Clandestine by James Ellroy. The author notes, “I wrote Clandestine in 1980. I was working as a caddy at Bel-Air Country Club in L.A. and chasing a woman attending law school. It was my second novel. I was a hard-working mother fucker back in 1980. I packed golf bags six days a week and wrote all seven nights. I wrote Clandestine in eight months. It’s my first attempt to fictionally address the murder of my own mother. It’s a wildly personal novel and very much the period forerunner of my L.A. Quartet. I had a blast writing Clandestine. I think it shows. I hope it transports you back to 1951”
Frederick Underhill. “During the dark, cold winter of 1951 I worked Wilshire Patrol, played a lot of golf, and sought out the company of lonely women for one-night stands. Nostalgia victimizes the unknowing by instilling in them a desire for a simplicity and innocence they can never achieve. The fifties weren’t a more innocent time. The dark salients that govern life today were there then, only they were harder to find.” … “My patrol partner was Wacky Walker. He was five years my senior, with the same amount of time in the department. With Wacky it was poetry, wonder, and golf; with me it was women, wonder, and golf. “Wonder” meant the same thing to both of us: the job, the streets, the people, and the mutable ethos of we who had to deal daily with drunks, hopheads, gunsels, wienie waggers, hookers, reefer smokers, burglars, and the unnamed lonely detritus of the human race.” … “Wacky would lead me to the door, shake my hand warmly, and retire back to his living room to drink and write poetry. Leaving me, Frederick Upton Underhill, twenty-six-year-old outsized crew-cut cop, on his doorstep contemplating nightfall and neon and what I could do about it in what I would later know to be the last season of my youth. … When my rapacious ambition thrust me into a brutal labyrinth of death and shame and betrayal in 1951, it was only my beginning.”
Take the Night Train. “Wacky and I entered the locker room we couldn’t believe our eyes. Reuben, in his Jockey shorts, was twisting all around, blasting out the wild first notes of “Night Train” while the fat black Lab writhed on his back on the concrete floor, yipping, yowling, and shooting a tremendous stream of urine straight up into the air.” … “Wacky named the dog “Night Train” and took him home with him. He serenaded the dog for weeks with saxophone music on his phonograph and fed him steak, all in the fruitless hope of turning him into a caddy. Finally Wacky gave up, decided that Night Train was a free spirit, and cut him loose.”
On the Course. “well-aided by Wacky’s superb green reads and the club selections and yardage calls of our short-dog–sucking wino caddy, “Dirt Road” Dave. “Hey, hey, shit, shit,” Dave would say. “Play a soft seven and knock it down short of the green. It breaks left to right off the mound. Hey, hey, shit, shit.” Dave fascinated me: he was both sullen and colloquial, dirty and proud, with an air of supreme nonchalance undercut by terrified blue eyes. Somehow, I wanted his knowledge.” … “ Dirt Road Dave let my bag fall to the grass at my feet, then he spat. “I know you’re a smart-mouth young cop. I know that’s a roscoe and handcuffs under your sweater. I know the kind of things you guys do that you think people don’t know about. I know guys like you die hungry.” His finality was awesome.”
The Wonder. It was awesome and filled with lonely wonder. I took Lorna’s hand and kissed it. “You know the wonder, Lorna,” I said. “What’s the wonder?” “I don’t know, just the wonderful elliptical, mysterious stuff that we’re never going to know completely.” Lorna nodded. She knew. “And that’s why you’re a cop?” “Exactly.” … “But I want justice. The wonder is for artists and writers and other creative people. Their vision gives us the compassion to face our own lives and treat other people decently, because we know how imperfect the world is. But I want justice. I want specifics. I want to be able to look at the people I send to court and say, ‘He’s guilty”
LAPD Homicide Lt. Smith [Demonic Dudley]. “Freddy, lad,” Dudley hailed. “Top of the morning!” “Good morning, skipper, good morning, Dick,” I said. “Underhill,” Carlisle said, blank-faced. “Well, lad, are you ready?” “Yes.” “All right, then. Grand. Mike?” “Ready, Dudley. “Dick?” “Ready, boss.” … “My heart was beating very fast and I kept stealing sidelong glances at Dudley. His tiny brown eyes were glazed over with something that went far beyond acting. This was the real Dudley Smith.” … “Dudley’s got pals on the Gardena force—they’ll leave us alone.” I smiled, again warming to Dudley Smith as a pragmatic wonder broker. “What are you and Mike going to do?” “Mike’s going to take it all down in shorthand, then edit it after Engels confesses. He’s a whiz. I’m going to play bad guy along with Dudley.” “What if he doesn’t confess?” “He’ll confess,”
Lorna. “The very prototype of love’s efficacy: if it doesn’t work, try something else. If that doesn’t work, try something else again. If that fails, review your options and search out your errors. Just keep going, Freddy” … “For the first time I felt my marriage vows begin to impinge me. I began to feel that I couldn’t ever be the man Lorna wanted me to be. And for the first time I didn’t care, because the Lorna of 1955 was not the Lorna I married in 1951. I started to get itchy to break the whole thing up, to blow it all sky high”
Thus Freddie proceeds to “blow it all sky high” in search of the wonder, redemption and getting things right.