, these two are polar opposites, so far apart it's amazing they ever got together. Gil is a bit of a sex slut, Barnaby is a shy, nervous virgin, but somehow they clicked. My heart melted for Barnaby at the start, he was so very nervous and stuttering but he was determined to lose his virginity. Gil takes a liking to this shy, slight chubby, young man and he gently coaxes him into experimenting, it doesn't take long for shy Barnaby to get into these little sexy games, albeit shyly. There is animal play here, which I don't usually like, but here it came across as kind of cute. But there is something dark about Gil, he is, at times funny and sexy, then he's mysterious and moody but Barnaby can't help falling more and more under his spell. Great story, good paced plot, some angst and an ending that leaves you wondering.
December 3, 2020
I think the concept of this story is cute and interesting, but it just isn't for me. I don't know if it's the formatting of the ARC I got or if I'm over the whole BDSM stuff or that I despite being 35% of the way through the story, I didn't have a good sense of the characters' backstories. Plus, sometimes the author would change narrators mid-way through the chapter and I couldn't figure out who was narrating. Especially since sometimes it would be the character's names and other times it would be the pet names and I was just confused through a lot of this story.
I think this story has a lot of potential and I think me having an unformatted ARC could have gotten in the way of me being about to get the full picture.
I think this story has a lot of potential and I think me having an unformatted ARC could have gotten in the way of me being about to get the full picture.
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